Anthea Fraser
CHIVERS
This eBook published by AudioGO Ltd, Bath, 2012.
Published by arrangement with the Author
Epub ISBN 9781445830490
Copyright © 1996 by Anthea Fraser
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This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author's imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental
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This morning, my daughter came into the room holding a copy of Matthew's book,
Motive for Murder
, and at once all the memories, faded over the years, came rushing back.
âWasn't it through this book that you met Dad?' she asked, as, taking it eagerly from her, I began to flick through the pages.
âThat's right. Goodness, how formal it all was then â Mr this and Miss that.'
âAnd presumably not a word processor in sight?'
âGoodness no, this was bashed out on the old steam typewriter.'
Sophie perched on the arm of the sofa, looking at me curiously. âDidn't you tell me once that there was some trouble while it was being written?'
I nodded, suddenly sober. âThree people died during the course of that book. In fact, the writing of it was as much a story as the book itself.'
âThen why not write about that?' Sophie suggested. âYou know, “The Making of
Motive for Murder
.” Everyone does it nowadays, and people would be interested â it's become a classic, after all.'
I looked across at her, startled. âOh, I couldn't!'
âWhy not? You say there's a story in it.'
âBut it was so much a part of all our lives.'
âAn autobiography, then. Oh, go on, Mum! You said you'd be at a loose end when I go to university â here's a way to fill in your time. And don't try to update it â write it as it was then: formality, typewriter and all.'
I made another token protest, but the idea was taking root and, with it, a feeling of excitement. By going through it all from the beginning, perhaps I'd be able to glimpse the first, misty hints of what was to come; hints that were too obscure to notice at the time.
I went on flicking through the pages, the memories growing stronger. This was the chapter I typed after the swimming incident; this one while Kate was there. Long-forgotten incidents flickered at the back of my mind; I probably remembered more than I'd realized.
By supper time, I'd decided to give it a try. And I'll dedicate whatever results to the shades of those no longer with us â and, of course, to my husband, who very definitely is.
The sun was just breaking through the early morning haze and it promised to be another long, hot day. Under the lofty ceilings of Paddington Station, however, the chill of dawn still lingered and I shivered in my thin dress, wrapping my coat more tightly about me.
âCold?' Gilbert asked, turning from the booking office and handing me my ticket. His eyes were concerned.
I shook my head, and lifted my chin.
âEmily â don't go!' He hadn't put it into words before. He took my arm and led me briskly into the buffet. âWe've time for a coffee,' he insisted, as I hung back to glance anxiously up at the clock.
âYou don't really want to go, do you?' he said, when we were sitting looking at each other over the steaming cups, it's just a question of pride now.'
âNonsense.' I drew a long, steadying breath, it's the chance of a lifetime!'
âWe don't know anything about this chap,' he went on frowningly, staring into his cup. âI can't think why Father agreed to it â but you can always twist him round your finger.'
âOn the contrary,' I said, âwe know a lot about him.' The coffee had warmed me and both my voice and my resolution were stronger, âitem one:' I ticked off on my fingers, âMatthew Haig is one of the country's leading novelists. Item two: he needs a secretary for three months to help him with his latest book. Item three: he lives in Cornwall â which, incidentally, is a wonderful place to be in this kind of weather.'
âItem four:' Gilbert interrupted, âhe's been your ideal ever since you read his first book at school, and you won't admit that when you actually met him, you didn't like him. But it's true, isn't it?'
I was silent. It had always been the same; I'd been able to fool Mother and Father on occasion, but never Gil.
He reached over, his warm, strong hand on my wrist. â
Please
, Emily.'
I was surprised at the urgency in his voice. âDon't fret, brother dear,' I said lightly, âthere's a housekeeper, a nanny and a little girl, so I should be safe. I'm not going to be buried away alone with him â and even if I were, I should probably still be safe â the dislike appeared to be mutual.'
âThen why did he engage you?'
âPerhaps the others were no better,' I suggested. âAnd he's desperate for a secretary. Really, Gil, stop worrying. I'm a big girl now.'
But he didn't smile as I'd expected. He said slowly, âI can't put it into words, but I have a feeling of â oh, I don't know. I'd just be much happier if you decided against going to Cornwall.'
I stared at him in amazement. Dear, down-to-earth Gilbert, with a feeling he âcouldn't put into words'. It was not like him to be fanciful.
The loudspeaker boomed, making us jump.
âHeavens, come on! I'll miss it!' I stood up and for a moment longer he sat staring at me.
âThen you won't change your mind?'
âNot a chance! Now come on, there's a love, and see me off with good grace!'
The train was in when we arrived at the platform, and the late holiday crowds were streaming into it.
âLucky we reserved you a seat,' Gilbert said.
He climbed ahead of me into the carriage and swung my case up on the rack. Then he handed me my magazine, kissed my cheek, and jumped back down on to the platform. âEmily, if there's anything that worries you â anything at all â phone home and I'll come straight down. Do you promise?'
âWhat could possibly worry me? I'll be fine, really.'
A whistle blew farther down the platform and there was the sound of slamming doors. The train shuddered, rocked, and started to inch forward.
âTake care,' Gilbert said, and I nodded reassuringly.
âGoodbye!'
I waved out of the window till we rounded a bend and he was out of sight. Behind me, the compartment had filled, and my own place was the only empty one. I sat down and smoothed the pages of my magazine with fingers that shook a little. Strange, that Gilbert should be so much against my going to Cornwall, and Matthew Haig.
About me, my fellow travellers settled down for the long journey. I sat back, watching the dusty suburbs slide past with increasing speed, and my mind went back over the last few weeks to the advertisement that had appeared in the evening paper.
âWriter in Cornwall requires residential secretary for three months. Mutually acceptable salary.'
It had been an airless, sweltering day in London and the dusty offices of Messrs Penshurst and Dacombe had never seemed so dull. I'd spent the best part of the day helping Marcia with a conveyance and I was thoroughly bored and dispirited.
âCornwall!' I'd said to her on the train home. âThat's the place to work!'
âWell, write after it then.'
I stared at her. âShall I?'
âWhy not?'
Why not, indeed? Together we composed a crisp, efficient application, giving my typing and shorthand speeds. I sent it off the same evening and then, convinced I would hear no more, forgot it. A week later the typewritten note arrived. Matthew Haig would be grateful if Miss Emily Barton could attend for an interview at the Grafton Hotel on Tuesday next, 29th August.
Matthew Haig! I could hardly believe it. As Gilbert remarked, I'd been an avid reader of his books long before he became so widely acclaimed. Now, he was established as one of the foremost writers in the country, and it was he who wanted a secretary!
I made tentative enquiries at the office. My own boss was away in South America for three months and I was tired of whittling away the time by helping out the other girls. Would a leave of absence be feasible? I should be back in time for Mr Dacombe's return after Christmas. The office manager hummed and haaed, consulted the partners, and finally vouchsafed the opinion that they could see no reason why I should not take a temporary job, provided I gave them a month's notice if I decided against returning to them.
Seething with excitement, I presented myself at the Grafton, cool and, I hoped, efficient-looking in my grey linen dress. And there my elation dissolved.
Cool I may have been; Matthew Haig obviously was not. The heavy green curtains had been drawn across the window to keep out the sun, but the resulting airlessness struck me in the face like a blast from an oven.
The man at the table had removed his jacket and rolled up his shirt sleeves, but there were beads of perspiration on his forehead and his face was blotchy with the heat. A pile of cigarette stubs, some only half-smoked, filled the ashtray at his elbow, and an empty water-jug and glass stood beside it.
He did not look up as I entered, but waved vaguely in the direction of the chair in front of him. My self-confidence ebbed away, wilting in the oppressive heat. I sat down and waited. A fly buzzed aimlessly over the table, the whirr of its wings the only movement in the room. Matthew Haig turned over the page in front of him. He had still not raised his head. I began to wonder whether the message that he was ready for me had been a little previous. Cautiously I settled back in my chair and looked across the table.
I had seen his picture on the dust cover of his books, but the face in front of me was sterner, more rebellious than the facile photograph had shown. There were grooves from nose to mouth and tiny lines fanned out from the corners of his eyes. Now, as he frowned down at the papers before him, the mouth was hard and unyielding. A strong face, I decided; attractive, but disillusioned.
âWell, Miss Barton.'
My eyes lifted guiltily to his, as though he had been able to read my thoughts.
He was regarding me appraisingly. âYour shorthand and typing speeds seem adequate.' He paused, apparently for my comment, but I could think of none. I'd been under the impression that my skills were more than âadequate'.
He leant back in his chair, studying me in his turn. âThe position is this: I'm working on a book, and I need someone right away. Would you be able to start at once?'
Quite suddenly, I was not sure that I wanted to. The old-fashioned courtesy of Messrs Penshurst and Dacombe seemed all at once infinitely preferable to working for this man, who was abrupt to the point of rudeness.
âWell?'
âI â think so,' I stammered, furious with myself.
âThen perhaps you'd make up your mind. I'm anxious to get on with my work as soon as possible, but I can't concentrate if my secretary is unsettled. If it would be too quiet for you at Touchstone, or you feel on reflection that you would not be suitable for the job, please say so now. There have already been â interruptions â in the course of this book.'
Put like that it was a challenge, as though he'd carelessly tossed the job at my feet and was not particularly interested in whether or not I accepted it.
I said a little stiffly, âI don't mind the quiet, and I'm sure the work would be very interesting. I've read â'
âYou realize, of course, that it's a residential position?' he interrupted, âIt's no good thinking of taking lodgings in Chapelcombe, because I work irregular hours, often in the evenings, and Touchstone is some way out of the town. Of course â' a flicker of sardonic amusement â âyou will be suitably chaperoned. My daughter and her nurse live with me, as well as the housekeeper.'
âI'm aware of that,' I said, furiously conscious of my heightened colour. My father had made enquiries before allowing me to attend the interview.
He stared at me a moment longer, then he reached out and closed the file in front of him.
âAll
right,' he said.