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Moving Parts

 

 

 

 

Magdalena Tulli
MOVING PARTS
Translated from the Polish by Bill Johnston

 

 

 

 

archipelago books

 

Copyright © 2005 Archipelago Books

English translation copyright © 2005 Bill Johnston
Tryby
© 2003 Wydawnictwo W.A.B.

First Edition

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Archipelago Books
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Tulli, Magdalena.

[Tryby. English]

Moving parts / by Magdalena Tulli ;

translated from the Polish by Bill Johnston. – 1st ed.

p.cm.

ISBN:
0-9763950-0-2

I. Johnston, Bill. II. Title.

PG
7179.
U
45
T
7913 2005

891.8′538 – dc22      2005016693

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Jacket art:
Self-Portrait: The Constructor,
El Lissitzky, 1924
© 2005 Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York/VG Bild-Kunst

This publication is made possible with public funds from the
New York State Council on the Arts, a state agency.

Content

Moving Parts

Moving Parts

 

 

 

T
HE CREATION OF WORLDS!
N
OTHING COULD BE SIMPLER
. Apparently they can be conjured out of thin air. And for what? To delight the eye with their shimmer as they ascend toward the light, trembling like soap bubbles. Then they're swallowed up by darkness. When they rise, it's as if they were already falling. But are they not splendid? They're casually called into being and thrown carelessly into the void; there is no one to save them. The narrator, a rather secondary figure, knows nothing more about it; he acknowledges this with regret. Alone and faced with accomplished facts, he is concerned about one thing only: that he should avoid descending into banality from the very first sentence. If he could, he'd prefer to walk away with his hands in his pockets, leaving everything to the mercy of fate, which he has not been permitted to influence; or at the very least to abide stubbornly in an eloquent, arrogant silence. But the narrator realizes he has nowhere to go. The privilege of arrogance is also denied him. The kind of life that has fallen to his lot, insofar as it can even be called a life,
offers no opportunity for choice. A tale someone has nonchalantly conjured up must suffice for the entire substance of his existence. A tale hungry for subjects and predicates, lodged in their tissue like a rare species of rapacious parasite. The narrator would dearly like to believe that the one who summoned him into being knows more, that he comprehends the whole and knows the ending. But the latter does not appear in person either on the present page or those following; he doesn't respond to letters and faxes. It may be that for weeks he has been languishing in bed, in rumpled sheets, turned away from the world, face to the wall, surrounded by empty bottles or used needles; who could possibly know? So when a tragic turn of events elicits giggles from the back rows, or when a joke dies in cheerless silence, the narrator knows that there is no one he can turn to, and that the whole affair is his responsibility alone. He must button his lip in humility, then move on to the next sentence as if nothing had happened – like a clown in checkered pants who, falling off a chair amid peals of laughter from the audience, immediately starts to climb a rickety stepladder without interrupting his monologue: a pathetic figure, peremptorily consigned to a here below comprising a ring yellow with sawdust, tripping up again and again on even ground, and trapped in perpetuity in the vicious circle of the show. The acts likely to appear in the sawdust-strewn ring are tediously familiar to all those sitting in the rows of seats, including the small children, who fidget as they wait for the performing elephant
to make its entrance. The monologues too are known by heart, including the round button of the last sentence on which the loop of the beginning is fastened, and also the dubious, unconvincing conclusion, which induces no more than a shrug of the shoulders. Every word has been heard a thousand times or more. What does it matter that it was in other sentences? No one is interested in the details. It's all so numbingly hackneyed, say the glazed looks. This is precisely why it's better to be a reader than a narrator. It's pleasant to chew gum, set the rustling pages in rapid motion and, when the last one is turned, to toss the book back on the shelf. This is a better fate than losing one's pants in foolish pursuit of a runaway story line entangled in the breakneck acrobatics of tightrope walkers and the tricks of conjurers, and to end up being struck on the nose by a slimy apple core flung by some unknown hand. There, in the middle of the ring, under the gaze of several hundred pairs of eyes, almost anything can happen and nothing will surprise anyone – it's just that it's best not to wipe one's face with the large polka-dot handkerchief, the same one that barely a moment ago served as a prop. It's more advisable to bow low over and over, with a broad red smile painted on one's cheeks, and – without sparing one's arm – to sweep a battered bowler hat back and forth in the air. Scarcely having reached a place where a period can be inserted, the narrator already begins to question whether a circus farce can bear the weight of what was to be conveyed here. Maybe the weary audience staring at the ring
would pay only enough attention to the external world to understand every bow in an utterly literal manner. If the narrator's voice strives too insistently to draw attention to itself, it will call forth an angry impatience; a humble request for a handout would be more favorably regarded. And thus there is no chance of a conspiratorial wink, no whisper of solidarity. Nor any hope of avoiding solitude. But while we're on the topic of comparisons, isn't it better to be a narrator than a character? Who would want to be a character, walking on a tightrope strung between a lost past and an uncertain future, like an acrobat in a close-fitting leotard that shows the working of his musculature and his vulnerable abdomen, numb with fear? And all this is still too little; in a short while the audience will fall asleep from boredom, unless the acrobat gets a partner, her skimpy costume glittering with silver sequins, a huge pair of butterfly wings adorning the shoulders. If she is as reckless as he, she'll fling herself into his arms over the abyss, trusting him blindly, out of necessity – or possibly counting on the safety net, if one is in place. But it is only without a net that the show can be truly enthralling. The vast space overhead takes one's breath away, and for a moment it seems to the spectators that it's their own bodies teetering on the ropes up above, where no limitations can be seen, and where freedom, one would think, is in plentiful supply – that they themselves meet there and separate, and pass each other over the void, and that the space belongs to them.

Either way, separation is unavoidable: The acrobat faces a triple somersault with a landing on the bar of the trapeze, though this may be too much in light of the offhand tone of his contract, in which everything essential is expressed in a sparing and matter-of-fact fashion with the aid of a handful of figures. And not a word is said about the mortal danger to which one of the parties is exposed by rashly appending his signature. What he is throwing on the scales is a priceless possession that cannot be recovered in case of loss. Even his life insurance policy, a document of dubious utility whose very title impresses with facile promises, will be of no use in such a case. Alas, the acrobat has learned only how to balance over the abyss; he has no other skills, and so he does his job while his partner plunges into the void. Sparkling with sequins, in a rustle of butterfly wings she plummets head first, as if she were no longer needed in the act. But her appearance isn't over yet: Just in time she reaches through the air and grasps the bar swinging upward in a broad arc, and once again she shoots overhead, soaring into space. If she doesn't break her neck, they'll meet on the trembling platform under the slightly faded canvas dome of the heavens, and from there they'll slide down into the center of the ring, all of a sudden, as if they'd landed from the moon. He'll put his arm round her waist, they'll bow right and left, and the band will play a flourish.

They stay in decent hotels. At a table covered with a snow-white cloth they blotch their morning papers with fragrant
coffee and spread butter on their rolls. Before anything happens to them, for a good beginning they have the discreet clink of silverware and the sound of car horns entering from outside. The melodies of cell phones ring out one over the other. The noises of the early morning are chaotic but promising, like a cloud of tones of open strings in which can be heard chance snatches of a concert not yet begun, taken up now here, now there, quickly and without expression, in ironic summary, from the orchestra as they tune their instruments. And almost everything seems possible when the evening is still so far away.

They are in no hurry; they sit with their elbows resting on the edge of the crumb-strewn table. The woman, in blue jeans, takes a cigarette from a packet lying on the table. The man gives her a light; his biceps bulge beneath his black sweater. They talk. What can they be talking about? She laughs, looking directly into his narrowed eyes; she tilts back her head with its short red hair, blows out a cloud of smoke and taps ash into the ashtray. If she wished to act like a woman sitting at a table in a hotel dining room with a man in a black sweater, there is nothing more she would have to do. While they remain at the table they look happy; a thoroughly secure future extends before them: in the morning coffee and rolls, in the evening somersaults over the abyss, and so on for all eternity. Is this enough to make them feel confined by the circus metaphor in which their fate is enclosed? And even if so, do they have any course of action other than to take up the life that has been assigned
them in this tale? Perhaps it would be better for them to remain forever at the table set for breakfast, she with a cigarette, he with coffee cup in hand, and between them on the white tablecloth, let's say, a green apple, which somehow neither of them feels like eating. They'd sit like this endlessly, sprawling on padded chairs whose softness comes from the pink stuffing hidden under the upholstery. It isn't difficult to imagine what hardships, mortifications, and disappointments these two would be spared. But no one wishes to remain forever in an inconsequential moment. Thoughts flee from it in reverse gear toward accomplished facts, while desires, having nothing to look for in the past, rush forward at breakneck speed. Only the second hand of a watch thrashes about in the present tense, trembling nervously. All alone, over and again it passes by the two broader hands as they turn unhurriedly in their matching orbits, evidently connected with it only mechanically. The rhythm of its feverish twitching is foreign to them. To the body though it is only too familiar – the delicate body, warm with desires, which, surging toward the future, at that very moment collapses into the past, sinking helplessly into it, enmired. And while the moment called the present still continues, its existence is felt merely as an uncontrolled turmoil of heart and mind, a chaos from which one tries to flee as far as possible. And so the dining room will soon empty and the pair finishing their breakfast will eventually vacate their chairs, abandoning green apple peelings and the crumbs scattered over the tablecloth. Are those their
cups, with a mouthful of coffee left at the bottom, traveling away on a nickel-plated cart? They merely passed through their hands, amid the clatter of silverware and the murmur of voices forming the daily loop between the dishwasher and the table. The man is seen again briefly in the lobby behind the glass pane, then the woman too; in the background there are large sofas, in whose insides pink stuffing covers the unpleasant steel spirals of invisible springs and gives the leather upholstery a rounded appearance. We'll learn that as they were drinking their coffee, their suitcases, ready for departure, were waiting by the front desk, at the crossing of ways that lead to train stations and airports – where all worlds meet and where any character is expected only to complete certain uncomplicated formalities. The last of these will be to wish a toneless good day, which must be acknowledged a moment before the final parting in a damp and dark early morning in, let's say, November. One's gaze has to glide over a glass jar filled with candies that no one takes. With the bill in one's wallet, one disappears in the twinkling of an eye, not leaving behind an empty space, nor a hint of longing, nor a breath of regret. The nature of suitcases is such that they are both there and not there at the same time; the gleaming floor already shines through their substance, and it will remain in its place once the cases have gone off in the trunks of taxicabs. On the other side of the mirror-smooth slabs of synthetic stone to which mud will not cling, let us imagine at least two floors of cellars, with plumbing, central heating
pipes, a series of transformers and coils of cables. And still lower a bottomless chasm, the same one in which southern seas bristling with coral reefs mortally perilous for sailing ships, and roiling with waves of unassuaged emotions, extend all the way to the lifeless northern seas sheeted with permanent ice, their frozen waves covered with hoarfrost. In the antipodes of the present world of the hotel lobby where every object stands in its place, one can expect a realm dispossessed of all order in which top is bottom and down is up. The sofas, armchairs, and tables of that other world, deprived of solid ground, fall chaotically, directly into the void of that reversed sky, into oblivion. Tablecloths slip from tables and sail through the air, crumpling and folding; plates and silverware fly every which way; tea splashes from teapots. Everything comprehensible and obvious here, in that place must appear tortuous, indecipherable, absurd. But the flooring of synthetic stone conceals the dark gulf, persistently imposing itself on the eyes; one's gaze slides involuntarily across the reflecting surface. The pair to whom so much attention has been paid has called not one but two cabs. Each of them will now depart in a different direction. The man in the black sweater slips the hotel receipt into his wallet; in his eyes is repeated the row of lamps shining coldly over the counter. The short, simple surname the receipt is made out to may begin with the letter M. And that is the last that's seen of them. The tale is like a hotel; characters appear and disappear.

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