Maggot Moon (2 page)

Mr. Gunnell didn’t like me. I think it was personal. Everything is personal with Mr. Gunnell. I was a personal affront to his intelligence. I was an affront to his sense of order and decency. Just to make sure everyone got the message about the affront that was me, he pulled my tie undone. He had that smile on his face, the tongue-sticking-out one, as he closed the classroom door behind me.

I didn’t have a problem with the caning. Or with the fact that my hands still smarted. I had a small problem with the ear pulling. I was only a tiny bit worried about the headmaster. I didn’t know then about the trouble, or how deep it went.

But maybe I got an inkling of it the moment Mr. Gunnell pulled my tie undone, the git. You see, I can’t do up my tie, and he knew it.

That tie had not been untied for a personal record of one year. That was the longest time I had ever managed to keep the knot intact. In fact the fabric had become so shiny that it moved with no problem just wide enough for my head to slip through and then close up as neat as a whistle at the top, so I looked spick-and-span. I mean, that was the idea. It had stayed this way because of Hector. He wouldn’t let any boy mess with me. The days of torment I had believed to be behind me. That fricking, undone, hangman’s rope of a tie made me feel like sliding down the wall onto the floor and giving up, letting the tears for once get some exercise. For there was one thing I couldn’t do: go to the headmaster’s office without a tie. I might just as well throw myself from the window headfirst. Say it came undone on the way down. Say due to concussion from the fall I had forgotten how to tie a tie.

I think I knew, if I was honest, then and there, that this was not just about the tie and the loss of a knot. It was the loss of Hector I couldn’t stand. If only I knew where they had taken him. If only I knew he was all right, then maybe the knot in my stomach — the knot which got tighter every day — would go away.

Hector said the tie stood for something different. It was just the same as a collar round a dog’s neck. It said you were a part of something more than you alone would ever be. Hector said a uniform was a way of making us all the same, just numbers, neat boy-shaped numbers to be entered in a book. Hector wasn’t a neat number and I think they might have rubbed him out, but I can’t be sure of that. What I knew was that Hector was right. The knotted tie represented survival.

Now I was stuck, tie undone, my shirt buttoned wrong, my shoelaces a dead loss. I was a mess.

The corridor smelled of disinfectant, milk, boys’ pee, and polish. The striplights looked to me like loneliness. They were too bright; they revealed everything. They made the emptiness ten times worse, showed me there was no Hector. A glass door banged and Miss Phillips, one of the school wardens, came out of her office carrying a cup.

“What are you doing, Treadwell?”

She had a hard, no-nonsense voice but I’d seen her in the queues like everyone else, getting a little extra on the side. She looked down the corridor and up at the camera that went round like clockwork. She waited until the all-seeing eye was turned elsewhere, then without a word she tied my tie, re-buttoned my shirt. She checked the camera, put her finger to her lips, and waited for it to turn back on us before saying in the same, no-nonsense voice, “Good, Treadwell. Now that is how I expect you to arrive at school every day.”

Never would I have thought that the hard-boiled Miss Phillips had such a soft, sweet center.

The headmaster’s office had a seat outside, a long bench, wood hard, bum sore, and just a bit too high. I reckon that was the genius of the seat because you ended up sitting there looking small and less of anything, with your feet dangling and your knobbly knees blushing red. And all you heard was the sound of your classmates hardly daring to breathe. I sat there waiting for the bell to ring, which meant Mr. Hellman will see you now. I sat and waited, time drip-ticking away.

Before Hector came to this school, I hated it. I believed it was invented just so the bullies, with brains the size of dried-up dog turds, could beat the shit out of kids like me. A kid with different-colored eyes: one blue eye, one brown, and the dubious honor of being the only boy in the whole of his class of fifteen-year-olds who couldn’t spell, couldn’t write.

Yes, I know.

Standish Treadwell isn’t bright . . .

How many times did the jerk-off bully boys sing that to me, egged on by the glory-arsed leader of the torture lounge, Hans Fielder. He knew he was important. Head Perfect, the teacher’s pet. He wore long trousers, as did the rest of his gang. Tell you this for a bucketful of tar: there weren’t many in our school who wore long trousers. Those that did thought themselves up there with the greats. Little Eric Owen wore shorts like the rest of us but he made his shorts longer by doing everything Hans Fielder required of the runt. If Little Eric was a dog he would have been a terrier.

His main duty was to see which way I was heading home every day and give the signal to Hans Fielder and his merry men. The boys needed something to get their teeth into. The chase would be on. I ended up being caught and beaten every frick-fracking time. Don’t think I didn’t give as good as I got, because I did. But I didn’t stand much of a chance when there were seven of them.

It was the day I first met Hector. They had me cornered under the old railway tunnel near the school. Hans Fielder thought he’d caught me good and proper, that there was no escape unless I wanted to risk being killed, for at the end of the tunnel was a sign. You didn’t have to be able to read it to know what it said. It had a cross and skullbones on it, which meant keep out or you’re dead.

That day, down there in the stinking tunnel with Hans Fielder and his gang of nasties jeering and throwing stones at me, I came to the rapid conclusion that it might be safer to run into the long grass behind the sign and take my chance with the devil. There was no barbed wire or anything like that to fence it off. That notice alone had the power of a thousand scarecrows.

I ran down the tunnel for all I was worth, past the sign into what I was certain would be a firing range. At least it would be over quickly. Mum and Dad were gone and Gramps . . . well, I didn’t let myself think about Gramps, not right then. Because Gramps was the only person that still pulled at the gravity in me. I glanced over my shoulder, expecting to see Hans Fielder and his frickwits following me. What I saw was a murky group of lads drifting away.

I stopped by a huge oak tree, out of breath, dizzy. It was only when my breathing became more steady that I realized what I’d done. I waited some time. If the Greenflies turned up I would put my hands up and give myself in.

I sat down, my heart an egg bumping against the side of a pan of boiling water. It was then that I spotted it. A red football. Deflated, yes, but whole. I stuffed it in my school bag, a reward for my bravery. Not only that, but as I went further along the disused railway track I found raspberry bushes groaning with fruit. I took off my shirt, tied the sleeves together, and filled it up until it couldn’t take another raspberry. All the time I was expecting to feel a Greenfly’s hand on my shoulder.

By now I was near the wall that runs along the side of the railway track. A word to describe that wall would be
impenetrable.
See. I might not be able to spell but I have a huge vocabulary. I collect words — they are sweets in the mouth of sound.

The wall was built so high that Gramps and me, whose garden backed up to it, couldn’t see over the fricking thing. You wouldn’t know there was a wild meadow hidden behind it filled with flowers. Butterflies were doing the fandango like nature was having a ball and keeping the VIP list all to herself. I was seeing it for the first time and, cripes, it was eye-bending in its beauty. Well, I thought, if all mankind disappeared down a hole I knew who would be holding the celebration party.

Why stop now, Standish? You have the raspberries, the football — why not the flowers?

Twerp. Only then did it dawn in my daydreaming head that I hadn’t the foggiest idea how I was going to get over the wall. I was up shit river with a hole in the boat and sinking fast. I mean, I couldn’t climb the wall. It wasn’t the height that concerned me, it was the glass at the top, the artery-cutting kind. You wouldn’t be able to get over that wall and still claim to have hands.

Frick-fracking hell. There were two choices: I would have to go back the way I came, which I wasn’t doing; and the other . . .

Standish, go on, tell me the other.

The brick wall stops at the end of our road, where there is this huge pointless palace that sits at the top of the hill. I was certain, when I was small, that it was made from a giant’s toy building set because it was out of scale with everything else. Gramps said it was cursed.

What I’m telling you now happened for real. A long way back, some bright spark thought to commemorate a queen or a battle — I can’t remember which, both being as forgotten as the other. According to Gramps, who liked to study local history, the hill, many moons ago, had on the top of it a deep well, known for its magical healing water and guarded by three witches. They decreed nothing should ever disturb this spot and if the well was tampered with in any way then the land would be cursed. This was before those wise witches were dragged away to the stake house.

Years later, a geezer with wheelbarrows of money and a queen or a battle to remember went right ahead and filled in the well and built the atrocity.

The first people’s palace burned down on its opening day. Then, as if that didn’t make the witches’ point fair and two corners square, the man with the wheelbarrows of money went and built the ugly bugger up again. A sort of two fingers to the superstition. Gramps said the thing with witches is they can afford to play the long game. That glass eye of the ugly old palace was still watching from beyond the meadow.

Why was I thinking about this when I was stuck on the wrong side of the wall refusing to let go of the flowers, the shirt with the raspberries, or the squashed football? Because it gave me time to calm down, to think, and in that thought I found my means to escape.

Before he and Mum disappeared, I’d once heard Dad talking to Gramps about a tunnel they’d dug from the air-raid shelter during the war. It led into the park. When they realized I was in the room, they started speaking in the Mother Tongue so that I wouldn’t understand.