“You don’t have to. Tell him you’re not up to company. If he doesn’t understand, Davis or Cayla will explain to him,”
Mark stared out the window. “Then there’s Scott. He’s always trying to be nice to me, but it’s like he’s trying to be too nice. It makes me feel weird. He’s always wanting to go off on long hikes in the woods, even in this crappy weather. And he keeps wanting to tell me about these terrible nightmares he has about Dad. I really don’t want to talk about Dad much with Scott.”
“Look.” I made him turn his face toward mine. “Scott’s a good kid. But he’s been through a lot, like you have. I
think he tries to deal with it by hanging around people. You seem to want to be alone more. It’s just different ways of dealing with grief, Mark. Neither one is right or wrong.”
“My last session, I told Steven that I felt jealous of Scott. He got all that time with Dad that I didn’t. I ought to hate his guts, but I don’t.” He looked earnestly at me. “I sometimes think maybe Scott’s jealous of me. I don’t get it, when he had Dad in his life and I didn’t.”
“Oh, Mark.” I drummed fingers against the steering wheel, wondering how to respond. “It may be hard for you to see how lucky you are if you put it in those terms. Yes, Scott had time and more with your father. But Scott couldn’t ever be Trey’s son. And he doesn’t have the most stable life. He’s been moved all around and he’s got Nola for a mother. I know Hart says she’s just grieving, but I think she’s a little erratic, to say the least. You’ve got a family, and roots, and while your mother and I may be driven nuts sometimes, we’re not likely to create scenes at funerals.” I nearly amended that; Sister had created a doozy of a scene at Clevey’s wake. Oh, well, maybe Nola wasn’t so nuts after all.
“Scott’s nice to Bradley, too,” Mark mused. “One way to decide if I like a kid is how he treats Bradley. Some people aren’t so nice to Bradley, y’know.”
I thought of the particular viciousness children display to one who is different and I squeezed Mark’s shoulder. “Well, then, I’m glad to know Scott likes Bradley. Speaking of Bradley, you don’t know why he reacted the way he did at the funeral, do you?”
Mark shrugged. “I guess Nola upset him. He doesn’t like violence. Kind of makes him jumpy.”
“I agree with him. Listen, I have an errand to run, so I’m not going to sit in the waiting room while you have your session with Steven. That okay?”
“Yeah. But you’ll be there when I’m done, won’t you?”
“Absolutely. Let’s go in or we’ll be late. I want a word with Steven before you talk to him.”
The entry hall on the bottom floor served as a common
area, but the waiting room for Steven’s patients was thoughtfully private; it was the former dining room of the old house. Oversized chairs and coffee tables covered with scattered back issues of national magazines and the Mirabeau and Bavary newspapers provided a sense of coziness. I told the receptionist that Mark Slocum was here for his appointment. She said that Steven was not yet in, but she expected him any moment. Mark slumped in a seat while I paced nervously.
“See. No crazy people here but us,” Mark said, his voice sounding scratchy.
“You’re not crazy at all,” I said forcefully. “After what you’ve been through, you’d be crazy not to see a therapist,”
“You haven’t,” he noted.
“Well, I
am
crazy. Haven’t you ever noticed?”
“Yeah.”
“I’ll be okay. Don’t worry about me.”
He was quiet for a moment, looking into my face for traces of insanity.
“What’s wrong?” I asked.
He paused, embarrassment coloring his face. “Well—I don’t want to make you feel like a goob.”
“Tell me.”
“I heard you—the other night. When you were talking to Candace. About Dad.”
I didn’t answer for a moment. “Well, Mark, I was upset. You know that your father’s friendship meant a great deal to me.”
“Yeah.” He looked at me with eyes that were twins of Trey’s. I ruffled his hair affectionately and he ducked away from the attention, embarrassed at his stupidly sentimental uncle.
He picked up a tattered
Sports Illustrated,
shifted his gum to the other side of his mouth, and flipped the pages. The picture of a perfectly normal kid. Except he was a kid that might have a hurt so deep, so penetrating, that he’d never be whole again.
Impatiently, I paced the room. (This is a habit that
Candace finds particularly grating. As if I do it to annoy her.) I wandered near the window and saw a harried Steven Teague parking his rain-spotted black Volvo. Finally. I didn’t want to keep Mark waiting.
Teague stepped out, testing the air with his hand to see if the drizzle demanded an umbrella. He decided not and slammed his car door.
Suddenly Nola Kinnard was there, pressing herself against him, speaking to him with undeniable insistence. She had hold of his coat, her head shaking, her eyes wild in her face.
He put her a step back, holding her shoulders, talking to her, shaking his head. She shook hers in answer, and the tight, painful frown on her face suggested she was near tears. I moved closer to the window, Mark ignoring me completely.
Steven shook his head again; this only agitated her further. Her hands clawed on his shoulder and she broke, her head hanging, rain or tears wetting her face.
I couldn’t see his face, only hers, but he leaned close to her, speaking—I could see the outline of his jaw moving. I hoped he was telling Nola not to make such a spectacle of herself.
Those apparently weren’t his words. She leaned in closely, quickly, and drew him into a kiss.
He either savored her lips against his for the first moments, or was so surprised that he couldn’t move. His face was away from mine. The kiss broke when he pushed her, gently but decisively, away. He said a few more words, then turned and headed toward the front door. Nola stood there in the windblown mist, staring after him. Her eyes were dark hollows in her weathered face, pensive and wanting. She was still standing there when I quickly resumed my seat.
Steven came in smiling broadly, attired in raincoat and tweed and looking every inch the polished counselor. He mopped at his lips with a handkerchief and I saw a smear of red. He ran a hand through his gray-shot hair. “Good
morning, Mark. Why, hello, Jordan, it’s nice to see you as well.”
“I’m Mark’s ride today.” I smiled. “But I wonder if I might speak privately with you for a moment.”
“Certainly. Mark, why don’t you go on into my office and I’ll join you in a moment.”
“See you,” Mark said to me, and went into Steven’s office, shutting the door behind him.
“How’s Mark doing?” I asked.
Steven spread his fingers expansively. He was one of those people who talked as much with his hands as with his voice. “He hasn’t wept yet in therapy. He still has a lot of anger, a lot of denial to work through.”
“He doesn’t want to be around people much. He says so himself.”
“Mark’s doing his best to live up to what you and your family expect from him: strength, resilience, dealing with his own emotions.”
“He says he wants to be alone; being around other people, even boys his own age, seems to make him uncomfortable.”
“Mark’s feeling as though he’s different from everyone he knows. He’s been through a terrible experience that he feels others don’t share. I’m concerned about how this may isolate him. If he doesn’t express his grief, his shock, it can turn in on him. Painfully.”
I didn’t feel reassured by his prognosis. “What can I do to help him?”
“Make him understand it’s okay to have these feelings—the grief and the rage.” He straightened his eyeglasses. “I think Mark is very much like you in some ways, Jordan. Strong, determined to be independent. He doesn’t want to need anyone right now. Let him know that you’re there for him.”
“I will.” Yes, I could do that for Mark. Steven cleared his throat, obviously ready to go treat his patient. I thought about asking him why Nola was all over him like a cheap suit, but decided against it. Perhaps her campaign to win
Ed was withering, and Steven was a backup. If not Nola as a topic—
“This house is very nice. I like it better than your old office in Mirabeau.”
Pallor crept across his face. “Excuse me?”
“You used to work at that Mirabeau Free Clinic, didn’t you? I remember it from when I was a boy. I was sure I’d seen you somewhere before.”
I saw the fight for control on his face; and then the mask of vague distance that I’m sure he wore with his patients fell into place. “You have an excellent memory, Jordan. I spent so little time in Mirabeau before, I didn’t expect that anyone would remember me.”
“Long memories in little towns, Steven.” I smiled. “It’s nice that you chose to come back.”
“Well, I was, er, sorry that the clinic didn’t work out. I, um, always thought I’d try to come back to Mirabeau to live. It’s a delightful town.” He seemed rather anxious to return to his office.
“I won’t keep you from your session with Mark. I’ll be back shortly to pick him up.”
“Excellent, yes, very good,” Steven sputtered, forcing a smile. He retreated into his office.
For a moment I worried about leaving Mark there. I chided myself for overprotectiveness. Steven Teague had lived in Mirabeau before, very briefly, and failed to mention it. That wasn’t a crime. When I’d mentioned it, he hadn’t denied it, just expressed surprise that I knew. He might just be a very private person about his past. There was, after all, nothing to tie him to Rennie Clifton or to Trey. Nola was probably an idle flirtation—and instigated by her. He’d been Clevey’s counselor, but that vague connection was his only one to the nightmare of recent days.
Nola had vanished from the parking lot when I stepped out into the rainy morning. I left, feeling better but not entirely at ease. Time to visit Elvis.
THE INSTITUTE OF ELVISOLOGY WAS OPEN AND ready for business when I parked in front of its garish neon sign that offered all that made the king special. Flocks of adorers, though, hadn’t materialized to beat the institute’s doors down.
I ventured inside, the door chiming the first strains of “Love Me Tender” instead of jingling bells. I didn’t see anyone gyrating forward to take my business, so I wandered for a moment, surveying the offered wares.
Elvis videos, from his earliest movies to later performances, ranged one wall. Albums—in vinyl, cassette, and CD formats—filled bins decorated with a montage of Elvis record covers. A bookshelf, filled with biographies of the King, stood against a wall that was decorated with tabloid headlines that suggested that Mr. Presley still walked among us. A beautifully framed family photo reproduction of Elvis, Priscilla, and the baby Lisa Marie hung centered over the cash register. Easels displayed an assortment of de rigueur black velvet paintings of Elvis in various settings (my favorite was Elvis as Mona Lisa), and a middle display area contained a variety of merchandise: Elvis key chains, Elvis cigarette lighters, Elvis bumper stickers, Elvis refrigerator magnets, Elvis clocks (one with his hips swaying on alternate seconds), Elvis calendars, and the all-important Elvis glassware.
Clothing racks held jackets, T-shirts, leggings, sweats, all adorned with the Presley icon. And on a far wall, a rack of metal shelves held the greatest oddities of all: a fingernail clipping floating in some jelled preservative, carefully
catalogued locks of hair, an unchewed stick of gum mounted on a board like a captive butterfly and labeled with the date and the hotel room Elvis had allegedly left it behind in. Apparently this was Elvis DNA central—I’d have to alert the cloning researchers they could start here.
“Hello?” a voice trying to be deeper than it actually was bellowed from the back. I stepped away from the holy relics.
Wanda Dickensheets appeared from the back storeroom, apparently dressed like Elvis had in one of his early films: hip-hugging pants, silk shirt, cut jacket. Her hair was plastered close to her head and she was carrying her Elvis wig in one hand.
I presumed that I, too, would revisit old girlfriends if Candace started dressing like a man most of the time. If Wanda was worried about Nola, I could assure her that Nola seemed to have shifted her sights off Ed.
“Well, hello, Jordy,” she greeted me, her voice not particularly welcoming. “You don’t mind me not being entirely in costume here, do you? I peeked out and saw it was you. I know you ain’t exactly a big Elvis fan, so I didn’t think you’d care.”
I like Elvis Presley’s music as much as the next red-blooded American, but it was true I wasn’t a devotee of the magnitude of Wanda Dickensheets. Possibly Elvis himself wasn’t. “You look great, Wanda. Quite a setup you’ve got here.”
“Well, thanks. I’m right proud of it.” She gestured expansively. “I do like to think that Elvis himself would feel at home here.”
I didn’t know the likelihood of that—being in a store where your face grinned back at you from every item of merchandise would be disconcerting. “It’s very nice,” I said politely. “Is Ed around?”
Her face darkened. “No, Ed’ll be in later. He’s tired. He had a late night.”
I wondered if Ed’s late night was due to the Mirabeau police. I’d nearly hoped Ed would be absent. I wanted to talk to Wanda alone.