Leap Day
Copyright © 2004 by Wendy Mass
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Contents
Chapter 12: Josie Gets the Last Word
A Mango-Shaped Space
For EJ McCarthy and Debbie Stoler, who provided a summer of inspiration, for Bob, Pat, and the french fry–eating squirrel at Drew University. And with love to Mike, for sneaking in and making everything better
The real you is who you are when no one’s watching.
7:00
A.M.
– 8:20
A.M.
Right now it’s seven o’clock on a Monday morning, and I’m lying on the floor of my bedroom watching the white plastic ceiling fan go around and around and around. I don’t actually choose to sleep on the floor; some mornings I just wind up here. For the past few years I’ve had very vivid dreams, and I wind up flinging myself to the floor in the middle of the night. Now I keep a pillow by the side of the bed, so it’s really not too bad. I feel safe on the floor. Like I’m more grounded. Sometimes I feel a bit untethered, like I’m more
on
the world than
in
it. I’ve always wanted to ask my friends if they feel like that, but I never do.
I sit up and rub the little crusts of yesterday’s mascara out of my eyes. I can’t hear the shower running, so Rob must still be sleeping. This is a good thing because it means I’ll have all the hot water I need, and I need a lot. One time last year I turned on the water and then went back to my room for a second, and Rob ran into the shower. He screamed bloody murder and jumped out, hopping up and down on the fuzzy yellow bathmat. I ran in to see what all the fuss was about and got an eyeful. It’s one thing to see your brother naked when you’re five and he’s seven, but it’s another thing entirely when you’re teenagers. I may be scarred for life. It’s true that Rob and I get along better than any other brother and sister I know. But still, there are boundaries.
With the water just this side of scalding, I wash my hair twice. This is a big day for me, and one time just won’t suffice. I haven’t had a haircut in over a year, and now my hair falls right above my breasts. Speaking of my breasts, the left one is larger than the right. Only slightly, but it’s bothered me ever since they started growing when I was twelve. I suppose it’s possible that someone else might not be able to tell, but I can’t be sure because no one else has ever seen them. Andrew Trachtenberg did touch them once over my sweatshirt behind the bleachers at the homecoming football game. After that his family moved away to one of the square-shaped states in the middle of the country. I try to tell myself that there’s no connection.
So, technically, no one has actually seen them. Although that could change soon, considering I just turned sixteen — today, in fact — and I’m ready for a real boyfriend. So far I can’t say that the first day of sixteen feels any different than the last day of fifteen. But I’m still very excited that it’s my birthday. Especially since it’s only my fourth one.
“Are you done yet?” Rob yells through the door. “I can’t be late today. I have to meet with the coach before homeroom.”
“Okay, okay, hold on.” I push the old flowered shower curtain aside and reach for my towel, trying not to slip. Drying off takes me longer than I bet it takes most people, because I have a whole drying order that I like to follow that starts at my feet and winds up at my ears. When I’m done I wrap a smaller towel around my head like a fortune-teller. Then comes the citrus-scented oil, which I spray all over except for my chest, because I don’t want to break out there. I don’t think anyone can smell the oil through my clothes, but it makes me feel like I’ve got a secret. Then I throw on the purple bathrobe that my great-aunt sent me from New York. It’s a little kid’s bathrobe, and I think she meant to send it to my eleven-year-old cousin, but my mother won’t let me return it since it fits fine. I try not to dwell on the fact that I look younger than I am. My mother is always trying to convince me that I have a very healthy body image for a teenager. Usually I would roll my eyes at some-thing like that, but I think she really needs to believe it so I don’t contradict her.
Rob knocks again. As soon as I open the door I hear, “Surprise!!!”
My parents and Rob are standing in the hall holding a homemade birthday corn muffin with a white candle stuck in it. A silver Mylar helium balloon waves at me from my doorknob. Below the happy sweet sixteen message on the balloon, my mother has written in thick Magic Marker, “Happy Fourth Birthday to Our Favorite Leaper!” That’s the name for people like me who were born on February 29th. Since leap year only comes around once every four years, that means that the 29th only exists once every four years. This took some getting used to. When I was five, Rob told me that my parents took my birthday away because I never went to sleep when I was supposed to. Nice. He then pointed to our kitchen calendar and showed me that the day was, in fact, not there. I cried for five straight hours until my mother explained the whole leap year thing to me. Then I cried for another five. Normally I celebrate my birthday on February 28th, but it never feels quite right. Now when February 29th does roll around, it’s that much more special. Plus, we leapers are a pretty exclusive group. After all, there are 365 chances to be born on a regular day, but only a one-in-1,461 chance of having my birthday. In fact, I’m the only leaper at my high school.
I grin as they sing me the Happy Birthday song, and then Mom tells me to make a wish. This is only the first of many birthday things they’ll do for me today to make up for all the ones I miss. I blow out the candle and wish that my breasts were the same size. Since I’ll get to make many more wishes today, I don’t mind wasting that one on something so shallow. I’ll wish for world peace later.
“Happy birthday, sweetheart,” Dad says, giving me a big hug. He’s the more nurturing of my parents. Poor Dad. He’s had a hard time of it lately. Six months ago his accounting firm merged with a bigger one and he was laid off. Now Mom’s job catering parties is the only money coming in. Dad’s been acting very secretive lately, and he hasn’t been around for the past two weeks when I’ve come home from school. So either he has a lead on a new job or he’s working undercover for the CIA, which is Rob’s theory.
“Look in your room, Josie,” Mom says, her eyes sparkling. My mother gets as excited about my Leap Day birthdays as I do. I think she’s always felt a little guilty about the whole thing. “I tried to get you out a day earlier,” she told me once. “The doctor suggested mixing castor oil and orange juice, but I just couldn’t choke it down.”
There is only one thing I want to find in my bedroom, and at first I don’t see it. The first thing anyone would notice about my bedroom is the overwhelming pinkness of it. When I was ten I begged my mother to paint it pink. And not just any pink, but a hot, shocking pink. Since only two years before I had begged for — and received — the flowered wallpaper, she said all right to the pink paint, as long as I agreed not to ask for any more changes before college. At ten, college sounded a million miles away. So now I cringe every time I walk into my own room. Rob won’t even come in at all. His room is a soothing army green. He says mine gives him a migraine. Even now he’s hanging back in the doorway. I peer around the room, lift up the math book on my desk, open the top of my clothes hamper. Then my eyes fall on something sticking out from under the pillow on the floor. I toss the pillow aside and there it is. My very own key to Rob’s car, which used to be Mom’s car, which before that was Grandma’s (my mom’s mom, who passed away when I was ten), and which is now partly mine.
I literally squeal with delight and hold the key over my head like a prizewinner. I immediately put it on my new key chain so I won’t lose it. The car is big and gray and has no left turn signal or air conditioning. We call it the Shark.
“You haven’t passed the driver’s test yet, Josie,” Rob points out. “Lots of people fail the first time.”
“Don’t listen to him, honey,” my mother says with a sideways glare at Rob. “You’ll do just fine. You’d better get changed for school.”
“I think you should wear the robe,” Rob says as I close the door on him. Through the door he says, “You’ll land the role of Juliet for sure if you wear it.”
“I won’t need any help,” I reply, sounding much more certain than I am. To most people the school play is no big deal, but it is vital that I’m in it. Not only because I want to be a professional actress, but also because it’s only when I’m on stage that I feel like I really affect people. In October, I finally got my first starring role. Mr. Polansky, the drama teacher, picked me to be Anna in the school’s production of
The King and I,
and sophomores almost never get the lead in the fall musical. He said I was the best Anna he’d seen in years. Our school doesn’t have much of a budget for the theater department, so we do
The King and I
every few years. That means he’s seen a LOT of Annas. He’s also seen a lot of Juliets. Even though it might not be fair to the others if he chose me again, I really want the part anyway. You can’t call yourself an actress unless you’ve played Juliet. I love the heat of the spotlight, the smell of the makeup, the dusty old costumes that with only slight alterations get reused each year no matter what the play. Everyone pretending to be someone else, just for a night. It’s so easy to know who to be when the words are right there on the page. I wish I found it so easy in real life. When I’m up there I feel connected to the world. It’s some kind of cosmic joke that I have my driver’s test and the play audition on the same day.
I yank my favorite jeans out of a drawer and lay them on the bed next to a red t-shirt that has the few, the proud, the leapers emblazoned in black letters. It’s the motto of the NLA, the National Leapers Association. When I was eight, Mom registered me with the NLA. They pair you up with three other leapers born your same year. One of my leapmates, Chris from San Francisco, almost wasn’t an official leaper. When he was born, his mother’s doctor tried to get her to put either February 28 or March 1 on his birth certificate because it would be easier for him as he grew up. She refused.
Each Leap Day, my leapmates and I send each other gifts. So far this year I’ve gotten the t-shirt from Angela in Des Moines, a key chain with my name on it from Chris (with leap 2/29 on the other side), and I’m still awaiting my gift from Niki in Boston. She’s the one I’m closest to, so I’m sure she’ll send me something cool. I sent her a boxed set of the Winnie-the-Pooh books because she is a big Pooh fan (the
classic
Pooh, she is always quick to point out, not the distorted and too-bright Disney Pooh). I also sent her a Tori Amos CD that I knew she wanted. I sent Angela and Chris the CD too, and as a joke I sent them all caps from Disney World with Mickey Mouse ears and their names across the front. Oh, did I mention I live in Orlando, home of The Happiest Place on Earth?
At first my leapmates didn’t believe that anyone actually lived in Orlando, but it’s pretty much like living anywhere else. Except here, swarms of pale tourists can be found on every street corner, and by the time we graduate from high school everyone will have worked at one of the theme parks in some capacity. This summer I’m applying to be one of the face characters, preferably one of the nine Snow Whites at the Magic Kingdom. Since I have brown hair, I have a better shot at her than at Cinderella, who’s blonde. There’s a whole hierarchy to these jobs that most people don’t know about. At the top are the actors who perform in the shows throughout the day. They sing and dance and get paid the most by far. Then there are the face characters who mingle with the guests, lip-sync in the parade, and sign autographs. Then on the bottom is “fur.” These are the people who lumber around the park in those big animal suits. Last summer Rob was Pluto. Or Goofy. Who can tell them apart? He said it was as hot as blazes in the costume, so I figure Snow White is a good bet because she wears a special outfit, not a big furry suit. Plus I’ve heard the suits really smell and one kid got lice from sharing the Piglet head.