Sam and Riley were huddled together on the landing between the first and second floors. Riley appeared to be adjusting Sam’s bowtie, and repeatedly patting his lapels as if to reassure him. Perhaps more interestingly, Riley was wearing a kilt.
“Why is Riley wearing a
kilt
?” I murmured. “And that’s…that’s, what is her name?” I was staring hard at the petite woman with spiky dark hair. “She used to live with Tiel. Ally or Emma or something. She’s supposed to be touring with her band. What’s she doing here?”
I searched the space, not sure what I was hoping to find, and ended up watching Sam and Riley again. Riley’s hand dipped into his jacket pocket, and he handed something to Sam, and then it clicked.
“He’s wearing a red tux because he’s getting married tonight.”
Will glanced at me, frowning. “What about this scene says wedding to you? We’ve got a hipster band, there’s a table of little cheeseburgers and corndogs over there, and red tuxedos and kilts. How is that—oh, no, I see it now.”
“That little shit,” I said, stabbing my sequined top with my finger. “I’m wearing white, and this is a wedding, and that fucker didn’t even tell me. He planned an entire goddamn wedding and didn’t tell me!”
With his hands on my shoulders, Will backed me into a hallway. “Sam planned a wedding,” he repeated, “because you taught him well. He did this on his own because he learned how to grow the fuck up, and he did that because you showed him how. You know what? I’m gonna thank him for that, even if he is wearing a red tuxedo.”
“He’s still a little shit,” I said, pouting. “We don’t do secrets.”
“Says the girl who had the secret lover,” he said, pointing to himself, “for more than a year. They handled things maturely when you told them, didn’t they?”
Mature
wasn’t the right term, but Will didn’t need to hear the true events of my siblings’ reaction to the secret lover story. It was only one step better than cancelling Thanksgiving.
“Shannon,” Will said, his fingertip running over my collarbone. “You are the sexiest woman alive, and I want you to enjoy this night. Do you want me to lick your pussy before we go back out there?”
I swatted him away. “Save it for later, commando.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
The music stopped, and we emerged from the hallway to find Sam on the platform with a microphone in hand. “They say you should marry your best friend,” he said, “and that’s what I intend to do tonight.”
*
With drinks in
hand, I made my way through the energetic crowd toward where Will stood with Patrick and Andy. He caught my eye, and held his arm out to me, an invitation to take my place by his side, to be his in front of these people, the stars, the sky, and the entire universe beyond this firehouse. It was an invitation I accepted without hesitation, and I did him one better by brushing my hand down his chest, stopping when my fingers met his belt.
“Did you know?” Patrick asked me. He eyed Will, still unsure of what to make of him.
“Not a clue,” I admitted, shaking my head.
“That ceremony was…” Andy laughed. “That was unique. I’ve never seen anything like this.”
I glanced up at Will, smiling. He kept his eyes on me while he tipped back his beer bottle, and I watched his throat bobbing as he swallowed. I knew how he tasted right there, and how he shivered when my nails scraped over his scalp, and how his breaths came in fast bursts against my neck when he was ready to explode inside me. And I knew he was all mine right now.
“Oh God, he’s going to talk again,” Patrick murmured, gesturing to the stage. Sam was at the microphone, gin and tonic in hand, and Tiel on his arm.
I was still overwhelmed by the shock of this evening, but in a strange, wonderful way, it was perfect. This was Sam and Tiel, and I never would have been able to micromanage an event that came anywhere close to this level of quirky spectacular. And I was gradually realizing that I was okay with that.
“Tonight we celebrate my wife,” Sam said, grinning down at her, “the most incredible woman in my world. Tiel, you are my sanctuary, my soul, my Sunshine.” He pressed a kiss to her lips, and when he turned back to the audience, he was smiling brighter than I’d ever seen. “But I want to raise a glass to a few others who made this possible, who delivered me to this point, whether they know it or not. To the elder statesmen,” he said, tipping his glass toward Matt and Patrick. “To the keepers of all the best secrets.” He gestured to Riley. “And to the wanderers who know when to wander home, and…the cornerstones, the ones who hold us together. Without all of you,” he said, sweeping his arm out, “I wouldn’t be here. Cheers.”
Looking up, my eyes landed on Erin, and I found her smiling at me. She glanced to Will, and then back to me with a quick nod. It was little more than eye contact, but it was the most we’d shared in years. She looked well, and my chest tightened with all the questions I ached to ask her. It still shocked me that she was a woman now, lovely and grown, and I wanted the best for her. I hoped she was happy and fulfilled, and that she was safe and loved.
“You should talk to her,” Will said gently.
“Not tonight,” I said with a sigh.
Nick appeared at her side, and she turned away from me. She tossed her hands up and bounced with the music, and our silent conversation was over.
“You were right. The rocks are from Erin,” I said. “When my mother came here from Ireland, she had a little box of rocks. She always told us that they were like breadcrumbs, and they’d always help her find the path home when she was lost. I used to tell Erin that story every night before she went to sleep.” I blinked away the tears that rushed to my eyes. “She’s going to come home some day. The rocks are her way of leaving a path.”
“Are you okay?” he asked, his lips brushing over my temple.
“Actually,” I said, “I am. Let’s pour some shots for the happy couple.”
We stayed at the firehouse late into the night, drinking and dancing, laughing and celebrating, and there was no comparison to the sad, lonely Christmas Eve I spent at Sullivan’s Tap last year.
We were all over each other on the cab ride home. Loose, giddy, flirty, desperate. The cabbie reprimanded us several times for getting too handsy.
And it felt good. Everything felt good and I never wanted it to stop.
I leaned against the door while Will dug through my purse for the keys. “Are you going to take me to bed?”
“If you’re asking whether I plan to fuck you until the sun comes up,” he said, “the answer is yes. Come here.”
He motioned for me to wrap my arms around his neck, and then he lifted me, locking my legs on his waist. He dropped the keys and my purse to the floor once we were inside, and a trail of our clothes followed us into the bedroom.
“We go to a lot of weddings, don’t we?” he asked. He tossed me to the bed and stepped out of his shoes and trousers. I pulled my shirt over my head and shrugged out of my bra.
“It seems that we do,” I said, scooting under the blankets.
Will nestled beside me, his skin hot and his mouth urgent as he kissed my shoulder and neck. “When are we going to our own?”
His cock pressed against my thigh, eager for attention. “Was that a proposal?” I asked.
Will laughed, and positioned himself between my legs. He wasted no time bringing his tongue to my clit and spearing two fingers inside me, and I arched back with a loud moan.
“Oh, fuck,” I cried. “Fuck, fuck, yes, right there.”
He popped up, his head on my belly. “See what I did there?” he asked, smirking. “You said yes.”
WILL
“C
aptain, I am
looking at your discharge papers. Would you care to explain this shit to me?”
I knew this was going to happen eventually. Word was getting out, wheels were turning, and one irate Lieutenant General wanted my ass. There was no way for me to leave the teams quietly when my command of this new task force was a foregone conclusion in McGardil’s eyes.
“The nerve damage isn’t improving, sir, and I’ve decided it’s time,” I said. “I’ve fulfilled my service.”
“Do I need to remind you that this country is at war?” he roared. “Men and women are losing their lives every
day
, sailor. I expect this shit from a bedwetting tadpole during Phase One of BUD/S, not a decorated officer when there’s a team ready to load out.”
I leaned against the refrigerator, softly knocking my head on the glass door while the Lieutenant General ranted about the need for battle-tested leaders, and expecting more from me, and the impact of my departure on critical missions. In the twenty minutes that he yelled and swore, he barely stopped for a breath. It was remarkable.
But it was hard to hear. Nothing he said was new—I’d been thinking the same things since this leave started last month—but the gravity of it was much greater coming from a man I respected as much as McGardil.
My decisions affected more than me, and this was the smack upside the head to remind me of that.
“You are a highly skilled operative,” McGardil continued. “You are among the most lethal in the teams, and the United States has spent
millions
of dollars on your training. If you’re not mission-ready, there are other critical roles to assume.”
“I’m aware, sir,” I said. “This wasn’t a light decision.”
“I should hope not, Captain,” he said with a grunt. “Are you writing a book? A fucking screenplay?”
“No, sir. I’m…” I glanced around the kitchen, where I’d abandoned my lasagna preparations. I decided to keep those details to myself. Without a doubt, my newfound domesticity would land with a thud. “I’m exploring private security and defense contracting.”
McGardil huffed out a breath. “Have you given any consideration to returning to Coronado as an instructor?”
And there it was: my least favorite option. I enjoyed working with SEALs who’d finished all their qualifying courses—the baby SEALs, as Shannon liked to call them—but the last thing I wanted to do was holler at a bunch of guys during midnight rock portage drills on San Clemente Island.
“Thank you, sir,” I said, “though I’d rather not return to BUD/S. One visit was plenty.”
“It’s a loss,” he said. “There aren’t many men with your experience, even fewer with your cool head. This is a loss for the teams.” I heard McGardil shuffling and tapping papers across the line. “Allow me to thank you for your service, sailor. It’s been a pleasure, and I do hope you keep in touch.”
The call ended and I was left banging my head against the refrigerator. Leaving the teams wasn’t a simple decision. It was the only thing I knew how to do, the only thing I’d ever
wanted
to do, and it wasn’t as though I could discard the responsibility like a pair of dirty socks. This duty pumped in my blood and gathered in my soul, and I would always live with the fire to push myself further than anyone thought possible.
When I’d banged myself right into a dull headache, I spied a new message waiting on my phone.
Shannon:
I’ve been dealing with the most obstinate agent all morning. This guy is arguing every single point on this purchase and sale agreement. There’s nothing special about the terms, either.
Shannon:
This guy’s just a dick
Will:
When you get home, I’m taking your panties
Will:
You’re not getting them back until Monday
Will:
Then I’m tying you to the bed
Will:
Just keep that in mind as you’re dealing with this fool
Shannon:
Wow. That actually helped.
Will:
Surprised?
Shannon:
No…I don’t know. Maybe.
Will:
Also, I’m making lasagna.
Smiling, I swiped through my contacts until I found the one I needed. I’d been putting off this call—and a few others—for weeks, but I was ready. The pieces were coming together, and I knew what I wanted now.
“Halsted,” Kaisall shouted when he answered. “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you’ve been shopping my offer with the way you’re dodging calls.”
“But you know better,” I chuckled.
Kaisall and I connected shortly before the visit to San Diego, and he shared plans to overhaul his firm, Redtop. He wanted to continue taking high-profile security details—gotta pay the bills—while branching out into kidnapping and smuggling cases, hostage negotiations, and the occasional clandestine task. In order to execute on this, he was reorganizing the company’s structure.
“Are we getting into bed together?” he asked. Sounds of the airport accompanied his voice. Travel dominated his life, and it suited him. He liked the thrill of chasing down contacts and clients, and being in the know. “All toasty warm for me yet?”
He needed someone in the command center; someone who could watch all the pieces on the chessboard and make the right moves. The more I thought about it, the more I liked it. The work was still important, even when it included running background checks on an heiress’s boyfriend of the month, and there was plenty of it.