The Inn Between (15 page)

The sun is fiercely bright. Quinn squints as she watches Emma head through the parking lot and onto the sidewalk.

She is suddenly sorry. She wants to call Emma back. She wants to yell
Don't go!
but another group of sneering kids pass her.

Quinn watches as Emma's pink cap moves farther and farther through the crowd, until it disappears into the blazing sunset.

She dives forward, but she can't move. The light is too bright. It stabs at her eyes. She struggles wildly. Her heart thuds in her chest.

Emma! I'm sorry!

There's nothing but light now. Pure white light. It wraps itself around Quinn. It squeezes the last breath from her lungs.

Emma! Come back!

Emma …

I love you!

 

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A
ROARING WHOOSH
tore through Quinn's body as the vehicle flew past her. Flew through her. As though it were a great and powerful metallic ghost.

Quinn's eyelids fluttered. Before the ghost truck disappeared, leaving her standing helplessly in the middle of the deserted road, she'd caught sight of something that wrenched her thoughts, twisting them into a giant ball of confusion.

In the same instant, hands grabbed her shoulders and yanked. She tumbled onto the side of the road, rolling to a stop with Kara practically on top of her.

She felt his shadow before she saw him. He loomed over her, sharp features, glaring eyes. The image shattered her mind, smashing it to a billion pieces that drizzled down around her and fell to the dust like the tiny shimmering shards of a dream.

“I've been looking for you,” said the man.

Quinn drew Kara in close, shielding her with her arms, as if looking at him might turn them both to stone. “You're not here. You can't be.”

He continued as though he hadn't heard her, his voice breathy and tired. “I had to find you. I had to tell you all. I needed you to know.”

Inch by inch, Quinn backed away. Somehow she had to get control of herself. She had to get Kara to her feet. Get her away from this man. From this …
ghost
.

“I never meant for it to happen.” His words were so thick he had to choke them out. “I swear it. I never meant—”

“Get away from us,” said Quinn. “You're not here. You can't be.” Her thoughts scrambled this way, then that, desperate to cling to anything that made sense. How could this man be standing in front of her when he was driving the truck—the truck with the blinding lights and the engine with the hum so loud it nearly split her brain? How could he be in two places at the same time?

“Please,” he said.

Quinn paused long enough to look into his eyes. And for the first time, they didn't seem crazy. Instead, they were filled with a sort of anguish—a deep and powerful pain tangled and mangled and mashed up with grief, a feeling Quinn understood all too well.

“Please,” muttered the man, extending an arm. “Forgive me.”

Quinn scrambled to her feet and heaved Kara up with all her might. Slowly, they backed away. “Leave us alone.”

Quinn turned, and with Kara leaning into her, they hobbled in the direction of the diner. In the direction the ghost truck had fled.

“No,” said the man, following them. “Don't go there. Not that way. You don't want to see.”

Quinn ignored him and kept walking. Her world had shifted. It was not the same place it had been a moment ago. She knew now this man had no power over her. He was not what she'd thought he was. He couldn't hurt her. And he couldn't stop her.

They neared the top of the hill and froze. In the distance, Quinn heard it—a blast of horn, a screeching of brakes, and engines colliding in a sickening clash of metal on metal. And then nothing. Silence. The hum had exploded and then stopped. The vacuum it left had sucked all the sounds of the world along with it.

Quinn hugged Kara and forced her to move. She had to get to the top of the hill. She had to look down, to see it with her own eyes. If she didn't, she'd never know it was real.

The man kept pace, a few steps behind. “I was tired,” he muttered, his voice soft and low, as if he were telling some long-forgotten tale. “My son had just gotten the diagnosis. I was trying to spend as much time at the hospital as I could, but we needed the money so I had to work. I was so tired. I wanted to stop. I called dispatch but the guy told me to get a cup of coffee, walk around the truck, and then keep driving. He said the tomatoes wouldn't keep—that I had to get them to the warehouse in Salt Lake City by morning. I told him I wasn't safe to drive, that I needed to rest. Just a few hours. But he said that wasn't the way the company rolled. He said I'd lose an entire week's pay if those tomatoes spoiled. We needed the money. I should have stopped. But the tomatoes…”

His words faded to a whimper. There was no threat left in him. Nothing about him could frighten Quinn anymore. She should have felt better, safer, only now a new fear spilled toward her—something much worse. What would she find if she looked down? What was at the base of the hill?

The silence was so thick it was strangling. Step by step, she moved upward, gasping for air. The last sliver of sunlight was fading from the sky. In the patches of deep purple and blue, Quinn could see black dots circling, swooping. Turkey vultures.

Then the silence was broken. Sirens came from both directions, converging on the spot. They frightened the birds, scattering them to the wind.

“What's happening?” asked Kara. “Where are we going?”

Quinn didn't answer. She just pulled Kara forward, each step heavy and painfully slow, until they reached the edge of the hill. Summoning every ounce of courage in her, Quinn looked down, silent witness to the chaotic scene below.

Kara's parents were there. Her father was on a stretcher, eyes open, wearing an oxygen mask. One paramedic attended to him, while two others bandaged Mrs. Cawston's head. Josh was on a stretcher as well. He was awake and his mouth was moving. He was alive and talking. They were all alive.

Kara's mouth opened but no sound came out. She straightened herself, taking it all in. “Look,” she said softly.

Quinn followed her gaze to where she and Kara lay on the road. Paramedics were trying to revive them, but it didn't look hopeful. It was the last piece of an intricate puzzle. It was the reason why they were still here, why Mr. and Mrs. Cawston and Josh were not.

Kara's eyes filled with tears. “Forever?” she said in a choked whisper.

Quinn gripped her hand. “Forever,” she echoed.

“Untie them!” shouted one paramedic to another, and a woman quickly severed the friendship bracelets—the threads that had kept Quinn and Kara bound together.

Quinn looked at her wrist. The ghost bracelets were still tied—a bond forged by so many shared moments. So much laughter, so many tears. Words that never needed to be spoken and thoughts exchanged without uttering a single sound. No scissors made of metal could cut this tie.

“You won't leave me, right?” said Kara. “No matter what?”

Quinn drew Kara in close and hugged her. She would not lose Kara like she'd lost Emma. No matter what it meant, no matter what the cost, she wouldn't make the same mistake.

“It was my fault,” Quinn said, her voice trembling under the weight of the words she lifted one by one from her conscience. She heaved them out into the open air of the desert's fading sun, like dirty laundry she'd washed clean and hung to flap on a line for the world to see. “I'm the one who made her go home alone. Emma is gone because of me.”

Kara lifted a pale, withering hand. She placed it gently on Quinn's shoulder.

“She wanted to wait for me,” said Quinn, sobs filling the gaps between her words. “She said … she said she should wait, but I was so angry—at myself—at everyone—it all rushed out at Emma and I couldn't stop myself. I told her to go. I told her I didn't need her. I called her a chicken. And she left school alone because of me. She was stolen because of me.”

Hot tears spilled down Quinn's cheeks. Tears of pain. Of longing. Of frustration. And hatred. Hatred for the person who had taken Emma. And hatred for herself for what she'd done. For what she could never take back.

Kara pulled Quinn toward her. She shook her head. “It wasn't you.” Her chest heaved in and out in ragged breaths as she sobbed out her story. “It was me. I'm the one. I should never have given you my assignment. I should have said no to you when you asked me. If only I'd had the courage to say no to you, none of this would have happened. Don't you see? It's my fault, not yours.”

Quinn swept a hand bitterly across her burning cheeks. She stared at Kara. Kara had been harboring the same horrible feeling—that Emma was gone and she had caused it. “It's not your fault. You couldn't have known.”

Over her shoulder Quinn saw them. First Persephone and Aides. They joined the man, standing shoulder to shoulder with him, staring thoughtfully, silently, at the two friends. Then the three parted like a curtain, revealing another figure, a small form swathed in twilight. She was still wearing her fall jacket, the pink cap perched upon her head.

Quinn gasped. She sprang to her feet, leaping toward the figure, the name exploding from her lips. “Emma!”

Quinn pulled frantically, but something was holding her to the spot. Not allowing her to move forward, to reach Emma.

“Kara! Get up! Look! It's Emma! Don't you see? It's Emma!” But Quinn could get no closer to the golden silhouette shimmering in the dusk—Kara was dragging Quinn back.

Quinn slipped an arm under Kara, but she had grown too weak to stand.

“Emma!” shouted Quinn, waving wildly. “I told them I saw you! I knew it was you! You were here all along! You came for me! I knew it!”

She struggled to pull herself and Kara closer to Emma. How she'd dreamed of the day she'd see her again—all the things she'd tell her. All the things she'd say. Beginning with sorry. Sorry for what she did—for cheating on her assignment. Sorry for all the things she'd said, for saying that she didn't need Emma, because she did need her. Oh, how she needed her. She hadn't wanted Emma to leave. Not really. She loved her. Her heart ached to fly to Emma's side, to fly into her arms like a bird.

She stopped struggling.

Not-Norm's warning whispered in her memory. He said he'd dreamed of a two-headed bird. Half the bird was trying to fly. The other half was bound to the ground. She gazed at her best friend—the deep bruises had spread over her body, the hollow circles had deepened around her eyes. They were that bird, she and Kara. Quinn wanted to fly, but Kara was broken. Kara was preventing Quinn from flying away.

“Let Kara go,” said Emma, reaching out a beckoning hand. “It's time.”

“No,” whispered Kara, her eyes wide with horror. “Don't listen to her, Quinn. I'm not going anywhere. I'm not leaving you. Not ever.”

“You have to, Quinn,” said Emma. “It's the only way.”

Quinn volleyed glances from Emma to Kara to the paramedics below. Then, like some tiny object way off in the distance that grows larger and clearer until you can finally make out its true shape, Quinn realized she'd gotten it all wrong. Kara wasn't the broken one. She wasn't the one holding Quinn back. It was Quinn that was broken. It was Quinn keeping Kara from returning.

She stared at Kara with watery eyes. She spoke softly. “You have to go back.”

“No,” sobbed Kara, shaking her head. “Don't do it, Quinn. I won't go. Just like the tree. If you stay, so do I.”

Quinn looked at Emma. And then with trembling hands she began to pick at the knot. The threads were coming loose, but with all her remaining strength Kara pushed her hand away.

“You promised you'd never leave me,” whispered Kara, gripping Quinn's hand so tight the tiny bones threatened to break. “Forever? Don't you remember?”

Tears spilled down Quinn's cheeks. “Think of your parents, Kara. And Josh. Think of how much they'd miss you. And think of Joe's brother. Who will save Adam?”

“Adam?” said Kara.

Quinn pulled the final thread free. And then she grabbed both of Kara's hands, looking deep into her eyes. “We promised we'd help Adam. You have to go back now. You have to wake up. You have to be the one to tell them.”

In the background, Quinn could hear the paramedics shouting more frantic instructions. She didn't notice if they were about her or about Kara.

“But,” sobbed Kara, “will you … will you come back, too?”

Quinn thought about this for a moment. She looked down at the paramedics trying to revive her. Kara's parents had left Inn Between because they'd returned. So had Josh. Now it was Kara's turn. Would she be next? All that time they'd spent in Inn Between had been seconds of real time. Or no time at all. Could she go back, too? She looked at Persephone, who gazed at her steadily. Then at Emma. Then back at Kara. She smiled. “Maybe.”

Kara's grip tightened. “Please, Quinn.”

Quinn continued to smile, but this time she made no promise. “You have to go back now, Kara, it's your turn, they're losing you.” Below, the paramedics had brought out a defibrillator and were attaching it to Kara. “I have to return to the hotel. My time there isn't up.”

They gripped each other one last time and then let go. A strange lightness drifted over Quinn, as Kara faded from her grasp like smoke in the wind. In that same instant, Quinn heard a paramedic below.

“I have a pulse!” he yelled.

 

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Q
UINN RACED TOWARD
E
MMA
and flung her arms around her. She buried her head in Emma's shoulder and hugged her with all her might. She was in a field of bluebells.