Pleasure (25 page)

Malaya felt his face in her hair, felt him dragging in her scent until he made a coarse sound of approval. Then, as she stood braced against the wall as if he were a cop getting ready to frisk her, he slid his fingers along the separation of her buttocks, stroking her intimately on his way to plunging two fingers into her. He did it hard and fast, the wetness of her body making it very easy for him. She felt the press of the heel of his hand against her perineum and then it pushed hard against her there as he thrust into her again and again. He was leaning heavily against her back, his body following every minute jostle she suffered as he pushed into her harder and harder. Malaya gasped for her breath, the harsh treatment burning her body with decadent desire.

Then he left her with a slick sound of abandonment, but she felt him jerking against her as he freed himself from his clothing. In the next instant it was that outrageous cock of his sliding against her perineum. He was so hot that she made a small sound of eager need. She pushed back against him, tilting her hips receptively. He didn't hesitate to take advantage of the invitation. It took three sharp thrusts before he was seated within her to his satisfaction. She heard him make a low, long sibilant sound as he paused to absorb the impact of their connection. Malaya was glad he did. There was
a big difference between the feel of his fingers and the enormous pressure of being filled by that intense erection.

However, it wasn't a very long pause. Reaching around her to cup her pubis in his hand, his fingers sliding through her folds to find her most sensitive place, he braced his free hand on the wall next to hers and pushed up into her in a deepening thrust.

“Drenna
bless me,” she gasped uncontrollably, the sensation of him making her dizzy with joy. He chuckled softly near her ear, and then repeated the upward surge into her body.

He was increasing his speed and force within moments. She heard his harsh breath and the savage sounds he made. He took his hand from the wall to spread it over her belly, to fondle her aching breasts, and to stroke up the length of her throat. Her head dropped back against his shoulder and she began to cry out hard, punctuating each of his fierce thrusts into her. Malaya felt her body shimmering with pleasure until she was numb and soaring free of its physical confines. She cried in ecstatic release as she felt herself burst apart, scattering into the Beyond for the briefest instant before she was dragged back into her body and forced into awareness of the thick rod of Guin's cock pumping into her almost frantically.

She felt him unraveling, heard it in his desperate breaths and the way he took her up off her feet each time he hit into her. He began to groan in loud, agitated surges and then finally slammed into her hard harder hardest and she felt him coming in hot, wrenching climax inside her. He gasped through the entire orgasm, shuddering against her back until suddenly his strength seemed to give way beneath them both. He fell to his knees, dragging her down with him.

They knelt where they were for a long minute, catching their breath. Guin held her back against his chest with both arms wrapped around her. She felt him placing a string of
kisses up the back of her neck. Finally he exhaled long and slow and rested his forehead against her shoulder.

“I'm sorry,” he said deeply. “That was wrong of me.”

“You're going to need to be more specific,” she said wryly.

Guin chuckled wearily. She was all too right.

“For forcing you away from your work. I don't have the right.”

“Guin,” she scolded softly, finally turning in his grasp to meet his tired eyes. “You had every right. You are one of my closest friends and you needed me. That will always take precedence over everything else. I owe you that much and more. And I understand all the rest, too. I don't know that I would have been able to do much differently had I seen what you have seen today. But I would also hope someone else would be my voice of reason in that moment. I wouldn't doubt it would be you.”

“Then you give me too much credit. You would only have needed to say ‘Acadian' and I would have let you at her. Honey, I have to do something to strike back at this creature. I can't stomach not being a part of thwarting her somehow. Either by stopping the assassination of Trace's family or bringing this
k'ypruti
to light, I can't just stand by and watch her shatter good people one devious blow at a time. And knowing you are in her sights nauseates me. You have to let me do something.”

“Don't worry about me and this law. I have made a proposal to the Senate and I am almost certain they will accept it.”

“What did you do?” he demanded sharply.

“I accepted their terms on the understanding they would accept mine.”

Guin was out of her grasp and on his feet instantly. He stumbled hard as he dressed himself, weakness from blood loss, injury, and the totality of his release with Malaya mak
ing him uncoordinated. Malaya followed hot on his heels. He could hear her draw breath to speak.

“Go away, Malaya,” he growled, shaking her off harshly when she touched him. The hard movement made him wince and she saw him catch his breath. That was when she remembered he was badly hurt.

“Guin, you need a healer!” She reached for him, pulling on his arm in an attempt to stop him. It was like trying to pull a locomotive to a halt.

“I need to have my fucking head examined, that's what I need!” he roared, turning on her so suddenly that she almost fell over. “What are you doing, Malaya? Hmm? Tell me that much, at least. And by all means, be honest,” he bit out. “It is one of the things you do best, isn't it?”

“Guin, what are you—?”

“I want to know what you are doing! With me! You knew you were going to do this. You've probably known it for weeks, haven't you? And maybe you didn't know how much time you had to work with so instead of starting from scratch you figured you might as well stick close to home and work on familiar territory. Isn't that right?”

“Guin, you aren't making any sense!” she railed at him.

“Okay, try this…I'm the last fling, aren't I? You wanted something hot and dirty in your bed fucking you until you had to trade yourself away for favors like a whore, didn't you? Gods, and I fell right into it, didn't I? You must have been so fucking delighted to realize I had the hots for you. How much easier did that make all of this?”

“That is the most ridiculous and asinine thing I have ever heard you say! Do you really think I am capable of something so coldly calculating?”

“Yes, Malaya,” he hissed. “You can manipulate your fate like no one I know, and what you want, you make happen. Maybe you don't even realize what you are doing, because I know you would never intentionally set out to hurt someone,
but gods…Damn you, Malaya, this time you don't have any idea what you've done!”

“Then tell me! Guin, I'm floundering in confusion here! Even if what you say is true, what's so wrong with you and me spending this time as lovers before I am wed? Don't you want me like that?”

“No. Not like that! Not like any of this! Gods, I have to get out of this place. I have to get away from
you
!” He whipped away from her, storming into his room and grabbing up a large duffel bag as he passed it. “Just go find your fucking list of names,
K'yatsume,
and start choosing. How long did they give you, anyway?”

“A year,” she said automatically, her confusion so vast it was overwhelming. She didn't understand why he was so damn upset! He had to have known this was the way it was going to have to be. She couldn't figure out why it was so important to him that she not have an arranged marriage. “Guin, please talk to me. Don't do that!” she cried when she realized he was packing his things into that bag. He had always been able to keep his life packed into two bags. One for his belongings, the other for his weaponry. She knew it wouldn't take long for him to finish what he was doing.

“Get off me.
Drenna,
I can't believe you've done this. I can't…” He stopped speaking, almost as if he couldn't say anything because he had lost his voice. She moved around the bed, climbing onto it and crawling across it so he was forced to look at her as he shoved his clothes quickly away.

“Guin, tell me what you want from me! I'm willing to be with you as long as possible. You need to know I wasn't just looking to pass the week with you. I wouldn't have started this for so little an appetite. It wouldn't have been worth the risk. I want you to stay! We have a whole year!”

“Please…” he said, stopping suddenly as his voice turned hoarse. “Please stop talking and go away. If you have even the smallest speck of love for me…please let me go.”

“It's because I love you that I won't let you go!”

Guin suddenly roared in fury, throwing the bag away from between them as he dropped a knee on the bed and grabbed her by both arms.

“Oh, how easily you throw those words away! You love me, Tristan, and Rika. You love your people and your life and your gods. You love every speck of dust and every wayward breeze! And it doesn't surprise me if you really could. I honestly and truly believe if anyone has the heart for it all, it's you. But I don't want to be another speck of dust or another wayward breeze in your life, Malaya. I haven't the strength anymore. You ask too much of me and I know…gods, do I know you have no idea that you do, but trust me when I tell you,
you ask too much of me!”
He pushed free of her and went for his bag. “Now I'm going to go and find these assassins who hunt for Ashla so no other man has to watch the woman he loves be torn away from him. Someone, at least, can be saved from all of this.”

“No! I won't let you go!” she cried, grabbing hold of him and throwing all of her weight back against his progress.

“You have no choice!”

“I'm your queen, goddamn you, and you won't leave until I tell you to!”

That made Guin stop. Malaya never took the name of god in vain. It at least deserved his attention that she had.

“I don't see how you can stop me.”

“I will have you thrown in a cell if I have to! You aren't leaving, Guin. I need you here. I need your protection. I've only just begun to learn how to need you as a lover. You can't just walk away like this! I thought you were my friend!”

Guin turned to look at her, making sure he looked her dead in the eyes.

“Not anymore,” he said.

He took advantage of her shock to walk out the door.

Acadian was so happy she could barely keep her feet on the ground.

Guin was gone!

Of all the people surrounding the twins, Guin was the one she found the most unpredictable. Frankly, she had no idea why he was where he was in the first place. Or rather, where he had been. Trustworthy rumor had it that he had once been one of the deadliest assassins of all those assassin clans. How he had ended up the most trusted individual in the royal enclave was the most arcane of mysteries. Firstly, why would he even want to be there surrounded by all those goody-goody vibes and that sickeningly tiresome woman in the first place? And why would Tristan trust his precious sister to such a character?

But now there had been some sort of blowup, a crisis in their relationship right after the incident at the committee meeting. Talk about an unexpected bonus! What a satisfying day. She had to admit, Guin was smarter than she gave him credit for. He'd gotten Magnus's bitch out of that trap far too easily. She would have to be more creative next time. How
ever, it had been amusing to watch the priest go off to save his woman, not realizing that when she'd left her first little poem behind she'd also fed the comatose handmaiden the potion that had expelled the child from her body. She wished he would figure that part out soon. It would be one more twist of an already torturous knife in his fool heart.

Despite the clever rescue, Acadian was content in knowing that Daenaira and Magnus both had survived to be tormented another time. If they thought they were getting off for their crime against her that easily, they were sorely wrong. But she suspected they would be quite afraid of her next move for a very long time. Especially Daenaira. A woman didn't get over the loss of a child easily. Not even the brassy little handmaiden. She also wondered if Magnus would lower himself from his mighty principles and go chasing after a half dozen or more Senators in order to force the truth of their identity from them as he searched for the dreaded Acadian. That could be amusing. Very amusing.

She might miss Guin. That stunt at the committee meeting had been priceless. He'd been tied up in knots, and like a pitbull chained just short of his prey, he'd been yanked back by his mistress. Poor, poor doggie. But he had been one tough dog who'd been hard to figure out. He had no personal life whatsoever. No family. No friends. All he did was work. He had no vices to be tempted with and no weaknesses she could exploit. It had been the most baffling thing to her.

But when he had reacted in the Senate so strongly to the law being imposed on his mistress, Acadian had realized that his weakness had been standing right in front of her all of this time. He cared about what happened to his mistress a bit more than would be expected for a common servant. That fierce anger had been about more than his infamous loyalty. And where was that loyalty now? Now that he had left his mistress alone and unprotected?

 

Four days.

Guin had been gone for four days, and Malaya was beside herself without him and so upset about how and why he had left that she could barely concentrate and couldn't sleep.

How could he have thought she was just using him? As if she had purposely planned to be involved with him until the marriage she had agreed to on Monday, when she had passed the new law that faithfully honored an old tradition. She sat at her desk, toying with the corner of the list of names she'd been given by the Senate. They had been right. Every name was from old, powerful blood and many had fought her ascendancy tooth and nail during the war. Most were former clan leaders, or their heirs, many of whom had become Senators at the change of the regime so they would feel they still had a say in how they lived their lives. It had made the turnover much more peaceful in the end.

And now her former enemies wanted to wed and bed her and get her with child. In that respect she could understand Guin's disgust. And it wasn't as if large parts of her weren't rebelling against this entire thing! He made it seem like she'd done it without a second thought! And maybe she had thought he would be an excellent final affair before all this marriage business came to pass, but what was so wrong with that? It wasn't as if she'd schemed the idea beginning to end. It had been an incidental understanding. She had thought he had wanted to be with her!

Instead, he had left her. By the way it felt, quite possibly he had left for good. How could he abandon her so easily after fifty years? And just when they were getting to know one another in such a wondrous physical dimension!

Damn him,
what was so wrong with that
?

Malaya shoved aside the list. She knew every name on it by heart by now anyway. There were fifteen, and of those fifteen there were only five she could stomach the idea of living in close quarters with. Of those five…none of them
appealed to her sexually. How could they when they had Guin's recent shadow overpowering them?

The Chancellor stood up and paced her office, ignoring her brother as he glanced up at her from his desk across the room. Biting her lip, she made herself move to burn the restless energy that consumed her constantly. The worst part about it had been when she'd realized it was because her body was craving Guin and what he could do to it. Then there was the silence because she had no one to argue with anymore and only people who said “Yes,
K'yatsume”
and “You are right as always,
K'yatsume”
all around her now. She'd even tried saying something completely ridiculous to see what they would say and it had not changed a whit!

Malaya grunted harshly in disgust, attracting Tristan's attention once more. He was well aware of the turmoil his sibling had been in since Guin's unexpected abandonment and he wasn't surprised by either Guin's disappearance or Malaya's disturbance. He even thought he had a small suspicion about what was really going on between the two of them. He suspected he had more clarity of thought on the matter than his sister did. Still, he didn't offer his opinion. There were just some things he knew he had to keep out of until he was invited in. All he knew was, despite Killian's strength and skills, he would never be equal to Guin in devotion to his duty and ability to perform it. Frankly, he'd rather have Guin distracted in bed with his sister than no Guin at all. It was still better than the alternatives.

Not to mention it would probably calm his agitated sister down quite a bit.

He didn't blame Guin for this show of rebellious temper. Tristan had been no happier with his sister's bargain with the Senate than the bodyguard was. However, he had to admit, she had resolved the issue with stunning aplomb, leaving everyone satisfied and feeling they'd had a hand in what was happening. Letting them feel that power, or the illusion of it,
would keep them happy for a long time. The only point of contention might be when she finally got around to choosing who her mate would be. Tristan would be thrice damned, though, before he'd let her take anyone he didn't approve of as well. Malaya was too precious to be wasted on the wrong man.

Malaya suddenly left her office and walked briskly down the hall to the residence. She entered her sitting room and quickly made her way to Rika's bedroom. With the briefest knock, she slipped inside the room and saw Rika sitting curled up in her bed. She was listening to music, one of few pleasures left to her and the easiest one on her constitution.

“Hello, Rika,” she greeted the vizier softly, reaching to lower the music as she came closer and sat on Rika's bed with her. “How are you feeling?”

“You know,” Rika observed, “I think I am growing a little tired of that question. But I suppose it is only natural to ask that when speaking with someone who is dying.”

“Rika,” Malaya said, reprimand soft in her tone.

“What,
K'yatsume
? Am I lying? Or is it that it makes you uncomfortable to talk about my death? We have avoided the subject altogether for so long, and I recently have confronted myself with the understanding. After all, we both know no one has ever recovered from or survived Crush.” Rika turned her sightless eyes toward her. “But it's okay, Malaya. I know you wish me to be dead.”

“Rika! I wish no such thing!” Malaya gasped.

“Yes, you do. I know you very well,
K'yatsume.
You kneel at your fountain altar and you pray for my quick and painless death. You pray that my soul goes into the Beyond because you have such faith that I will be greeted by
Drenna
and the comfort of eternal darkness. Sweet friend, why would I take offense that you do that when it is so pure and beautiful with your love for me? You make
my
faith in what lies in my future strengthen when you have so much faith in it.”

“Jei li,
” Malaya said softly, wrapping her arms around
Rika in a tight embrace. “I just want you to be free and happy. I've watched you lose so many things these past few years. After you have done so much for me to get me where I am, it hurts to see you robbed of the rewards life should be providing you after so much hard work.”

“You mean my wishes for a husband and family?” Rika smiled wistfully as she petted her friend's hair. “Those are sweet dreams. And who knows, maybe I will find them in the place where I am going. That's the beauty of knowing there are many 'scapes and dimensions full of all kinds of possibilities. I can imagine whatever I want beyond my death. It can be quite entertaining at times. The only grief is how much I will miss you.”

“Please,” Laya whispered, “don't make me think of this now. We have time yet and…I am already torn in two without my Guin.”

“I know. But don't worry, he is still in the city.”

Rika's third power. The delicate vizier had a locus ability. She could find the location of anyone she was familiar with so long as they were in the same 'scape with her.

“Where? Tell me where he is so I can go after him and wring his stubborn neck,” Malaya hissed.

“More like you need to give him a tumble he'll never forget,” Rika retorted cheekily. “That will keep him close for a while.”

“Well, I already tried that,” the Chancellor said with a wry chuckle. “It had the opposite effect.”

“Perhaps that is because you didn't do it correctly.”

“Rika, I think I know how to treat a man in bed,” she scoffed.

“Do you? Do you mean any man, or do you mean Guin?”

“What is the difference? Guin is a man like any other when it comes to that.”

“Not for you,
K'yatsume
. How is it you can see how extraordinary he is in everything else, but when it comes to a matter of intimacy you refuse to see past a certain point?
Why have you blinded yourself like this? Why would Guin be any less exceptional as your lover than he is in everything else? You place him above everyone in trust and honesty, you have utter faith in his strength and skills, and you call him the very best of friends and advisors. He has spent most of your life protecting you, Malaya. You have seen how he does it. Why is it you can't see who he is protecting now?”

“He wants to protect Ashla from her fate. And it's very noble of him, but—”

Rika shook her head and sighed.

“No,
K'yatsume
, no. Guin is protecting himself. And I will pray that one day you will be able to open the sealed place inside you that will make you figure out why.”

“Why can't you just tell me?” Malaya cried in frustration. “Why can't he?”

“Because he knows, just as I know, that the understanding will have no value to you until you come to it on your own.
Drenna
is dangling a lesson before you that you need very badly to learn. I'll not help you cheat to get the answers. Not this time.”

Frustrated beyond any further words, and now pissy besides because she felt like Rika was treating her like a simpleminded child, she exited the vizier's room with a huff of disgust.

Rika sighed and whispered very softly to herself, “I know exactly how you feel.”

 

Magnus was keeping a guard at the door of his quarters until Acadian was caught and destroyed. She might not have broken any laws that could be proven in their courts, but religious law was very different from common law and it was very specific.
No one may use Dreamscape for harmful or selfish purposes.
It was one of their worst sins. And that gave Magnus the right to seek penance from her. He could hunt her as a Sinner and put her on her knees and demand she re
pent her many, many sins. If she did not do so, he could exact final judgment. Oh, how often he took comfort in the knowledge that a woman like that would never repent. That promised her neck to his katana, and all he had to do was make certain he did not give in to the temptation to do a botched job of it. Wanting her to suffer as cruelly as she had made Dae suffer was all he could think about sometimes, and for once in his long career the priest could not feel pity for a soul and give it forgiveness in his heart.

Not when the precious woman he loved, the woman who he'd known as too tough to cry, had not stopped doing so for days. Not when Acadian had been the one to force his child into
Drenna'
s arms so prematurely…before he'd even had a chance to know it.