D
onna put the mug to her lips. Too hot. She set it back on the table at the side of the sofa. Took the cigarette from the ashtray, placed it between her lips, dragged down. Heard the paper curl and burn, felt the smoke fill her body. Took it way down. Blew out a stream of smoke, clouding her view of the living room. She held it in her fingers, looked at the glowing tip. The alcohol and drug tremble in her hands was subsiding, the tea and nicotine helping. She took another drag, curled her legs beneath her, looked at Ben playing on the floor.
Escape. That was what she was thinking about. Escape.
And Faith.
And the lies she had told the police bitch.
Escape. Donna knew all about it. Wrote the fucking book on it. If there was anything she was an expert in, that was it.
Escape.
That was how she had ended up where she was. How all the girls had ended up there, if they were honest. Which they weren’t, most of the time. Not to people who didn’t matter. And they were the ones they dealt with most of the time. Punters. Police. Council. Sometimes all three.
But escape. Running away. They were all running away from something. Herself included. Abusive husbands. Rapist fathers. Or fathers, uncles and friends. Families that weren’t. Running. Always running.
That was why they were all such fucking messes. Herself included. Running away, needing to escape.
Escaping into anything. A different life. Being a different person. Different name. And the ways of escape. Pills. Booze. The rock and the pipe. The herb. Lovely, all of it. Comedowns could be a bastard, but so what? Just score some more. Get high again.
Escape.
Another mouthful of tea. Cool enough to drink. Another deep draw.
Faith always said she was running. Escaping from something. Always had her stories. Donna never paid much attention. She had her own stories. Sometimes she told them. And when she did, she always changed them. Never the same one twice. But they were always the truth. At least they were at the time.
But Faith’s stories. The same every time. Running from something big. Had to escape. Couldn’t say anything, but had to escape.
Donna had never really listened.
If it’s that big
, she had said,
why don’t you go to the papers? The TV? Get yourself on there?
Faith had just laughed.
You think they’re not in on it? It’s huge, I’m telling you. Massive. They’re all in it together.
Donna had laughed then.
Keep me head down. Best way. Keep meself safe. And Ben. Especially Ben. ’Cos that’s who they want really. If somethin’ happened to me, it would be him they’d want.
And that had been that. Donna had let her go on. Silly girl. Silly little stupid messed-up girl.
Lots of the girls talked like that. Booze fantasies. Crack dreams. Spliff psychosis. And they were all true, the stories, all real. Donna never paid it much mind. Her stories were true too. When she was telling them.
But Faith … she hadn’t let up. Ever.
If somethin’ happens to me,
she had said one night, eyes pinwheeling on skunk and vodka shots,
anythin’, an accident, anythin’. Somethin’ happens … it’ll be them. After me. They’ll have got me. An’ if they do that, an’ if that happens … You’ve got to promise me … promise me …
Donna had taken a hit off the skunk and promised her.
Haven’t told you what yet. Promise me … you’ll look after Ben. Don’t let them take Ben. Whatever you do, don’t let them take Ben.
Donna had thought she was talking shit, but looking in her eyes, her bloodshot, broken eyes, she had seen that her best friend was completely serious.
So she had promised her. Whatever.
Faith had seemed relieved.
They will come, you know. In a big car. Two of them. Both men. Wearin’ suits. Like Jehovah’s Witnesses. But they’re not. They’re not …
And then the drunken tears had started.
Promise me … promise me …
And Donna had promised once more.
She sucked the fag down to the filter, crushed it in the ashtray.
That copper. Martin. Hard-faced bitch. Fancied herself too. But she wasn’t as hard as she thought. Donna was good at reading people. She had to be in her line of work. Too many girls had got into the wrong car only to be found up in the woods at the Stour estuary with their brains smashed in by a claw hammer. So she had taught herself to read people. And Martin had been easy.
Easy to read.
Even easier to lie to and get away with it.
There was something behind her eyes. Some kind of damage. Hurt. And anger. Lots of anger. Donna would put money on there being a man behind it. Which was why she had sent her after Daryl.
She smiled.
Wished she could be there when Martin stomped in, accused him of being a pimp, of having something to do with Faith’s death. Oh, that would be priceless. Because Daryl
was
their pimp. Or used to be. Pimp and ex. She hoped he would get into something with Martin. Knew he would. Hoped that the bitch copper was angry enough and psycho enough to make something of it.
She wouldn’t like to put money on the outcome of that one.
She smiled, took a mouthful of tea. Grimaced. It was cold. She uncurled from the sofa and crossed to the window. Looked out.
And there it was. A big car. On the opposite side of the road.
A shiver ran through Donna. Her stomach flipped over.
Coincidence, she thought. The council out looking for benefit fiddlers again.
She looked closer. Two men sitting in it. Both wearing suits. Neither Jehovah’s Witnesses.
They were looking at her house. They were waiting.
Shit. Shit shit shit.
Her hands began to shake from more than last night’s booze and drugs. She had to do something. Anything.
Ben was still playing on the floor. Absorbed in his own world of make-believe. She looked again at the window, then down to the boy.
Thought of her friend. That silly girl. That silly little stupid messed-up girl.
Tears sprang to the corners of her eyes. She hadn’t grieved for Faith. Her best friend. Her lover. And she wouldn’t now. Things like that didn’t touch Donna. She told herself so all the time. She was too hard for that. She had to be.
She wiped her face with the back of her hand, ran her hand down her jeans.
‘Come on, Ben, get your stuff together. We’re goin’ out.’
‘We goin’ to see Mum?’
Donna felt the tears threaten again, pushed them back down. ‘No. We’re not. We’re … goin’ out.’ She forced a smile. ‘It’ll be an adventure. We’re runnin’ away. Come on.’
The little boy stood up, went upstairs. Donna looked round, tried to think what to do next. They had to get away. Far away. They needed a car …
She smiled. Went into the kitchen. Took out the biggest, sharpest kitchen knife she had. She never used it for cooking. But it came in handy to scare off psycho punters.
A car. She knew just how to get one …
T
he pub had large rectangular windows. Huge, bare. Inviting passers-by to look in, saying to the world: we have nothing to hide. Nothing untoward goes on in here. We’re a friendly, happy place. Come on in.
Rose Martin knew that was nowhere near the truth.
The Shakespeare liked to think of itself as one of the roughest pubs in Colchester. Villains and criminals were drawn to it like the terminally self-deluded and desperate were to
X Factor
auditions. And like those
X Factor
auditionees, the pub’s clientele were a similarly hopeless and pathetic bunch. Petty and low-level, bungling and inept. The pub nurtured these no-hopers, fuelled their delusions, lubricated their lack of success until failures talked themselves into winners. Kings of a cut-price castle. Until the real world hit them like an icy blast from the North Sea.
Until closing time came.
Rose Martin had dealt with this place many times in a professional capacity, both in uniform and out. Mopping-up operations on a weekend, banging heads together, proving she was a tougher uniformed officer than her male colleagues. Or then with CID, chasing after one of the failures who believed – wrongly, of course – he was ready to move up a league.
She knew this place.
As she walked in, she felt the adrenalin rise within her. An old response kicking in, her hands automatically clenching into fists, body going into fight-or-flight.
Fight, definitely.
She had also attracted attention. Made immediately as filth. May as well have a big neon sign round her neck. The solitary drinkers dotted round the place had either looked up at her as she entered or put their heads down, eyes averted. On tables of two or more, hands had swept the surface, gone underneath, where they would stay until she had left. A gang of lads clustered round the pool table stopped playing, stared. Gripped their pool cues like tribal warriors holding spears.
She moved further into the pub. The air was rank. Cigarette smoke no longer disguising wood ingrained and rotted by stale beer, or a toilet that hadn’t been recently cleaned, or a deep-fat fryer that hadn’t changed its oil since Tony Blair was prime minister.
The walls were drab, bare. Chairs that had survived being used as Saturday-night brawling weapons clustered round old, scarred tables. Vinyl banquettes lined the walls, a patchwork of gaffer-covered slashes.
Rose walked up to the bar. The barman was large and neckless. His stubble-shaved head went straight into his faded Hawaiian shirt. His face was as open and welcoming as an evangelical church to a married gay couple.
She showed him her warrant card. She needn’t have done. ‘I’m looking for Daryl Kent. He in? I was told he’d be here.’
The barman appeared to be thinking. Weighing up being a grass against not co-operating with someone who could get his pub investigated. He settled for nodding in the direction of the youths playing pool.
‘Which one?’ she said.
‘Dark lad. White hoodie.’ His lips didn’t move as he spoke.
She nodded by way of thanks and crossed the floor to the pool table. Spotted Daryl Kent straight away. He was mixed race and angry about it. Or at least angry about something. His eyes narrowed, features set into a scowl. Body tensed, ready to leap, begging for trouble.
‘Daryl Kent?’
He checked his gang first, a quick look either side. They moved in closer behind him, pool cues gripped tight. He looked back at Rose. ‘Who’s askin’?’
She showed him her warrant card. ‘Detective Inspector Rose Martin.’
‘Five-O.’ Pleased with himself, like he’d just unravelled Fermat’s Last Theorem.
She waited. ‘Daryl Kent.’ A statement not a question.
A small nod. ‘Yeah.’
‘Can we talk?’
Another look round. ‘Talk here. My bredrin’s safe.’
Rose inwardly rolled her eyes. Talking like a New York gangster or a Jamaican yardie when he had probably been no further than Marks Tey.
‘You were Faith Luscombe’s boyfriend. Right?’
He shrugged.
‘That a yes?’
‘Yeah. Some. Not no more. Bitch was skanky.’
‘Certainly isn’t no more, Daryl, because she’s dead.’
It was like she had slapped him. Suddenly a different persona appeared. Shock passed over his features, followed by fear. Suddenly she sensed he was uncomfortable with his bredrin around him.
‘Seriously?’ His voice small, incredulous. A child’s response.
‘Seriously. Where were you last night, Daryl? Or this morning?’
He backed away from her, into the pool table. Fear spreading over his features. ‘Naw, naw … not me. You ain’t stitchin’ me up for it.’
‘Where were you, Daryl?’
Another look at his bredrin. They had dropped back away from him. Suddenly not that close. Rose was enjoying herself now. Putting this arrogant twat in his place.
‘With my … my new woman.’
‘What, your mum?’ She couldn’t resist it.
His bredrin sniggered. Daryl became angry.
‘Not my mum. Cheeky bitch. My new woman. Denise. Was round at her place.’
‘Right. And do you pimp her out as well?’
‘What?’ Shock and incredulity.
‘Get her to have paid sex with other men and then take her money off her? I thought you of all people would know what a pimp does.’
‘I ain’t no pimp.’
‘No?’ Rose’s anger was increasing. ‘I hate liars, Daryl. I really do. Such a lack of respect, being lied to. But you know what? I hate pimps most of all. Scum. Lowest of the low. Cowards, living off women. Too lazy to get themselves work.’
‘I ain’t no pimp!’
‘Liar.’
‘No I ain’t … ’ Another look round to his bredrin, who weren’t helping him. They had drifted away from him now. He was on his own. His anger increased. Rose saw his lips move, eyes dart. Trying desperately to think of a comeback. ‘But if I was a pimp,’ he said, ‘I’d turn you out. Show you some respect for talking to me like that.’
And that did it. All the excuse she needed.
She was on him. One arm locked round his neck, the other pulling his own arm up behind his back, stretching it as far as it would go. He cried out in pain. She felt his muscles tearing, heard something pop.
‘Take it outside,’ the barman said from the safety of the bar.
‘Fuck off,’ said Rose, then turned her attention back to Daryl. ‘Now, where were we? Oh yes. Liars and pimps. I hate both of them. And that’s you, Daryl. Now talk. You were Faith’s boyfriend. Did you pimp her out?’
‘No … ’
She pulled harder. He screamed. ‘Did you?’
‘No … ’ he gasped out.
It sounded like the truth, she thought reluctantly. He was too weak to keep lying while she was doing this. She kept going. ‘Where were you last night?’
‘With Denise, I told you … ’
She pulled again.
‘All right, all right … at home. At my mum’s … ’
‘That’s better.’
‘Wait … wait … ’
Rose waited.
‘Did … Donna send you? Did … she tell you that? Bitch … ’
A sudden realisation hit Rose. She had been played. Read, wound up and sent after Daryl. Donna had played her.
‘Why’s she a bitch, Daryl?’ Wanting to let go of him, not knowing how to. Not knowing how to let herself go.
‘Because … she hates me. Always hated me … hated me bein’ with Faith, mad lezzer wanted her for herself. An’ she got her an’ all … ’
Played.
It was a hateful feeling.
She gave him one last twist. He cried out and she let him go. He slumped to the floor beneath the pool table, gasping and crying. ‘You’re a psycho, a fuckin’ psycho … ’
‘And you’re still scum,’ she said, and walked out.
Away down the street, not knowing where she was going, just moving, letting the adrenalin subside.
Played. She couldn’t believe it.
Dissatisfied and unfulfilled. That was how she felt. She had been made a fool of. Hadn’t learned what she wanted to know. And she had assaulted an innocent man. Well, she doubted he was innocent. But he was in this instance.
That didn’t bother her. That wasn’t upsetting her. She was only angry about being lied to. She could have kept on hurting him. Making him scream.
In fact, she had wanted to.
And she didn’t know how she felt about that.
So she just kept on walking.