Nifty put the pizzas down on the counter, and opened the lid of one. The smell filled the air, and while normally the combination of tomato, garlic and oregano would make me a happy girl, at this exact moment I didn't want to be anywhere near food.
“I'mâ¦going to go get Venec,” I said, uncurling from the sofa and making my escape into the hallway before anyone could say anything. I made a quick pit stop into the bathroom, to splash some water on my face and rinse my mouth out. It was your basic small-office restroom: two stalls, two sinks, wall-size mirror over the sinks, but about a month ago Sharon had made a big deal about putting new bulbs in overhead, so she could, as she said, apply makeup without
looking like a corpse, and they cast a gentler, kinder light I suddenly really appreciated.
I leaned on the counter and stared at myself, taking inventory. Hair: still blond, still short, still almost-curly, like a palomino poodle. Eyes: a little bloodshot but nothing that couldn't be attributed to a lack of sleep. Skin: pale, but that was normal for me. Were there new lines around my mouth and eyes that hadn't been there last night? Probably. I was only twenty-two, but sometimes I felt like I was thirty, at least.
I loved my job. Ian had something else driving him, some figurative demon crowding his shoulder, but the rest of usâ¦we just wanted to know why, who, whatâ¦and we liked to push ourselves. It wasn't an obsession: I could walk away, if it got too muchâand I knew I never would. This was my passion, what I was driven to do.
I practiced a smile, something cheery and bright to reassure everyone I was fine, and shuddered at the result. Maybe not just yet.
I loved my job, but some days the fun levelâ¦wasn't.
Face splashed and mouth rinsed out, I wandered down the hallway and found Venec, as expected, in the room I'd left. The door was open, so I just stuck my head in enough to see him sitting at the table, back straight, elbows on the chair-arms, watching the display the way a meter maid watches a parking meter ticking down the last seconds.
I didn't say anything: He knew I was there.
One hand lifted, and the display stopped just as the ki-rin dropped behind his companion, a scarce minute before the attack. “The others are back?”
“Yeah.”
“All right. Tell them to start writing up their reports, and I'll be with them in a minute.”
I nodded, even though he wasn't looking at me. “Should they come here?”
“No.” He stared at the frozen display. “No, I want them to come to the discussion with a blank slate. Time enough for them to watch this when we've looked at the rest of the picture.”
In other words, nobody else needed to get their facts tangled by an emotional reaction. It made sense. Part of me was relieved that the girl wouldn't have her trauma spread around, and part of me was pissed that I got stuck with itâ¦but Venec had gone there, too. I wasn't alone.
It didn't help as much as I'd hoped.
“And Torres?” His voice was quiet, a softer growl than usual.
I paused, but didn't look back. “Yeah, boss?”
“You did good.”
That didn't help, either.
I walked down the hallway, feeling the walls press in around me. The others were still gathered in the break area. Sharon was writing up her notes already, slice of pizza in one hand, pen in the other, frowning intently, while the guys were bullshitting about baseball. Still no sign of Stosser. I leaned against the wall and watched them. Although my stomach gave another slow, queasy roll from the smell and sight of the pizza, I didn't feel the urge to throw up again. I didn't feel much of anything, in fact, the earlier unease drained from my body while I talked to Venec. While I was
normally pretty calmâthat was part of why I was so good at this jobâthat sudden loss of emotion didn't feel right. It was as though someone had siphoned the emotion out of me, and I knew enough psychology to know that probably wasn't a good thing.
I needed to get out of here, put some distance between myself and the display room, so when it all came slamming back, I could break in private.
I went to the closet, and pulled out my coat. They already had my report. If Venec or Stosser wanted me, they knew how to get in touch.
“Hey, where you going?” Nifty asked, wadding up his napkins and tossing them into the trash.
“Home,” I said.
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My apartment isn't much, by my mentor's standards, but it's better than what I'd been born into, and more importantly right then, it's all mine. My refuge. A cash payoff to the landlord, and I'd painted the walls of the main room a pale purple, and the kitchen dark gold. The furniture was a clash of expensive antiques and trash-day rescues that looked pretty damn fine, if I did say so myself.
I kicked my shoes off and dumped my coat and bag on the floor. There was a pitcher of sweet tea in the fridge, and I drank it straight, like I'd spent the past week being dehydrated in the Sahara, then grabbed an apple and went back into the main room. Most people who had studio apartments separated out their living and sleeping spaceânot me. My bed was on a loft platform in one corner, but my dining table was shoved underneath, and got pulled out whenever
someone came over for dinner or stayed for breakfast. There were two love seats, reupholstered in gold velvet a shade lighter than the kitchen walls, and a black lacquered Chinese chest that held all my dishes and silverware. I'd had a coffee table at one point, but the glass chipped during a party when I first moved in, and I hadn't had time to find a replacement. Something sturdier this timeâ¦
Althoughâ¦another party like the last one would get me kicked out of the building, payoff to the landlord or no. I'd been in such a rush to take the apartment before someone else could steal it from me, I hadn't thought to ask about the neighbors. They weren't bad, just mostly older and settled, and not really happy with parties, even quiet ones, that went on all night. Not that there had been all that many. Since moving to the city last summer, I'd tried to build up a network of friends, people who liked to go clubbing, to party not heavily but well, but the past few months the job had overrun all of that. If I hung out at all, it was mostly with the team, and when I did go out, it was weirdâ¦sometimes now even in the middle of a hot dance floor I'd feel this sudden urge to be homeâalone.
I took a bite out of the apple, absently, and stared at the wall opposite me. Where most people would have a flat-screen television, I'd hung a mosaic made out of hundreds of colored glass tiles. The sunlight from the windows hit it just-so twice a day, and rainbows streamed all over the place. Magic. Right now, it was still, just bits of colored glass doing nothing special at all, except reflecting my image back to me, fractured and broken.
The apple tasted sour in my mouth, and my beloved,
comfortable space suddenly felt shabby and sad. I spit the apple into my hand, tossed the entire thing into the garbage can, and without a ping of warningâor asking permissionâ I Translocated my sorry ass to J's place.
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When a teenager starts showing signs of magical ability, they're assigned a mentor, someone who will take them through the stages, teach them what they need to know and help them figure out their strengths and weaknesses. Sometimes it's a parent or cousin, but more often it's someone not related, a friend of the family with a skill level close to yours, or a particularly good rapport with kids.
Ideally everyone mentors, at some point, but the reality is that not everyone's good at it. And it's important to be good at itâyou've got another person's life depending on your ability to teach them properly. We're taught one-on-one, not in classrooms, and the mentor-student relationship trumps almost every other bond we have, even after the mentorship ends.
In my case, Joseph Cetala was more than a mentorâhe'd been standing
in loco parentis
since I was eleven. Long story-short version was I went from being the only child of a ne'er-do-well lonejack carpenter to the live-in student of a Boston lawyer/Council muckety-muck with contacts in the White Houseâ¦and maybe even the Kremlin, for all I knew. By the time I came along he'd retired from all that, and just did some very quiet and occasional consulting of the sort you don't talk about. J hadn't been real happy with my going to work for Stosser and Venecâhe wanted me somewhere safer, like a paralegal for a cushy law firm, or
teaching in an inner-city schoolâbut he was experienced enough and honest enough to admit that PUPI was needed, and that I was good at what I did.
That didn't mean he didn't worry. I might not tell him the shit that went down when we were on a case, but I wasn't stupid enough to think that he didn't hear about it, eventually. We'd reached a compromise. There was a lurking fatae with the inappropriate name of Bobo who occasionally showed up late at night to walk me home when things got roughâor Bobo thought they might get roughâthat soothed J's discomfort, and we never talked about the dangers of my job.
Translocation only takes a few seconds, but it's a major power drain for most of us, messing with natural physics in ways that supported the whole “indistinguishable from magic” thing Zakiâmy dadâused to quote. Nifty, who was our best practical theorist, had tried more than once to explain it, but all I cared about tonight was that it took me home.
“Bonita.” J was in his early 70s, with fine patrician features and a shock of immaculately groomed white hair, and you'd think he'd greet you in the library of his ten-room apartment wearing a tuxedo and carrying a brandy snifter. Reality wore a pair of ratty jeans and a Harvard sweatshirt, and carried a bottle of Stella. He didn't look at all surprised to see me. He never did. “Would you like a beer?”
I would.
I dumped my shoes on the outrageously expensive carpet, curled up in the security of a leather club chair, and cradled my bottle in both hands, letting the condensation soak into
my skin. The antiques in my apartment all came from J's collection, but he'd never had a hands-off attitude; to him, furniture was what you sat on, and a sofa was for naps as well as tête-à -tête. I knew better than to put my bottle down without a coaster, though.
We did the quiet chitchat for a while; he'd been down to NYC to take me out to dinner just last week, so there really wasn't much new to share, unless I wanted to talk about the non-thing that kept showing up between me and Venec, which I didn't, or the cold empty echoing thing where my emotions should be, which I really didn't.
“Hey,” I said suddenly, realizing that something was missing. “Where's Rupert?” Rupert was J's dog, an aged sheep-dog who had as much to do with raising me as J did.
“Vet. His stomach decided to disagree with him. I'm having them do a full checkup, just in case. He'll be home tomorrow morning, don't worry.”
Rupe was almost fifteen. Anything that required an overnight stay at the vet worried me. And I knew it was worrying J, but if he didn't want to talk about it, we weren't going to talk about it. Time to change the subject. I thought about regaling him with the story of Jennie's party last night, or the way the hot doctor across the way from my apartment threw her most recent lover out wearing only his boxers and one sockâbut finally had to accept the fact that I hadn't come here for distraction, but after-the-fact mentoring.
“We have a new job.” He'd heard already; I knew he'd heard from the way his expression didn't change at all. J was a damned good listener, though; he just sat back and let me talk, or not, as I wanted.
I didn't want. It came out anyway.
“Girl, a Talent, barely out of mentorship, probably. Companion to a ki-rin.” J was one of the most traveled, most experienced Talent I'd ever met. He knew how rare they are, here and in their native country. It's not like griffons, breeding two kits at a time, or the damned piskies, who populate like squirrels. Ki-rin are magical, even to us. If the perps had hurt itâ¦I shuddered at the thought. If the ki-rin had been hurt, those rubberneckers would have been an angry mob of fatae, not human looky-loos. “They were out for a night clubbing, or she was, and he's keeping her company. Two guys, Talent, jump them on the way home. Jump her. The ki-rin had fallen behind a little. It was late, his mane is pure white so he isn't a youngster anymore, I guess.” I paused, suddenly struck by the thought. “How old do ki-rin get, anyway?”
J hadn't moved while all this was pouring out of me, sitting in his usual armchair, legs crossed at the ankle. “I don't know. It's considered quite rude to ask.”
“Huh. Well, itâ¦didn't get to her in time. Killed the first attacker, wounded the second, I guess it didn't kill him because he didn't get the chance to do anything?” My hands were colder than the bottle I was holding. “The story seems straightforward, you know? Bad guys do bad thing, are killedâor maimedâby the good guy, survivor gets jail time. We've been asked to investigate only to make sure everything's clean, that it was self-defense, I guess. Stosser didn't say outright, but the only one who'd hire us for something like this, where there's no money involved, or a revenge motive, would either be family or Council, and I got the
feeling it wasn't family. Don't know why Council would be taking such a hard-line interest, though.”
Council was for Council members, which meant human, not fatae; even if a ki-rin was involved, their instinct would be to sweep it under the rug as fast as possible to protect their people. Had the dead guy been Council? It wasn't impossibleâCouncil was the country club association of Talent, and there were as many ass-wipes in country clubs as there were hanging on street corners. But then they'd be trying to cast blame away from their man, not hire us to find out the actual facts.
No, something didn't feel right. I wondered what Venec thought of this case, and in that thought I could almost feel his hand on mine again, the smooth, firm touch sending another round of current-shock through my system, then flowing back out again, leaving me with a hitch in my breath.