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“‘The World,’ I would tell my lady creature of an evening. ‘The World, yes, that’s a dandy name for a theater,’ she would say. One night, when the theater was finished, we said this back and forth as I had at my own bottle then at her, and I went out with my paintbrush in the moonlight and the next morning all the city walked by my sign. When Bennett Marsden came he said nothing, but clapped me on the shoulder and acknowledged that my paintwork was fine.

“We draped the World in gold and purple and spread out word that we would have us a performance after a fortnight,” my dead husband, Linus Lancaster, went on. “We beat the bushes and banged the drum and sold every bench place in the house. We were to play a shortened version of
Lear
and I was to be Lear and Bennett Marsden my good Gloucester. There were some boys for the other parts and two fine fat ladies Bennett Marsden had found for us to play the three daughters. We rehearsed each night then drank, and after we had drunk I would sit one or both those fine fat ladies across my knees. Bennett Marsden would chuckle when I did this then fill my glass full. They told me there was enough of me for both of them, and as you well know, Wife, this was true. Sometimes when I had them on my knees I would sing. All I had to do was open my mouth and they would all shut theirs. This was also true. Everything I say is true. Many was the time after the rehearsals and this knee-bending with the ladies that Bennett Marsden had his boys or mine carry me home. At home I knee-bended with my own fair creature maiden then slept as something come to the end of its good long labors. Normal times I slept a deep and happy blank, but one night I had the purest vision of a field filled with pigs and me the happiest man alive in the middle of it. You know of that dream.

“We opened to a house as full as the World could hold. One of the boys played a flute and the other a drum. Come time for it and they put their hands together and you couldn’t have heard a word. I stepped out onto the stage for a speech with Gloucester and I took in my breath and let it roar. I said my speech and pulled my wig hair and wept a tear, but when I had finished the house wasn’t weeping. I said ‘fog, fen, and bash’ with every ounce I had but none stirred. Nor did Gloucester stir, so I said some of my speech again. Him as Gloucester came over to me and whispered up at my ear: ‘We’re playing
Coriolanus
, act four.’

“‘We’re playing shortened
Lear
,’ I said. ‘Enough with your jokes now.’

“‘I am King Lear,’ I said aloud. I stepped around the stage. I gave the fresh planks some whacks with my foot. I said some of my lines from farther along.

“‘Come, leave your tears; a brief farewell: the beast with many heads butts me away…’ he said, in a stage whisper, plenty loud enough for the hall to hear.

“The room laughed with it. Some of them held up their programs. I had never seen these programs. They must have been passed out while I was at my preparations.
Coriolanus at the World
, they read.

“I stepped to the side and as I did, the boy who had been beating the drum and the two fine fat ladies Bennett Marsden had found for us stepped onstage, and after he had made a speech to the crowd about lightness and levity and my good nature to launch off the World’s first show with such a
flourish
, he started in on
Coriolanus
and the others played it right along with him. I had on my Lear wig and my Lear crown and all my Lear lines in my head. I saw straightaway the trick he had played me, understood the payment he had given me for my World. I left out the back door. Walked the alleys home. On the way I passed a creature hauling its master in a little wagon. The master was awake and singing a courting song, the creature had a purple hat on its head.

“That night I dreamed my own creatures hauled me out of Louisville with bits in their mouths. That I sat in the driver’s seat and they stood in for the horses. That I whipped them till the froth flew, till they howled against the metal, till we all fell over dead.”

“You sure fell,” I said when he had at last stopped. “Right over onto your face in the kitchen light.”

He nodded.

“Anyways, I already heard all about the way of the World and liked the first telling better; it came with a dance,” I said.

He gave out a smaller smile this time and adjusted the pig sticker in his neck and nodded again.

“You can see why we broke off our association, me and Bennett Marsden.”

“You mean I can see why you broke it off. Why maybe you left him holding the bills. Left him to carry all the load.”

He smiled.

“Why did you wait so long?” he asked me before he left.

“I don’t know,” I said.

The next morning I stood at the kitchen door and waved the Draper Man back off down the lane.

“I’ll call to see your husband, who owes me money from our business together, before the fortnight, Mrs. Lancaster,” he called. “I’ll add that it will be a pleasure to see you again too.”

“Good journey, Mr. Bennett Marsden,” I called back.

Before he had broken out of sight I had stepped back into the kitchen again.

IT WAS LUCIOUS WILSON
thought I might be quick with a piece of chalk and one day asked me was I interested in tending the school he had it in mind to set up. He had people in his employ, and those people had children and he had his own, and the only school nearby was farther away than he liked to send them. He had seen me gobbling at the books on his shelves and had watched me help his children make their numbers and letters and had a feeling it would work out right. He had hired a teacher from Marion to come out by autumntime and had a shed at the edge of one of the fields that would make a fine school by then, but if I was willing to work in rough conditions I could get it going now. He would see to the slates and primers and make sure I had what I needed.

He put this to me while I was scraping spilled oatmeal off the wall in his front hall. He had his hands kind of slipped into the pockets of his purple vest as he spoke. This was still in my early days in his employ. They hadn’t started in to call me Scary. He had seen the fresh blood on my ankle but hadn’t blinked. I was still what you could call young then and had been some time away by then from Charlotte County, and some of the freshness of strong young arms and strong young legs had likely bubbled up into my head and made me think some of the furniture had floated back into its right place, and I set down my scraper and looked up at Lucious Wilson and told him, yes.

“Good,” he said and went away with a whistle, and I picked my scraper back up and went to work on the oatmeal, but a week later I found myself wearing a snug black dress and neat black shoes and standing at the front of the room. There were six or eight of them, depending on the day and the farming weather, that Lucious Wilson had directed into my charge. They sat on benches with a slate each in their laps, and I had a chair in the corner I could move to if I needed it and there were windows to look out of and fine black fields all around. I had asked Lucious Wilson for a map of the country and some paper to draw big letters and numbers on and with them had decorated my abode. The pride of the whole thing was the chalkboard. It had been brought up by wagon from Indianapolis. Lucious Wilson said the shed might still be rough, but it would have a chalkboard. I wrote my name on that board the first day. I wrote, “Miss Sue.”

She’s dreaming, you will have said to yourself by now. She’s old and life-kicked and set to dreaming about things that never happened. Ginny Lancaster of Charlotte County, Kentucky, or Scary Sue the oatmeal scrubber, a schoolteacher. And yet there I stood those mornings in my black dress. There I was.

There wasn’t much to the first day or two. I had Lucious Wilson’s little ones and another little one and then a fistful that were all but grown. Not a body in the room knew its letters to speak of, so we started there. My trick about it was to pretend I was in that old schoolroom of mine, that room where I had written my story and been called to the front of the class. I could even bring up the pine smell of that place, and it wasn’t a thing to imagine that my old teacher was standing just behind me with a little smile, whispering at me about what to say. We did letters and took a peek at numbers and sang songs, and another few of those days mooed and grazed their way by. Lucious Wilson liked to come in at the end of a morning and stand in the doorway. Once he came a nob early, and I had him step up to the front of the room and give us a song. He couldn’t sing worth shooting, but there was fun in it and we all clapped.

“This is fine, Sue,” he said afterward. “Just fine.”

The trouble came up on the second week. It sat in the lap of one of the bigger ones, who one morning looked me up and looked me down, then said, “You ain’t our teacher. You ain’t any teacher at all.”

I came over to see if she was having trouble with the letters I had set them to practice. It was when I got up close and saw her in her profile, her profile with its little bit of a snarl to it, that I started to smell the trouble that had snuck its way into the room through the chinks in the shed wall while I had stood there in my teacher dress and teacher shoes, while I stood there with my chalk and letters and chair in the corner to sit on. I smelled the trouble, but still I looked down at what she had marked on her slate. She tried to hide it away from me but I saw it before she did. It was a pig dressed as a teacher. Thick of middle and long of snout. A pig to switch off to market. To stick and hang. To have its hairs scalded off. To butcher into its portions of truth. It was easy to see even at a quick glance that she had some talent with an image, that the rendering was fair. I went back and stood in front of them for a minute. Only I wasn’t in my teacher’s dress and my teacher’s shoes any longer, and my old teacher had left me to myself and I could feel the weight of Zinnia’s pig-slop hat on my head.

“She’s crying,” one of them said.

I hadn’t known it. But I was.

The shed had a little door to its back, behind the chalkboard. I stood there and cried a stretch longer then stepped through it. I went around the side of the shed and bent and picked hard at my ankle, then stood and smacked my face into its wall.

She was nice to me afterward, the one who had drawn the pig on her slate. She grew all the way up and got married to a blacksmith who put her into nice dresses and got her a nice carriage to drive around. I used to see her at the church. She died some time ago. Not of anything special.

It wasn’t any length of time after I had left off playing schoolteacher and gone back to the scrub brushes and oatmeal that my employer Lucious Wilson called on me to keep him some company. He was drifting through his days and wanted someone to latch an anchor to them, is what he told me. He also told me I had a glow on me that he admired the sheen of. His children favored me. They had cried when I stopped being their teacher. They were always hollering for more of my stories. My stories that weren’t about black bark or wet dough. Just those good old ones about falling down wells and burning boots and girls with long golden hair. He wanted to know was I committed elsewhere. Did I have any company I was keeping or hoping to keep? Was anyone waiting on me wherever it was I had come up from? He knew the answer to this but asked it anyway. He was young then. He bowed a little with his head when he talked and didn’t look at me too long in the eyes.

He made me this little speech and question as we walked out in the west flatlands where they kept the cattle back then. Everywhere you looked there were beasts working the green. A young bull came up and snuffled Lucious Wilson’s fingers. Turkey buzzards lolled circles above the north woods. There was sun on it all. A good sun. Lord of days, a glow to me, the pig lady from Charlotte County that the water doesn’t want, I thought.

I kept a kind of company with Lucious Wilson for a time then. For a time, after it was dark and his children were asleep and it was only me and the drafts in the halls, I would trip along to my employer’s room and take off my bonnet and, at his bidding, crawl into his bed. Night after night and time after time I would trip up the stair and down the corridor and tap on his door. There was things I thought as I made that passage, and times the trouble that had found me out in that school shed found me out in that passage, and it took me to turn around midway and run back to my own room and hide under the covers and scratch at my ankle with a paring knife. Times as I walked that my legs grew longer and my feet heavier and my chest as big as a barrel and my head the size of a salt block. My hands would swing like slabs of hard stone and I would walk down that corridor, ahead and alongside of myself with a different door in mind. Here I am a-comin’, girls, I thought. I might even have said it aloud. Linus Lancaster said it once in Kentucky as he passed my shut door and went toward the other. So I might have said it too.

One night when I had only made it half the way and was back in my bed and under the covers, Lucious Wilson knocked on my door. He had followed me, he said. He had heard me coming and had had his heart quickened and had had to come after me when I had turned around. He lit the candle and sat down on my bed and pulled the covers down off of my face.

“I’ll take that knife you got under there too,” he said.

I gave it to him. He was a good man. He had that kindness in his eyes and hands and was as soft as a box of baby chicks in his bedroom ways. Lucious Wilson set the knife aside and laid himself down gentle next to me and we both lay there and looked up at the ceiling with our arms crossed over our chests and he said we were lying there like a king and queen of olden days, and I asked him if the olden days were better than the days we had, and he said who could know such a thing?

“I would have rescued you up out of whatever situation it was, Sue,” he said. “I would have brought my rifle and stiffed my jaw and marched into whatever it was and got you out,” he said.

We used a kind of lavender on his shirt linens. I could smell that when he talked to me. You could smell it drifting through that whole house of his. That’s what heaven in the hereafter smells like, I thought, as he laid there next to me and talked.