Read That Old Cape Magic Online
Authors: Richard Russo
, he wrote back in his next long letter.
You never say dumb things
.
One Sunday night Laura awoke before dawn, as she often did on days when she had a big exam or presentation. Shed forgotten to turn her computer off the night before, and now noticed that Sunny was online. Shed put him on her IM buddy list, but until that moment hed never actually used it.
Sunny, is that you?
In California it was 2:00 a.m., not so very late for a college student, but still.
Then, after a long beat:
Laura?
How are you?
An even longer beat, then:
A terrible thing has happened. My brother has been arrested
.
Laura watched the blinking cursor and had just about concluded that he wasnt going to say anything more when words started flying onto the screen in a torrent. His brother and a friend had broken into a house in Beverly Hills. A girl theyd met at a club lived there and told them no one would be home. She was angry with her parents, whod left for Europe without her, fobbing her off on an aunt in Brentwood for a whole month. Shed given Sunnys brother the security code and told him to take everything. Except it turned out she didnt really live there, that the people who did werent her parents and werent in Europe, that the code shed given them didnt even have the right number of digits. Sunnys parents had had to borrow money against their house to get his brother out of jail. The story had been in the newspaper, the family disgraced. Sunny was afraid his father, his health precarious as always, might now take his life for the shame of it. His mother was talking about moving back to Korea. She wanted Sunny to leave Stanford immediately and come home.
Your brother has disgraced himself, not you, not your family
, Laura wrote.
If you leave Stanford Ill never forgive you
.
Again, she watched the blinking cursor for a long time. Finally, he came back.
You are right, of course. May I tell my mother you said this?
I hope you will
.
Please dont tell Kelsey
Of course I wont
, she promised.
Hey, you know what? Im proud of you. You wrote a spontaneous message. It contained actual mistakes, a misspelling, even. You can rest easy, though. You didnt say anything foolish
.
He wrote back,
The thing I wanted to write but did not
that was the foolish thing
.
Laura didnt have to ask what that thing was.
Ill tell you, but only if you promise not to judge me too harshly, Sunny told Joy when she asked what he was doing in D.C. The day had turned hot, and Griffin took off his sport coat and loosened his tie. Guests were now gathered on the lawn, waiting for the wedding party to emerge from the hotel. Sunny had walked with them to the last row of folding chairs when Joy waved him over, giving her a graceful kiss on the cheek and shaking Griffins hand with firm forthrightness, though neither gesture should have been particularly surprising. The kid had graduated from Stanford, after all, then gone to law school at Georgetown, so there was no reason for him to be shy or awkward anymore. Ive become two terrible things, he said with a wry grin. A lawyer and a lobbyist.
Though not so very terrible, of course. Under cross-examination Sunny confessed that he worked for a liberal law firm that handled public-interest litigation. He himself was one of its immigration specialists.
Im sorry I didnt recognize you at the restaurant last night, Griffin said.
I shouldve introduced myself, Sunny told him. I was pretty sure it was you, but when I didnt see Mrs. Griffin
The last time Griffin had seen him was at Lauras thirteenth birthday party. Joy had had to banish him from the kitchen, where he wanted to be put to work. Youre a guest, she told him. Join the others and have fun. The one thing the poor boy had no clue how to do.
I wish it would get dark, Griffin recalled telling Joy. I cant bear to watch this.
As instructed, Sunny had joined the others on the patio but seemed to have little in common with the other boys, whod congregated, as boys will, near the food, strutting and joking and pushing and checking out the giggling girls whod cleverly staked out the punch bowl. Sunny had positioned himself in the middle, as if he represented a third gender, smiling broadly at nothing in particular, his head bobbing arrhythmically to the horrible boy-band music, pretending, Griffin was sure, to enjoy himself.
In fact, watching the kid reminded Griffin of his first boy-girl party at a similar age. He shouldve known how to behave, since his parents were forever throwing parties back then, though of course those were for adults only. He was expected to make a brief appearance after the guests started arriving and then to disappear, which was why, he supposed, he never learned the requisite skills. His first junior-high party had been a nightmare. Not only did all the other kids know one another, it also seemed like theyd been going to parties like this for years. Griffin remembered positioning himself where he could see the clock and will it to move. At one point, after he and the others had filled their paper plates with food at the buffet table and eaten standing up, a few parents hovering around, everyone, it seemed, began trooping downstairs into the rec room, where music was playing on a portable record player. Griffin was still on the stairs when the lights went out. It had taken his eyes a minute or two to adjust, and when they finally did he discovered, to his mortification, that all the other kids were couples necking in the dark. One boy he knew had his hand under a girls shirt. What are
you
doing down here? came a voice in the dark, and hed known with terrible certainty that he was the one being addressed.
I didnt know
, hed stammered.
Yeah, well, now you do.
And thered been snickers, lots of them, to help propel him back up the stairs.
Poor kid
, Griffin remembered thinking as he regarded Sunny.
He must be suffering just like that
.
Why dont you go somewhere, then, Joy told him. Youre making me more nervous than he is.
Hed gladly taken her advice and gone out for a drink with Tommy, returning just as the party was breaking up. Sunny Kim, still smiling, was among the last to leave, and he shook Griffins hand solemnly. It was a wonderful party, he said. You have a lovely home.
What kind of thirteen-year-old says, You have a lovely home? he asked Joy later, as they were cleaning up. In his minds eye he could see the poor kid practicing the line until his parents were sure hed got it right.
We
do
have a lovely home, Joy pointed out. And he
did
have a good time. Quit worrying. Theyre just kids. They have to figure these things out.
Thats the problem, he said. They already have it all figured out. Whos cool, whos not, whos in, whos out. Nobody had to teach them, either.
Sunnys parents lived in a modest stucco ranch on the other side of Shoreham Drive, in a mixed-race neighborhood where single-level houses, wedged in tightly together, were cheaper and sported carports rather than garages. On the Griffins side of Shoreham, the homes, while not extravagant, were more likely to be larger split-levels with attached garages, with real lawns instead of what on the other side was euphemistically described as desert landscaping. Every second or third house on Griffins block had a pool. And the neighborhood was white, of course. How much of this had Sunnys mother prepared him for before allowing him to attend Lauras party? How, he now wondered, had he been invited in the first place? Had Joy insisted, or had Laura done it on her own? He was the smartest kid in her class, and had been since grade school. His name was always coming up in conversation, though usually the subject was honors and awards, not romance. Did somebody dance with him at least?
Yes, his wife told him, clearly annoyed now. Laura did. And Kelsey.
What was vague in Griffins recollection was the exact chronology of all this. By that birthday party he and Joy must have already been making plans to leave L.A., hadnt they? Was it that very night that had firmed his resolve to look seriously for a teaching position back East? No, that was a trick of memory, surely. Yet he did seem to remember not liking Lauras friends, especially that cluster of boys, and one in particular who, smirking, had elbowed another and pointed to Sunny Kim standing alone on the patio. But thered been other factors. The old days, wild and free, finally seemed to be over. Even Griffin had to admit it. Lauras birth was part of that, but by then hed begun to suspect there was something wrong with Tommy, whose second, short-lived marriage had quickly ended up on the rocks and who now was drinking more heavily. Griffin was pretty sure the drinking was more effect than cause, and Tommy admitted as much but claimed it wasnt something he wanted to talk about. All of which put a strain on their writing partnership. Theyd always been good at different things. Tommy, smooth and personable and quick-witted, loved to pitch ideas. He always saw a story in terms of its overall structure, leaving Griffin to write the dialogue, make sure the scenes were alive and the narrative tracked. But now, with Tommy viewing things through a prism of empty vodka bottles, Griffin found himself doing more and more of the work, not really even trusting Tommy to do the pitch without him.
Just as troubling, Joy seemed actually to be settling into their lovely home. Now
he
was the one reminding
her
of the Great Truro Accord, that the idea had always been to sell the Valley house and use the equity for a down payment back East. Finally, in the second decade of their marriage, he was beginning to understand that his wifes natural inclination was toward contentment. Their present house and their life in L.A. had grown on her. She adored Laura so completely that their daughter seemed like the only thing that had ever been missing from their lives. And though she never said so, he also suspected she wasnt sure she wanted to be so far away from her family, on the other side of the country. It was this, of course, that he truly resented. Thered been a time when Harve and Jill had themselves talked of returning to the East, but Harve was now talking about investing in a planned community called Windward Estates (Breakwind Estates, Griffin had immediately dubbed it), where they could map out their entire future in advance. On special occasions they could still entertain the family in the big common areas that centered around a mammoth pool and clubhouse, while they downsized into a smaller house that Jill wouldnt have to work so hard to maintain. Later, they could downsize further into a condo, then into the attached assisted-living facility, then into the best nursing home money could buy, all right there in Breakwind.
Hed described all this to his son-in-law on the phone with great enthusiasm. What if you buy in and then change your mind? Griffin asked.
We wont, Harve said. Not once its made up. Havent you figured this out about us yet?
Actually, he had.
It was possible Griffin was misremembering, but it seemed to him now that the need to break free of Joys family, to make the Great Truro Accord work for him instead of against him, began to crystallize in his mind the night of Lauras birthday party, when Sunny Kim told him they had a lovely home. He knew that if he wasnt careful he was going to be trapped in that lovely home for the duration. Had he and Joy argued later that night? He couldnt recall. Hed recently received an offer to teach screenwriting in a fledgling film program in the Cal State system. Had Joy encouraged him to consider it, in order to give up screenwriting (as theyd always planned) but stay in California (as they hadnt)?
What did it matter? Theyd done what theyd done, and it was all a long time ago. Little Sunny Kim now stood before them, a grown man. Laura had become a radiant young woman. His longtime agent and friend, whod once terrorized their daughter with his canine antics, had woken up dead. Jesus.
A few yards from the ceremonial arch, a perspiring string quartet stopped abruptly, mid-Pachelbel, on some invisible signal, and began a somnambulant rendition of the Wedding March. Everyone turned to watch the wedding party descend the porch, two by two, and wind down the sloping lawn. Andy, Lauras boyfriend, had been commissioned to handle the photography, and he trotted halfway up to catch each bridesmaid and groomsman as they passed.
Lauras friend is nice, Griffin overheard Sunny tell Joy. I think shes in love.
There she is, she whispered to Griffin when Laura appeared on the porch, radiant and squinting into the sun, on the arm of a burly groomsman half a head shorter than she. Partway down the lawn she snagged a stiletto heel on the uneven ground, nearly rolling an ankle, and Griffin saw Sunny flinch, but she quickly righted herself and told her escort (unless Griffins long-distance lip-reading was mistaken) that she was a klutz and always had been.
When Kelsey emerged on her fathers arm, Joy took Griffins hand and said, Oh, my. Look how beautiful she is.
Yes, Sunny Kim agreed, but he wasnt looking at the bride.
7
Halfway There
Each of the large round tables in the reception tent was set up for twelve, but table seventeen had only eight actual leftovers. The resulting gaps in the seating were an additional impediment to conversation among these strangers. Well, not complete strangers. Griffin was surprised to recognize the unhappy couple from the Olde Cape Lounge. The woman was dressed more modestly today, and her face immediately lit up when she saw him, as if his unexpected presence was further evidence that the world was a marvelous place, that it offered genuine miracles on a daily basis. Her companion seemed to have forgotten him completely. (We met where?
Oh, right,
that
fuckin place.) Hed worn a tie for the ceremony but took it off now in the tent, unbuttoning the top two buttons on his shirt as if to allow his chest hair to breathe. The tables extreme distance from the bridal party wasnt lost on him, though he seemed cheered by its proximity to the tents back flap, on the other side of which the caterers were scurrying. Maybe well get fed first, at least, he grunted in Griffins direction, mistakenly concluding, just as he had the night before, that they were natural allies in an otherwise hostile world.
Were Marguerite and Harold, the woman announced when everyone was seated and Sunny Kim suggested they all say something about themselves, where they lived and their relationship to the bride or groom. Marguerite owned a shop called Ritas Flower Cart in the San Fernando Valley, not far from where Griffin and Joy had lived. Shed moved to California, she said, after she and her husband decided to call it quits. Only when Harold interrupted to say, again mostly to Griffin, Dont ever think a woman will go away just because you divorce her, did he realize this was the ex-husband shed alluded to. And only when she said shed bought a house right around the corner from the brides parents and described it a little did he and Joy realize that it was their old house. Theyd moved to Connecticut before the closing, so theyd never met the buyer.
At any rate Marguerite and the Apples had become such good friends that Kelsey now referred to her as Aunt Rita. Harold, she told the table, hooking her arm through his, lived in Boston (Quincy, he corrected) and worked in law enforcement (Private security), so when she heard the wedding was going to be on Cape Cod, where the grooms parents had a house, she called Harold out of the bluewithout even thinking about it, really, the phone just suddenly in her handand asked if he wanted to go to a wedding in June, to which hed replied, As long as its not ours. That sporty riposte had reminded Marguerite that one of the things shed always liked about Harold was his dry sense of humor. So shed flown out a few days early, and theyd spent the time getting re-acquainted, and it had been, she said, scrunching up her shoulders as shed done the evening before when she decided on a cosmo, really kind of romantic. She turned to Harold, clearly hoping he wouldnt correct her here as well. Yeah, well, sex was never the problem, he conceded.
I bet I know what was, Joy murmured, loud enough for Griffin, on her left, to hear and possibly Sunny, on her right, too, though he gave no sign of it. As Marguerite was talking, a bottle of champagne was brought for toasts, and Sunny uncorked it and poured full flutes (ladies first, to Harolds clear chagrin), shorting Harold just a bit with the last of the bottle. Intentionally, Griffin hoped, but thought probably not.
A precedent had apparently been set for the women at the table to speak for the men, and Joy went next. As she talked, Griffin found himself thinking how different it wouldve been if he was the one giving the synopsis. He had no intention of correcting her, ŕ la Harold, but he did feel a stirring of guilty sympathy for him. Joy explained that their daughter, Laura, was the maid of honor and had been best friends with Kelsey, the bride, since they were girls, and of course she and Griffin had been friends with the Apples when they lived in L.A. This last bit struck him as more convenient than true. Sure, theyd all been friendly enough but never actually socialized, he and Joy having had little in common with Kelseys accountant father and evangelical mother, though Joy had been willing to suffer her religiosity given that the girls were best friends.
But never mind L.A. It was how Joy characterized their present lives, though factually accurate, that really rankled him. Griffin, she told the group, was a college English professor (Well have to watch our grammar, then, wont we? said Marguerite, again scrunching up her shoulders), making no mention of his screen-writing career. Okay, granted, he was partly to blame, since normally he preferred not to bring that up. People immediately wanted to know what movie stars you knew and whom you had to know to gain entry into such a glitzy profession. They also were curious about what movies Griffin had written, and then hed have to admit that only one or two of his and Tommys really stood up. Toward the end theyd been reduced to writing low-budget, made-for-TV movies, so better, really, not even to open the door.
Yet in this instance it seemed that Joy wasnt so much acting in deference to his wishes as simply stating what she considered to be the facts. As part of a past theyd by mutual consent put behind them, screenwriting was no longer germane. Which was now also why Sids call had initially slipped her mind. It was even possible she thought Sids death meant not just the end of Sid but of Griffins screenwriting career, the last dangling thread neatly snipped. He was now only one thing, a professor of English at a very good liberal arts college, whereas before hed been two. She herself was the assistant dean of admissions, she informed them, and this, though it was the precise, unembellished truth, annoyed him as well. After all, he was tenured and she wasnt, but to hear her tell it, anybody would have thought she outranked him. That sort of petty caviling was worthy of his mother, of course, and all the more
un
worthy of him, because Joy hadnt meant it that way at all. Still, he was relieved when his wife let her voice fall, and the attention shifted to the two hefty lasses across the table.
They were from Liverpool, and their accents nearly impenetrable. Their spirits were extraordinarily high, even for the present occasion, and so far theyd giggled enthusiastically at everything anybody said, as if prior to taking their seats theyd been informed that the other guests at this table were all professional comedians. Griffins experience of lesbians was largely limited to the academic varietya grim, angry, humorless lotso he was unprepared for these girls good cheer. They demonstrated that British habit of turning simple, declarative statements into questions and then waiting a beat, as if for a response. Theyd known the bride for years and years, hadnt they? Ever since shed come to Norwich, to the University of East Anglia, that is, where she hadnt known a soul, had she? But theyd gotten her sorted quick enough. That first Friday afternoon after class theyd pulled her out of the residence hall by force and hauled her down to their favorite pub for a pint, and then introduced her to all the other good pubs and also their
chooms (Their
what? Griffin thought.
Oh, right, their
chums), and when the holidays came round theyd dragged her home to meet their mums and dads, and it had all been ever so much
foon
, hadnt it? Still, you couldve knocked them down with a feather when they got invitations to the wedding, because they hadnt neither of them ever come over to the States before, had they?
By the time the girls finished, they were holding hands, which Marguerite apparently took for a show of moral support between foreigners, because she asked if either of them was married or engaged.
Booth
of us, one of them replied, giving her partners hand a squeeze, to each
oother,
as if to admit that their sexual preference might be a local custom that hadnt yet made its way across the pond. Apropos of nothing but her own embarrassment at not recognizing them as a couple, Marguerite then remarked shed always wanted to go to England but never had, the reason beingand here she elbowed Haroldthat nobodyd ever been nice enough to take her. Women, Harold said, turning again to Griffin. They just never can give it a rest.
Marguerite nudged him, noticing hed already drained most of his champagne. Thats for the toasts.
Complete this sentence and win a prize, Harold told her. Give
it
a
Having no women to speak for them, the final twoSunny and a man in a wheelchairhad no alternative but to plead their own cases. The latter had a lopsided smile, if thats what it was and not a grimace, that bespoke a recent stroke. During the previous introductions hed stared steadfastly at his cutlery as if he expected the utensils to become dangerously animated. There was a vacant chair, complete with place setting, on either side of him, suggesting that everyone had concluded his condition might be contagious. In a loud, braying voice he announced that he was the grooms sixth-grade math teacher, which cracked the lesbians up more than anything anybodyd said so far.
Animal House,
Griffin whispered to Joy, who, no surprise, didnt get the reference. Though she enjoyed movies, even their most iconic moments left no lasting impression on her, and shed always considered his own ability to quote such scenes verbatim as rather perverse.
Which left Sunny, who managed to say only his name and that he lived in Washington, D.C., before the DJ chose that moment to conduct a sound check of his nearby equipment. Harold swiveled in his chair to watch, a clear indication that he couldnt care less who Sunny was or what hed done to be stranded at the misfit table. A loud peal of laughter from the front of the tent attracted the attention of the lesbians, who stood to applaud something, Griffin couldnt tell what, and the man in the wheelchair resumed staring at his knife and fork. The Griffins, of course, didnt need to be introduced to Sunny, which left only Marguerite to give him her undivided attention. Go on, she said. I want to hear
all
about you, and if Griffin hadnt already decided to like her, he would have then. But the best man had risen to give the first of the afternoons strained comic toasts, and Sunny, ever good-natured, turned his chair around to watch and listen.
By the time they were invited to raise their glasses in a toast to the bride and groom, Harolds glass was empty. Perhaps to emphasize this fact, after everyone else had drunk to the toast, Sunny rose to his feet, his glass held high, and proposed a toast of his own for table seventeen. Here stop and spend a social hour in harmless mirth and fun, he intoned, grinning, for some reason, at Griffin and then Marguerite. Let friendship reign. Be just and kind and evil speak of none. After which they all leaned forward to clink glasses, and Griffin found the
ting
of Harolds empty flute against all the other full ones particularly rewarding.
What an odd toast, Joy whispered. Do you suppose its Korean?
I dont think so, Griffin said. It felt not only familiar but recently so. He could feel the dim memory spooling toward the front of his brain, but then his cell phone vibrated and it was gone. Again? Joy said in disbelief when he showed her who it was.
Ill take it outside, he said, getting to his feet. Mom, hold on, okay?
It took him a minute to get out of the tent, and when he put the phone to his ear, he realized that his mother, unaccustomed to being told to wait, had been talking the whole time. Mom, I havent heard a word of this. Is everything all right?
Of course everythings all right.
Then
Have you done it yet?
Done what?
Put your father in the drink.
Im sorry?
Scattered his ashes. Laid him to rest.
Not yet, no.
I think you should put him on the bay side. He was that kind of man, dont you think? Wordsworth was his favorite poet. Emotion recollected in tranquility and all that nonsense, which all boiled down to being afraid of the surf. He hated being tossed about, feeling the power of something greater than himself.
The music from inside the tent ratcheted up now, and Griffin turned his back (as if that would help) and covered his other ear with his hand (which did help, but not much).
What is that awful racket? his mother wanted to know.
Music. Im at the wedding, Mom.
What wedding? You told me you were there to scatter your fathers ashes.
I told you several things. You remembered one of them.
Somewhere on the North Shore, I think. Maybe Sandwich.
Thats barely on the Cape, Griffin said. You hated Sandwich. We might as well put him in the Canal.
I dont know who you mean by
we
. Im simply making a suggestion. The decision is yours.
Ill think about it, he said, and should have hung up right then. Instead he asked, Do you remember the Browning family? From the Cape?
Dont tell me you ran into them.
Which was surprising. He hadnt expected the name to register, and that it did immediately made him curious. Are we talking about the same people? I mustve been eleven or twelve and
Twelve. They were in the cottage across the way. There was a horrible muddy playground in the center of things, and they were diagonal. Near Orleans, wasnt it? Anyway, I wouldnt put your father there. Think North Shore. Find some calm, brackish water and pour him in. Hed prefer it. Actually, the Canal isnt such a bad idea
Mom, about the Brownings
You abandoned your father and me the entire two weeks. All we heard about was Steven Browning. Your father thought it meant you were gay.
Peter, he corrected her, annoyed that both Tommy and his father had leapt to the same erroneous conclusion. Was loneliness in a twelve-year-old so difficult to diagnose?
Dont you remember how you melted down that last night when we insisted you spend it with us?
You
insisted?
And the tantrum you threw at the restaurant? The Dry Martini? No, thats not right. The
Something
Martini, it was called. Anyway, dont tell me youve forgotten how I sat up with you all night, trying to console you?
Youre making this up, right?
And the next morning you refused to get in the car. God, what a little pill you were.