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Authors: Kathryn Perez
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Jessica's Journal: A THERAPY Book of Poetry
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Jessica’s Journal
Copyright © 2014 by Kathryn Perez
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, brands, media, and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products, bands, and/or restaurants referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners.
Table of Contents
A Preview of THERAPY: Ever After (a Novella)
To my snowflakes.
Drowning in my thoughts
I wear a mask
I’m a façade
I’m okay, I’m strong
Masquerading lies
Beyond the layers
Behind the walls
Beneath the chains
There’s a broken child
Fighting a battle
A daily war
Confusion and pain
Playing tug-o-war
Love, hate
Yes, no
I really never know
Watching life go by
An outsider
Absence of self
Screaming in silence
Fearing this battle
One I’ll never win
Regrets and loss
I continue waging war on myself
Wishing for
Someone, anyone
To stop the fight
UGLY
NERD
PRETTY
FAG
SLUT
POOR
EMO
LONER
RICH
WEIRD
SKINNY
FAT
POPULAR
Labels
We are all given them
Handcuffed to our hearts
Burned into our minds
Judgment exhales into our inhales
Our spirits impaled
Our future cries
Why?
Labels
A writer?
A singer?
An Artist?
No, not you!
Our dreams are called names too.
UNREALISTIC
LAME
STUPID
IMPOSSIBLE
NAÏVE
You tell me to dream
YOUR
dreams
Labeled by
YOUR
scrutiny
Society
Demands normalcy from us
Normal…
Their favorite LABEL
Rip it off
Tear them down
Remove the illusion
Refuse the judgment
Unglue their sticky words from our skin
Torch the stigma
Labels
Now ashes at our feet
Unearth our dreams
Rise from defeat
Squeezing as hard as you can
You’ve ensnared me
Into your trap I fell
Your words hurt and berate me
Still I don’t know why you hate me
Every day you imprison me
Trapped inside your walls of anger
Sad and all alone
Confused and beaten down
Will it ever stop?
Am I forever bound?
Looking into your eyes
I realize…
You’ll never go away
Your words
Your hate
They’re here to stay
How do I escape you?
Tell me BULLY
What would you do if you were me and I was you?
Starving for more
Back pushed against the door
Looking for nothing
Hoping for something
Like a white crayon
Drawing upon white paper
Showing no results
All these years
Invisible…
Where did I go?
Where have I been?
Lost myself
All for him
Relenting
Spending myself
Treading the waters
Being pulled under
Holding my breath
Giving in
Breaking down on the inside
Looking for someone
Looking for more
