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The Holy Terror

The Holy Terror

By Wayne Allen Sallee

Copyright © 1992 Wayne Allen Salle
Introduction © 2008 Brian Hodge
Foreword © 2008 Wayne Allen Salle
First Digital Edition
Copyright 2010 Wayne Allen Sallee & Crossroad Press

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Acknowledgements

Dedication:

To everyone who has ever learned to survive this city, and who tried their best to meet its madness on their own terms.

Also, to Greg and Darcie Loudon, and their children, Ava, Quinn, and Luc. When they tire of their father’s tales of the crazy guy in all those illustrations, they might choose to pick up this book, and then it will all make some sense. Except the part where their father remained my closest friend to the very end.

In memory of my namesake, Wayne Henley, who passed away in Madisonville, Kentucky, on July 22nd 2007. I’ll always cherish his tales about my parents, Jim and Dolores, and their antics on Willard Court.

SATURDAY, MARCH 18th, 1989: TATTERED MOMENTS OF LUCIDITY

By Wayne Allen Sallee

I was history. For eighteen minutes, I was gone, away from this place, my subconscious looking for the Faceless One so I could wave and say “Hey, there’s my ride!” But I couldn’t wave if I wanted. While I was unconscious, three contusions in my head, both bones in my left forearm twisted through two layers of clothing and a padded winter jacket. I get sick to my stomach thinking about waking up from that nightscape and feeling fire on an icy street, the Pakistani guy from the corner store repeating over and over “Not to touch! Not to touch!” It is an amazing feeling to see your own fist in your jaw because you suddenly have an extra joint in your arm. I knocked out three of my teeth with my fist in the split-second before it turned to putty.

There is a history to this book. If you want to know more about the accident itself, there are other places to read about it, but I’d like this foreword to be unique, talking about the novel before you and not about my recovery. I want to try and explain why the book came out in 1992 but took place during the winter of 1988-1989. Twenty years ago since the Painkiller came into my head. And lived there for a long, long time.

For the first year or so after this novel was published (the book debuted at the second World Horror Convention in Nashville), those who knew my story often asked me to sign my name, or make an asterisk, midway down page 243, as it was in my typed manuscript. A scene where two cops are talking with an old woman on Mohawk Street while Barney Miller reruns blare in the background.

That page sat in my Smith-Corona word processor for thirty-eight days, gathering a thick line of dust. Because of the contusions, I could not have my arm operated on until the daily MRIs showed that I would not explode or bleed out or whatever the doctors thought might happen would happen, and for several weeks, my left hand would not move. Most of you know–and if you don’t, I’m sure the information is somewhere in the Googleverse–that I’ve had cerebral palsy on my right side since birth. My right hand is useless, my right eye a novelty. For those days I lay in Holy Cross Hospital, sharing the room at times with drunk drivers, drugged up mothers with a dozen kids, and a dead Lithuanian with no one to claim the body, I was a puppet with broken strings. I had to be fed. I had to be bathed. My chin wiped after I spilled from my sippy cup of the damned. You really don’t want to know how I urinated into the plastic jug, though to this day I recall the confidence brought on by my ingenuity.

It was 291 days before I could even move my hand, the last of seven casts coming off and freeing me, my palm wiped clean of love lines and life lines, smooth as a mannequin and the fingers and thumb that came with said store window display. For months after, my thumb and forefinger were taut, my other fingers curled inward. I was either pointing a gun or accusing my Higher Power for letting me live. When I was in the blackness that March 18, 1989 brought to me, I saw David Janssen– the Fugitive, of all people–stopping me from coming towards him, assuring me that it was not time yet. Then again, seeing Dr. Richard Kimble made sense, as he was always chasing after the one-armed man who killed his wife. I still can only use one finger to type, and have back and neck pain from that year with the weighted casts. I have the broken metal plates and screws in a small dish and the x-rays of my skull, which I obtained on the sly. It has taken me just under an hour to type this, wishing this wasn’t the dead of winter howling outside, because it is now that I have werewolf claws and a giant pain grin of quiet determination.

There are many people that I am indebted to over these past fifteen years, particularly Yvonne Navarro and Janet Winkler, who took much of their precious time away from their writing and teaching, respectively, to transcribe passages of the book after hearing my Demerol-induced words on one of those old-timey cassette recorders. Peggy Nadramia and Peter Gilmore, who edited GRUE magazine, read a short story I sent them called “The Holy Terror” and rejected it, telling me that this should be my first novel. Jeff VanderMeer ran the first chapters of the book in JABBERWOCKY, with another section appearing in Mark V. Zeising’s HOUSE MONKEY. Further inspiration came from Dennis Etchison, Joe R. Lansdale, and Steve Rasnic Tem, along with the late Karl Edward Wagner and J. N. Williamson, who encouraged me to write a first novel before I barely had a half-dozen stories in print. Along the way, Elizabeth Massie, Jeff Johnston, Joan VanderPutten, Kathleen Jurgens, Robert “Bayou Bob” Petitt and Sid Williams read pages and saw that I did not stray from the subject at hand.

The biggest thanks, in the here and now, is to Brian Hodge, who read the book years ago and wrote the introduction for the anniversary edition (also included in this digital edition). I can bet that some of you are reading this because Brian’s name appears in the bold print it deserves on the cover. Hopefully publisher Gilbert Schloss will let me slip this in, ( Editor's note:
 
He did, and I have included it here as well) that everyone not familiar with Brian’s work immediately go out (well go online, because that’s what everyone does now, right?) and buy MAD DOGS or WILD HORSES, and about eight other novels from the previous century. *

Much of the six block area of downtown Chicago described in my book is long gone, now there are condos where several buildings were once havens for the homeless, and vacant lots where my make-believe bar Nolan Void and St. Sixtus stood. High rise garages where the Trailways terminal provided the Painkiller with a temporary hiding place and, hell, even Dudley’s Carry-Outs, the best damn hot dog place in the city, is gone. Even the vacant lot between the Burger King and the Fine Arts Theater that “became” the Marclinn Home is now a partly-empty piece of ugly girders, supposedly which will one day house the CBS studios.

But they remain here in the pages of THE HOLY TERROR, circa our frigid winter of 1988-1989. The ghosts are still there, in yet another cold and dismal winter, paid forward twenty years in shards and tatters.

Your chattel,

Wayne Allen Sallee Burbank, Illinois 17 February 2008

* Editor's Note – the text for this edition has been recovered from a scan of the original book modified for the 15
th
anniversary edition.
 
I'd like to (proudly) note that author Brian Hodge will join us here at Crossroad Press eventually as well as several others mentioned in the above foreword.
 
All of us loved "The Holy Terror" - DNW

When a Prognosis is Just the Beginning

Brian Hodge

If novels—the physical books themselves—could be made more interactive, in poetic and appropriate ways, then the pages of The Holy Terror would fade to blank white soon after you read them. Not because they shouldn’t be preserved, but because this would echo one of the book’s central concerns.

The Holy Terror is a novel about invisible people.

Not the type of invisibility you see in movies, with seemingly empty suits of clothes bobbing along of their own volition, or footprints magically appearing across wet sand or dry floors.

No, these are people rendered invisible by nearly everyone else around them.

Unless you live in the smallest of small towns and have never left, you’ve almost certainly seen the people portrayed in these pages. You may also have pretended not to. Maybe they held out a cup, for the thousandth time that day, in hopes that you would drop some currency or coins into it. Maybe they were in a wheelchair. Maybe they weren’t, but walked funny. Or carried on conversations with partners you couldn’t see. Or maybe they did nothing to announce it overtly, but you still picked up a vibe that something was just a little different there.

And in that moment they became invisible, in a far more fundamental way than affects those with whom we engage in run-of-the-mill avoidance of eye contact on city streets. We quicken our step and walk on by as if they’re just. Not. There.

No judgments here. I do it too, and feel rather shamed by the admission.

I’m compelled to wonder why, exactly, we do it, although I can only rely on guesswork. It isn’t the sort of thing for which pollsters conduct surveys.

On the surface, there’s undoubtedly our resistance to a stranger, any stranger, who wants something from us, or merely has the potential to want something from us. Because that first innocuous request may only be the foot in the door: a quarter first, perhaps a piece of our soul next.

Better, then, to be wary.

But when we’re confronted with someone who is plainly broken, it goes deeper. We are confronted with something we can’t fix, and we hate that. We are met with pain we can’t assuage, and that makes us feel inadequate. We are witness to proof of chaos, manifested in an accident of physics or biology gone haywire, and the only thing worse than pondering ill will behind it is acknowledging that physics and biology don’t care about us in the first place. They govern life while disregarding the individual.

Things can fall apart; the center will not always hold.

It could happen to us, and being reminded is uncomfortable.

Better, then, not to see the messenger at all.

* * *

I don’t know when Wayne Allen Sallee stopped pretending not to see, if he ever pretended in the first place. I suspect he didn’t. You get the feeling reading The Holy Terror that most of its characters, both central and peripheral, come from people he’s known, talked with at length, met once, or exchanged a few quick words with without ever getting a name, and that he saw each one of them, up close, without ever looking away.

In describing them he uses language that may come as a surprise. Handicapped. Cripples. More. The novel was written and first published before such cringeworthy terms as differently-abled and challenged and, perhaps worst of all, handicapable, were injected into the lexicon, as if to soften the words would somehow mitigate the reality. Sallee could edit the original language if he wished—that’s easy to do with a book’s new edition—but why would he want to?

Nothing that matters has changed.

And writers are entitled to use the words that feel most honest.

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