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Monk, Connie.

The healing stream.

I. Title

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One
July
,
1955

Amelia Pilbeam had once said that when the time came for her funeral most of the pews would be empty. ‘At my age there are precious few friends still waiting their turn, and any there are can’t be up to an unexpected journey across to the island.’ Her granddaughter, Tessa, seemed to hear the familiar voice as she walked up the aisle to take her place in the front pew. Of one thing she was certain: all those she had telephoned to tell of Gran’s sudden death would be as close in spirit as were any from the village who, despite Amelia’s expectations, had donned black and made their way to the parish church. Did Gran know? Tessa felt that she did; she could almost hear the old lady’s mirthful chuckle and see her still-pretty face as they shared the knowledge – not as something sombre but as a secret joke.

All eyes were on Tessa as, looking straight ahead of her, she took her seat on the otherwise empty pew. Was it just her imagination or was the silence broken by a hiss of whispering? Well, let them think what they liked, she told herself silently. Gran would have hated me to wear black. ‘A lot of poppycock.’ That had been her view. ‘What’s the use of believing in a hereafter and then weeping and gnashing your teeth because someone’s got their ticket to go there? When my time comes, Tessa, you put on the prettiest you have. Rejoice! That’s what folk should do. Unless their grief is for themselves because they are frightened to look ahead without the one who had meant so much. Oh, but how I grieved when your darling mother was killed.’

The organ started to play, there were movements by the church door, then footsteps. Tessa clenched her fists, making sure that she still looked straight ahead and not letting herself turn to see the men carrying the coffin into the building. But these hurrying footsteps weren’t those of pall-bearers; it must be a latecomer.

‘Couldn’t get here sooner – just in time.’

She turned at the whispered words as a man took his seat at her side, then dropped to his knees for such a brief time he could have done no more than send up a quick apology for his late arrival.

‘I thought you couldn’t spare the time to come,’ she whispered back, her voice holding no welcome. ‘I thought the cows were more important.’

‘Naomi said she could manage until tomorrow. Didn’t like leaving her – but there are things I must attend to here. Hush – they’re coming in.’

Through the days following Amelia’s stroke Tessa’s anger towards her Uncle Richard had grown by the hour. What work could be more important than the knowledge that his mother was helpless, unable to speak, almost unable to move? In the moment of her collapse their futures had been changed – her own and Tessa’s too. And yet he had said his animals needed his constant attention! If he could be here now, when it was too late, why couldn’t he have come sooner? How must Gran have felt when she realized that he didn’t care enough to want to be with her? As the rector preceded the cortège up the aisle, the sound of his solemn voice breaking the silence, Tessa hung on to her resentment towards the man at her side; it helped her to bear the moment she had been dreading. Despite herself, her glance moved to the coffin less than six feet from where she sat. Gran was lying in there; Gran who had been her entire family almost as far back as she could remember. Don’t think about the future . . . don’t imagine coming home each evening to an empty house, no easy companionship that paid no heed to the generation gap . . . no one to share the excitement of watching their latest acquisition, a television set that brought distant happenings of the world so much closer . . . no one to share her interest in changing fashions, for Gran had never let herself become ‘old’, and yet neither had she tried to appear younger than she was, and she always delighted in seeing Tessa in up-to-the-moment styles now that clothes coupons were just a memory. It had been important to Amelia Pilbeam to look her best and surely there couldn’t be a woman in the village who hadn’t admired her; always smart, a weekly visit to the hairdresser making sure her standard didn’t fall, her face made up and yet never looking painted. Gran, I’m not going to cry; if I did it would just be that I’m sorry for myself. Rejoice, that’s what you said. That’s why I told Mr Brent these were the hymns we wanted him to play, all full of glory and triumph. Can you hear everyone singing? Uncle Richard got here in the end, but what’s the point of coming now? It’s just
show.
He should have been here when you needed him. You love him, I know you do, so I must try and be polite. But you and I, we both know it will only be surface politeness. She seemed to hear the familiar chuckle. ‘Things to attend to,’ that’s what he said. What’s it got to do with
him
?
I know he’s your son, but he’s never made an effort to come and see you. I told you, I’ll not be horrid to him because you wouldn’t want me to, but I feel sort of screwed up with anger at him. I know when I was away at school you used to go at least once each term to stay with him but since then he hasn’t made the effort even
once.
And I bet he’s so wrapped up in his own narrow little world that he hasn’t even realized how seldom he’s seen you.

So her thoughts rambled on with her bitter resentment towards the still good-looking man at her side helping her through the ordeal of the service. The pall-bearers were shouldering the coffin, and she felt Richard Pilbeam take hold of her elbow to guide her to walk with him and follow it as the choir started to sing the
Nunc Dimittis.
‘Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace according to thy word . . .’

First the coffin, then the rector, then Richard and Tessa, followed at a respectful distance by people who had known, liked and admired Amelia.

‘You should have realized you only had to ask me.’ Richard spoke softly to Tessa, careful that neither the rector in front nor anyone following would overhear what he said. ‘I would have sent you a cheque to buy something suitable to wear. Surely that suit wasn’t the most sombre thing in your wardrobe?’

‘Oh, no.’ She heard the defiance in her tone and rejoiced in it. ‘I usually wear a dark grey one to work in the hotel. But Gran hates all that nonsense. Anyway, she and I went to Bournemouth for the day when the January sales were on and it was she who spied this. She said it suited me better than anything I had so I knew it was what she would want me to wear today.’

Richard grunted, the sound doing nothing to endear him to her. In truth he would hardly have been human if he hadn’t realized how attractive this niece of his had become. Recalling the skinny six-year-old he had seen at the memorial service for her parents who had been killed in a raid on London in December 1942, it was hard to believe she had turned into such a beauty. For that’s what she was. If she’d been six when his mother had become her guardian, according to his arithmetic that would mean she must be nineteen. In less than two years she would come of age. How different it might have been if he and Naomi had been made her guardians right from the beginning. She would have been the daughter they’d never had. One thing was certain: brought up at Chagleigh Farm she wouldn’t have kitted herself out like she had today. Not that she didn’t look attractive – damned pretty, in fact – with those clear eyes just the same dark brown as her hair. But it wasn’t right to come to her grandmother’s funeral in a red suit even if it flattered her, and as for those matching shoes, he’d never seen heels so high. And too much rubbish on her face, too; even her eyes were made up. No, if she’d been brought up at the farm she wouldn’t have filled her head with such nonsense. His mind jumped to Naomi, his precious, unchanging Naomi. Whatever she did, she did with all her abundant energy. Was there ever a woman like her? Running their home, working in the dairy, tending the chickens, helping clean the pigsties, tackling any task that came her way, his never failing constant companion and friend . . . friend? Friend and lover, too.

While his thoughts had been back at the farm with his wife, the coffin had been lowered into the ground. Mother dead . . . just a memory. Well, that she certainly would always be: a very dear memory. Never once had she suggested he neglected her when he couldn’t spare the time to visit her.

Not many people had come to the graveside, just the rector’s wife (who, although to look at her no one would have guessed it, was thinking who she might inveigle into buying and arranging the church flowers on the fourth Sunday of each month now that Amelia was gone), and Thomas Sedgley, Amelia’s solicitor ever since she had moved to the Isle of Wight some twenty-five years ago. Both of them were on the other side of the grave facing across the lowered coffin to where Richard stood with Tessa.

Tessa smiled in recognition at the ageing solicitor, remembering how kind he had been when she had gone to him with the news of her grandmother’s death. Unsure what she had to do she had called at his office for guidance and he hadn’t failed her.

Then it was over. Before moving off, the rector’s wife shook hands with Richard and kissed Tessa; the rector shook hands with both of them then hurried to join her. Only the solicitor waited.

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