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Authors: William Nicholson

Reckless (47 page)

She stood on the top step, looking into the great room, and all eyes turned to stare at her revealing costume. Those eyes
undressed her. The silk chiffon fell away, the black lace underwear fell away, and she was naked again.

Why am I always naked?

Do you fuck?

Only with friends
.

I have no friends.
We’re all alone, whether we know it or not
. Who said that? Oh yes, Rupert. Can he really be in love with Mary? They’re all fools, all fooling themselves, Susie and Logan, Rupert and Mary, Bobby and Charlotte, all lost in the darkness. Bored people looking for fun, lonely people looking for love.

We must love one another or die. Say it out loud, in the blackness of night, and it reverses itself. We are already dead, and so cannot love one another. The mirror reverses the image. But André, looking through the mirror, sees truly. Desire puts down roots in stony soil.

I shall fall asleep in your arms and the hurting will be over. But in whose arms?

*

Later she heard Hugo come in, and climb the stairs to his bedroom. She could hear all his movements, the bathroom door opening and closing, the whoosh of the lavatory, the pad of his bare feet. Then the landing light went out and his bedroom door closed behind him.

She struggled against the impulse for as long as she could, but she was too afraid, too unhappy. So at last she got out of bed and went softly downstairs to the first floor, in the faint light falling through the landing window. She opened Hugo’s bedroom door as quietly as she could, and crossed to his bedside. As her eyes adjusted, she saw that he was not asleep. He was lying in bed, his eyes open, gazing up at her.

‘Please,’ she whispered. ‘I can’t sleep.’

She drew back the covers and crept into the bed beside him. He put his arms round her and she pressed up close against him,
feeling his warmth. Neither of them spoke. She heard his soft steady breathing, and knew that he was not going to sleep, just as she was not going to sleep. They lay wakeful in each other’s arms, waiting.

Then his head bent down, and he kissed the side of her neck, by her shoulder. She stirred against him.

‘I’m frightened,’ she said. ‘There’s going to be a war.’

‘Is there?’

‘The world’s going to end.’

‘Tonight?’

‘Or tomorrow.’

He kissed her again, and she moved against him, desiring his desire.

‘Oh, Pammy,’ he said. Then he turned his face away from her.

‘I mustn’t,’ he said, his voice muffled in the pillow.

‘Just let me stay with you,’ she said. ‘Just for tonight.’

‘I don’t think I can bear it.’

‘Don’t send me away.’

‘Oh, Pammy.’

She stayed in his bed, in his arms, all through that night. They slept after a while and woke with the dawn. Hugo got up first, and went to look out through the curtains at the street outside.

‘The world hasn’t ended,’ he said.

Pamela, waking slowly, stretched her cramped body. She saw him by the window, watching her.

‘You all right?’ he said.

‘Mmm.’

‘Nothing happened,’ he said. ‘Nobody needs to know.’

‘Nobody needs to know that nothing happened?’

‘That’s right.’

‘I was frightened. I wanted you to hold me.’

He left the window and came to the bed. He sat down beside her and stroked her cheek.

‘Now you must go back to your room, and I’m going to make everything here be as if you never came. And we’re going to forget all about it.’

‘All about the nothing we did, that never happened.’

He bent down and kissed her cheek.

‘There. Enough. No more.’

She got slowly out of his bed, and moved slowly across the room to the door. In the doorway she looked back at him and said, ‘Thank you for not sending me away.’

He said nothing. She went out onto the landing.

I’d be safe with Hugo, she thought.

52

By Saturday morning, it was becoming clear in Moscow that the US attack on Cuba had not yet been launched. Khrushchev’s mood changed again.

‘You see,’ he told his colleagues in the Kremlin. ‘They were trying to force my hand. This has all been a trick to present us as the guilty ones. But I have stood firm. I have been reasonable. They have no excuse for the invasion they want.’

He was beginning to regret the tone of his overnight letter. In the cool light of day he saw that there was less to fear than he had thought. So far no answer had been received.

He reread his letter.

‘There is nothing here to be ashamed of,’ he said. ‘I am on the side of peace. Who can dispute that? As for the missiles, well, there’s no mention of them. I refer to our military specialists in Cuba. That can mean what I choose it to mean.’

‘Are you proposing, Nikita Sergeyevich,’ said Mikoyan, ‘that the missiles remain in Cuba?’

‘No, no,’ said Khrushchev. ‘We must not be obstinate. The missiles are a bargaining counter. We will take them out, but on our own terms. The world will see that we have given the Americans a taste of their own medicine, and as a result the Americans have been taught restraint.’

‘I’m not following you, Nikita Sergeyevich.’

‘I was standing on the shore of the Black Sea at Pitsunda when I had this idea,’ said Khrushchev. ‘I was gazing across the water at the American nuclear missiles in Turkey. We will offer to withdraw the missiles from Cuba if the Americans take their missiles out of Turkey.’

He turned to his colleagues and beamed at them.

‘Simple. Fair. A victory for peace. Let us send a new letter at once. So you will see, comrades, that without a shot being fired, we will achieve a victory.’

*

Jack Kennedy sat sprawled across his chair, tapping his teeth with the end of a pencil. It was just after ten in the morning on Saturday, and ExComm had convened to decide how to respond to Khrushchev’s rambling letter of the night before.

‘There’s nothing there that says Khrushchev’s willing to take the missiles out,’ said Rusk.

‘Twelve pages of fluff,’ said McNamara.

‘He’s playing for time,’ said General Taylor. ‘There’s only one way we’re going to get those nukes out, and that’s we go in and take them out.’

‘You could be right,’ said Kennedy.

‘Just say the word, Mr President. We’re set to go, first light on Monday.’

Ted Sorenson came in with a ticker-tape transcript. He handed it to the president.

‘New letter from Khrushchev. Just come over Moscow radio.’

‘Another letter?’

Kennedy read the letter out loud. It was a revised deal. The Soviet chairman offered to withdraw the offensive missiles from Cuba if the United States withdrew its missiles from Turkey.

The ExComm members stared at each other.

‘That wasn’t in last night’s letter, was it?’ said Kennedy.

Rusk turned to an aide.

‘Check this out. Is this part of last night’s letter, or is this a new letter?’

‘We have to ignore this,’ said Mac Bundy. ‘We can’t trade away the missiles in Turkey.’

‘Can’t we?’ said Kennedy.

‘You want to blow NATO to hell? What’s it going to look like, sacrificing our allies’ security to look after ourselves?’

‘What’s it going to look like,’ said Kennedy, ‘making war on Cuba because they threaten us with missiles, while we’re saying the Soviets shouldn’t mind the nukes in Turkey?’

‘Mac’s right,’ said Sorenson. ‘You can’t do this.’

‘I don’t see it either,’ said Bobby. ‘We can’t ask the Turks to give up their defence system.’

‘So what do we do?’

‘We could just ignore the second letter,’ said Bundy. ‘Tell Khrushchev you want to deal with his interesting proposals of last night.’

‘Can we do that?’

There was silence in the room. Bobby got up and went out.

‘If you’ll forgive me, sir,’ said General Taylor. ‘There’s only one way this is going to end, and the longer we delay, the fewer options we have.’

‘We haven’t fully exhausted the possibility of negotiations, General.’

‘Of course not, sir,’ said Taylor. ‘But we all know the boys in the Kremlin have read their Sun Tzu.’

‘Meaning what?’

‘Chinese. Fifth century
BC
.’

He pulled out a small notebook and read from it.

Speak in humble terms, continue preparations, and attack.

Pretend inferiority and encourage the enemy’s arrogance.

The crux of military operations lies in the pretence of accommodating to the designs of the enemy.’

He put his notebook away.

‘Like I said, you’re being played, Mr President.’

Kennedy stared back at Taylor, tapping his teeth with his pencil.

Bobby came back into the room, brandishing a book.

‘Remember this, Jack?’

‘Another book,’ said Kennedy. ‘Great.’

‘You read it last summer.
The American Senator
, by Anthony Trollope.’

‘Summer before,’ said Kennedy.

Bobby had the book open at a marked passage.

‘You told me about this back then. We called it the Trollope ploy.’

‘The Trollope ploy? What the fuck is this, Bobby?’

‘Arabella Trefoil is desperate to get Lord Rufford to marry her. They go for a ride in a carriage, they’re alone together, and they’re flirting. He kisses her, but she can’t get him to the point.’

He read from the book.

‘She flung herself onto his shoulder, and for a while she seemed to faint. For a few minutes she lay there, and as she was lying she calculated whether it would be better to try at this moment to drive him to some clearer declaration, or to
make use of what he had already said
without giving him an opportunity of protesting that he had not meant to make her an offer of marriage.’

He looked up with a grin.

‘You get the strategy? She hasn’t received her proposal, but she decides to act as if she has. When she gets home from the
carriage ride, she simply tells her mother that Lord Rufford has proposed. And he’s caught.’

‘Summer’s over, guys,’ said McNamara, impatient with this distraction. ‘What do we say to Khrushchev?’

‘We do like Mac suggested,’ said Bobby. ‘We answer the first letter, and act as if we never got the second letter.’

‘Why would he buy that?’

‘What choice has he got?’

‘You know what?’ said McNamara. ‘I’m with the president on this one. Pull out the Jupiters. We all know they’re a heap of junk.’

Lyndon Johnson snorted with disgust.

‘I call that backing down,’ he said. ‘We’ve already got Soviet ships coming through the blockade. We’re looking kind of old and tired and sick, I’d say.’

‘Ships are not coming through the blockade,’ said Bobby sharply.

‘Start on the Jupiters,’ said the vice president, ‘and next thing you know you’re pulling out your planes, and your technicians, and your fucking pants. Then you’re standing there buck naked, and your dick don’t look so big anymore.’

‘So what do you propose?’ said the president. ‘We have to get those missiles out of Cuba.’

‘Blast ’em out,’ said General Taylor. ‘The only language they understand is force.’

Kennedy nodded. Then he turned to his brother.

‘Bobby: this Trollope ploy. Why don’t you and Ted draft me something?’

‘You got it.’

Bobby and Ted Sorenson left the Cabinet Room. An aide entered with a note for Bob McNamara. He scanned it rapidly.

‘Looks like they shot down a U2.’

Sudden silence in the room.

‘Is the pilot dead?’

‘Major Rudy Anderson. Brought down by a Soviet SAM missile over Banes, east Cuba.’

‘Fuck!’

‘That’s it, isn’t it?’ said Paul Nitze, assistant secretary of defence. ‘They’ve fired the first shot.’

53

‘Panic meeting,’ shouted Macdonald, racing down the corridor outside Rupert’s office. ‘Get off your arses!’

Mountbatten was gathering the defence staff in the big conference room. Mountbatten himself sat grim-faced at the head of the long table as officers and advisers poured into the room.

‘What the hell happened?’ whispered Rupert to Shaw.

‘Shooting over Cuba,’ said Shaw.

Sir Kenneth Cross, chief of Bomber Command, was half shouting at Mountbatten.

‘We need the go order now! We follow the drill. We use the BBC to call all personnel off leave.’

‘No,’ said Mountbatten, ‘we do not use the BBC. We do not alert the press. The PM is adamant on this.’

‘My bombers are sitting targets! I must give the signal to disperse! Damn it, Dickie, the rockets could start coming in any minute.’

‘We’re to take no overt measures.’ Mountbatten looked round and saw that the room was now full. ‘Ken, brief the room.’

Sir Kenneth Strong, director of the Joint Intelligence Bureau, spoke from a paper in his hand.

‘Cuban anti-aircraft batteries have fired on US low-level reconnaissance planes. Ground-to-air missiles have fired at and
hit a high-level reconnaissance plane. The plane is down, the pilot presumed dead.’

‘They shot down a U2?’ said Cross.

‘Yes.’

‘The Soviets or the Cubans?’

‘We don’t know.’

‘The pressure on the United States to retaliate is now over-whelming,’ said Mountbatten. ‘We must plan for the likelihood of an American counter-strike, followed by an invasion of Cuba.’

Strong picked up again.

‘Information coming out of Cuba shows their defence forces on invasion status. We have reports that Castro is demanding the Soviets launch a first strike.’

‘A first nuclear strike?’

‘What else?’

‘There’s no way Cuba can be defended by conventional weapons,’ said Pike. ‘From Castro’s point of view, it’s nukes or surrender.’

‘Gentlemen,’ said Mountbatten. ‘There are two issues here. How we support our allies in the event of war. And how we defend the United Kingdom.’

‘Right now we’re at Alert Condition Two,’ said Cross. ‘I can have the V-force at Alert Condition Three in two hours.’

‘I’m sorry,’ said Rupert, ‘but I’m not following this. The V-force carries nuclear bombs. How can we defend the United Kingdom with nuclear bombs?’

‘We deter attack,’ said Cross.

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