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Authors: Jemma Harvey

Kissing Toads

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Jemma Harvey is a freelance journalist and author of
Wishful Thinking
. She lives and writes in Brighton.
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KISSING TOADS

Jemma Harvey

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Chapter 1:
Committing Sooty
Ruth
It is a truth universally acknowledged that a single woman in possession of an adequate income must be in want of a life.
I woke up to singledom on the sort of grey November morning that would make the most carefree and cheerful person feel like hitting the Prozac. I don't know if there are any statistics on it – probably, because there always are – but I'm sure most suicides happen in the dark months, when the days are short and gloomy and the nights seem to be taking over, and the magazines tell you the party season is under way but you haven't been invited, and there's nothing to look forward to but the chill, damp, endless south-of-England winter, too cold for fun yet not cold enough for snow . . . And when you add abrupt, unexpected, gut-churning, heart-aching singledom on top of that, it wasn't surprising I lay in bed considering possible short cuts out of this world. Gas is traditional, but my cooker is electric, and I had no idea how to electrocute myself and a strong suspicion I would make a mess of it if I tried, upsetting everybody else by short-circuiting the whole building. There was always the overdose, only I wasn't sure what of; so few pills are potentially lethal these days. Aspirin can ruin your liver without actually killing you, and apart from that all I had in the cupboard was multivitamins, birth control pills, and Imodium (death by constipation?). It was very selfish of the chemical companies, I thought, keeping people alive in this way – probably so they could make a fortune selling all the would-be suicides anti-depressants. Exploitation of a vulnerable minority; perhaps we could do a piece on it . . .
That's how you think, after years in TV journalism. You can't help it. One moment you're contemplating killing yourself, and the next it's become an item on the show.
The show . . .
Thoughts of suicide faded into a grimmer reality. I would have to leave my job.
I'd been working on
Dick Ramsay: Behind the News
for nearly seven years. I'd come as a bright young thing of twenty-six, starting as an assistant to the assistants and graduating to full-on assistant, and at thirty-two I knew I was almost past my professional sell-by date. There were lots of other bright young things, possibly brighter and certainly younger, queuing up to take my place in the assistant stakes. I should have been a proper producer by now, but it would have meant moving to another show, and I'd stayed and stayed – because of Kyle. Kyle Muldoon, the on-screen talent with his tough-guy exterior and caramel-soft centre, who had been half of my life, or perhaps more than half, for the past six years. I'd gone with him on some assignments and waited for his return from others, worried about him, welcomed him, sobered him or put him to bed, boosted his ego, soothed his tantrums. It hadn't been a perfect relationship, but what is? He'd stood me up, let me down, wriggled out of weekends with my parents, got embarrassingly drunk at friends' weddings and those few dinner parties I could persuade him to attend. It didn't matter. I loved him.
And now his caramel heart had melted for someone else, all in an instant, and he was out of my life for good. I couldn't stay with the show, go on working with him – that would mean constant anguish and humiliation. I'd have to leave. Now. Under the tidal wave of my misery, imminent joblessness and career disintegration began to appear almost desirable, a necessary part of the doom that confronted me. I was single; I might as well be unemployed to complete the picture. To all intents and purposes my life was over. Time to get up, send the relevant emails, tie up the loose ends.
I reached for the telephone, then my specs, so I could see what I was saying.
‘Delphi?' I was addressing, not the Greek oracle, but my best friend, Delphinium Dacres.
Yes,
that
Delphinium Dacres. The glamour girl of TV gardening shows. It's a long story, but she really is my best friend. We grew up together.
‘For God's sake,' she said. ‘It's
before nine o'clock
on a Saturday morning . . .'
‘Friday.'
‘Are you sure?'
‘Sure.'
‘You at work?'
‘No, and I'm not going to be.'
Finally, the best-friend antennae began to twitch. ‘What's wrong?'
‘I've split up with Kyle.'
‘You do that all the time. It never lasts. If I thought it was for real, I'd be cheering.'
Delphinium disapproved of Kyle for all sorts of reasons, starting with the casual way he treated me. She thinks men are supposed to worship and obey. Most of hers do.
‘Cheer,' I said. ‘This is it. For real.'
‘You sound awful.' Her tone was modulating into genuine concern. ‘What's he done?'
‘Got married.'
‘
What??
'
We met in a coffee bar later that morning. By then, I'd already emailed my excuses for the day and my resignation for the future to Dick Ramsay and the producer. Somehow, it had taken the edge off my suicide plans, leaving me grey and empty and suffering. Delphinium, when she saw me, didn't cheer. True friends don't cheer at your distress, even if, in principle, they welcome the cause, and Delphinium is my truest friend.
In the business, she isn't popular; the up-and-coming ones very rarely are. They're too hungry, too pushy, too undeserving of their fortune to go down well with those who have been elbowed out of their way or who have to submit to their professional whims. Those who make it to the top of the heap can afford to relax and be generous, earning the regard of gushing subordinates who want to curry fame and favour. But Delphinium is still on the upward ladder. She doesn't have enemies: it's just that most people dislike her. According to her detractors, she has a Barbie-doll body and brains to match; for the rest, she's got big features on a small face (except for her nose, which she had reduced), peach-perfect skin and lots of three-tone streaky blonde hair. Her style of dressing varies dramatically depending on her mood: that day she was wearing four-inch platform boots, bumsqueezer cropped jeans, bumfreezer jacket trimmed with dead bunny. ‘Rabbit is okay,' she declared at my murmur of criticism. ‘There are far too many of them eating up the countryside. Killing rabbits is eco-friendly.' I forbore to mention that the rabbit she was wearing had probably been bred for the purpose and had never had the chance to mess up its fur running around in the wild. I felt too low to argue about serious issues.
We were sitting at a corner table which should have been out of earshot of the café's other clientele. Unfortunately, Delphi has a carrying voice and no concept of discretion, though she's uninterested in any gossip that concerns those outside her social and professional circle. It's probably one of the side effects of egotism. She ordered a regular latte with skimmed milk, no sugar, and no biscuit-on-the-side; I ordered a double espresso with extra caffeine to give me the oomph to get back to suicide.
‘You look terrible,' she said. ‘Tell me everything.'
‘You know Kyle's been in Eastern Europe doing that sex-trade investigation?'
‘Not another one?'
‘The producer loves them. Beautiful girls kidnapped, raped, and forced into prostitution – the public never get tired of it.' I'm not usually this cynical – well, not
quite
– but, as you may have gathered, I wasn't having a good day. ‘I was supposed to be on location with him but I had to do the follow-up on corruption in Doncaster, so they sent Judi instead.' Judi was one of several assistant-assistants aiming to scramble past me on the ladder of success. Now, she would have a clear rung.
So to speak.
‘Don't tell me he's married
her
!' Delphi exclaimed, appalled. ‘Not Jude the Obscure!' Delphi rarely reads a book, but she knows the titles.
‘Of course not. He met a girl out there – he said he had to marry her, it was the only way he could get her out of the country, protect her from the local mafia. Her father's unemployed, in hock to the gangsters, her mother works twelve hours a day in a sweatshop. They don't know what happened to the sister but she was last heard of in Vienna. Kyle gave me a whole sob story.' And I'd swallowed it – whole. Kyle knew exactly how to get to his audience, and there were so many stories like that out there, true stories, stories to wring your heart. Well, my heart had been wrung, in the end.

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