The Belly of the Bow (28 page)

‘I see,’ the boy said. ‘Did you ever make any like that?’

Loredan nodded. ‘I made a real beauty once, long ago. It pulled close on a hundred pounds, but it shot like it was twice as strong. And you’d never be able to pull it far enough to break it; it’d just keep on bending and bending. I’ve never made one that good since,’ he added. ‘Pity, really.’

‘Have you still got it?’

‘No, I made it for my brother. When I tried to make a better one for myself it just snapped, and I’d run out of that particular grade of horn, so I stopped bothering. Not that it matters. I make good bows but I’m only a fair-average shot, while my brother’s a high-class archer. Now then, where are we? Another two inches and we’re there.’

When the tillering was finished, Loredan fitted the bow with a proper three-ply hemp string of the right length, and they went out into the yard to shoot it in. The boy dived into the woodshed and came out staggering under the weight of the heavy straw target boss, which he hung by a chain from a spike driven into the lowest branch of the apple tree beside the well. He got out of the way and Loredan, standing twenty yards or so back, drew and loosed in one steady movement. The arrowhead, a slim bodkinhead shaped like a narrow leaf, passed through the straw as if it was nothing but a patch of low cloud up in the hills, ripping the fletching feathers off until only the end of the nock was visible in the straw.

‘Not bad,’ Loredan said. ‘It kicks a bit in the handle, but I can’t help that. After I’ve shot it in we’ll slap some beeswax on it and call it done.’

He paced out fifty yards and shot the rest of the dozen arrows, ending up with a group about eighteen inches wide, about a foot low and a foot to the left of the middle of the target. His next group was fairly central but more open, and the third dozen was distinctly ragged, with two arrows missing the outer painted ring and only just clipping the outer edge of the straw.

‘Can I have a go?’ the boy asked.

Loredan shook his head. ‘This is an eighty-five-pound bow,’ he said, ‘you’d do yourself an injury trying to draw it. And even this is on the light side for a military bow. Fetch the arrows for me while I go back to seventy-five.’

At seventy-five yards the group was fuzzy verging on non-existent, and one arrow missed the target completely and went sailing through the branches of the tree and over the hedge into the orchard. Loredan swore.

‘We’d better go and find that one,’ he said, stepping between the bow and the string and bending the bow against his knee until he could slip the loop off the top nock. ‘Let’s just see how much of a set this thing’s taken.’ He laid the bow on the ground and stepped back. ‘Half an inch,’ he said, ‘could be worse.’ The boy looked again, and this time noticed that the bow was no longer straight; it had followed the string just a little. ‘That’ll be more like three-quarters of an inch by the time it’s properly shot in,’ Loredan said, ‘which’ll bring the weight down to nearer eighty. Nothing you can do about that.’

They found the lost arrow about a hundred yards down the orchard; it had hit a tree and splintered. Loredan studied the break for a moment, decided that it was beyond repair and flexed it over his thumbs against the break, snapping off the head. ‘Job for you tomorrow,’ he said. ‘Drill the broken shaft out of the socket and salvage the flights and the nock. I’ll get the beeswax and the oil, you get the stove lit, we’ll put a couple of coats of wax on the bow and it can cure overnight.’

The boy noticed the beginnings of a big purple bruise on the inside of Loredan’s left arm, three inches or so above the wrist; he also had a raw patch on his left forefinger, where the fletchings had ridden over it as the arrow was released, ripping the skin. Loredan didn’t seem to have noticed; he ignored the marks the way a woman takes no notice of the scratches left by her cat’s ever-open claws, and if challenged replies that it’s just the cat’s way of being friendly.
If I become a master bowyer I suppose I’ll end up all scraped and battered too
, he reflected.

They finished the bow with hot wax mixed with a little oil, wrapped the handle in cord and hung it horizontally on a rack to dry; then the boy went back to slicing the bark off a rough stave with the drawknife, and Loredan started roughing out another billet. Neither of them spoke for about an hour, until the boy had finished the stave he was working on and brought the drawknife over to be sharpened.

‘Does it ever bother you,’ he asked, ‘making weapons that people kill each other with?’

Loredan shook his head. ‘Not in the least,’ he said. ‘Compared with what I used to do for a living, it’s blissfully innocent. And what I used to do never really bothered me all that much, or at least not in that way. Most of the time I was too busy worrying about whether I’d be alive at the end of the next fight.’

‘And before that,’ the boy persisted. ‘When you were in the army. Did it bother you then?’

‘Sometimes. But not very often, for the same reason.’ He picked up the drawknife and tested the edge on the ball of his thumb. ‘And every time, it bothered me a little less. Besides, it isn’t really like that in the army. Most of it’s very, very boring; boredom enlivened by rare interludes of extreme terror. But the more you do something, the easier it gets, and the easier it becomes to do something a little bit worse - it’s gradual, you see, half an inch at a time, and you don’t realise it’s happening to you until it’s done and you reach the point where quite suddenly you can’t go any further without snapping.’

‘Uncle Gorgas, what a surprise. I thought you weren’t going to bother with me any more.’

Gorgas sat down on the bed and tried to keep from gagging. He’d been in some foul places in his time, but the smell here was unbearable. ‘I never said that,’ he replied. ‘Or if I did, it was only because you’d annoyed me and made me lose my temper. Do you like living like this, by the way?’

Iseutz smiled. ‘No,’ she replied. ‘I think it’s disgusting. Don’t you?’

Gorgas sighed. ‘I’m going to tell the warders to get this place cleaned up, whether you like it or not. It can’t be healthy, for one thing.’

‘But Uncle,’ she replied with a hurt note in her voice, ‘that’s why I want it like this. So I can catch some horrible disease and die, and then I’ll be out of the way. You see? I’m just trying to be nice.’

Gorgas held up his hand. ‘Not today,’ he said, ‘I’m not in the mood. I’ve been chasing Shastel halberdiers up and down the mountains, I’ve had your mother on at me, I can’t remember offhand the last time I had any sleep, and as soon as I’m through here I’ve got to go back to the mountains to collect your uncle Bardas and bring him back here, whether he likes it or not. So don’t start, all right?’

‘Or?’ Iseutz sat down on the floor opposite him and studied him. ‘Or what? Come on, let’s have the threat.’

‘Just - don’t start.’ Gorgas closed his eyes and breathed out deeply through his nose. ‘Another little job your mother gave me was to deal with you. You’re an embarrassment to her, apparently. As is your uncle. And I’m not sure she approves of me, either.’

‘Oh? Why not?’

‘She reckons I’m not businesslike enough.’

The girl nodded. ‘She’s right,’ she said. ‘You don’t know when to cut your losses. You throw good money after bad, or good time at any rate. You can’t see when the game’s not worth the candle. You—’

Gorgas opened his eyes. ‘All right, that’ll do,’ he sighed. ‘You’ve made your point. Actually, I don’t mind you saying that. It’s just another way of saying that I don’t give up on things that matter to me.’

She looked at him, her head slightly on one side. ‘That’s true,’ she said. ‘Oh, I don’t know about the things-that-matter-to-you part, because I don’t know what you mean by “things that matter”. But it’s true, you don’t give up easily.’

‘Thank you.’

‘I’m not sure I meant it nicely. And you certainly don’t let little things like guilt or ordinary common decency stand in your way, I’ll say that for you.’

Gorgas yawned. ‘You know, this is the first real chance I’ve had to relax since that damned raiding party landed. I could probably get to like it in here; no hassles, no worries, nobody depending on me for anything. Perhaps next time Niessa tells me to do something, I’ll just refuse. If you take away the smell and the filth, it’s not a bad little place you’ve got here. Better than a muddy ditch under a wall, anyway.’

‘My heart bleeds,’ said Iseutz. ‘And you’re changing the subject.’

‘So what? You were insulting me.’

She shook her head. ‘No, I was trying to understand you. I want to understand you, you see. If I can understand you, and my mother, and the rest of the family, it might give me some clues about how I managed to turn out such a mess.’

Gorgas nodded. ‘That’s possible,’ he said. ‘So, what’s your point?’

‘Well.’ Iseutz thought for a moment. ‘Let’s see, we were talking about not knowing when to quit. Now then, I’d say that a man who’s killed his father and brother-in-law and tried to kill his sister and his brother because he was afraid of what they’d do to him if they realised he’d arranged for someone to rape his sister - I haven’t left anything out, have I? Only it’s quite a lot to have to remember.’

‘Go on,’ Gorgas said.

‘You’d have thought a man like that would give up on his family; you know, he’d come to the conclusion that probably the survivors wouldn’t want to have very much to do with him any more, and so he’d just go away and do something else. But not you. Not Gorgas Loredan. You brush all that stuff magnificently away. Stop cribbing, you say, you’re still on your feet, aren’t you? Let’s be friends.’ She grinned. ‘You know, in spite of everything, I can’t help admiring that.’

‘Like I said,’ Gorgas replied, looking away, ‘I don’t give up easily when it comes to things that matter to me. Like family. I keep going, I don’t listen till I’m hearing the answer I want to hear. You see, I’ve proved that people can change, and they can forgive, too. Look at your mother and me. And if we can do it, so can you. For pity’s sake, you’ve only got one life. Why ruin it over something you can’t do anything about?’

‘Ah.’ She shook her head. ‘I’m like you, you see, persistent. When it comes to things that matter to me. Like killing Uncle Bardas. When it really matters to you, there’s nothing you can’t do something about.’

A mouse poked its head out from a crack between two stones in the wall, looked round and scuttled across the floor. With a quick, fluent movement Gorgas pulled his purse from his coat pocket and threw it hard, hitting the mouse’s head and killing it instantly. The girl glowered at him.

‘What did you do that for?’ she demanded.

Gorgas shrugged. ‘It was a mouse,’ he said. ‘What about it?’

‘You don’t kill things for no reason,’ the girl replied angrily. ‘You don’t kill things just because of what they are. You just don’t.’

‘That’s nice coming from you. You want to kill your own uncle.’

‘Yes,’ Iseutz replied, ‘for a reason.’ She got onto her hands and knees, crawled across the floor and picked the mouse up by its tail. ‘A very good reason. Just killing things because they’re there is a waste.’

Gorgas pulled a face. ‘Big deal,’ he said. ‘So it’s a waste of mice. There isn’t exactly a shortage.’

‘It’s a waste of life,’ she replied. ‘That’s bad. I was starting to think I understood you, but maybe I got you wrong.’ She dangled the mouse above her head, reached up with her mouth, chewed off its head and swallowed it. ‘Killing for food is all right,’ she said.

Gorgas looked away. ‘You’re disgusting,’ he said. ‘You sit there talking like a rational person, and then you do something like that.’

‘Look who’s talking,’ she replied. ‘You’re the one that killed it. What’s more disgusting, killing or eating?’

Gorgas swallowed a couple of times; he badly wanted to be sick, but didn’t allow himself the luxury. ‘So when you kill Bardas, you’re going to eat him, right?’ he said. ‘And what about the skin and the bones? You aren’t going to waste those, surely? What are you going to make out of them?’

Iseutz considered for a moment. ‘That’s a good point,’ she said. ‘I’ll have to give it careful thought. Of course,’ she added, ‘I’m not particularly good with my hands these days, but I might be able to manage something.’ She held up the mouse again, but before she could eat any more, Gorgas jumped to his feet and slapped it out of her hand. She spat at him and recoiled, like a cat that’s had its kill taken away.

‘You’re disgusting,’ Gorgas repeated. ‘You must take after your father.’

‘I wouldn’t know,’ she answered sweetly. ‘He died before I was born, remember?’

‘Can we just go through it one more time?’ Vetriz asked patiently. ‘After all, this is an important part of my mercantile education. We’re going to buy salted fish.’

‘That’s right.’

‘We’re going to buy salted fish,’ Vetriz repeated, ‘and take it halfway across the world to the island where we live, which sits in the middle of the sea—’