Authors: Ryan David Jahn
Tags: #Thrillers, #Psychological, #Literary, #Mystery & Detective, #Suspense
He takes another drag from his cigarette and follows that with another swig of coffee. He wishes a man could live on cigarettes and coffee. If he could live on just that he’d never eat
nothing else ever again. Except maybe the occasional donut. A man without a sweet tooth is a man who might as well hang himself in his coat closet, because he don’t know what life is for.
The Sheriff’s Department ain’t gonna be happy about one of their own getting killed in an accident, but so long as it is an accident there won’t be much they can do.
It’ll just be one of those tragedies that no one could have predicted. They’ll put a flag on his coffin and shoot some rifles at the clouds and call it a day.
He watches the sheriff’s car pull out of the driveway, just a toy at this distance, and turn toward him. He puts his truck into gear, eases off the clutch. The truck jerks and rolls out
into the street, rumbling like the great metal beast it is. As he picks up speed, he slurps down the rest of his coffee and tosses the mug aside. It bounces off the seat and clunks to the
floorboard, clattering against the litter lying there – another mug, a Mason jar lined with black mold, a few nuts and washers, loose paperwork, a red brick. He takes a final drag from his
cigarette, sucking the smoke deep into his lungs, and tosses it out the window. He waves the smoke from his eyes, wipes his greasy forehead with the back of a wrist, grips the wheel in both
hands.
It’s time to earn his money.
The deputy’s car is only three quarters of a mile away and the distance is closing.
He shifts into second, then third. He checks his rearview mirror. No one behind him, the road is clear. This is good, better than good. It’s necessary.
As the deputy’s car approaches Fred yanks his steering wheel left, into the oncoming lane. The car’s horn honks. Fred can barely hear it over the rumble of his truck’s engine,
like a goat’s dumb bleat.
He shifts into fourth gear.
Now the two vehicles are less than a quarter mile apart. Fred’s speedometer claims the truck is going just under fifty. Add in the speed of the deputy’s vehicle and that should be
plenty.
Another bleat from the deputy’s car.
Then it swerves into the lane his truck should be occupying. This is just what Fred was hoping for. Deputy was trying to pass another car, see, swerved into his lane, and he couldn’t help
but run straight into him. He was coming right at me, officer, what the hell could I do? Run myself off the road? Get myself kilt?
Just as the vehicles are about ready to fly past each other, Fred jerks his steering wheel to the right. Hard.
3
Sandy sits in the passenger’s seat and looks down at his right hand as the deputy pulls the car from the driveway and into the street. His middle finger is still swollen
and purple. The swelling makes it difficult to bend. He pushes the bruised finger against the armrest. It hurts, but he likes the hurt. It reminds him of what he did to that boy.
‘What the hell is this guy doing?’
Sandy looks up at the deputy. The deputy is squinting at the windshield, confusion on his face. Sandy looks out the windshield and sees a large barn-red truck approaching them. It’s in
their lane, and seems to him that it’s leaning toward them as it rushes forward.
The deputy honks his horn.
The truck continues toward them, straight and steady, as if it were on tracks, and rather than slowing down appears to be gaining speed.
Sandy watches it with his mouth open. He doesn’t feel afraid. He feels instead a strange exhilaration. He unconsciously grinds his bruised finger against the armrest. They’re going
to crash. He’s sure of it. He’s sure, too, that the man in the truck means for it to happen. He must.
The deputy honks the horn again, then, when the truck continues undeterred, changes lanes, yanking the wheel to the left.
‘Fine, you stupid son of a bitch,’ he says, ‘we’ll trade lanes.’
Sandy watches the truck. It continues on its path. He was wrong. They aren’t going to crash. The two vehicles are going to pass without incident. It’s almost too late for anything
else to happen. But something else does happen. The truck makes a hard turn toward them, leading with its rusty grille, and Sandy can see the face of the driver behind dirty glass, a fat face with
a scraggly beard and yellow teeth revealed in a grimace or grin and black porcine eyes.
For a moment the world freezes.
Somewhere a feather floats gently to the earth.
Then an explosion of noise, like being inside a thunderclap. Sandy’s body is thrown forward, then to the side. The deputy makes a frightened animal noise. Something smashes against
Sandy’s face. His shoulder twists with pain. The world spins, then flips upside down, all the trees now rooted in the green sky.
Sandy falls to the roof of the car.
The car wobbles. There’s a crinkling sound and the weight of it shrinks the distance between the roof and the seats. Windows explode from the pressure.
He looks toward the deputy.
The deputy is standing on his shoulders, his neck bent at a strange angle, his feet caught under the crushed steering wheel. He groans and flecks of teeth crumble from his mouth and run down his
cheek toward his eyes on a tide of mucus and blood.
Sandy lies on the roof of the car, dazed. He’s too much in shock to know how badly he’s hurt, or whether he’s hurt at all.
So he simply lies there.
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Fred leans down to the floorboard on the passenger’s side of his truck and grabs a red brick. He doesn’t know how it got there, but he’s glad he has it now.
He has to make sure the folks in the deputy’s car are dead, and it seems to him the damage he does with a brick will look an awful lot like something that might have happened in a car
accident, so with it gripped in his meaty fist he steps from the truck and walks toward the deputy’s car, which is upside down on the side of the road.
The wheels still spin. A dripping sound comes from somewhere. A groan.
‘Is everybody all right in there?’
Another groan.
Fred walks around the car. He leans down and looks in through the shattered side window. A sheriff’s deputy hangs upside-down, legs pinned in under the dashboard, drool and blood running
from his mouth and into his eyes, into his hair. Pieces of windshield jut from his face. His mouth looks like a saw blade, teeth jagged.
‘You all right there, fella? You look an awful mess.’ The deputy manages, despite the angle of his neck, to turn toward Fred. He groans pleadingly, desperation clearly audible
despite the lack of any actual words.
‘Don’t you worry,’ Fred says. ‘I’ll make it stop.’ He brings the brick down hard into the deputy’s face. There’s a strange two-stage wet sound,
like something heavy breaking through a thin sheet of ice, then splashing into the liquid below. The deputy tries to scream, chokes on his own blood, and sprays a mouthful of it. He puts his arm
out to block Fred, or to push him away, or to punch him, Fred can’t tell which, but the arm is broken, seems to have developed an extra elbow, and its movement is strange and somehow
inhuman.
‘Don’t do that,’ Fred says. ‘It only makes it sad.’
He brings the brick down again, and again. And again.
Finally, the deputy stops moving.
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Sandy knows he’s next, knows it without a doubt, and knowing it he knows too there’s but one thing for him to do: run. The problem is this. He feels lightheaded and
sick and isn’t sure he could walk, forget running. But he thinks he’s going to have to try, because what’s the alternative? Lie here and wait to have his brains bashed in?
Let’s just call the whole thing off. No, he won’t do that. He’s gonna have to run. He’s gonna have to try. And he’s gonna have to move now, right now, because the man
outside the car is getting to his feet, is walking around the vehicle toward him, his feet grinding against shattered glass, and he has a bloody brick gripped in his fist, a brick he’s
already used to kill the deputy.
Then Sandy sees the deputy’s revolver.
It lies on the roof of the car surrounded by blood and shattered glass and broken bits of plastic. It’s black. It has a wooden grip. He isn’t sure he knows how to shoot it,
he’s never fired a real gun before, but it seems to him it offers a better chance than running. It seems to him it offers a much better chance.
He wraps his hand around the grip.
‘What d’you got in mind for that thing?’
Sandy turns toward his window.
The killer sits on his haunches, looking at him, the brick he killed the deputy with gripped in his fat hand. A long string of blood hangs from it, thick as snot.
‘Were you gonna shoot me with that thing?’
Sandy doesn’t respond. He swallows. His throat is dry.
‘How old are you?’
Sandy knows he needs to respond. Every second he can keep this man talking is a second he remains alive. But the words don’t want to leave his mouth. He feels trapped in an unresponsive
body.
Finally, though, he makes himself speak: ‘Thirteen.’
‘Thirteen years old. What did you do that someone wants you dead?’
‘I,’ he swallows again, licks his chapped lips, ‘I don’t know.’
‘That’s a shame.’
The killer moves in toward him, and he swings the gun around and aims it at the man’s face. He thumbs back the hammer, having to push down with both thumbs to make it click the way
he’s seen in movies. It’s more difficult than you’d think. The cylinder rotates a notch. The metal trigger is cool beneath his finger.
‘You got some fight in you, kid. I respect that. But I got no time to fuck around.’
He reaches for the gun.
Sandy pulls the trigger.
The gun kicks hard, almost causing him to punch himself in the face with it. Flame shoots from the cylinder as well as the barrel, burning Sandy’s left hand, burning his index finger.
He’d expected it to be like the .22 rounds, but this was different, deafeningly loud and intense. He blinks, shocked.
The smile falls from the killer’s face. A moment later the rest of him falls too, tilts to the left and drops, hitting the moist earth like a burlap sack filled with potatoes.
Sandy crawls out of the car and gets to his feet. He looks down at the killer. The killer turns his head to look back at him, one eye opened, the other nothing but a black hole. He reaches for
Sandy’s leg, grabs his khaki pants, says please. Sandy pulls his leg from the killer’s grip and kicks the hand away.
He licks his lips, aims for a second shot.
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Fred isn’t sure why he can’t open his left eye, but knows he can’t. The world over there has vanished. But with his good eye he can see a small boy standing
over him. The gun in his right hand looks enormous, like a cannon. The boy looks down at him. There should be panic in his eyes, after everything that’s happened there should be panic in his
eyes, but there isn’t. There isn’t even pity there. There’s nothing in his eyes at all. It’s like someone turned off the switch. He reaches for the boy’s pants and
says please. He wants to make the boy understand what’s happening to him. The boy pulls his leg away, kicks Fred’s hand. He points the gun at Fred’s face. Fred cannot believe this
is how it happens. He simply cannot believe this is how it happens.
7
Once it’s finished Sandy tucks the gun into his pants. He turns and looks at the detention facility in the distance. He doesn’t ever want to go back there. He
won’t go back there. The deputy’s dead. This man who was trying to kill him, for reasons he doesn’t even understand, is also dead. Nothing is keeping him here. There’s no
reason to stay, but there are reasons not to. If he stays he’s in danger. Someone knew he was here and tried to kill him. They might try to kill him again. But if he’s going to get out
of here he needs to get out of here now. Another car is bound to come along soon.
He glances once more at the wreck on the side of the road, at the killer lying beside it, then turns and starts walking. He walks faster and faster until the walk becomes a run. Away from the
detention facility. Away from all of this. He knows the city is miles from here. He knows he’ll have to hitch a ride to get there. But he knows too that first he needs to get some distance
between himself and this wreckage. He needs to get some distance and he needs to get out of these clothes.
It feels good to run.
It feels good to draw great breaths of air.
It feels good to get away from the detention facility.
He doesn’t know what he’s going to do once he gets back to the city. He wants to go home. He wants to tell his mother he loves her and sleep beside her. But those are baby thoughts,
and he can’t afford to be a baby anymore. He knows he can’t go home, no matter how much he wants to.
He’s on his own now.
1
Carl stands naked over the bed for a moment and looks down at the sleeping woman who lies upon it. She’s on her side, one of her arms tucked beneath her pillow, the other
stretched across the bed as if feeling for the man who should be lying there. Her blonde hair is splayed across her pillow. Her eyes are closed, her lips slightly parted. The blankets were kicked
to the foot of the bed during the night, but she’s covered in a thin sheet to the waist. Her upper half is bare. Her small breasts hang slightly, the left resting in her armpit, the right
hanging toward the middle of her chest, which is marked by a small patch of freckles. Only hours ago his mouth was on those breasts, on that stomach, buried in the woman’s sex now hidden
beneath that sheet. It’s difficult to understand how it happened. But it did, and part of him is glad it did. Maybe most of him is glad. It felt strange and wonderful to be close to a woman
again. Several times while they made love he thought of his dead wife, and in the end he wasn’t able to orgasm, but that didn’t seem to be the point, neither for him nor for her. Being
close to another human being was the point. He slept the night through lying beside her. He slept with his back to her and she had her arms wrapped around him and he could feel her breasts pressed
against his back and her heart beating there as well like a small bird fluttering.