But no.
That would mean walking away from Gloria and her love for her sister could not allow that. If there was a thread, she would follow it. And when she reached the end, she would snip it.
Once again, as the alcohol and booze began to make her limbs slow and her mind slower, she laid all the evidence out and tried to make sense of it. This is what she came up with: Bascomb was crazy, Danny Paul Regis was spouting hearsay and local gossip, and Ronny McBane was very possibly a dangerous lunatic that had killed Gloria.
Kitty thought these things, arranging them carefully, sorting them out in her mind, smoothing out the rough edges. And it was as she did so that a fear of her own began to creep in that she was utterly wrong. That she was over-rationalizing things and that, in this case, could prove to be very dangerous.
All her life she had not shrunk from anything.
She faced all problems and challenges head on. Even though she knew that this was the point in a horror movie where you hoped the heroine would have sense enough to leave well enough alone, she wasn’t about to do that. She didn’t believe in witchcraft or ghosts, but there was definitely a common thread here as she had thought all along. Rational thinking aside, when you laid it all out end to end starting with what happened in Ronny McBane’s childhood and the unnatural dummy with the most disturbing of names and ending with the fire at the Bamboo Lounge, then the evidence was more than a little damning. Possibly circumstantial, but it was there. And the only way to prove or disprove it was to follow the thread to its source.
This is what Kitty thought as she drifted off on that night of revelations.
11
She came awake just after three with a sense of invasion. Her eyes blinked and then blinked again and she had the most unnerving sensation that they had been open for some time, perhaps peering around the room and watching the play of shadows along the walls as her mind continued to drift along in dream. Her lips felt dry. She licked them with a tongue that felt thick and ungainly. She could see the digital clock. The numbers flickered from 3:02 to 3:03.
She felt paralyzed.
It was the vodka and the Valiums. They always said not to mix them and she rarely did except on those nights when her mind would not shut down and her body remained tense from the day.
The sense of invasion did not lessen, it deepened.
There was a foul odor in the room that she associated with dankness, with subterranean crypts, with corpse-orchids rotting in mortuaries. It was a high, sweet smell and it did not belong in that room in the dead of night.
She tried to move, to reach over to the lamp and turn the light on, but her arms were leaden. Just the effort of lifting even one of them two or three inches left her feeling exhausted.
Listen.
Terror began to expand in her throat and she could not swallow it back down. It filled her chest with icy needles, traced its way down her spine like cold fingertips. The shadows seemed to shift and rustle about her. She heard them make slithering sounds. Something was in the room with her and she could hear it breathing with a low, rasping sound. It knew she was aware of its presence. She was certain of it. It was there, hiding in the darkness like some malignant little goblin waiting to jump out at her and press its mold-smelling mouth to her lips. It was there and it wanted her to find it.
And then she did.
With a tremor of fear that seemed to drain the blood from her vitals, she saw it. It was not in the room at all. It was outside the window. The curtains were parted and she could see Piggy floating out there like a wraith, staring in at her with a malevolent and hungry gaze. His dummy legs and dummy arms were spread out like a high diver dropping from the sky, like some engorged human fly buzzing at the window pane. He moved up and down as he floated as if he was hooked to wires being gently manipulated by a puppeteer.
The window began to slide open.
Oh no, oh no, you’re dreaming. You’re just dreaming.
He came drifting through the window, light as a column of gas, and she heard the subtle
click, clack
as his little, shiny black shoes touched the floor and bore his weight. He stood at the end of the bed, his puppet face pale as funeral lilies, his hinged jaw opening and closing. His eyes were huge, bloated white like boiled eggs. And his voice, when it came was scratching and dry:
“I’ve come as I said I’d come, Kitty. I’ve come to show you tricks. I’ve come to perform for you. I’ve come to eat your pretty pussy.”
Kitty thought she screamed.
Her mouth opened and a dark silence blew out of her but it only echoed in the depths of her skull. Piggy was rising up like a patch of mist. He was drifting above her, arms spread out. She could smell a vaporous stench of dank rot coming off of him. It was chill like the breath of a freezer. She could see his dummy hands, impossibly white, the nails blackened and splintered like they had been clawing at the lids of caskets. In her head there was a thick liquid humming and she could hear his squeaking voice just beneath it telling her in grisly detail what he was going to do to her and what he had done to her sister.
She tried to scream again but all that came out was that same airless sibilance blowing past her lips.
Her limbs would not move.
Her body was heavy, rubbery, immobile.
He came down upon her and she could feel the grave-cold of his hollow weight. Her nightgown was stripped away from her bare thighs but not by anything as crude as searching fingers but by something like a hot wind. There was nothing beneath the nightgown. She had slept naked like that since a teenager, enjoying the freedom from confining underthings.
Piggy buried his face between her thighs and his wooden mouth was like thawing meat, his teeth needlelike as they were dragged over her vulva like the claws of a cat. He began to suck and chew on her, piercing into her soft tissues and laying her open. His tongue was a sliver of ice as it penetrated her, lapping and licking deep inside her as the mouth sucked and slurped, filling itself with her blood that steamed in his glacial aura. The agony was unbelievable, exploding in her head in white bolts but still she could not move and she knew it was more than Valiums and vodka by that point.
She was pinned down and made weak by the force of Piggy’s mind.
Lapping like a kitten with a bowl of milk, he rose up again and came down upon her, his puppet face smeared with her vaginal blood, his breath like exhumed coffins. He made obscene, almost animal-like grunting and groaning sounds as he entered her with a member that felt refrigerated, swollen and probing. It was long and burning cold like an icicle had been shoved up her.
“You have such a sweet, sweet pretty pussy,”
he whispered into her face with that vile, mossy breath as he came and then came again, filling her with a cold sap, what seemed gallons of it that filled her and overflowed her channel, flowing over her thighs and seeping into the mattress in a bubbling, snotty goo.
“Next time I’ll show you another trick and I’ll fill another hole…”
Then he was gone.
The room was empty of all but the commingled stench of him and the webby gush of liquid he had inundated her privates with. She could feel it drying, thickening, becoming a cool-warm jelly that encased her, glued her legs together, and pasted her arms to her sides. She could barely breathe. It was like pine sap that held her, capturing her in amber like an insect. She felt herself sinking in it, drowning in sticky, phlegmy depths. It would cover her completely, gumming her eyes shut and filling her nostrils and flowing down her throat and filling her lungs, gallons upon gallons of slimy, ectoplasmic semen. Her mind raged, her mouth tried to scream, her body tried to thrash…but in the end she was pulled down and down, buried alive in darkness.
It was later when her eyes opened.
She could hear a constant, racked sobbing and it took her a moment or two to realize that it was her own. She could still feel the dummy’s ejaculation all over her, only now it had dried into a viscous, gelatinous emulsion that felt like cooling candle wax, rivers of animal tallow sealing her up and holding her forever in place. Her crotch burned, her thighs felt like they’d been scraped by forks. She could taste vomit in her mouth and bile in her throat, all the while smelling Piggy’s discharge which stank of gangrenous drainage, untreated wounds and running pus.
You were raped, you were raped, you were fucking raped! Do you hear me? You were raped!
But no, no, no, she would not and could not accept that. Her head thrashed from side to side on her sodden pillow and this was the first time her body seemed capable of any voluntary motion. The tears ran and the whimpering sounds bubbled from her mouth.
Do you hear what you’re saying, you silly bitch? Raped? Raped? RAPED? By a fucking dummy? A puppet? A ventriloquist’s doll? Are you totally out of your pea-brained fucking mind?
And she was. Oh yes, most certainly. The desecration she had suffered had kicked her mind right out of her skull. Even now it was circling her brain like a dying planet, trying to find its way back in, trying to cement itself to her psyche and her id and bring the terra firma of reality with it.
Raped…raped.
She closed her eyes, listening to her own sobbing.
When Kitty opened them again, the sunlight was coming in.
She leaped from bed, still feeling the cold violation of the dummy, smelling his charnel breath and feeling his icy member sliding into her. She stumbled into the bathroom. He had been chewing on her. The pain was a distant memory, but an insistent one. She examined herself carefully. There was no blood, no ache of rape, only that pervasive psychic defilement that she could not shake.
It was a dream. You dreamed it all.
But she could not convince herself of the same because she could still hear his voice and feel the violation. Piggy was a dummy. Dummies did not rape women (or men for that matter). She kept telling herself this as it slowly began to fade from her mind. She repeated it under her breath again and again and she would have really believed it if it hadn’t been for the fact that the window was still open.
And she knew that she had closed it last night.
12
And it was that afternoon, after a long and surreal day in which she was haunted by what might and might not have happened the night before, that she received an envelope by special courier. It was from Charlie Bascomb. There were several sheets of paper in there. On one of them, Bascomb had scribbled:
I found this in Eddie Bose’s room. It was in a drawer. I never showed it to the police. When you’re done reading it, please burn it. C.B.
That was all.
The rest were written in a rambling, spidery script that seemed to roam all over the page. And from the looks of them, they were the final thoughts of Eddie Bose, one-time ventriloquist and full-time lunatic.
Kitty began to read, feeling something tightening inside her from the very first line.
To whom it may concern,
If you have this in your hand, then I’m pretty much toast and that’s not very funny and it’s not intended to be. I just want you to know some things that happened to me. Some things I can’t bear to admit to another living soul, because if you didn’t know this already, people think I’m nuts. Maybe they’re right and maybe I have a good reason.
The subject of what I’m going to tell you about is the McBane family and before I start spreading the dirt on this old Scottish clan, let me just say that I brought most of this on myself. And if it wasn’t for Ronny McBane, I wouldn’t be even as alive as I am right now. Understand that. So let me be brief here on account I don’t think I have very much time. Ronny McBane is a ventriloquist as I was once. Ronny had a most unusual dummy, one that was like no other and so, true to form, I had to know about it. I had to know what made it different and why. And that was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. Curiosity killed the cat? Sure, but this cat wasn’t killed outright, but one day at a time. Makes no sense? Of course it doesn’t. Just keep in mind most think I belong in a straightjacket. That might make this an easier read. Long story short, I was obsessed. I had to know how this dummy of Ronny McBane’s could move by itself, could speak when he was nowhere near…and the expressions on its face, my God. Well, suffice to say that this dummy was the sort of unintentional bait no self-respecting vent artist could refuse.
And I took it, I sank my teeth into it, God help me, but I did.
Yes, the bait was offered and I bit. I never thought it would bite back.
Okay, board the crazy train with me because here we go. I was so obsessed that I broke into the McBane house. It was one of those tall, rambling old Victorian nightmares up in Edgewater. You lived here long enough, you’ve seen them, no doubt. Big, ass-ugly monstrosities, busy and confusing with towers and gingerbread and wrought-iron fences, all that crazy 19th
century shit that makes you think the architects wandered out of a Lewis Carroll book. Popular on Halloween, but just goddamn odd the rest of the year. Anyway, you don’t want to hear about that. Point is, I broke into the McBane house. I jimmied a window in the back and went in. I’m not going to tell you what I saw because I don’t trust myself. I could not have seen what I thought I saw. All I know is that whatever I looked at, it burned my soul to cinders, filled my brain full of ashes that are still blowing around up there. I’m hoping this makes sense, because most days I have a pig of a time stringing together two or three coherent sentences. Well, like I said, I saw things there that turned my brain to jelly. Drove me right over the edge. Not only that, but gave me something of a stroke that paralyzed my left side to the point that I have no feeling there.