Private 04 - Confessions

Confessions

A Novel (Private #4)

Kate Brian

VULTURES

When faced with tragedy, we gather as many people around us as we possibly can. Mere acquaintances become best friends. Enemies become kindred spirits. We need people so later we can look back and say, "I went through that with them." People who can remind us that what we experienced, what we felt, was real. That we were there. So on that morning in early December, when we were all roused from our cozy dorm rooms just as the gray mist of dawn had started to rise, everyone set about finding that group to cling to. Someone to link arms with to make us feel less vulnerable, less unsure. Less like the world was on the verge of caving in.
My group had found me. They had huddled around me from the moment we stepped out of Billings House and hadn't broken ranks once on the slow walk across the Easton Academy campus to the chapel. Noelle. Ariana. Kiran. Natasha. Then, further out, Cheyenne, Rose, London, Vienna, and the others, their shoes crunching through the frost-caked grass. They wanted me to feel safe. To feel protected. Or so it must have looked to the outside world. In my world--in my head--I was no longer sure of anything.
Where had the police taken Josh? Was he scared? Was he cold? What was he thinking?

I kept seeing his face. The look of shock as they dragged him away. The pleading in his eyes. I kept hearing him tell me he could never hurt Thomas. Could I believe him? Could I believe anyone at Easton anymore?
It's all lies, Reed,
Taylor had written to me.
All of it.
There was a shout in the distance. Someone near me flinched. Everyone paused and turned, but there was nothing to see. Two crows cawed their way across the gray sky overhead, and for a long moment no one moved. Hundreds of steaming clouds of breath mingled in the air around us. Silence. LetÕs go," Noelle said finally, nudging us forward.
I looked at her face for the first time all morning. The cold had turned her cheeks pink, and her brown eyes were bright. Beautiful as ever. She smiled at me reassuringly as the wind tossed her thick brown hair across her face. I didn't smile back. Footsteps jogged to catch up with us. Soon Dash McCafferty and Gage Coolidge were upon us, falling into step.
"Hey." Dash kissed Noelle's temple. His blond hair had been blown up on the side by the wind and stuck there, making him look even more like an Abercrombie model than usual.
"What was that?" Noelle asked, glancing back over her shoulder. "Vultures," Gage said through his teeth. His striped rugby scarf was tossed around his neck and chin, and his hair was slick with water from the shower. He must have been freezing, but he was too cool to show it.
"Reporters," Dash amended. "They're camped out down by the gates. Dean Marcus had them locked last night after the police left. My father got a phone call an hour ago informing him of heightened security measures. They must've called all the parents."
"Fab," Kiran said. "Bet my mother loved that wake-up call."
"One of 'em scaled the fence, though. Trey was on his run and saw Scat escorting' some slag with a video camera off campus," Gage informed us. He made a fist with one leather-gloved hand and pressed it into his other palm. "Fucking vultures."
"Scat's the head of security," Natasha, my roommate, informed me, noting the question in
my eyes. I had seen him before. Large man. No neck. Perpetual scowl. I never realized anyone knew his name. "So we're locked in," Kiran stated. She shivered and lifted the fur collar of her coat higher on her throat so that it grazed her perfect cheekbones. With her huge sunglasses covering her eyes and her dark hair down around her face, she looked for
all the world like a starlet trying to avoid the paparazzi. "For now," Dash told us.
"Until they figure out what to do next." "What's to figure?" Noelle asked. "They have the murderer in custody now, don't they?" I wasn't sure whose scathing look was more deadly, mine or Dash's. Probably his, since I was fairly certain he'd never looked at Noelle like that before in all the time they'd known one another, which was forever. We had arrived at the open chapel entry. The door was flanked by the Ketlar advisor, Mr. Cross, and my history teacher, Mr. Barber. Dash turned, jaw clenched, and stormed inside without another word to his beloved girlfriend. "What's his malfunction?" Noelle said.
"I think there's a little something called innocent until proven guilty?" Natasha replied. Noelle rolled her eyes. Rolled her eyes at the suggestion that perhaps Josh Hollis, our friend, had perhaps not cold-bloodedly murdered Thomas Pearson. "Let's keep it moving, ladies," Mr. Barber said, waving his hand. He stared past us with piercing eyes, as if keeping the lookout for some unknown danger. "Let's keep it moving." I stepped into the hushed chapel and started down the aisle to the sophomore section. A chill rushed through me at the sudden loss of the Billings Girls' surrounding body heat, but I felt somehow free. I realized fully for the first time that I'd been aching to get away from them. To be alone and have some time to think. Then a cold hand closed around my wrist.
"We'll be right back here if you need us, Reed," Ariana said, her ice blue eyes boring straight through me. I tried to pull my arm away, but she held firm. "I know," I told her, speaking my first words of the day. She released me and smiled angelically. "Good."
It's all lies, Reed,
Taylor had written.
All of it.
I turned my back to her and found my seat.

NEW RULES

I left my coat on and buttoned, the better to make a fast escape when it was all over. The murmuring in the chapel had a panicked quality. It was obvious that the seniors and juniors near the back knew exactly what had happened, while most of the sophomores and all of the freshmen were speculating cluelessly. The difference was in their eyes. The older students' eyes were narrowed--stunned but pensive. The younger kids had a wide-eyed, what-the-hell-is-going-on look about them. These were the details I noted as I sat. Paying

attention to them kept my mind off things I didn't want to think about.

"Do you have any idea what's going on?" Constance Talbot asked, sliding into the seat next to mine. Her red hair was back in a sloppy French braid, good for hiding the fact that it hadn't been washed. Colorful shafts of light came through the stained glass windows and bathed her face in pink and yellow. She shimmied out of her gray wool coat and bent forward, trying to catch my eye. "Reed? Come on. I know you know." She assumed this because I was in Billings. And the Billings Girls knew everything. Which maybe I did, but too late. Always too late. "Reed?" she sounded more urgent, concerned. "Reed? Are you okay?"

The chapel doors closed. Silence fell. Everyone faced forward. Even Constance. It was easy to quiet this place when the students were salivating for news. My gloved hands closed into fists on my lap. Dean Marcus stepped up to the altar at the front of the chapel. His wrinkled face looked pale and tired. He pressed both hands into the surface of the podium.

"Students, can I have your attention, please?" he said, even though he already had it. His voice was deep and authoritative. It didn't match his wan appearance. "Thanks to all of you for gathering here quickly and in an orderly fashion. As always I'm impressed with the level of maturity of our student body. I only ask that when you hear what I have to say, you maintain your calm. Right now, more than ever, this community needs to know that it can rely on itself and its members, that we will not let one another down. These are the high standards I expect from the students of Easton. These are the high standards you should expect from yourselves."

There was a lot of shifting and a few murmurs. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Constance look at me. Dean Marcus took a deep breath. "Students, I regret to inform you that a member of the junior class, Joshua Hollis, has been arrested on suspicion of murder." "What?" "Oh my God." "You've gotta be kidding me. Josh Hollis is a Boy Scout!" someone shouted. "It's always the quiet ones," someone else said solemnly. There was no stopping the din now. It consumed the chapel. Constance grabbed my hand. All she got was a cold fist. "Students! Students!" the dean shouted. He was ignored. Everyone was busy gasping, blabbering about how they couldn't believe it. Someone, somewhere, was crying. Crying. Who the hell was crying?

"I can't believe this. I can't believe someone we know killed 
someone. . . ."

He didn't. He didn't do it. Stop saying he did it.

"Reed. Oh my God. Did you know about this? Are you okay?" Constance asked me, turning so that our knees were touching. "Reed, you're freaking me out here. Say something."

I wanted to. I didn't want to freak her out. But I knew that if I opened my mouth or so much as truly looked at her, I would break down. And I couldn't have that. Not now. Not yet.

"Silence!" Dean Marcus roared. He brought his fist down several times on the surface of the podium. "I will have silence!"

That did it. The place was suddenly as still as night. His watery eyes traveled the room slowly.

"I realize that this is difficult news to hear, and that it is even harder to accept, and that is why I wanted you to hear it from me.

I wanted to tell you this before it came out in the newspapers, before rumors started flying, because I wanted to remind you that we here at Easton support one another. Let us all remember one of the most important laws of our society--that a person is innocent until he or she is proven guilty," the dean said, leaning over the podium. Somewhere, I knew Natasha was smirking. "If Mr. Hollis is proven to be guilty, we will deal with it then, but until that time he is still a member of this community, and as such he is due our respect and support." For that one moment, I liked the dean. I liked him very much.

"Now, I don't have to tell you that the next few weeks are going to be a trying time for this academy," the dean continued. "Not only do you all face the challenge of final exams, but there will be reporters, gossip hounds, and so-called newspeople, all bent on bringing this institution to its knees. We all know how cruel the media can be, and they adore a scandal like this one. I also know how seductive the spotlight can be, so I have taken steps to ensure that none of you are tempted. From today on, the gates around this cam-pus are closed to outsiders. No one other than your immediate family--your parents, your guardians--will be allowed on campus." There was a long pause. No one moved. "More important, no students will be allowed to leave this campus unless in the company of a parent or guardian."

This got a reaction. How could it not? I had been hearing murmurs for weeks about trips to

New York and Boston. Shopping excursions, club-hopping, posh holiday dinners at exclusive restaurants. In one fell swoop the dean was robbing these privileged kids of their lifestyles. "Do not even think about testing me on this one, people. It is nonnegotiable," the dean continued. "If you do attempt to test me, there will be dire consequences." Once again his glare set upon each of us. The faculty members who stood along the walls seemed to crowd in toward us, like they were ready to grab anyone who tried to make a break for it. "We will concentrate on our studies. We will remember what this institution is all about, and we will live it every day. Tradition. Honor. Excellence." "Tradition. Honor. Excellence," the student body mumbled grumpily. Like it was all about them. Like the most important thing said at this assembly had been about the locked gates, the new restrictions. Like Josh had already been forgotten.

* * *

For once I didn't even bother getting food. Not that I'd been able to eat much lately, but usually I at least went through the motions, got myself a trayful of whatever and maybe tried to take at least one bite. But I was tired of pretending. Who the hell was I keeping up appearances for, anyway? I walked along the wall of the cavernous cafeteria, past all the quaint paintings of rural New England set in their ornate frames, listening to the chatter bouncing off the domed ceiling. The students around me stared and whispered, but I was used to that by now.

I sat at our usual table, alone, and slumped in my chair with one question plaguing my mind: Who had killed Thomas? I knew Josh hadn't done it. Knew it in my bones. But if he hadn't, then who had? I had to know. More important, the police had to know. If the real killer was exposed, they would have to let Josh go. As simple as that. But who else could possibly have done it? Who had a reason to kill Thomas? Noelle and the others arrived with their trays of hot oatmeal, toasted bagels, and steaming coffee, and crowded in around me.
"Reed, I know you're depressed and all, but bad posture isn't going to make it any better," Kiran said. She perched on the edge of her own chair, slim legs crossed at the ankle, and lifted a heavy, scented magazine from her bag. "Give her one day to wallow, Emily Post," Noelle said. Kiran shrugged. "Fine, but when you're a hunchback at forty, don't come crying to me." Dash dropped like a boulder into the chair across from Noelle and stabbed repeatedly at his oatmeal with his spoon. "Problem?" Noelle asked, arching a brow. Dash stared. "No. Everything's fine, actually. One friend dead, one in jail. I don't know about you guys, but I'm feeling pretty damn upbeat." "I just can't believe he did it," Noelle pondered. "Little Josh Hollis, a murderer." "You're the one who decided it was him," I blurted. All movement at the table stopped. Like someone had hit the pause button on my life. "Excuse me?" Noelle said.

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