‘Hello,’ he said. ‘I didn’t hear you come in.’
‘Gorgas,’ Bardas said.
‘I was passing,’ Gorgas went on. ‘I lit the fire, I hope you don’t mind.’
Up till then, the axe in his hand had felt like an extension of his arm; now it was as if he’d been lying on it and it had gone to sleep. He could sense it was there, but he couldn’t feel it. He looked at his brother and said nothing.
‘I hope I didn’t startle you,’ Gorgas went on. ‘I guess it’s not a good time to be lurking about in someone else’s house, though I’m pretty sure we got all of them. Even if there were one or two we didn’t get, I wouldn’t give much for their chances of getting this far.’
Bardas narrowed his eyes, puzzled, and then realised his brother was talking about survivors of the raiding party. He heard himself say that he’d run into a stray halberdier on the road; but that was some time ago.
‘Oh,’ Gorgas said. ‘Well, that’s one less to worry about, I suppose.’
There was something in the way he said it, suggesting that if Bardas Loredan met a man on the road, he’d kill him, because that’s what he does, of course. Carpenters shape wood, peat-cutters cut peat, charcoal-burners make charcoal, Bardas Loredan kills people. Did any of them get away? Not to worry. It’ll give Bardas something to do, now that the evenings are drawing out.
‘Isn’t that apprentice of yours with you? Damn it, I can’t remember his name. He’s all right, is he?’
‘He’s fine,’ Bardas replied.
Gorgas nodded. ‘I gather he was the boy who gave the alarm at Briora. He did well.’
One step across the floor, slightly to the left to avoid tripping over the footstool; a two-handed feint to the right to draw his guard, in case he has time to draw his sword, then let go with the left hand and swing hard with the right for a point of impact just above the ear. He’d taught that as a basic gambit when he was running his fencing school; simple and fairly obvious, but in all the thousands of years that men have spent killing each other, nobody’s yet come up with a sure way to defend against it. Against an unarmed man, of course, it’s virtually satisfaction guaranteed, like the easy shot at a sitting rabbit from fifteen yards, where all the difficulty and skill is in the stalk, the actual loosing of the arrow being pretty much a foregone conclusion. Against an unarmed man who happens to be your brother and who’s trying to make conversation, no possibility of failure whatsoever.
‘What do you want, Gorgas?’ Bardas asked.
His brother grinned sheepishly. ‘This is going to sound bad,’ he said, ‘and I won’t insult you by trying to make it sound otherwise. Niessa told me to bring you back to Scona Town.’
‘I see.’
‘Actually,’ Gorgas went on, ‘she’s got a point. The war’s escalating, getting out of hand. You’re our brother, you live out here alone on the coast, a ship could easily slip in, they could grab you and be away before we could do anything. I’d never forgive myself—’
Bardas opened his mouth to say something, but thought better of it.
‘I know you don’t want to come to Scona,’ Gorgas went on. ‘Gods know, I can understand why. Niessa wants you safe, where she knows where you are. It wouldn’t be for ever; just till things calm down and this mess with Shastel sorts itself out. After all, this is our mess, it’s up to us to solve it without you getting hurt. We think we can see a way to deal with it without it turning into a full-scale war - nobody wants that, it’d be stupid, crazy. Then you could come back here, carry on as you are now—’
‘I’m not going to Scona,’ Bardas said.
Gorgas took a deep breath and sat down. ‘I knew you’d say that,’ he said. ‘Damn it, you’re my brother, I’m not going to bring you in on a rope like a stray calf. All right, here’s what we’ll do. There’s a ship from the Island in port; get on it, go where you like, I don’t care where. Just so long as you go somewhere where the Foundation won’t find you easily. And your apprentice, of course; and don’t worry about money or anything like that, we can sort something out—’
‘You’re joking,’ Bardas said. He felt as if the sky had fallen all around him, and there was nothing between him and the stars. ‘She’ll kill you,’ he said, in a voice that came from somewhere around twenty years ago.
Gorgas shrugged. ‘I can handle Niessa when I have to,’ he replied. ‘The trick lies in not doing it too often. The hell with her, little brother. Is it what you want, or isn’t it?’
‘You know I never wanted to come here,’ Bardas said, the words spilling out like a leak in a wineskin.
Gorgas nodded. ‘That was us being selfish,’ he said. ‘I suppose we both thought that somehow we could make things up to you, put everything right again.’ He made a wide gesture with his hands. ‘As if. Whatever we do always seems to screw things up even more, so maybe the only thing that might help is to stop trying. I don’t know. At least we should stop thinking about what we want.’
Bardas couldn’t think of anything to say. He sat down on the edge of the table and looked at Gorgas; with his back to the fire, in control, as if he was in his own house. He let the axe slip out of his hand.
The halberdier yawned. After everything he’d been through - the march up from the sea, the fighting in the villages, being holed up in that awful place with the leaky roof, and then the unexpected attack and the fire and the narrowness of his escape - more than anything else he wanted to go to sleep, if sleep was actually possible in this horrible country.
Just Ramo and himself, the only survivors. There could be no possible reason why they’d made it and nobody else had, it could only be something random, meaningless. Now, as if to make fun of them, everything seemed to be going their way. They’d stumbled on this house, nicely off the beaten track, with nobody home; a few scraps of cold roast rabbit and some flat beer on the table in the main room; a comfortable hayloft to sleep in, where he’d be relatively safe until such time as he and Ramo felt strong enough and brave enough to go and look for someone to surrender to. He thought of his fellow survivor, pacing up and down outside on sentry-duty (Ramo had insisted on setting a watch, just like the real army. Fair enough; if he wanted to play sentry instead of getting some sleep, good luck to him).
He stared with painful, gritty eyes into a patchy red sunrise. Before he’d been accepted into the armed forces of the Foundation he’d been the son of a hectemore, making some sort of a living off sixty or so acres of hillside and bog in the far west of the Shastel peninsular. The hayloft had always been a good place to hide, on a hot day when there was work to be done, or when his father was in a foul mood. It’s a basic rule of life that all haylofts are virtually identical, and this one had the same smells and sounds as the one he’d taken refuge in not so many years ago. So, although he was weary and aggrieved and painfully hungry, for the first time in a long while at least he felt reasonably safe.
Which was a mistake on his part; because, as he leant his halberd against the piled stooks and sat back with his hands behind his head, the noise he’d taken for a mouse scuttling about somewhere above his head suddenly got louder. He almost had time to grab his halberd, but not quite. A big man dropped down from the top of the stacked hay, landed beside him, grabbed his halberd just as his fingertips brushed the shaft, and stuck the spike into his windpipe.
Bardas Loredan twisted the blade to free it and pulled it out. Then he dropped down to a crouch and listened. But there was nothing to hear, and he allowed himself the luxury of a moment’s rest. He rolled the body along the stack, out of sight of the doorway, pulled off the dead man’s coat and draped it round his shoulders, then sat down where he’d been sitting, in case anybody happened to look that way. His knees ached, as well they might after two hours of crouching in the back of his own hayloft, listening to the sentry’s tuneless humming and waiting for first light.
One thing he’d had plenty of was time to think, and he’d decided on what he considered the most sensible course of action. He looked down at the halberd, wondering whether he’d have to fight anybody else before he got clear. He had no idea how many of them there were; presumably they were the survivors of the raiding party, but even that was just supposition on his part. If they’d done the job properly they’d have put a man up by the gate, maybe a patrol round the boundary wall. It’d be extremely bad luck if they’d managed to find the hole in the back hedge, so he could slip out through that and almost immediately be on the road down to Briora. But that would mean crossing the yard and walking straight past the workshop window, which would be asking for trouble. If he simply dropped down from here and followed the line of the barn up as far as the gate, he stood a better than average chance of not being seen until he was right on top of the gate sentry, who ought not to know what hit him. He felt the weight of the halberd, and stacked it against the hay; he’d be better off barehanded than trying to do any good with an overgrown staffhook.
He swung his legs out through the hayloft door, braced his hands on the floorboards and slid himself forward, landing quite comfortably on the soft grass. As he’d hoped, there was nobody about, and he walked fairly slowly and calmly up to the gate. Sure enough there was a sentry, and sure enough the sentry was leaning on the gate looking down the lane, where it was reasonable to expect any trouble to come from. He’d even taken his helmet off, just to make Loredan’s life a little easier. Just before he reached him, Loredan stooped and picked up the stone he used for propping the gate open. It was the perfect size and shape for the job; there was a crunch, like the sound you make when you put your foot through thick ice, and the sentry slumped forward over the gate, then slid backwards and sprawled on the ground. Loredan used his head to give himself a leg-up over the gate.
Well, that was easy; much easier than getting out of the City. Maybe it just seems easier after all the practice I’ve had. He walked briskly down the lane without looking back and kept going until he reached the main road, where there was an old mortgage-stone sticking out of the hedge. He sat down on that and took a deep breath. He wasn’t shaking or shivering. He felt fine.
Quick check; alive and walking, not cut about at all, no broken ribs or head injuries. Can’t complain about that, now can you? There’s a couple of dead men back there who’d give their right arms to be in your position. He stood up and started to walk down the road, for all the world as if he was off to the village to buy fish. And everything I am is coming with me, he thought. Like the last time, I suppose, except I’ve been spared a swim in cold water, and last time I ended up coming here. Won’t make that mistake again.
As he walked, he considered whether it was a true analogy. After all, it was absolutely certain that Gorgas and the Scona army would sooner or later come back, to starve or slash the survivors out of his house. If they chose the latter course, then it was fairly certain there’d be nothing to come back to; they’d set fire to the thatch and shoot them down as they came scampering out, like rabbits flushed out of a burry. But if they surrendered peacefully, there might not be too much damage done - except that then he’d have to go and be polite to his brother if he wanted his house back, and that was more effort than anything was worth. If he managed to find the boy, he could have the place, although he hadn’t seen or heard anything of him since Gorgas’ visit; either he’d got himself killed by straggling halberdiers, or he’d taken off to Town and caught a ship to the Island (as I told him to, being a melodramatic idiot. Oh, well.) It’d be bad if he’d got himself killed, after escaping from the City and the annihilation of all his family; for a while there, Bardas had fooled himself into thinking that there was some purpose behind his survival, that all the effort and luck expended on bringing him here must mean something. Truth is, I didn’t escape at all the last time, because I came here.
He stopped for a moment and looked back. Leaving home, saying goodbye for the last time, wasn’t something the Loredan family had ever done particularly well; their exits tended to be hurried, botched affairs, framed by fire and the sword and the imminent danger of getting caught. He crouched down on his heels, tucked into the hedge to disguise his outline, and tried to think of some way of doing it properly, but he lacked any sort of frame of reference and gave up. For him, of course, leaving home always seemed to carry with it unpleasant associations of his brother Gorgas; that first departure from the Mesoge, the strange and sudden appearances of Gorgas Loredan in the last night in Perimadeia, and now this pantomime in a dripping hedge. There seemed to be no end to the places he could render uninhabitable for himself, but always there Gorgas seemed to be, rolling up like the constable on market day to move him along.
I should have killed him while I had the chance.
Bardas listened to the echo of that sentiment in his mind, and grinned. It was true, he’d come very close, but that wasn’t the same thing as actually performing the irrevocable act. Home had been Gorgas’ fault, no doubt about that; Gorgas had turned him out of the Mesoge as surely as if he’d been the landlord’s bailiff, and as a direct result of that, he’d gone to war on the plainspeople with his Uncle Maxen. But there the chain was broken. He could blame Gorgas for putting him there, but not for what he’d done with his own hands, or for the consequences of those irrevocable actions. Whatever else he might have done, Gorgas hadn’t performed the act that burnt down Perimadeia. It’d be wrong, wrong on a Gorgas Loredan level of malfeasance, to punish Gorgas for something he’d done himself.
The chain was broken; but here he was, nevertheless. It was a part of it that he couldn’t make fit, as if a piece was missing or a page had dropped out. And yes, here he was.
Well, that was something he could alter. He cleared his mind, as if he was putting away his tools at the end of a long day, and considered where he should go next.