The Invisible Bridge (30 page)

Paul took a long draw of his cigarette and blew a gray cloud into the courtyard.

"I'm relieved, to tell you the truth," he said. "The secrecy was getting a little stifling. I'm wild about the girl, and I hate"--he seemed to search his mind for the French phrase--

"
sneaking around
. I like to be the guy in the white cowboy hat. Do you understand me?

Are you a fan of the American western?"

"I've seen a few," Andras said. "Dubbed in Hungarian, though."

Paul laughed. "I didn't know they did that."

"They

do."

"So you're here on a peace mission? You want to help us, now that you've mucked everything up?"

"Something like that. I'd like to act as a go-between. To earn Elisabet's trust again, if you will. I can't have her hate me forever. Not if her mother and I are going to keep seeing each other."

"What's the plan, then?"

"You can't pay a visit to Elisabet, but I can. I'm sure she'd want to hear from you.

I thought you might want to send a note."

"What if her mother finds out?"

"I plan to tell her," Andras said. "I predict she'll come around to you eventually."

Paul took a long American drag on his cigarette, seeming to consider the proposition. Then he said, "Listen to me, Levi. I'm serious about this girl. She's like no one else I know. I hope this isn't just going to make things worse."

"At the moment, I'm not sure they could get much worse."

Paul stubbed his cigarette against the marble step, then kicked it down into the dirt. "All right," he said. "Wait here. I'll go write a note." He got to his feet and offered Andras a hand up. Andras stood and waited, watching a pair of finches browse for seeds in a clump of lavender. He looked over his shoulder to make sure no one saw him, took out his pocketknife, and cut a sheaf of stems. A length of cotton string torn from the strap of his canvas satchel served to tie them. A few minutes later, Paul came downstairs with a kraft envelope in his hand.

"There's a note," Paul said, and handed it to him. "Good luck to us both."

"Here goes nothing,"
Andras said. His sole English phrase.

When he arrived the next day at noon, Klara was teaching a private student. It was Mrs. Apfel who opened the door. Her white apron was stained with purple juice, and she had a pair of bruised-looking moons under her eyes, as though she hadn't slept in days.

She gave Andras a tired frown; she seemed to expect nothing from him but more trouble.

"I'm here to see Elisabet," Andras said.

Mrs. Apfel shook her head. "You'd better go home."

"I'd like to speak to her," he said. "Her mother knows why I'm here."

"Elisabet won't see you. She's locked herself in her room. She won't come out.

Won't even eat."

"Let me try," Andras said. "It's important."

She knit her ginger-colored eyebrows. "Believe me, you don't want to try."

"Give me a tray for her. I'll take it in."

"You won't have any better luck than the rest of us," she said, but she turned and led him up the stairs. He followed her into the kitchen, where a fallen blueberry cake stood cooling on an iron rack. He stood over it and breathed its scent as Mrs. Apfel made an omelet for Elisabet. She cut a fat slice of the cake and set it on a plate with a square of butter.

"She hasn't eaten a thing in two days," Mrs. Apfel said. "We're going to have to get the doctor here before long."

"I'll see what I can do," Andras said. He took the tray and went down the hall to Elisabet's room, where he knocked the corner of the tray twice against the closed door.

From within, silence.

"Elisabet," he said. "It's Andras. I brought your lunch."

Silence.

He set the tray down in the hall, took Paul's envelope from his bag, pressed it flat, and slipped it under Elisabet's door. For a long while he heard nothing. Then a faint scraping, as though she were drawing the note closer. He listened for the rustle of paper.

There it was. More silence followed. Finally she opened the door, and he stepped in and set the tray on her little desk. She gave the food a contemptuous glance but wouldn't look at Andras at all. Her hair was a dun-colored tangle, her face raw and damp. She wore a wrinkled nightgown and red socks with holes in the toes.

"Close the door," she said.

He closed the door.

"How did you get that letter?"

"I went to see Paul. I thought he'd want to know what had happened to you. I thought he might want to send you a note."

She gave a shuddering sigh and sat down on the bed. "What does it matter?" she said. "My mother's never going to let me leave the house again. It's all over with Paul."

When she raised her eyes to him there was a look he'd never seen in them before: grim, exhausted defeat.

Andras shook his head. "Paul doesn't think it's all over. He wants to meet your mother."

Elisabet's eyes filled with tears. "She'll never meet him," she said.

She was exactly Matyas's age, Andras thought. She would have cut her teeth when he'd cut his teeth, walked at the same time, learned to write during the same school year. But she was no one's sister. She had no age-mate in that house, no one she could think of as an ally. She had no one with whom to divide the intensity of her mother's scrutiny and love.

"He wants to know you're all right," Andras said. "If you write back to him, I'll take the note."

"Why would you?" she demanded. "I've been so hateful to you!" And she put her head against her knees and cried--not from remorse, it seemed to him, but from sheer exhaustion. He sat down in the desk chair beside the bed, looking out the window into the street below, where one set of posters touted the Jardin des Plantes and another set advertised Abel Gance's
J'accuse
, which had just opened at the Grand Rex. He would wait as long as she wanted to cry. He sat beside her in silence until she was finished, until she'd wiped her nose on her sleeve and pushed her hair back with a damp hand. Then he asked, as gently as possible, "Don't you think it's time to eat something?"

"Not hungry," she said.

"Yes, you are." He turned to the tray of food on the desk and spread the butter on the blueberry cake, took the napkin and laid it on Elisabet's knees, set the tray before her on the bed. A quiet moment passed; from below they could hear the triple-beat lilt of a waltz, and Klara's voice as she counted out the steps for her private student. Elisabet picked up her fork. She didn't set it down again until she'd eaten everything on the tray.

Afterward she put the tray on the floor and took a piece of notepaper from the desk.

While Andras waited, she scribbled something on a page of her school notebook with a blunt pencil. She tore it out, folded it in half, and thrust it into his hand.

"There's your apology," she said. "I apologized to you and to my mother, and to Mrs. Apfel for being so awful to her these past few days. You can leave it on my mother's writing desk in the sitting room."

"Do you want to send a note to Paul?"

She bit the end of the pencil, tore out a new piece of paper. After a moment she threw a glare at Andras. "I can't write it while you're watching me," she said. "Go wait in the other room until I call you."

He took the tray and the cleaned plates and brought them to the kitchen, where Mrs. Apfel stared in speechless amazement. He delivered the apology to Klara's writing table. Finally he went to the bedroom and set the little bunch of lavender in a glass on Klara's bedside table with a four-word note of his own. Then he went into the sitting room to wait for Elisabet's note, and to gather his thoughts about what he'd say to Klara.

...

In August, Monsieur Forestier closed his set design studio for a three-week holiday. Elisabet went to Avignon with Marthe, whose family had a summer home there; they wouldn't be back until the first of September. Mrs. Apfel went once again to her daughter's house in Aix. And Klara wrote a note to Andras, telling him to come to the rue de Sevigne with enough clothing for a twelve-day stay.

He packed a bag, his chest tight with joy. The rue de Sevigne, that apartment, those sunlit rooms, the house where he'd lived with Klara in December: Now it would be theirs again for nearly two weeks. He'd longed for that kind of time with her. In the first month after he'd found out about Novak, he had lived in a state of near-constant dread; despite Klara's reassurances, he could never shake the fear that Novak would call to her and she would go to him. The dread abated as July passed and there was no word from Novak, no sign that Klara would abandon Andras for his sake. At last he began to trust her, and even to envision a future with her, though the details were still obscure. He began to spend Sundays at her house again, and more pleasantly than in the past: His diplomacy with Elisabet had earned him her reluctant gratitude, and she could sit with him for an hour without insulting him or mocking his imperfect French. Though Klara had been furious at first when Andras had told her of his role as go-between, she had nonetheless been impressed with the change he'd brought about in Elisabet. He had made an earnest argument for Paul's merits, and finally Klara had relented and invited Elisabet's gentleman friend to lunch. Before long, a delicate peace had emerged; Paul had impressed Klara with his knowledge of contemporary art, his good-natured courtliness, his unfailing patience with Elisabet.

Now another milestone was approaching: the first time Andras would celebrate a birthday in Paris. In late August he would turn twenty-three. As he packed his suitcase he imagined drinking champagne with Klara on the rue de Sevigne, the two of them sweetly alone, a reprise of their winter idyll. But when he arrived at her house that morning there was a black Renault parked at the curb, its top folded down. Two small suitcases stood beside the car; a scarf and goggles lay on the driver's seat. Klara stepped out of the house, shading her eyes against the sun; she wore a motoring duster, canvas boots, driving gloves. She had gathered her hair into two bunches at the back of her head.

"What's this all about?" Andras said.

"Put your things in the trunk," Klara said, throwing him the keys. "We're going to Nice."

"To Nice? In this car? We're driving this car?"

"Yes, in this car."

He gave a shout, climbed over the car, and took her in his arms. "You can't have done this," he said.

"I did. It's for your birthday. We have a cottage by the sea."

Though he knew in theory that cars and cottages could be hired, it seemed almost impossible to believe that Klara had
in actuality
hired a car, and that, having the car in their possession, they could simply fill its tank with gas and drive to a cottage in Nice. No struggling with baggage in a train station, no crowded third-class rail carriage smelling of smoke and sandwiches and sweating passengers, no search for a cab or horse cart at the other end of the line. Just Andras and Klara in this tiny beetle-black car. And then a house where they would be alone together. What luxury; what freedom. They piled their suitcases into the car, and Klara put on her scarf and driving goggles.

"How do you know how to drive?" he asked her as they pulled away toward the rue des Francs-Bourgeois. "Do you know everything?"

"Nearly everything," she said. "I don't know Portuguese or Japanese, and I can't make brioche, and I'm a terrible singer. But I do know how to drive. My father taught me when I was a girl. We used to practice in the country, near my grandmother's house in Kaba."

"I hope you've driven more recently than that."

"Not often. Why? Are you afraid?"

"I don't know," Andras said. "Should I be?"

"You'll find out soon!"

From the rue du Pas de la Mule she turned onto the boulevard Beaumarchais and merged effortlessly into the traffic encircling the Bastille. She picked up the boulevard Bourdon; they crossed the Seine at Pont d'Austerlitz and shot off toward the south.

Andras's cap threatened to fly away, and he had to hold it to his head with one hand.

They motored through the seemingly endless suburbs of Paris (Who lived in these distant neighborhoods, these balconied three-story buildings? Whose washing was that on the line?) and then out into the gold haze and the rolling green pastures of the countryside.

Sturdy sheep and goats stood in bitten-down grass. Beside a farmhouse, children beat at the exoskeleton of a rusted Citroen with sticks and spades. A clutter of chickens crowded into the roadway and Klara had to blast them with a
ga-zoo-bah!
from the Renault's horn.

Tall feathery lindens whipped by, each with its fleeting rush of sound. For lunch they stopped beside a meadow and ate cold chicken and an asparagas salad and a peach tart that attracted yellowjackets. At Valence a thunderstorm overtook them and threw a hard slant of rain into the car before they could raise the roof; as they drove on, the windshield became so clouded with steam that they had to stop and wait for the storm to pass. It was nearly sunset when, after passing through a thirty-mile stretch of olive groves, they crested a hill and began to descend toward the edge of the earth. That was how it looked to Andras, who had never before seen the sea. As they drew closer it became a vast plain of liquid metal, a superheated infinity of molten bronze. But the air grew cooler with their approach, and the grasses along the road bent their seed pods in a rising wind. They reached a stretch of sand just as the red lozenge of the sun dissolved into the horizon.

Klara stopped the car at an empty beach and turned off the motor. At the margin of the water, a pounding roar and a cataclysm of foam. Without a word they got out of the car and walked toward that ragged white edge.

Andras cuffed his pants and stepped into the water. When a wave rolled in, the ground slid away beneath his feet and he had to catch Klara's arm to keep from falling.

He knew that feeling, that powerful and frightening tidal pull: It was Klara, her draw upon him, her inevitability in his life. She laughed and went to her knees in the waves, letting them wash over her body and render her blouse transparent; when she stood, her skirt was decorated with seaweed. He wanted to lay her down on the cooling stones and have her right there, but she ran back across the beach toward the car, calling for him to come.