At those words, Fane couldn’t help the images that ran through his thoughts and he heard Jacquelyn weep as she watched them in her mind.
Fane and her at the bonding ceremony, with their family all around them. Then Fane and her in a room alone, one of his hands cradling her head, the other resting on her waist, him leaning down and biting her neck to complete the blood rites.
Jacquelyn shook with sobs as she continued to see his thoughts. She and Fane were walking through a beautiful house, hand in hand, then they were wrapped in each others arms, tangled in bed sheets with passion in their eyes. Then Jacquelyn was in a hospital bed, Fane was holding her hand, her belly was swollen with child. Next she saw Fane rocking a baby to sleep as Jacquelyn sat watching. Then they were wrapped in each other's arms, laughing, kissing, touching, loving.
Fane’s shoulders shook as he wept, crying over what might never come to be.
“
I’m sorry, Luna. I shouldn’t have let you see all that. When you mentioned thinking of all we could have, it made me think of the things I too have dreamt about having with you.”
The next thing Fane heard was a whisper so soft he almost missed it.
“
Fane, make love to me,” Jacquelyn said, almost too soft for even wolf ears to hear.
Fane froze. This was the rock and a hard place no man wants to get into with a woman. If he says no then he’s rejecting her and she will be embarrassed. If he says yes, then he’s a jerk because he’s taking advantage of her vulnerability. Jacquelyn would not have asked this of him if it were just another night, and he would not make love to her until she asked him when there was no threat to any lives and nothing was creating passion that might not be as fervent as it seemed at that moment. Now, how exactly do you word that to a seventeen year old female who already has self-esteem issues?
Good luck with that, Fane
, he thought.
“
Jacquelyn, look at me,” Fane told her. “I want to make love to you, are we clear on that part?” he asked her.
“
Yes, we’re clear. There’s a 'but' coming on, isn’t there?” she asked.
“
We are both really emotional right now. I don’t want you to do something that you will regret tomorrow night after the challenge. If I win, and I plan to, you will be sad that we didn’t wait. I want the first time to be special and perfect for both of us. Please don’t think I’m rejecting you, because you have absolutely no idea how hard it is to say no to you,” he told her honestly.
“
Wow, I’m impressed,” Jacquelyn said, wiping away what was left of the tears on her cheeks.
“
Are you mad at me?” Fane asked cautiously.
“
No, I’m not. I’m a little embarrassed 'cause you know how awkward I am when it comes to the whole physical aspect of a relationship,” she told him.
“
Why are you embarrassed by it? You do realize that it will be fun, right?” Fane asked her, grinning widely.
“
Why do you like to say stuff like that knowing it’s going to make me blush?”
“
Because it’s cute,” Fane told her honestly. “I won’t make love to you Luna, but since we are both awake I will most definitely take advantage of your beautiful lips,” Fane said just before he wrapped an arm around her and flipped her onto her back. Jacquelyn squealed and laughed as Fane leaned over her. He bent down and gently kissed her lips. Jacquelyn wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him towards her. He rumbled in his chest at her boldness. Fane’s left hand was cradling Jacquelyn’s head while his right hand was gradually rubbing her thigh, moving slowly up to her waist. Fane was quite proud of himself for telling Jacquelyn he would not consummate their relationship, but as he lay there in her arms, feeling her lips on his, their bodies pressed close, he hoped she wouldn’t make him wait too long after the bonding.
She will probably want a human wedding first.
He growled at that thought. It was probably going to be awhile before they mated. In that case, he better slow down. He eased off her just a bit and pulled back from her lips. They were both breathing hard.
“
Is something wrong?” Jacquelyn asked him, looking very worried.
“
No, everything is very right. I just need to slow down a little, my honor only goes so far. Wolf or not, I’m still a guy and you are a very fine girl,” Fane told her with no shame.
“
Oh, I see. You were getting all worked up, only to realize all worked up is all there is. Am I right?”
“
Yes, Luna, you are brutally right. Can I be brutally blunt?” he asked her.
“
By all means,” she answered.
“
At what point do you plan to make the same offer?”
Jacquelyn laughed at that. “You’re worried about how long it’s going to be before we do the deed?”
“
Well, since you put it so eloquently, yes, that is what I’m asking,” Fane answered and actually looked embarrassed.
“
I want to be married first.” Jacquelyn held up her hand to keep Fane from saying whatever was fixing to leave his lips. “Married in the traditional way, not just the werewolf bonding thingy,” she explained.
“
You do realize that our werewolf bonding thingy is more binding than your human marriage, right?” Fane told her smugly.
“
That may be, my little fur ball, but I still want our relationship recognized in the eyes of normal people as legit, got it?”
Fane grinned at her. “As you wish, Luna.”
“
That’s what I like to hear, wolf-man,” Jacquelyn told him as she yawned.
“
Try to get some sleep, love. It’s going to be a long day tomorrow,” Fane told her and kissed her on the head.
He began to hum the song he had sung to her earlier and even though he so desperately wanted to stay awake, his wolf knew they both needed rest and that helped push him into a deep sleep.
Chapter 31
From the minute
Jacque woke up, things were a blur. Fane kissed her sweetly and held her close and then finally let her go and watched her walk across the street to the Henrys' house. She showered and put on the new clothes that her mom had bought, and they actually weren’t too bad. A pair of cute jeans and a simple green, fitted, v-neck top. She was proud of her mom for not taking the opportunity to put her in a ridiculous outfit that made her look twelve.
Point to you, mom,
she thought.
By the time she got downstairs, Jen and Sally had arrived, and that put a big smile on Jacque’s face.
“
What are you two doing here?” she asked them, and before she could give them a chance to answer she added, “And don’t ya’ll smell like the wolves?”
“
Nope. We went home, showered, and put on clothes that had not been at your house. So we are werewolf-smell free,” Jen told her.
“
Awesome. So instead of fretting by myself, I get to make ya’ll miserable by fretting with you,” Jacque said, sounding very forlorn.
“
Shut up! Do you honestly think we would let you spend this day of all days alone? Sorry, chica, no such luck,” Sally told her.
Jacque was so thankful that she wasn’t going to be left to her own thoughts. Already they were beginning to feel overwhelming, but Jen took charge and before she knew it, it was eight pm. Jacque went to the Henrys' front window and looked across the street at her house. Sure enough, she saw Sorin and Fane coming out the front door. Her heartbeat sped when he turned and looked back at her. It reminded her of the night he arrived, which had only been five days ago. Could it really be possible that it had been a mere five days since she first laid eyes on him? She felt like she had known him all her life, like he had always been there with her. He grinned at her and winked.
“
I love you, Luna. More than I ever thought possible, I love you,”
Jacque heard him tell her through his thoughts. A single tear ran down her face and she hastily wiped it away. She was not going to be weak. Jen and Sally had moved beside her and were looking out the window as well.
“
That is one fine specimen,” Jen said with a sly grin plastered on her face.
“
Why am I not surprised that is what you're thinking about at a time like this?” Sally asked her.
“
Hey, there is never a time to not appreciate a fine looking man. Am I right, Jacque? You know I am.”
“
Well, when it’s one as fine as Fane, then you are right,” Jacque said with a smile. She knew that Jen was trying to lighten the mood and she was grateful.
The next hour seem to drag. Jacque spent most of it pacing the Henrys' living room and mumbling things under her breath. She so desperately wanted to seek out Fane’s thoughts, but his father had made it very clear that Fane needed to concentrate on the challenge only, so Jacque refrained from it.
Jacque jumped when she heard a knock on the Henrys' front door. Jen went and looked out the front window to check if it was friend or foe.
“
It’s Fane’s mom. Guess it’s that time,” Jen told them.
Jen opened the door and Alina stepped in. She was dressed in black cargo, military-style pants, a black t-shirt, black boots, and her long hair was pulled back in a ponytail. She looked so bad ass.
“
You look like you are planning on doing more than just watching,” Sally told her.
“
It’s always best to be prepared. I’m trained in all sorts of fighting styles, so if a full-out battle ensues, someone will have to stay in human form to take care of Jacque, and that is me,” Alina explained.
“
Is there any way that we could maybe take a vehicle and just be parked close to the field as backup? Like if ya’ll need a quick get away? What do ya think?” Sally asked this and it took everyone by surprise.
“
Who are you and where is my little safe Sally who won’t even go over the speed limit?” Jacque teased her.
Alina hadn’t said anything yet, and when Jacque looked at her she could tell she was actually considering Sally’s plan.
“
You do realize that if I allow this I will be disobeying my husband’s orders?” Alina asked them.
“
Don’t you have to do what he orders, like the other wolves? When he gives them an order sometimes they have to obey whether they want to or not.” Jen asked her.
“
No, I am Alpha female and I am his mate. He cannot really give me orders. I like to think of them as firm suggestions,” Alina told them with a wink.
“
Nice.” Jen gave Sally and Jacque fist bumps. “So what do you say?” she asked Alina.
“
I think it is a good idea. However, you must be surreptitious. If the other wolves smell you, there will be an all out war. Do you understand?” Alina asked sternly.
“
We hear you loud and clear. We're good at sneaking. We aren’t going to go into how we got so good at it, but rest assured it’s almost a specialty of ours,” Jen told her.
Jacque was shaking her head, clearly not in agreement with the things that were transpiring.
“
Wait just one darn minute! I can’t let you guys do this. Don’t you realize how dangerous this is? If anything happened to ya’ll because of me I would never be able to live with myself.” Jacque was on the verge of having one of her two year old moments.
Sally and Jen both wrapped their arms around her and squeezed her tight.
“
I hate to break it to you, Watson, but Jen and I tend to do what we want even when you tell us not to. Usually we just agree with you and then do what we want. Surely you know this?” Sally told her in a sweet tone of voice.
“
You two drive me crazy!” Jacque exclaimed.
“
Whoa, back up wolf chick. What would you do if you were in our shoes? You cannot tell me for a minute you would sit at home and wait for us. So you just take your little safety speech and shove it,” Jen said as she let go of Jacque and backed up, putting her hands on her hips.
“
Well, Jen, how 'bout you tell me how you really feel?” Jacque said sarcastically.
Jacque knew they were right. There was no way she would let them go off to something so dangerous and sit at home. How could she possibly ask them to do the same?
“
You’re right, I wouldn’t sit at home. Please promise me you will be careful!”
“
Sweet!” Jen said, giving Sally a high five. “We are so going on a stakeout, this rocks.”
Jacque took a deep breath and tried not give into the panic that was threatening to overtake her.
“
Jacque, it’s time,” Alina told her gently.
Alina turned, and once more told Jen and Sally to make sure they were not seen and to stay downwind so their scent would not reach the wolves. She then walked out the front door without a glance. Jacque knew that Alina trusted she would follow, but she was also giving her a moment in private with her friends.
“
I love you two. Please be careful,” Jacque said as she hugged them both.
“
Don’t worry ‘bout us, Sherlock. You focus on your task, and we'll focus on ours,” Sally told her.
Jacque didn’t linger, she didn’t want to turn on the water works and knew they would come if she didn’t leave quickly. She waved one last time and rushed out the front door. She saw that Alina had pulled the rental car to the curb. She climbed into the passenger seat and they started off on what proved to be the longest ride of her life, even though the field of dreams was only fifteen minutes from her house. They were both silent on the way there, absorbed in their thoughts, coming to the realization that the man they both loved was going to be in the fight of his life tonight and they would be watching, whatever the outcome.