Mkhulu-Baas personally came running and calling out my surname. The policemen were already waiting for me outside his office. Without a word he pushed me to the nearest policeman who pushed me to his superior who pointed me forward. The soccer game had stopped and everybody was watching as I was frogmarched to one of the police vans.
At the police station I was led into a room where an array of white policemen in well-pressed military-khaki uniforms were sitting on chairs as if waiting for a performance. The only black person in the
room besides me was Sergeant April, who was my interpreter. They began to question me, at first asking innocuous questions about what I ate in the morning and what subjects I liked best at school. Then they asked me about a white man who went to see my father at home. The only white man I knew who had ever been to my home was Mr Mather and I told them so.
âJy sal begin om te lieg, jy sal begin om te lieg,'
they all said in unison. You are beginning to lie. You are beginning to lie.
I was not lying and I was not scared of them. They looked too beautiful to instil fear in me. Somehow they reminded me of the Afrikaans Taalfees that we used to have when I was still in Dobsonville, Soweto, at Lodirile Lower Primary, at Nakhile Lower Primary and at eNkolweni Higher Primary. It was the day to celebrate the Afrikaans language so the students spoke in Afrikaans all day long and dressed up in Afrikaans traditional costumes, with girls in their
kappies
and boys in their bush khakis. We sang Afrikaans songs such as
Hasie, hoekom is jou stert so kort
and recited Afrikaans poems like
Muskietejag, Jou vabond, wag ek sal jou kry
.
The angry policemen reminded me of bit players at an Afrikaans Taalfees.
Jy sal begin om te lieg. Jy sal begin om te lieg â¦
rang in my ears even after they had returned me to school.
My mother worried that something was going to happen to me. Once the Boers have their eye on you, she said, they never give up. They would come back for me even though I was not involved in any serious political activity save to yell
Mayibuye iAfrika
and
From Cape to Cairo
at innocent white motorists. They would make life hell for me if only to get at my father.
âThe boy must go stay with his father in Basutoland,' my mother said.
I dreaded those words. What about Keneiloe? What about my friend, Cousin Mlungisi? What about my two friends from next door, from the Magengenene family, Xolile and Nikelo? What about St Teresa? I was doing Standard Six and was looking forward to attending St Teresa Secondary School the following year. Like Nikelo before me. And like Xolile. They had told me so many stories about boarding school life at St Teresa. Please God, let me not be banished to Basutoland. I promise
I'll never do bad things again. I'll never steal and lie again. Just don't let me be banished to Basutoland.
But the only response to my prayers was one catastrophe after another. First, Bomvana and his gang stole my pigeons in the deep of the night. By the time I discovered the theft he was cooking them for dinner.
The second catastrophe: Diza, Mr Magengenene's big black Labrador Retriever, was hit by a car and I was to blame. I had taken it for a walk, in fact just to show it off, on the main road that led to the town and a speeding car mowed it down and never even stopped for a second. I can still see Tapo, Nikelo's mother, walking to the road where Diza lay dead. She was crying and sniffling softly and did not even look at me when I expressed my sorrow. She never spoke to me again after that. I could never forgive myself; this was the second dog associated with me to be hit by a car. I was still haunted by Rex. I wanted nothing to do with dogs ever again.
The third catastrophe was the beating that I got from Teboho Mohafa, Keneiloe's father. A group of us were playing on the road in front of the Mohafa yard. I picked up a stone and threw it at Keneiloe. She ran out of the way and challenged me to throw another one. I thought I would get her this time but she ducked and the stone hit her younger sister, Thabang, on the head. Blood spurted and she bawled in pain as she walked to her home. At first I thought I should follow her and apologise to Teboho and Hopestill. But on second thoughts I knew Teboho would kill me if I went there. So I did the next best thing; I ran home and hid under the bed.
In no time Teboho was knocking at my door holding Thabang's hand. Keneiloe was there too. He told my mother how I nearly killed his daughter. My mother yelled at me and promised him that she would punish me severely. But Teboho would have none of that. He wanted to give me a hiding himself. I stood in the middle of the living room and he took off his leather belt and lashed out at me. Keneiloe cried and told her daddy that we were playing, it was an accident. But Teboho continued to lash out at my buttocks and legs and shoulders. I dared not cry in the presence of Keneiloe, which made Tebobo madder. âHe is a stubborn boy too, a cheeky boy,' he kept on saying.
He lashed out again.
âIt's enough, Teboho, it's enough. You will kill my child,' my mother said, getting between me and Teboho. He was so angry he almost lashed out at my mother. But common sense prevailed and he walked out of the house with his daughters in tow.
âYou see what the Boers have done?' my mother cried. âNo man would come to my house to beat up my children if your father were here.'
It was my turn to comfort her and to apologise for what I had done.
âI know you were playing,' she said. âKeneiloe said it was an accident.'
The fourth and final catastrophe happened in December 1963. My friends from next door, Nikelo and Xolile, went to the mountain to be circumcised and initiated into manhood. That would not have been so bad in itself. After all, I only saw them during the June and December holidays since they spent all their lives at boarding schools. But my own Cousin Mlungisi decided to run to the mountain and join their circumcision school. According to custom, when a boy ran to the initiation school he could not leave, even if his parents wanted him back. He had to proceed with the ritual with the rest of the initiates. Not that Mr Tindleni wanted his son back. He was quite pleased that Cousin Mlungisi had saved his family all the trouble of arranging for his initiation at some future date. He was proud that his son was going to be a man, though he had not initially planned for the expensive ritual. My mother was worried that I would run to the mountain as well. And with my father absent, what would she do? She pleaded with me not to do so. Although I envied Cousin Mlungisi, I decided not to cause problems for my mother. I stayed at home and furiously wrote poems and short stories. I sent some of my stories to Mr Fihla who was a primary school teacher at KwaGcina. I had seen one of his stories published in
Wamba
and I hoped he would advise me on how to get published. Even as I wrote to him I felt like a traitor. Mr Fihla had been one of the supporters of Headman Senoamali in that civil matter in which my father sued Senoamali for calling him a communist to the District Commissioner and Nelson Mandela came from Johannesburg to handle the case. Yes, the haunted times when Senoamali sent his stick
to knock at my window at night. Mr Fihla was reputed to be one of the people who had waged a campaign against my father until he left KwaGcina.
Apparently Mr Fihla held no grudges because he replied with a lot of useful advice and I sent my story,
Igqirha laseMvubase
â The Medicine Man of Mvubase â to
Wamba
for their consideration.
After a month or so my friends returned from the initiation school and festivities were organised in their honor. Cattle were slaughtered, and each graduate recited a poem he had composed in praise of himself. There was a lot of singing and dancing both at the Tindleni and Magengenene homesteads. The new graduates were all dressed up in new clothes because they were men and could no longer wear their boyhood clothes. And since they were now men they could no longer associate with me. My own Cousin Mlungisi could no longer be seen in my company because I was a boy.
This isolation was painful.
But just then I received a letter from
Wamba
with a two rand note enclosed. They were going to publish my story, and the money was the fee they were paying for it. The very first money I ever earned for something I wrote.
I no longer gave a damn about Cousin Mlungisi, Nikelo and Xolile. They could get circumcised as much as they wanted and isolate me for ever if it suited them; I would write more stories and get them published.
THIS IS JUST A
coincidence. We didn't know the tourists would be visiting the village today. We came from Johannesburg to see how the Bee People are doing and to buy a few bottles of honey. They are keen to give us the honey for free, but we always insist on paying for it. We want to support their business while at the same time teaching them good business practices. And as we are haggling over the matter on the stoep of eRestu a luxury tour bus arrives and spills out a group of excited young men and women. They are all white, except for their tour guide and the bus driver. Quite a few of them are scruffy, in keeping with how explorers of Darkest Africa should look.
Cousin Bernard suddenly leaves the group of men he was bamboozling with philosophy while partaking of their beer and walks past us towards the bus to meet the visitors. He leaves behind him a whiff from his rich sweat glands. Press, my uncle, told me that he is averse to taking a bath. Often he is forced into the bathroom and hollers and screams as Press scrubs the dirt from Cousin Bernard's body, with two of Press's big sons holding him down so that he does not escape and run out of the house naked. He once did exactly that. People were aghast to see his naked fifty-year-old body running out of the gate screaming that the good people of Qoboshane should come and save him because Press and his clansmen were bent on murdering him with soap and water.
The tour guide wants to protect his charges from the barefoot man in threadbare brown pants and heavy brown lumber jacket. But the man pushes him aside and heads straight to the nearest tourist â a blond, hirsute young man in denim jeans and a heavy backpack.
âAre you a monarchist or a revolutionary sesquipedalian who wants to cannibalise my establishment?' Cousin Bernard asks the astonished man.
âSay what?' asks the man. I know immediately he is an American.
The drinking men on the stoep cheer and laugh. One of them says, âOh, yes, Bernard has started with his big English.'
I know all about Cousin Bernard's âbig English'. I am its victim every time I come for my meetings with the Bee People at eRestu. I curse the person who told him that I am a university professor; he always wants to show off to the habitués of my uncle's tavern by bombarding me with his English. I always respond in isiXhosa, at least to the little that I can understand of his rambling sentences, and that always infuriates him. He suddenly remembers another pressing engagement elsewhere and leaves, but not before the parting shot: âEducation has been wasted on you,
wena
Zanemvula.'
Obviously Cousin Bernard thinks the hirsute man is a waste of time, for he goes to a young woman at the very moment she is stepping out of the bus.
âDot your i's and cross your t's, young lady,' he says.
The tourists gather around the two; they are quite amused because it
is clear to them that the man is not quite well upstairs. The hirsute man cuts through the crowd to rescue the young lady, but Cousin Bernard firmly stands his ground between him and the woman.
âHe is idiotically inclined,' says Cousin Bernard, making a grand gesture towards the hirsute man for the benefit of the young lady. âHe is not titillated by the tintinnabulation of my grandiloquent gesture of felicitation.'
Though the drinking men enjoy the entertainment, the Bee People and the tourist guide look on with consternation. The Bee People particularly feel embarrassed that their guests are being harassed in this manner by the village madman. They call to my uncle who is inside the store to get Cousin Bernard away. Press comes rushing out, pushes through the tourists and drags Cousin Bernard away from the group.
â
Goduka
, Bernard,' Press says. â
Okanye ndizakufak'ebafini
.' Go home, Bernard, otherwise I'll put you in a bathtub.
Cousin Bernard does not take the threat of a bath lightly. He slinks away. When he reckons he is at a safe distance he stops and shouts back at Press: âYour antiestablishmentarianism disturbs the peace. With all the possibilities of your hegemony I can only say to you: Fie sirrah! Fie for shame!'
Then he walks on to the cheers and applause of the drinking men on the stoep. I can see from the faces of the tourists that they find the whole scene quite funny, although they are suppressing outright laughter lest their fellows judge them harshly for finding humour in the behaviour of a black person with mental problems.
Later that evening when Gugu and I get to Mafeteng in Lesotho I tell my mother about Cousin Bernard's antics with the tourists and we laugh about it. She laughs even more when I joke that Cousin Bernard was rendered insane by the meat that my grandmother used to hide for him in her apron pocket as the favoured grandchild. I know, I know, it's a cruel joke, but our Basotho people say
lefu leholo ke ditsheho
. This literally translates into âthe biggest death is laughter'. But what it really means is that even in bereavement we joke and laugh.
Actually, what caused Cousin Bernard's mental impairment was his failure to heed the call of the ancestors. He was working as a clerk on
the gold mines of Welkom when he first received the call in his dreams to be an
igqirha
â a traditional medicine man, diviner and spiritual healer. Cousin Bernard took up the call with great enthusiasm, following in the footsteps of many of my relatives on my father's side who became traditional healers â beginning with our revered ancestor Mhlontlo who was both a king of the amaMpondomise people and a great
igqirha
who could turn the white man's bullets into water.
Cousin Bernard became an acolyte of a great shaman from the mountains of Lesotho. He attended the
intlombe
rituals, where fellow acolytes with their masters and mistresses beat on the cowhide drums, and danced through the night until they fell into a trance. He learnt how to groan and grunt in the language of the spirits, and how to sacrifice white goats and other beasts according to the needs and demands of particular ancestors. But there was another call on Cousin Bernard; the call of the world out there. It was so overpowering that he left the profession of traditional healing long before he could graduate, while he was still at the
thwasa
stage. This is the stage when the voices of the ancestors still ring in your head, shake your body and demand obedience. He disobeyed and gave up on traditional healing. He went back to work as a clerk on the gold mine and hoped to live happily ever after. When people asked why he left before graduating into a fully fledged
igqirha
he said the demands of the ancestors were too extravagant. He could not afford to sacrifice to them the number of oxen that they required, and did not have any relative who was willing to help him. Well, that was not the ancestors' problem. Their voices continued to ring in his head. Until he cracked, left the job and became a wanderer. Press heard of his plight and got him to return to Qoboshane to stay with him.
Cousin Bernard once confided in me that there is a shitty ancestor who won't leave him alone, even when others have decided to give him some respite. He suspects the vengeful spirit is from his father's side of the family, which he never got to know. His mother, my father's youngest sister, was an unwed mother who abandoned Cousin Bernard and left for Johannesburg soon after giving birth to him. She never came back. Ever. To this day.
Fortunately, the tourists have not been rattled by him. Instead they
join us on the veranda and excitedly ask questions about the village. They are from different countries, although the majority is from the United States, Germany and the United Kingdom. They are on the Maluti Trail, a tour that takes them through the Eastern Cape, Lesotho and the Free State. They have come to this village particularly to look at the beekeeping project of the Lower Telle Beekeepers Collective; according to a colourful brochure one of the tourists is reading:
This community-based project was initiated and is supported by Zakes Mda, one of South Africa's leading authors, who grew up in this area.
When the tourists are introduced to me they are pleasantly surprised to meet in a Drakensberg mountain village this rotund fellow who is a novelist and a professor at an American university. Unfortunately Gugu and I cannot join them for the precarious drive up the mountain to the apiary. We need to be in Mafeteng, Lesotho, by the evening to see my mother, and then leave the next morning for Johannesburg. The Bee People don't need us anyway. They welcome tourists all the time, ever since their project was listed as one of the major tourist attractions of the district. They are happy of course that by coincidence we were there when this particular group of tourists arrived and we have added some value to their experience since they only came to visit the bees, breathe the clean mountain air and, according to the brochure
⦠enjoy a taste of the mouth-watering honey.
This last bit is not just hype.
Telle Honey
â the brand name with a smiling bee on the label designed by my son Neo, who is an art director at a Johannesburg advertising agency â is reputed to have a unique taste because of a combination of Cape aloes and other indigenous plants that grow only in that region.
Undoubtedly the tourists will also enjoy the view of both the Dyarhom and the eSiqikini Mountains with the steep cliffs, clear streams and white beehives speckling the green mountainside. Imagine if my grandfather's orchard was still there. Imagine. Without anybody to prune them, the trees would have grown in all wild directions and the fruit wouldn't be as large as it was when my grandfather cared for them. But in spring they would contribute a new dimension to the bee food that has made the honey unique and in summer would feed the passers-by with abundant fruit.
Unfortunately, my Uncle Owen would have none of that. He murmured to himself
âamandla ka tata akana'wudliwa ngabany'abantu'
â I'll not have the sweat from my father's brow benefit strangers â as he spent days on end chopping down tree after tree soon after the mountain dwellers were forced down to the lowlands by the apartheid government. When I heard how he chopped down all those fruit trees, I lost all respect for him. The spirit of my grandfather lived in those trees. Besides, I instinctively recoil from a person who is callous enough to chop down a tree â any tree, but more especially a fruit tree â without just cause. I am wary of any person who can be so emotionally stunted as to kill a tree without experiencing something inside him dying with the tree.
Gugu and I wave our goodbyes to the tourists as the Bee People's truck leads their luxury bus up the narrow dirt road. Hopefully the bus driver is good enough to negotiate his way on the steep hill. The tourists had better not look out the windows otherwise they may freak out when they see hundreds of yards away all those skeletons of cars that have rolled down the mountain over the years.
Gugu and I get into our car and drive to the Telle Bridge into Lesotho. From the apiary the tourists will cross this bridge as well. And the tour guide will tell them about its significance in South Africa's history. I noticed in the brochure that the bridge is one of the tourist attractions:
Wind your way down to Telle Bridge, to see the historic border gate where in 1977 Donald Woods, the then editor of the Daily Dispatch, escaped into exile disguised as a priest.
It is a story that was later told in the 1987 Richard Attenborough movie, âCry Freedom', featuring Denzel Washington and Kevin Kline, about the friendship between Steve Biko, the Black Consciousness leader who was murdered by the apartheid police, and Donald Woods, a white liberal who was hounded by the police as a result of that friendship. Woods had to go into exile in Lesotho, and later in England.
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MORE THAN A DECADE
before Donald Woods' adventure â in January 1964 â I crossed the Telle River to exile. I was fifteen years old.
I did not cross at the bridge as Mr Woods did. I wouldn't dare face the South African border police without a valid passport. Instead, I waded in the water following a man who was carrying my heavy trunk on his shoulder. I don't remember who he was. Maybe I never knew who he was in the first place. I only remember him talking to my mother in whispers on the banks of the river. Then I hugged my mother. I didn't want to let go. But the man said to let go; we didn't have all night. Unless we wanted the Boers to catch us. God knew what would happen to all of us if the Boers caught us. I let go and followed him. My mother stood on the bank sniffling.
I was scared of the river, ever since the ice-cold water of a flooded rivulet that we had to cross on our way from Qoboshane to Aunt Nontsokolo's general dealer's store in Mmusong nearly swept me away when I was a tyke. I was saved by my aunt who held tightly to my hand even as the raging waters struggled with her. After heavy rain brooks and streams tend to have the most forceful of waters. Fortunately, that night of my exile the water in the Telle River reached only to my knees and I could wade with ease. And it was not cold at all. The man struggled with the trunk; it was loaded with my clothes and books â I had to leave behind some of my comic books for lack of room. It made me sad to see my trunk bobbing in front of me as the man tried to find a foothold in the sand and rocks under the water. My mother had bought it for me soon after I had received a first class pass in Standard Six. It was the trunk I was going to use for boarding school at St Teresa's. But here now it was crossing the river to a foreign country where I was going to live as a refugee with my strict father and was going to repeat Standard Six because the British education of Lesotho was superior to our Bantu Education.