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Authors: Renee Simons

Safe Haven (32 page)

He rose and went to the fireplace, standing with his back to her as the flames formed a flickering backdrop for his long, spare body. He spoke in a tone heavy with resignation.

"When I'm settled I'll send you my address. Would that be okay?"

She walked over to him. He turned and she touched his cheek where a new beard had begun to grow. "I'd like that, but I know there's someone back there waiting for you. When you find her you'll forget all about me."

He folded his strong arms around her and kissed her, his lips warm and gentle yet insistent, telling her without words of his hunger, his need, his understanding. She felt it all and more - a familiar stirring deep within her, a whisper of something even more precious than the gift he'd already given her.

He released her and stared into her eyes.
"No, love.
There's someone waiting for you."

Behind them, Drew cleared his throat. Ethan turned.
"Hey, Andy.
Came to say my good-byes and pick up the rest of my stuff."

"When are you leaving?"

"Early in the morning."

"Taking anything with you besides clothes?
Someone special, perhaps?"

"No such luck." He gave
Jordan
another long look and clapped Drew on the shoulder. "Watch out for her." And then he was gone.

They stared after him for a few moments. She turned back to the fire, swatting at tears she could not suppress. Drew stood beside her and rested an arm on the mantel. "You love each other, don’t you? So why aren't you going with him?"

"It wouldn't be fair to him."

"I think you'd best explain."

She sighed. "I can't have children. If I went with him and we ended up together, he'd want them. I won't be responsible for depriving him of something so important."

"Have you ever discussed this with him?"

"Not exactly, although he knows about...the problem."

"Did you ever ask him how he feels about - the problem?"

"He might not care right now, but eventually he will. It would get in the way of our relationship. He might even come to hate me. I can't take that chance."

"Now, that's not fair. You're making a decision that affects both your lives without giving him a vote. Just as he did with me, until you set him straight."

"Maybe so, but he might feel obligated to vote for something he'll regret later. I want to protect him. More than anything, I want him to be happy. If I'm wrong, then so be it. It wouldn't be the first time."

She sounded so sure of herself and more in control of her feelings than she knew herself to be. Drew’s words had only rekindled the mental debate raging since her discussion with Dr. Torino. Was she protecting Ethan from unhappiness or herself from rejection?

 

* * *

 

She barely slept that night as conflicting emotions bombarded her and memories of all they’d shared hovered around her like loving ghosts. When she finally succumbed to fatigue, a new dream invaded her sleep. She saw herself wandering alone in the desert, a hot wind kicking up sand and sending it swirling around her as she walked. The sun blazed overhead, its glare blotting out all details of the country through which she walked.

Suddenly, as sometimes happens in dreams, the scene cleared. She looked around and noticed a tall tree whose wide branches shielded her from the intense light and heat. She stood beneath the tree with a hand on its paper smooth trunk, enjoying its strength and solidity. Outside the wide circle of shade the heat-blasted earth simmered. Inside, she smiled because she knew she had arrived where she was meant to be. When she woke in the morning she was still smiling.

           

* * *

 

Jordan
called Kevin and Lacey's house where she got no answer and then the Pub where she discovered they’d left to drive a friend to
New York City
and weren't expected back until very late the next evening.

Why had he left
Boston
early, without giving her the opportunity to go with him? Had he changed his mind about wanting her along? Or had he just become tired of waiting for her to get off the fence? "Not that I'd blame him if he had," she remarked aloud.

She considered the problem and decided there was no reason to panic...yet. She still had time to take care of a couple of details and to pack before getting a reasonably good night's sleep. Tomorrow, there would be a shuttle to
New York
's
JFK
Airport
and a two-hour layover before the departure for
Los Angeles
. She would find him then.

She called Terence to tell him what she was planning and then Gray Hamill to ask him to handle the disposing of her condo and its furnishings. "And the proceeds of the sale?" he asked.

"Set up an account for me at your bank. I'll call you and let you know where you can reach me, once I'm settled. We'll worry about transferring the money later on."

She had only to pack and enjoy a quiet dinner with Drew and the Willises. Restless with anticipation and concern that perhaps she'd made her decision too late, she fell asleep at around midnight, only to be awakened at five by a knock at her door.

"It’s Drew.” She opened the door.

 
“I just wanted to let you know that Logan International is socked in by fog; all flights were canceled. I called Conlon. In about twenty minutes, his chauffeur Vito will come get you to drive you to
New York
. If he can't get you there on time, nobody can."

"Thanks for your help, Drew."

"Do you want me to page Ethan at
JFK
Airport
at around ten o'clock and tell him what's happened?"

"No. I want to surprise him."

"Isn't that a little risky? You might miss each other."

"I have to see his expression; that's the only way I'll know if I've made the right decision."

She dressed, grabbed her bags and ran downstairs.

"Has Drew come down yet?"

"He's in the library, dear. Should I bring you a bite to eat, some tea and orange loaf? You'll need something before you go."

"I don't think I'll have time."

Jordan
found Drew at his desk. He looked up at her and grinned. "You couldn't have gotten all your things in two small bags."

"You'll have to send the rest when I get settled. Do you mind?"

"I'm just glad the two of you will be together. Do you have your passport and tickets?"

She nodded. "I don't know what to say, Drew."

"Don't say anything. You've given me more than I could ever repay." He took her hand. "Please keep in touch."

"Take very good care of yourself. If things don't work out, I’ll be back and I’ll need a job."

"I might have work for you even if they do. Now, best of luck and off you go."

Jordan
was never quite sure whether the luck that rode with them was good or bad. It must have been good, she supposed, since they made the trip without a serious accident, despite Vito's penchant for cornering on two wheels and taking curves at the same speed that he drove the straight-away. It was
bad,
however, when she considered the fog that followed them all the way down to
New York
, the massive traffic jams on the bridges and a ten-car pile-up that turned the parkway out to the airport into a gigantic used car lot.

Jordan
sat beside Vito in the front seat. They kept up a steady stream of talk for most of the trip, not only to relieve the boredom, as if traveling at seventy miles an hour left any room for boredom, but also to provide a distraction from Jordan's certain feeling that they would not make it in time. They knew they were in trouble when the topic of conversation turned to a debate over who had been the better ball player, Ted Williams or Joe DiMaggio, a debate that had raged for forty years and would go on for forty more.

 
At the terminal, they pulled into a spot at the curb to hand
Jordan
's luggage to a redcap. She waved good-bye to Vito, who started back to
Boston
,
Jordan
was sure, at exactly the same breakneck speed he'd used coming down to
New York
. According to
Jordan
's watch, she'd missed her flight; but fog seemed to be causing the same havoc in
New York
as it had in
Boston
. She hoped the plane was still sitting on the ground. It was, along with an entire day's schedule of flights.

She found the terminal packed with people sprawling on the hard plastic seats, sitting on everything from luggage to the floor or standing with noses pressed to the windows that looked out on the runways and planes still parked at their boarding gates,. All the snack bars, coffee shops and cocktail lounges were deep with would-be travelers trying to pass the time and make the best of a horrendous situation. So far, people were calm and relatively pleasant.
Jordan
didn't give that much
hope
if the delays continued.

She went down to her boarding gate and passed through the metal detector, then walked slowly down the ramp to the waiting area, where some three hundred people duplicated the scene she'd just passed in the main terminal building. She looked around for a man towering above the milling crowds or someone asleep with his chin on his chest and long legs stretching before him. She found no one familiar and didn't know whether or not to be relieved. If he wasn't here, then where was he?

A spot opened up near a window where she could watch the weather improve, if it did. She sat on the floor and waited. Passengers from canceled flights were rerouted to other planes and airlines. Then, mercifully, the fog lifted and planes began to depart. She rose and went over to the desk to await a boarding call for her flight. She still hadn't spotted Ethan. An attendant announced boarding for
Los Angeles
, a notice that, like its predecessors, went out over the public address system.

 
Finally, she spotted him, strolling casually into the waiting area as if,
seasoned
traveler that he was, he knew there was no hurry. He tacked himself onto the end of the line of people waiting to board, shifted his flight bag to his left shoulder and took out his ticket and boarding pass.
Jordan
saw him look around and her heart thumped in her chest. Was he looking for her?
 
Or just looking.

She joined the line directly behind him, took a deep breath, and then, with her heart in her mouth, tapped him on the shoulder. She watched his face as he turned and waited silently for her to speak.

"Could you use some company?" She reveled in the look of joy and acceptance and even, strangely or not so strangely,
triumph
, that touched his features.

"I could if the company were you," he answered.

Jordan
took a deep breath. "Do you remember what I told you about not being able to have children?"

He took her hands in his.
"Of course."

"How do you feel about that?"

"You’re all the family I need."

"Well then," she said, "some beaut bloke sent me a passport, a visa and a ticket."

"
Nothing's wanting
now, love," he whispered, then reached around her waist and with one strong arm, pulled her close for a long, leisurely kiss of welcome.

The line of people began moving toward the boarding ramp. Ethan looked at
Jordan
, and with eyes warm and lit with love said, "C'mon then, let's go home."

 

 

The End

 

 

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