Authors: Helen Frost
what happens when there's fighting on our land.
Grandma says,
We barely have enough food
to last us through a mild winterâ
if war comes, the soldiers
will take our food.
Maybe burn
our houses. How can we
survive all that again?
It scares me. My
grandfather, father, and uncle were all killed in battle.
Kwaahkwa is ready to fight. And Father
will fight if he has to.
Ma meets me at the door:
Where have you been?
I drop the rabbit at her feet.
She looks me up and down, sees I'm soaking wet. And mad. Her face says
three things at once:
We told you to stay inside the stockade. Get in here
right now and change into dry clothes.
But also:
James, you got a rabbit!
She puts Molly down and picks it up.
Should've been three of 'em,
I say.
Anikwa must have got there first
. Two rabbits hop across my mindâ
but before I have a chance to think about them, Ma starts asking a hundred
questions, and, like usual, I end up telling her too much. Pa comes home,
smells the rabbit cooking, asks Ma where it came fromâand she tells him
everything, including (wish I hadn't told her) about the men I heard laughing.
When he hears that, Pa gets serious.
James,
he says,
look at me.
I look at him.
I thought you understood this: you are to stay inside the stockade at all times.
Then, in that same voice,
Lydia, we have to move into the fort until we see
what's going to happen.
Ma looks like she's about to cry, but she agrees.
Kwaahkwa
teases me:
I heard you had
a fight with your friend James this afternoon.
Three men saw the whole thing and
now they're telling everyone
that I'm a better
fisherman
than fighter.
I wasn't
trying to win a fight,
I say.
I was trying
to make him see that I'm no thief!
Grandma looks up
from the deerskin she's scraping.
I thought all the children
over there went to Piqua with their mothers,
she says.
But if James
and the baby and their mother are still hereâwe have to find out
if they're still in their house. It's right inside the stockade.
Mink and Rain Bird both look worried. Why?
It's easier to burn down houses of people
you don't know,
says Rain Bird.
That's how I figure out
what's going on:
someone is planning
to set the stockade on fire! When?
What if they burn down James's house?
Is anyone thinking of a way
to warn them?
The hunter lifts the deer,
holds the weight
of muscle, bone, and skin
as blood flows
through his own veins like rivers,
and sweat moves
through his skin, leaving,
when it dries,
a layer of translucent
crystalsâsalt.
Ma folds our clothes and puts them in her trunk.
Here's the first pair
of moccasins Mink ever made for you,
she says. They'd fit Molly now.
I put my finger through a hole I wore through the deerskin when I
first learned to walk. Under this pair is another pair, a little bigger;
under them, anotherânine pairs, right up to the size I'm wearing now.
One time Pa got me a pair of boots, but I hated how they pinched my feet.
When Mink makes moccasins, she sews the seams on top so they're
soft and comfortable, and I can run fast when I'm wearing them.
Ma puts the moccasins on top of the trunk, covers them with the quilt
from Aunt Amanda, closes the lid, and looks up.
I'm ready,
she says.
Pa has a wagon right outside the house. When I go out to help load it up,
I hear spring peepers on the other side of the stockade. Makes no senseâ
it isn't spring, and we're not close to water. It can only mean one thing:
Anikwa is close by, trying to get my attention. Wonder what he wants.
I can see
through the stockade gate:
The trading post is empty. It looks like
James and his family are moving
out of their house,
into the fort.
A soldier
is outside in a field,
feeding the cows and pigs, taking
eggs from those birds they call “chickens.”
Why do they keep their animals penned in like that,
so they have to feed them every day? They could let them loose
to get their own food. Wedaase and Father argued about that.
They hunt our animals, everywhere they go,
Wedaase said.
We should take theirs to replace them.
Father answered,
They have their ways, we have ours. We've lived
with these people for a long time.
Some of them are friendly.
A few are relatives.
Don't give the Americans a reason
to attack us when they get here.
Wedaase said,
Do you think they'll need a reason? There's only one way
to keep them out: attack them first, harder
than they attack us.
Now I see why we're adding water to bean soup that's already thin,
and why we're almost out of oatmeal. There's eighty men in this fort,
with hardly any food. We brought what we had to share but it wasn't
enough, even for our familyâit's like nothing for all these hungry men.
A soldier named Patrick comes in carrying a basket: eighteen eggs,
an onion, and seven potatoes. That's what we all have for supper.
Pa says,
We'll manage. Let's hope the hens keep laying. We can always kill
the cows and pig. We'll be able to last a weekâas long as the stockade holds.
Ma puts a blanket on the floor for me, and I lie down, but I can't sleep.
I keep thinking about what Pa said:
a week
?
as long as the stockade holds
?
The soldiers are saying the British have cannons that could knock a hole
in the stockade. I think about that as I fall asleep, and a picture comes to
me: a hole, rabbits running out of it, jumping through a hoop of fire. Fire â¦
Guns can't protect us against fire. And rabbits ⦠I just thought of something.
Father is home!
We go to the longhouse to hear
what he and Piyeeto have seen and heard.
We got them all to Piqua,
Father says,
and took some time to look around.
The Americans have several
thousand soldiers.
About as many more are coming
from Kentuckyâthen they'll march this way.
They could be here within a week.
Mink and Grandma
listen quietly. Later, I stay awake to hear them talk.
If the men
decide to go ahead with what they're planning,
Mink says,
everything
will change after tonight.
Grandma doesn't answer for a long time.
Then she says:
We can't stop things from changing
.
I hope
the children will remember how our life has been.
Moonlight shines through an opening
in the door. A mouse scuffles
around in the fire pit.
Something
is starting that no one can
stop. I don't know which army will be
stronger, or how big the cannonballs will be. All I
can do is what Grandma hopes:
I can remember.
I can't sleep. I keep thinking about that fight I had with Anikwa.
He had one rabbit in his handâwhat about the other two? That “papa”
word he kept sayingâis that the same word he said when he showed me
his fox pelt? Was he telling me a fox got my rabbits? Maybe he took
that last one so the fox wouldn't get it. Maybe ⦠What's that smell?
What's all the noise out there? Smoke! I shake Ma and Pa awake, and Pa
runs out to see what's happening. He comes back in, red-faced, angry.
Lydia,
he says,
it's the trading post! Maybe our house, too.
He grabs a bucket
and runs out. I start to follow.
No, James!
Ma says.
Stay hereâyou're too young.
I can't stay in here while our house burns down!
Ma, I'm big enough,
I say.
I can carry water.
She looks back and forth from me to the fire, scared of two
things at once. She takes a deep breath.
Go ahead,
she finally says.
Be careful.
I find Pa in a line of men passing buckets from the pump to the trading post.
Go back insiâ
he begins, then looks from me to the fire and hands me a bucket.
Rain Bird
is shaking my shoulder.
Wake up,
she whispers,
I smell smoke!
I sniff the air.
What's burning?
Father and Mink are
still asleep, but
Grandma
comes in from outside.
When she opens the door, the smell
of smoke gets stronger. She wakes the others,
her voice low and sad.
It's happening,
she say
s. One side
of the stockade. Our sister's house. The walls of the trading post
are falling. A few men chased all their animals into the forest
and they're shooting them with arrows as if they were
deer and elk. Those animals don't know how
to run and hide.
I think about their
birdsânoisy chickensâ
and about
the man
taking their eggs.
Who started the fire?
I ask.
No one answers. Then Grandma says,
Grief
gathered kindling. Fear struck the flint.
Anger fans the flames
.
In the morning, Ma, who never cries, is crying. Smoke burns my throat
like held-back tears. I swallow hard and go outside again to stand by Pa.
The pig, the cows, the hens, the rooster, and the goat are gone. We can't go out
to fish or hunt or set snares or pick berries. We're out of beans and oatmeal.
Pa, what will we eat?
I try to make my voice sound normal, but it comes out
squeaky. Pa makes his own voice sound like he knows how to get food,
but all he says is,
We'll think of something.
If he had a real idea, he'd tell me.
We're standing here, looking at our burned-down house, not talking, when
I hear the sound of peepers on the other side of where the stockade gate
used to be.
Pa,
I say,
there's no peepers around here this time of yearâI think
that's Anikwa.
At first, he doesn't know what I'm talking about, but then
he listens hard and says,
He shouldn't come so close, with the fire still smoldering.
I think about it.
Pa,
I say,
he might be trying to help. Can I go see?
Pa answers,
No
.
Then he looks at the empty pasture.
Be quick,
he says,
and come straight back.
Good,
James heard me.
He's coming over to find out
what I want. He's looking
up and down, and all
around.
Aya,
I whisper.
He sees me.
Aya,
he whispers back. I point to
the venison I brought, wrapped up
in a deerskin, hidden inside the hollow oak tree.
I point to him. His mouth falls openâhe can't believe
we're giving it to them. He blinks back tears,
then picks up the meat and smiles big.
Thank you,
he says. He repeats it
in Miami:
Neewe ⦠niihka.
I say the words Father
told me to say:
We did not start the fire.
James's face turns red. He looks like he's
thinking about something else, besides this meat.
Fox got my waapanswa,
he says.
It wasn't you.
Ma helps the cook fry up the meat, and all the men crowd in to get some.
My stomach hurts, but I try not to push. Ma puts her arm around me,
pulls me in, and serves me plenty.
Thank you, James,
she whispers.
She's not telling anyone where we got the meatâtrying to protect me
and Anikwa. Mink and Wiinicia must have wrapped it in the deerskin.
I wonder why they gave us food. I tell Pa,
The Miami didn't start the fire.