Shadows Cast by Stars (9 page)

I don’t like him. He makes me feel the need to curl up into myself like a snail. A sudden headache pulses at my temple, reminding me that I was uprooted and transplanted only a day ago. I’m sensitive and edgy, none of which has anything to do with the muskrat boy. Judging him when I’m in this condition isn’t really fair, but something is pricking my mind in warning, and I can’t ignore that, either.

The game gets under way. Bran tackles a tall, longhaired boy, flinging him to the ground with careless ease, and apologizes as he gives him a hand up a second later.

I turn another page, and a gray feather, almost the same color as Bran’s eyes, slips into my hand. I twirl it between my fingers. A bookmark, or a gift?

The latter, I hope. I wish.

I yawn, and let my eyes close.

I dream
.

I dream of a woman, crabbed with age. She cuts my hair. “Sit still,” she says. “Squirm and I’ll end up cutting you.”

I place my hands on the red vinyl seat and do my best not to move, but as my hair drifts around my shoulders in newly
shorn wisps, I can’t help myself. It tickles my neck, my ears, my arms. The old woman issues another warning and swats my ear. I try, I try. “I can’t help it,” I say. “It’s beyond my control.”

She takes her shears and snips my earlobe. Blood courses down my neck
.

“Now you’ve done it,” she says
.

Shouting wakes me. I bolt upright and touch my ear. A sugar ant falls into my hand and without thinking I squish it under my thumb as I seek out the source of the commotion.

Paul stands behind the far goal line, crowing, while Bran performs a celebratory war dance. Some of the boys join in, whooping and hopping as the other team huddles together in conference.

The muskrat boy’s head pops out of the scrum. “Penalty on the play. No touchdown!”

“Says you, lead-foot.” Paul tosses the football to Bran.

The muskrat boy’s face screws into a scowl. “Whatever you say, apple.”

Paul freezes. I can see he’s fighting himself, that he wants to walk away, but he can’t. Apple. Red on the outside, white on the inside. One of the worst insults an Other can throw. The muskrat boy thinks he’s gotten
the best of Paul and turns away, and that’s when Paul attacks him, taking him by surprise so they both fall to the ground. Bran jumps in, and by the time I’ve made it to my feet, all the boys are fighting, a swarm of fists and elbows.

A man walking by shouts at them to stop. When he’s ignored, he dashes off and returns with two more men in tow.

I run over and stare, helpless.

“There’ll be no reasoning with them,” the tallest of the three men says to me. A scar runs down his face like a great, angry river. “Better cover your ears.” He puts his fingers to his lips and lets loose a piercing whistle. His two companions cross their arms and wait.

The fight slows, and then stops. Bran emerges from the pile first, dragging a bloody-lipped but grinning Paul after him. The others stand and line up, beaten, bruised, and shamefaced. The worst off is a towheaded boy who cradles his limp right arm in his hand. I can tell it’s dislocated. Paul gives me a look that’s full of warning, demanding that I stay where I am. I hesitate, take a half-step forward, and then stop.

I have tended wounds since I was old enough to stand. My mother was a nurse, and she passed what she knew along to me—or, as much as she could. I can suture a
wound as neatly as any physician. I could pop that arm back in place without a thought.

The men take to lecturing the boys, but what they say, I don’t hear. If I do what instinct begs of me, word will spread. Even though I’m only sixteen, the Band will want to know why I’m not working for them, stitching up war wounds. But fate makes the decision for me. The boy’s face turns ashen and he drops to the ground like a felled tree.

I am at his side in an instant, and I know, without looking, that the shadow hovering over me is Bran. “He’s all right,” I say, checking the boy’s breathing. “Bend his knees.” Bran does as I instruct. “His arm’s dislocated. I can put it back.” I glance over my shoulder at the scarred man, waiting for his permission.

He nods. “Do what you can. His name is Adam.”

Adam’s unconsciousness is a blessing. I pick up his lifeless arm, suck in a deep breath, brace myself, and give the limb a mighty tug and twist.

His eyelids flutter open. He looks from Bran to me, turns his head, and vomits.

Bran holds him up, waiting for him to finish, and then slips his belt off and hands it to me.

“You’ve done this before,” I say as I fashion the belt into a makeshift sling.

Bran shrugs.

The scar-faced man points to two of the boys. “Carter, Jesse, take Adam to Madda.”

“Thank you,” Adam says to me as they help him up. He’s blinking back tears. I squeeze my eyes shut, forcing back my own. Healing hurts. There’s no two ways about it.

When I open my eyes again, I look for Paul. He stands at the edge of the group, kicking at a tuft of grass. Blood still oozes from his lip and his left eye is already swelling shut again. Tomorrow it will be purple. Before I can take a step toward him, he glares and shakes his head.

I stay where I am.

“You the Mercredi girl?” the scar-faced man asks. I nod. “Good work.” He turns his gaze to the boys. “No more football. Get.”

The boys scatter, save for Bran and the muskrat boy. The men stroll off, their leather boots leaving a trail of dust to chase after them.

Bran whistles under his breath. “Not often the Elders say something nice to anyone. I was sure we’d get hauled down to the slurry and put to work.”

“Best place for half-breeds,” the muskrat boy says.

“I think you’d better leave,” Bran says.

“Or what, Eagleson?”

Bran’s smile is cold and feral. The other boy tries to return it, but he blinks first, and stalks away.

The remaining boys head to the lake to soak their war wounds, Paul included. When I move to follow, Bran catches my arm. “I’d like to show you something,” he says.

“But Paul …”

“He’ll be fine,” Bran insists, brushing his hair away from his eyes. “Paul needs some time with them. Without me. He did well against Cedar. They’ll honor that.” His eyes meet mine. “Where’s your book?”

It still lies in the shade, tossed aside. I run to retrieve it. Bran watches. A small, guarded smile crosses his lips, a smile that gives me the feeling that the gray feather was a gift after all.

E
ddies of heat shimmer around us. We walk side by side, making small talk and carefully avoiding mention of the fight. I’m not sure why, but I can sense Bran doesn’t want to talk about it. But I do. I’m practically itching to know who the muskrat boy is. No friend of Bran’s, that’s for certain, and no friend of my brother’s, either. All the more reason to learn about him—
know thine enemy
, my father says. Well, I plan to.

“Warm today,” Bran says, breaking my thoughts. “You’re not used to it.” He points to a bead of sweat winding its way down my forehead.

“Not yet. The rain keeps the Corridor pretty cool most of the time.”

“We’ll go this way, then.” He steps off the road. “It’s nicer in the forest.”

We follow the narrow, twisting path through stands of fir and cottonwood. Bran sets a fast pace, and though I don’t want to admit it, I’m struggling to keep up. “Sorry,” he says as he stops to help me over a log that blocks our path. “I keep forgetting you’re not from here, that this is new to you.” He purses his lips. “It just seems like I’ve always known you, you know?”

I nod. I do know.

“Close your eyes,” he says. “Tell me what you hear.”

I do as he asks. The stiff leaves of a poplar rustle in the wind. A jay cackles in the cottonwoods, and if I concentrate hard enough I can make out a subtle hum just below the level of hearing, as if the earth is singing a song of its own. It’s … beautiful. “It’s like a hymn,” I say.

“See? You belong here.” His bangs drop in front of his eyes; I wish I could see them. “Come on. It’s not much farther.”

The trees fall behind as we climb a granite ridge worn smooth eons ago by the slow slip and slide of a glacier. The lake opens out below the ridge like a blue fan. On a whim, I wander to the edge. The wind rushes past, begging me to take flight.

Bran’s hand steadies me. “Don’t want you to fall. Your brother would kill me.”

“He probably will anyhow, once he notices we’re gone.”

“Nope. He knows to meet us at my house later.”

I try to prevent my eyebrow from arching, but it pops up anyhow.

Bran doesn’t notice. He pushes his hair out of his face before taking a seat and patting the spot beside him. “Sit. We can talk up here.”

“Only up here?” I ask, plucking some grass before settling down beside him, and begin to work. Two stalks, bent in half, for spokes, and a blade to weave with. I’ll make a sun wheel, a Brigid cross.

“Well, no, but up here, there’s no one to interrupt us.” He casts me a sidelong look. “Being an Eagleson comes with baggage. Everyone talks, no one listens.”

So, that’s it. I’m his confessor. I should have known. I’m not the type of girl someone like Bran would ever be interested in. I’m too tall. Too thin. Too intense. Still, I hope. My mother was beautiful. Paul resembles her far more than I do, but I can’t help hoping that a sliver of her beauty was passed on to me.

Bran shifts, moving close enough that the grass bent by his frame tickles my forearm. Bees, fat and laden with
pollen, drift around us. A hummingbird hovers overhead before soaring off in a blur of metallic wings. I watch it as my hands weave.

Bran laughs. “Thought we were flowers, I bet.”

“Maybe you. Definitely not me.”

“If you’re not a flower, then what are you?”

I shrug. “I don’t know.” The conversation is running too close to me. Time to redirect. “I don’t suppose you’ll tell me what that fight was all about?”

“For someone like Cedar, there doesn’t need to be a reason.” His voice is flat with anger. “He’s always looking to pick a fight.” He yawns and stretches out onto his back, hands cradling his head. “Like he has something to prove.”

“Such as?”

“That he’s better than me because he’s full-blooded Indian. I’m only a half-breed, and some people around here think that makes me less than them. There’s talk, you know, about what happens if my father doesn’t come back, who’ll lead the Band then.”

“And someone wants to give you the job?”

“Yeah.” He picks up a spider that’s crawling on his leg and carefully sets it on a leaf. “Some days, I think I might do okay. Most days, I think I’m too young, that I’ve got too much to learn. But, the Elders, you know, I’m not sure
about them, either. They always looked to my father, who looked to the people. Now they look to no one except themselves. See that spot down there? Where the river runs out of the lake?”

I nod. The water turns murky there, as if the river is leaching life from the lake.

“That’s where my dad met the bear.”

“What bear?”

“A grizzly. The only one ever found on the Island. They can swim here, you know, all the way from the mainland. Pretty long way. Tough animals. That’s how the Elders knew my father was going to be chief, they say. Grizzly sought my father out, and fought him to see if he was strong enough. I guess he was. He used to let me play with the claws when I was little. He was going to give them to me before …” His voice trails off.

I hold my breath. Before what?

Bran gazes out toward the lake. “I’m still waiting to find my bear.”

But Bran’s shade isn’t a bear. It’s a kingfisher, and a stone, and other things too, things I’ve only seen glimpses of. Should I tell him? Would he want to know what I’ve seen?

No
, I decide. What good would that do? Look at Paul. How much help have I been to him? So far, no help at all.
More than once, I’ve wished I understood why I see what I do, and in this moment, I wish it more than ever.

“Do you want to be chief?” I ask, because I don’t know what else to say.

“I don’t know.” He shrugs. “Maybe. I guess it depends if the Elders want me. Besides, Henry Crawford’s chief until my father comes back.”

If he comes back
. The unspoken words hang between us until Bran says, “But, maybe one day. When I feel I’m half the man my father was. Is.” He looks down at the sun wheel in my hands. “What’s that?”

“This?” I hold it up and inspect it. “I call it a sun wheel. My mother taught me to make them. She called it a Brigid cross. It’s supposed to protect you from evil.”

Bran laughs. “Does it work?”

“I think so. Maybe. Here.” I reach out and take his hand, setting the sun-wheel in his palm and curling his fingers around it. “It’s for you.”

He stares at it for a long moment before looking back at me. “Thank you,” he says, like he really means it.