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Authors: Saul Black

The Killing Lessons

THE KILLING LESSONS
SAUL BLACK

Contents

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-Two

Chapter Twenty-Three

Chapter Twenty-Four

Chapter Twenty-Five

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Chapter Thirty

Chapter Thirty-One

Chapter Thirty-Two

Chapter Thirty-Three

Chapter Thirty-Four

Chapter Thirty-Five

Chapter Thirty-Six

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Chapter Forty

Chapter Forty-One

Chapter Forty-Two

Chapter Forty-Three

Chapter Forty-Four

Chapter Forty-Five

Chapter Forty-Six

Chapter Forty-Seven

Chapter Forty-Eight

Chapter Forty-Nine

Chapter Fifty

Chapter Fifty-One

Chapter Fifty-Two

Chapter Fifty-Three

Chapter Fifty-Four

Chapter Fifty-Five

Chapter Fifty-Six

Chapter Fifty-Seven

Chapter Fifty-Eight

Chapter Fifty-Nine

Chapter Sixty

Chapter Sixty-One

Chapter Sixty-Two

Chapter Sixty-Three

Chapter Sixty-Four

Chapter Sixty-Five

Chapter Sixty-Six

Chapter Sixty-Seven

Chapter Sixty-Eight

Chapter Sixty-Nine

Chapter Seventy

Chapter Seventy-One

Chapter Seventy-Two

Chapter Seventy-Three

Chapter Seventy-Four

Chapter Seventy-Five

Chapter Seventy-Six

Chapter Seventy-Seven

Chapter Seventy-Eight

Chapter Seventy-Nine

Chapter Eighty

Chapter Eighty-One

Chapter Eighty-Two

Chapter Eighty-Three

Chapter Eighty-Four

Chapter Eighty-Five

Chapter Eighty-Six

Chapter Eighty-Seven

Chapter Eighty-Eight

Chapter Eighty-Nine

Chapter Ninety

Chapter Ninety-One

Chapter Ninety-Two

Chapter Ninety-Three

Chapter Ninety-Four

Chapter Ninety-Five

Chapter Ninety-Six

Chapter Ninety-Seven

ONE

The instant Rowena Cooper stepped out of her warm, cookie-scented kitchen and saw the two men standing in her back hallway, snow melting from the rims of their boots, she knew exactly what this was: her own fault. Years of not locking doors and windows, of leaving the keys in the ignition, of not thinking anything like this was ever going to happen, years of feeling safe – it had all been a lie she’d been dumb enough to tell herself. Worse, a lie she’d been dumb enough to believe. Your whole life could turn out to be nothing but you waiting to meet your own giant stupidity. Because here she was, a mile from the nearest neighbour and three miles from town (Ellinson, Colorado, pop. 697), with a thirteen-year-old son upstairs and a ten-year-old daughter on the front porch and two men standing in her back hallway, one of them holding a shotgun, the other a long blade which even in the sheer drop of this moment made her think
machete
, though this was the first time she’d ever seen one outside the movies. The open door behind them showed heavy snow still hurrying down in the late afternoon, pretty against the dark curve of the forest. Christmas was five days away.

She had an overwhelming sense of the reality of her children. Josh lying on his unmade bed with his headphones on. Nell in her red North Face jacket standing watching the snow, dreamily working her way through the Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup she’d negotiated not ten minutes ago. It was as if there were an invisible nerve running from each of them to her, to her navel, her womb, her soul. This morning Nell had said: That guy Steven Tyler looks like a baboon. She came out with these pronouncements, apropos of nothing. Later, after breakfast, Rowena had overheard Josh say to Nell: Hey, see that? That’s your brain. ‘That’, Rowena had known, would be something like a cornflake or a booger. It was an ongoing competition between the two of them, to find small or unpleasant things and claim they were each other’s brains. She thought what a great gift to her it was that her children not only loved but cagily liked each other. She thought how full of great gifts her life was – while her body emptied and the space around her rushed her skin like a swarm of flies and she felt her dry mouth open, the scream coming…

don’t scream…

if Josh keeps quiet and Nell stays…

maybe just rape oh God…

whatever they…

the rifle…

The rifle was locked in the cupboard under the stairs and the key was on the bunch in her purse and her purse was on the bedroom floor and the bedroom floor was a long, long way away.

All you have to do is get through this. Whatever it takes to—

But the larger of the men took three paces forward and in what felt to Rowena like slow motion (she had time to smell stale sweat and wet leather and unwashed hair, to see the small dark eyes and big head, the pores around his nose) raised the butt of the shotgun and smashed it into her face.

Josh Cooper wasn’t lying on his bed but he did have his headphones on. He was sitting at his desk with the Squier Strat (used, eBay, $225, he’d had to put in the $50 his grandma had sent for his birthday three months back to swing it with his mom) plugged into its practice amp, labouring through a YouTube tutorial –
How to Play Led Zeppelin’s ‘The Rain Song’
– while trying not to think about the porno clip he’d seen at Mike Wainwright’s house three days ago, in which two women – an older redhead with green eyeshadow and a young blonde girl who looked like Sarah Michelle Gellar – mechanically licked each other’s private parts. Girl–girl sixty-nine, Mike had said, crisply. In a minute they go ass-to-ass. Josh hadn’t a clue what ‘ass-to-ass’ could possibly mean, but he knew, with thudding shame, that whatever it was he wanted to see it. Mike Wainwright was a year older and knew everything about sex, and his parents were so vague and flaky they hadn’t got around to putting a parental control on his PC. Unlike Josh’s own mom, who’d set one up as a condition of him even
having
a PC.

The memory of the two women had made him hard. Which was exactly what the guitar tutorial had been supposed to avoid. He didn’t want to have to jerk off. The feeling he got afterwards depressed him. A heaviness and boredom in his hands and face that put him in a lousy mood and made him snap at Nell and his mom.

He forced himself back to ‘The Rain Song’. The track had baffled him, until the Internet told him it wasn’t played in standard tuning. Once he’d retuned (D-G-C-G-C-D) the whole thing had opened out to him. There were a couple of tricky bastard reaches between chords in the intro, but that was just practice. In another week, he’d have it nailed.

Nell Cooper wasn’t on the porch. She was at the edge of the forest in deep snow watching a mule deer not twenty feet away. An adult female. Those big black eyes and the long lashes that looked fake. Twenty feet was about as close as you could get. Nell had been feeding this one for a couple of weeks, tossing it saved apple cores and handfuls of nuts and raisins sneaked from her mom’s baking cupboard. It knew her. She hadn’t named it. She didn’t talk to it. She preferred these quiet intense encounters.

She took her gloves off and went into her pocket for a half-eaten apple. Snowlight winked on the bracelet her mother had given her when she’d turned ten in May. A silver chain with a thin golden hare, running, in profile. It had been her great-grandmother’s, then her grandmother’s, then her mother’s, now hers. Rowena’s distant family on her maternal side had come out of Romania. Ancestral lore said there had been a whiff of witchcraft, far back, and that the hare was a charm for safe travel. Nell had always loved it. One of her earliest memories was of turning it on her mother’s wrist, sunlight glinting. The hare had a faraway life of its own, though its eye was nothing more than an almond-shaped hole in the gold. Nell hadn’t been expecting it, but on the evening of her birthday, long after the other gifts had been unwrapped, her mom had come into her room and fastened it around her left wrist. You’re old enough, now, she’d said. I’ve had the chain shortened. Wear it on your left so it won’t get in the way when you’re drawing. And not for school, OK? I don’t want you to lose it. Keep it for weekends and holidays. It had surprised Nell with a stab of love and sadness, her mother saying ‘you’re old enough’. It had made her
mother
seem old. And alone. It had, for both of them, brought Nell’s father’s absence back, sharply. The moment had filled Nell with tenderness for her mother, whom she realised with a terrible understanding had to do all the ordinary things – drive her and Josh to school, shop, cook dinner – with a sort of lonely bravery, because Nell’s father was gone.

It made her sad now, to think of it. She resolved to be more help around the house. She would try her best to do things without being asked.

The doe took a few dainty steps, nosed the spot where Nell’s apple core had landed – then lifted its head, suddenly alert, the too-big ears (they were
called
mule deer because of the ears) twitching with a whirr like a bird’s wing. Whatever the animal had heard, Nell hadn’t. To her the forest remained a big, soft, silent presence. (A neutral presence. Some things were on your side, some things were against you, some things were neither. The word is
neutral
, Josh had told her. And in any case you’re wrong: things are just things. They don’t have feelings. They don’t even know you exist. Josh had started coming out with this stuff, lately, though Nell didn’t for one minute believe he really meant it. Part of him was going away from her. Or rather he was forcing a part of himself to go away from her. Her mom had said: Just be patient with him, honey. It’s a puberty thing. Another few years, you’ll probably be worse than him.) The doe was tense, listening for something. Nell wondered if it was Old Mystery Guy from the cabin across the ravine.

Old Mystery Guy’s name, town gossip had revealed, was Angelo Greer. He’d shown up a week ago and moved into the derelict place over the bridge, a mile east of the Coopers’. There had been an argument with Sheriff Hurley, who’d said he didn’t care if the cabin
was
legally Mr Greer’s (he’d inherited it years ago when his father died), there was no way he was taking a vehicle over the bridge. The bridge wasn’t safe. The bridge had been closed, in fact, for more than two years. Not a priority repair, since the cabin was the only residence for twenty miles on that side of the ravine, and had been deserted for so long. Traffic crossing the Loop River used the highway bridge further south, to connect with the 40. In the end, Mr Greer had driven his car to the west side of the bridge and lugged his supplies across from there on foot. He shouldn’t be doing
that
, either, Sheriff Hurley had said, but it had gone no further. Nell hadn’t seen Mr Greer. She and Josh had been at school when he’d driven out past their house, but it couldn’t be much longer before he’d have to go back into town. According to her mom there wasn’t even a phone at the cabin. When Sadie Pinker had stopped by last week, Nell had overheard her say: What the hell is he
doing
out there? To which Rowena had replied: Christ knows. He walks with a stick. I don’t know how he’s going to manage. Maybe he’s out there looking for God.

Nell checked her pockets but all the nuts and raisins were gone. The doe sprang away.

A gunshot exploded in the house.

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