My Secret Life (47 page)

 

I spoke to Betsy again about an unfledged virgin cunt. — She shook her head — did not know where to get one — the boys had all the girls when quite young. — Didn’t she know what games boys and girls were up to when quite young. — She had lived at ***** — and there was not there a girl over fourteen who had not had it done to her — and by the boys — boys not men — and in the fields, tho sometimes at home. I had heard similar accounts from women years before, and believed her. — “I’ll get you half a dozen little ones without hair, but they all know as much as I do about fucking.” — That offer I declined, for I knew there were plenty like that about the streets, whom I could get without her assistance. — “A virgin, a virgin, and with no hair on her cunt, or nothing.” — Well, she would if she could, but she shook her head. — Her last words were, “Just a little hair on it you wouldn’t mind, would you?” — “Perhaps if only just shewing, but mind, I’ll have a good look at her cunt, with thighs open, before I have her. No virgin, no pay. I won’t be gammoned.” — “All right, me dear, but you’ll have to wait pretty long.”

I met Betsy a little time afterwards by mere chance, and was going to pass her, but somehow she recognized me and touched me on the elbow, saying hastily, — “Come here, come here, I’ve been looking for you for a week.” — We turned up a side street. — “Oh, if you mean it, I think I’ve got such a nice girl for you, but I shall run a risk.” — We had a long conversation, I gave her money to make presents to the girl, and some for herself, but not much. — “I think she will, but if I can’t get her, I can‘t, and then you’ll think I’ve chiselled you.” — “No I shan’t,” and we parted.

I looked for Betsy and a few days after saw her. — “She’s a virgin,” — said she, “but I don’t see my way to it yet.” — “Ah, the old game.” — “Thought you’d say so, you old fox.” — Betsy tried hard to make me go to a house with her, but I would not, tho I made her again a little present, and agreed also the price for her services if they were of use. — “I fear I can’t manage it,” said she, “tho she is a randy little bitch, and is longing to know what fucking is like, the boys have felt her cunt and she their pricks — she’s told me so — ah! she is a regular hot-arsed one, and
you
may as well have her whilst she’s got it to give, and you’ll give me the money on the night you have her first?” — “Yes, if she be a virgin, not otherwise, and I’ll see her cunt well before I do her.” — “All right, you old fox, she was a virgin last night, I’ll take my oath.”

More than a week passed. Then I looked out for and saw Betsy. — I passed her, touched her lightly, said “hish” — and passed on, turning up the next convenient by street. — Betsy followed me and began breathless. — “Oh! It’s such a chance, — I’ve walked up and down here for three nights, and never left the street till midnight, nor left with a man, for fear of missing you.”

“She is a virgin.” — Then she told me that the lass had only the signs of hair on her cunt. — Yes, she had seen her cunt, and had looked at it well. — “Yes — wide — wide open — and you can scarcely get your little finger up the hole, me dear — it’s just large enough to let her monthlies through — and she’s only had her monthlies twice, — you’ve got a rare chance — and such a plump, fine, little divel, I’d like to do her myself. But give me a sovereign to rig her out, you’d like to see her look nice. Honor bright — did I ever deceive you? Oh no, not next week, meet us tomorrow night, don’t lose a night, or you may miss your chance, she has been sleeping with me three nights, and I don’t let her out of my sight. She is such a hot-cunted little devil, that God knows what she’ll be up to. — I’ll give her boots and stockings, and say you sent the money for them — and you tell her you’ll give her a silk dress — and a crinoline — don’t forget the crinoline, she is mad for one (they were just in fashion), you’ll be pleased, she is as well shaped as I am. — I’m only frightened they won’t let her in the house, but they know you well there in J***s St., and that’s a good deal. — If they do object you must come to my garret, tho I fear they’d hear us there.” — Thus she talked on energetically, without stopping, and saw her ten pounds almost in her pocket.

Next night was dark and cold, and they met me in L**c**t*r S****e. — The girl looked young and a little object. — Betsy told me to say the girl had been in with me before if they objected. — We entered. The door sounded the warning click. I went in first, feeling a little nervous, and had gone up a few stairs, when the door-woman said, — “She can’t go in Miss, I can’t let her — she is very young.” — “Oh, she’s not young at it — she has been half a dozen times before with me and my friend — hasn’t she sir? — For she is sixteen, tho she looks so young,” said Betsy in a low tone.

“She looks very young,” said the woman hesitating and standing at the door. I turned round. “It’s all right, she’s been in here with me before, why object now?” — “She looks very young,” the woman said again — just then another couple pushed open the street door. — “Go on, go on,” — said the woman — “first floor front,” and up Betsy and the young one came with me. — The door-keeper was anxious to get us out of sight of the couple just entering, they helped to settle the question.

The woman soon followed us into the room, and staring hard at the young one, — “If it’s all right, I’ve nothing to say,” said she. I put a sovereign into her hand. “We shall stop all night.” “Two ladies, sir.” I gave her another, shut the door in her face, and bolted it. — Betsy winked at me. “I knew she would if you spoke, and you’ve stumped up handsome.” I had indeed, and had never been charged for two ladies before in that house.

Betsy had made up the girl in the oddest way with a big bonnet, and she looked almost a bundle of clothes too big for her. — It was an error in the disguise I saw at a glance. — But there we were, all three snugly in the best room in the house. Betsy pulled off her bonnet and shawl as quickly as possible. Then she pulled a great shawl off the little one, and a bonnet big enough for a grenadier, and I saw a lovely girl of about fifteen, looking up earnestly from rather deep-set eyes. — “This is the friend who sent you the boots and stockings, and he’ll give you a lovely crinoline,” said Betsy. — “Won’t you, sir?” — “Yes,” — said I.

I stood staring with delight, whilst Betsy undressed both of them in an agitated manner. First she pulled off her own gown — then the girl’s. — Then she stripped herself to her chemise, then the girl. — When the girl was in her chemise, Betsy pulled her slap down on the sofa, and putting her hands under charming plump, little breasts — “Ain’t they a pretty pair,” said she — “and, oh! she has such a fat bum, and pretty little cunt.” — She lifted the chemise, and the girl pushed it down. — She had never taken her eyes off me, nor I off her. “Don‘t, Betsy.” — “Don’t you be a little fool, look here,” — and Betsy throwing up her own chemise, rolled back on the sofa, threw up her legs; opened her thighs well, and pulled her cunt lips wide open. — “There, look at that, me dear — there’s a sight for a stiff prick.” — “Oh! — Oh! Betsy, don’t,” — said the girl. — “Didn’t we do so last night my dear.” — “Oh, not before a man,” — said the girl, colouring up and trying to pull Betsy’s chemise down. — “Don’t — for shame.” — “Shan’t — Pough — all my eye, Molly — show him yours.” — “Shan’t — you’re dirty.” — “Didn’t we look at each other’s last night, Molly?” — “Not before a man — don’t now, Betsy. — Oh, don’t before him.” — It was said quite naturally.

But Betsy pulled right off her own chemise, turned to the girl, and in a jiffy had pulled hers off also. — There they were, both naked except their boots and stockings. Then with a laugh, she threw herself back on the sofa, and pulled her cunt lips open again — calling on Molly to do the same. The girl stood timidly looking at me, putting one hand modestly in front of her cunt to hide it, and trying to regain the chemise, which Betsy Johnson had put under her own backside.

I sat down, pulled the little one to me, felt her pretty breasts, her plump round little bum and thighs. She all the time kept her hand in front of her sacred split. I pulled her then on to the sofa, and got my hand between her thighs, talking baudy, and kissing her. — Betsy had got up, and stood naked with her arse to the fire looking at us, letting out baudiness, and inciting the young one to comply with my wishes. — Then I pulled off my clothes to my shirt, and showed her my pego, stiff as a poker and like a burning coal.

“Oh! There’s a glory,” said Betsy. — “Oh, don’t hide it Molly, I wish it were going up my cunt instead of yours,” — and stooping, she kissed it and pulled me towards her by it. — “Kiss it, Molly,” — said she — “kiss it before it goes up you. — Oh! Wow — wow — wow” — and she put my prick in her mouth till it was nearly out of sight. The little one stared. “Oh, ain’t you dirty?” — “Dirty, you little fool — a prick’s nice wherever you put it, nice anyhow, and anywhere. — You’ll think so before a week — you’ll be ready to eat one a week after it’s been up your cunt, Molly.” — “Oh — oh,” and she went on putting it in and out of her mouth, and kissing it down to my testicles.

I sat down again, got the little one on my naked thigh, and put her little fist round my prick. — Betsy keeping up her baudy patter all the time. Then I pulled the little one to me, her legs apart, mine between them, and my pego rubbed between her plump thighs. I grasped her plump little bum, and kissed her, whilst she kept struggling — mildly tho — “Oh, don’t now — oh, Betsy — don’t let him — it’s dirty — don’t” — and so on. Then I got out wine and liqueur which I had brought with me. — There was only a water tumbler in the room, and we all three drank out of it. I would not ring for glasses lest the servant should come in, and see the youth of the lass. The liquor was nice to her for she drank freely, became talkative, and laughed. — Up to that time she had, tho tolerably passive under my handlings, looked scared and fixedly at me, only uttering, “Oh Betsy, don’t do so — Oh, I’m — astonished.” — Now she was more at home. —

I delighted in talking to her — anticipating the delight to follow. — “You’ve never had any man’s hand between your thighs, have you dear?” — “No sir.” “And never put your finger up your cunt?” — “Lord,” said Betsy, “you could not get your finger up it. I tried the other night, didn’t I Molly?” — “No.” — “Oh, you little liar. — I did and I showed her the difference, and told her she couldn’t have any pleasure till her hole was as large as mine, and she put her fingers up mine to feel.” — “Oh — o-oh — o-oh Betsy, I didn’t.” — “You did, you little fool, you got your hand nearly up it.” “Oh, you beast, you said you hoped you might be struck dead if you told of me,” — said the young one, looking quite aghast. — Betsy laughed. — “I said any other girl but not a man, it don’t matter to him. — He’s a man and going to make your cunt like mine. — Oh, won’t your little hot arse shake, where his balls are close up to it. — You’ll bless me tomorrow, when you get your new dress and crinoline — and you’ll be asking him to put his prick into you again and again.”

“Let’s look at your cunt Molly,” said I, trying. I threw her on her back on the sofa and knelt down in front. She resisted vigorously. Betsy caught hold of her arms and pulled her back, whilst I pushed her legs wide open — the little pink gash widened, but I could not in the struggle and excitement satisfy my curiosity, so desisted for a while. We then drank and talked more, till my lust made me furious to begin.

What strange whims and caprices I have had with women, and usually quite impromptu. I wonder if other men have suddenly thought of such amusements and tricks. — I now had one. I took some shillings out of my pocket, and sitting down on the floor with my back to the fire, — “Open your legs wide Betsy,” said I, “as you sit on the sofa, and I’ll throw shillings at your cunt. Every time I hit between its lips, the shilling is yours — if I miss, I’m to have three throws more with it and then it’s yours.” — Betsy screamed with laughter, brought up both heels to the level of her buttocks on the sofa, and spread out her thighs, shewing a wide split, that a half crown could have gone into. I pitched the shillings at her cunt — one on two hit it, and she made Molly pick them up. — The girl stood looking at me — then at Betsy, and repeating, “Well, you
are
dirty,” astonishment in her eyes, manner, and voice, but she picked up the shillings fast enough — and gave them either to me or Betsy as she was told. — At length she laughed, and hid her face with her hand. — “Oh, ain’t he one,” said she.

“Let’s throw at yours, my darling,” said I. — “Let him,” said Betsy, “or I shall have all the shillings.” — The girl hollowed, refused, resisted, till Betsy lost her temper, so we had more wine. At length, “Now I’m going to look at your cunt.” The wench was now well warmed by wine, baudy conversation, and tricks, yet still there was delay, and she refused. — Betsy said she was not going to be fooled — what she had come to do, she would have to do. — She might go away if she would not. — Go and get a lodging where she could. — “Lay on the steps all night if you like, you shan’t come home with me — and
you know,”
she said in a significant tone to the girl, which I did not then understand. — With a little more persuasion, the naked lass laid on her back on the edge of the bed, her legs hanging down. — It was at the side of the bed away from the gas, Betsy had pushed her on that side of the bed.

For half a minute I gazed at her with delight as she lay with wonderfully large thighs, and legs, and would never have believed her youth, had it not been for the hairless cunt, and youthful face. She was country born, she had said, and early used to work in the fields, such work soon develops the form, and hence her beauty, but I soon began my investigation into her virginity.

I had doubted Betsy, and thought she was going to sell me about the virginity, spite of her protestations, and spite of my telling her that if not satisfied, I would only give her the price of a fuck of herself, and a little present to the girl: and knowing the room and the way the furniture was placed, and where the gas was, this now occurred to me again. I had to prevent my being cheated, and to get a good look, brought a candle with me which I now lighted, and stood by the side of the bed, — Betsy close to me. — I took one of the girl’s legs, Betsy the other. — “Open your thighs and let him look, you said you would — you promised me you would — there’s a darling,” said she.