If only I had met her.
Suddenly, I realized that on some level, I'd been assuming that would happen, that we'd sit over coffee and she'd tell me what had moved her to climb over that railing. She'd tell me what she'd been thinking as she biked out there in the cold fog. Having been ready to die, she'd tell me what life is.
She'd say she was glad that I understood.
If only I hadn't wasted my day driving to Berkeley, getting caught up in Mac's whatever the hell it was. His dumb leap into the too shallow water, his non-life-threatening injury.
Could all that have simply been a diversion?
If only I'd hunted her down, found her before . . . what?
Before she died this way!
Devastated
is one of those words so overused that the meaning's almost wrung out of it. But that barren emptiness in which nothing will grow again, that's how I felt. I could have bawled.
But not in front of the police.
Before I walk to the start mark for any gag, before I run through it in my mind the final time, before I even push up into the skin of the character, I exhale, empty my mind, and stare at whatever's ahead as if none of the objects have names, as if there is no space between them and me. I did that now, staring at the tow truck's fender, at the shining in the light, against the shadows, at the curve above the wheel.
Then I turned to the detective. âYes, I've seen her.”
âHer name?”
âDoesn't she have any ID?”
She nodded. âWhat is it you've seen?”
I started giving her the background but everything I said sounded ludicrous and there was, frankly, little chance this apparently logical woman believed a bit of it.
âAnd now,” she said, âthis body's in your garage.”
âHow'd you knowâ? Oh, Shane. Okay. Yes, my family owns it. I'm renting the place to the movie company.”
âTo house this car that you drive.”
âIn the movie.”
âJust that? You never drive it otherwise?”
How'd she know that? Or was she fishing? âNot much.”
âBut you've done so? Come to this garage to pick up the car and return it.”
âI have, but not today. Not alone. The whole film crew knows where this is. Everyone knows the lock's useless. Macomber Dale came here this morning!”
Macomber Dale!
âI've been dropped here by Aaron Adamé andâand!âDeclan Serrano! This garage might as well be in Union Square. I spent hours with the Berkeley Police, on the pier over there. I haven't been alone all day, believe me.”
âI'm not asking that.”
âUh huh? Then what are you asking me?”
She eyed her notepad, but I had the feeling that was just to buy time, to try to get a linear sense of this tangle.
âHere,” I said, âlet me take a shot at what you should be asking: How come a woman tries to kill herself, then ends up with someone smashing her head in and dumping her body in a stranger's garage? Why didn't she
take her new chance at life and get out of the city?” I turned away. I was on the thin edge of losing it. But I could see the way this investigation was going, and one thing I knew was I didn't have the luxury of falling apart.
âCall Aaron Adamé, her husband,” I told her. âShe came home last night, or, at least, that's what he told me.”
âWe can deal with that. The question now is: Why is her body
here
, in
your
garage?”
That
was
the question. âIf you drove by here alone, you'd think: good place to hide something. No one's going to be coming here.”
âNo one but you.”
âBut
I
wasn't here this morning. I'd driven that”âI jabbed a finger at the miserable remains of the carââto my place last night. It's a fluke I'm here now. That car was in the bay. We had to drag it out. By rights it should still be under ten feet of water. It's only because we managed to haul it out and then had to put it somewhere that I came back here at all.”
She was staring oddly at me. âYou drove the car into the bay?”
âNo, not me. Macomber Dale. It was an accident. Maybe. He was upset. I don't know why he did it, but he did.”
âWhere is this Dale?”
âIn the hospital. Highland? Herrick? Somewhere near Berkeley.” Macomber Dale? âHe came here this morning to pick up the car, but the car wasn't here, because I'd taken it home last night.”
âWait here.” She strode into the garage.
I weighed my options. I didn't have options. I waited. I watched her check with a uniformed officer, mutter, âNot home? The husband?” A tech handed her something.
While she was inside, a crime scene van pulled up and another patrol car. Doors opened and slammed. Flashers fought with flashers turning the street red, redder, then sucking out all color and leaving it gray as death. A
woman hauled out the lighting; a guy grabbed a bag that could have held anything.
An unmarked pulled up. The head that popped out of it was tan, bald, and all too familiar. Declan Serrano.
He had no business here.
I eased back into the shadow.
The cockroach's engine was racing. Or, rather, it sounded that way against the sudden silence. No one was bantering. The techs headed into the garage where the smell was strong enough to drive me out. They looked eager to get in. And the detective who'd been questioning me looked suddenly stiff.
What I needed was to get out of here before Serrano zeroed in on me. Of course, he knew I was here. Of course, he already knew this was my garage. He'd know that and what this detective knew plus a whole lot more. I wanted to bolt.
But he'd hired the woman known as Tessa Jurovik to run his copy service. If he hadn't cared about her as a person, he'd at least been concerned about her as a part of his kingdom.
He strode through the garage to her body. The techs all but leapt back. He stood, looking down as one of the techs starting talking fixed rigor and pointing to her arms.
Serrano dismissed him with a nod. He moved so he was nearly leaning against the wall, staring down at her face, not the way the techs had, but rather as if he was fitting this piece of evidence, her being dead, into a jigsaw in his head. Abruptly he turned away.
The techs watched him go. They, and the cops, looked like they were holding their breaths.
âHey!” I called out. âWhat do you make of this?”
âNot my business.”
âHardly! She worked forâ”
He shot a hand up, then opened the passenger door of his car.
His phone rang. He ignored it.
I slid in. Before I had the door shut he'd started the car, pulled away from the curb, and swung left around the corner.
His phone rang again. Again, he let it go onto the message but put it onto speaker. It surprised me that my listening wouldn't bother him. Was he that innocent? Or that cocky?
â
De
tective,” a woman said, emphasizing the first syllable in a way I'd never heard before, âthe missing person's report was filed at nine this morning. Mr. Adamé said he hadn't filed earlier because he
be
lieved he had to wait three days. He stated he'd
be
lieved his wife employed an alias but that now he
be
lieves she's not using that anymore. He stated that he now
be
lieves she's missing. Copy on your desk. No
re
sponse from subject since. Not on landline; not on cell. No one at the residence.”
The woman's delivery was so idiosyncratic I wondered how Serrano ever focused on her content. Aaron Adamé had made a missing person's report at nine this morning! But had never bothered to call me back? What did that mean?
âSo, Roach, the Adamés played you.”
His jaw tightened so slightly I would've missed it if I hadn't been on the lookout. He knew what I meant. But he was waiting for me to spell out just what I knew.
I was happy to do so. âYou spotted a woman who you assumed was a ringer for the wife of the guy you're after. Did you have a plan for her? Or did youâah, yes, I can see this is itâyou figured she was too good to pass up. There'd be some way you could use her. So you set her up in a marginal business, like a dog you feed just enough so it doesn't starve but doesn't have the energy to run offâ”
âHey! She was doing okay. She turned that businessâ”
I laughed.
Good for her!
âBut you didn't guess that Adamé had planted Varine for you to find. He put her there to keep an eye on you. Maybe more. Ah, Roach, he was playing your game, only better. When this gets out the whole Mission district'll be laughing. Full rigor,” I said without pause for the big change of subject. âSo that'd mean she was killed before midnight?”
âMaybe.” He shrugged.
âThe coronerâ”
âWon't say more.”
Before midnight.
I'd been with him for dinner, with Adamé after that, which left either one of them plenty of free time. And Macomber Dale, the guy who admitted being at the mouse hole this morning, had been out of my sight almost all night.
âWhat'd they ask you?” Serrano demanded.
It took me a moment to realize âthey” was the detective. âAbout the garage. Who knew about it.”
âYou said?”
You.
I said, âMacomber Dale, the crew, Adamé. Why?”
âWhat else?”
âWho she was. I told them to call Adamé.”
âYou told them that?”
âHey, I'm a law-abiding citizen.”
He shook his head. Then he pulled to the curb. âYou know you could've been stuck in the station all night. I saved you. You should be thanking me.” He reached across me and shoved open the door.
36
Serrano pulled away, leaving me on a garbage-strewn corner convenient to nothing. He made another right and headed south. He was going somewhere fast, and I needed to know where. And, more to the point, why.
But it didn't matter where, because I had no wheels.
And even if I had them, he'd be out of sight before I could tail him.
But, dammit, he didn't light out of here like that for nothing. He may not have known what I did, but I sure didn't have a clue what he was after.
I had to get a car and I had to delay him. Long shots both. The car would take some doing, but if I didn't slow up Serrano first, the car wouldn't matter.
And when he realized I'd set him up, he'd be out for bear.
I slipped into the first alley. If Serrano noted my phone number on his cell phone I'd be . . . bear. But he hadn't paid attention before. If he answeredâbut he hadn't always done that either. I spent precious seconds picturing myself at a desk outside his office. Then I punched in his number.
âLeave a message.”
I was so relieved I almost sighed. â
De
tective, the chief's on his way to the crime scene. He's
de
manding to talk to you. He'sâ” I garbled a couple words and hung up. Then I pulled out the tow company card and called Shane. âAre you still at the garage?”
âYeah, I'm here. Cooling my heels watching nothing. Car's sitting at the curb where I left it. No point in me being here. I got nothing to say. I told them, the lot of 'em. I gotâ”
âOkay, okay, I get the idea! The tow lot on Folsom, you said you've got an arrangement with them. Can I pick up a car there?”
âHey, those cars belong to people. They're not Avis.” Suddenly he was all business. âI've got standards, principlesâ”
âHow much?”
âFive for the night.”
âTwo and I need to be out the gate in five minutes.”
âHey, I can't even get outta here in that time.”
âMake a call. Extra hundred.”
âOkay, but I'm not promising condition. Like I said, it's only an arrangement, me with them, not like Iâ. And you gotta have it back by morning.”
I double-checked the address and ran.
By the time I hit the tow yard I was panting too hard to speak. The car, a Camaro, was a CHP magnet, and white, the easiest color to spot on the road. âWhy'd . . . this get towed?”
His reply was a take-it-or-leave-it shrug. I took the keys.
The surest spot to pick up Serrano'd be the one place I didn't dare show my faceâthe crime scene. But I had an advantage there. After all the years of dropping off cars at the mouse hole, waiting for my brothers or my sister, Gracie, after they'd parked in the garage, I knew the area. The first year I had my license, I'd followed John, waited while he picked up something, tailed him home without being made, and won five bucks each from my other brothers.
The alley I'd used back then was on the far side of the cross street. Serrano'd have to pass me when he left.
I circled around, got caught at two red lights, and had barely turned into the alley when my phone rang.
âMike! I'm a little busy. What's up?”
Brakes screeched. The crime scene! Serrano! He slammed out of the car, grabbed the nearest guy in blue. He was yelling. Running, banging back into the car. Tires squealed as he shot forward, did a 180, and flew past my corner.
I hit the gas.
âWhat's going on?”
âI'm on his tail.”
âWhose tail?”
âCockroach. Gotta go.” I tossed the phone on the seat.
Serrano was three blocks ahead and moving out. If he made the light at Cesar Chavez he'd be on the freeway before I finished looking at red. He'd be heading south, or north, and I'd have no idea which.
I stepped on it, closing in. Just a block between us.