“I will not hurt you,” he murmured, feeling the breath leave her throat.
But this night, this one of many, he lied.
She had never been touched so before.
chapter fourteen
He watched her as she slept.
It was early; the night had just begun. But he knew she would be tired. These past two months she had worked hard to start her clinic. It gave her a pleasure he did not understand to tend to the injuries of her slaves. But it was harmless; if it made her happy, he was willing to allow it.
“Sara,” he whispered. She stirred; in the darkness of the curtained room he could see the hint of smile turn the corners of her mouth.
He smiled as well.
I'm Erin.
He remembered clearly the look on her face, half-shy, hall-apologetic.
Erin of Elliath. I'm sorry. I just realized I neverâyou don't know my name.
“No,” he said, mirroring the words of six months ago, although no one could hear them. “You are of Elliath no longer.”
He saw her face darken for a moment, but he could notâwould notâbring himself to use that name. She was his. This he would not give up.
“You are the Sarillorn. You belong here.”
Stefanos.
She had looked up, the darkness that he hated in her alone already fading.
How would you like it if I always called you “Your Majesty” or “Your Highness”?
“Those are not among my titles, Sarillorn. They are human conceits.”
And he remembered her little snort.
All right. If I always called you “Lord” or “First of the
Servants. ”
“First, little one, of the Sundered.”
You know what I mean
.
Sarillorn is a
title.
It isn't a name.
“Is it not what you are?”
She had thrown up her hands and shaken her head.
You know something? I never could have imagined that you would remind me of Belfas.
And then the silence had come over her again. But he knew her well; knew that this particular silence would hang like a cloud for the night if he did nothing. He did not ask her who Belfas was; he did not wish to know. Her life, or all of it that concerned him, began when he took her, living, from the village that she had tried so futilely to protect.
He walked over to the bed and touched her sleeping face, tracing the line of the smile that still lingered there.
“Let me name you anew, Sarillorn, if you will not have a title.” He thought for a while, discarding the few names he knew. She
was
the Sarillorn, and no other word came easily to him. Then he smiled quietly. “Is Sara a name that you will take? It is a human oneâcommon, I believe, among the southerners.”
He had watched the cloud disperse and was glad of it. The light shone through it.
StefanosâI . . . It's a diminutive.
“Yes.”
Wellâit would be the same as if I called you, I don't know, darkling.
“Darkling?”
“Darkling . . .”
Mortals were so odd.
“Shhh, Sara. Sleep a while yet; it is two hours or more before we leave.”
She nodded and reached out to touch him. Then her eyes fluttered open, green even in this light.
“Stefanos?”
“Sara.” He sat by her on the bed and pulled her into his arms. He tilted his head up slightly as her light wrapped itself gently around him.
“Is it already time?” She yawned, stretching her arms out awkwardly.
“Not yet.”
“Oh.”
“Did you accomplish your tasks during the day?”
She nodded sleepily. “Marcus will tend to the servants here while I'm gone.”
Always servantsâshe never called them slaves.
Happily she added, “He thinks Evan will probably be qualified as a doctor soon.”
He listened politely; Evan did not concern him.
Knowing this, she changed the subject. “Where are we going first?”
“Did you not read the itinerary I gave you?”
“I didn't understand it all. I haven't managed to master reading your impossible language just yet.”
“Ah. We go to Caras, to see the duke.”
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The duke of Caras had been seen. The duke of Redford had been seen. The duke of Alondale had been seen.
She shuddered quietly, pressing her head against the cold metal frame of the carriage window, striving to control the anger and the grief that those visits had caused her as she continued through her mental list.
The baron of Fellhearth had been seen. She remembered him clearly because of the particularly ghoulish way he had delighted in his naming of his granted lands. He was not Malanthiâone of perhaps three who were notâand he didn't know, couldn't know, who she truly was.
Her smile tightened momentarily. He did learn.
Stefanos. Why did you bring me here? Why do we have to keep on with this hideous tour?
“It is only for a little while longer, Sara,” he had said. “Only a few more weeks, and we shall return to Rennath.” The same words, always the same.
Rennath. Never before had the name seemed quite so welcome, quite so bright.
But why do I need toâ
This, too, memory answered. “You do not. But I, Sarillorn, I wish these men to meet you. I wish them to know who you are. Bear with my decision.”
And she had.
It helped to know that while she visited there were no ceremonies, that while she walked the various grounds, she could tend to those slaves that might need her help. But it also reminded her of all that she could not do, all that would continue happening to the helpless when she left.
A third month passed.
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She had been almost afraid to go. She remembered it clearly as she stepped out of the carriage for perhaps the twentieth time,
gathering the ostentatious skirts of yet another dress and holding them high above her laced “traveling” boots.
Stefanos aided her as she stepped down, and she gripped his hand firmly. Another nobleâBaron Tremayneâwas already bowed to the ground before the shadow of the Lord of the Empire.
Swirling around the velvet of his finery was a thin, red lineâanother Malanthi.
“Lord.”
“Baron Tremayne. You may rise.”
The man complied. He was not used to such displays of obeisance, and they suited him poorly; neither his dress, all fine, dark blue velvet with frills and lace, nor his girth allowed for grace. He turned to the guards arrayed at his back and nodded briefly.
“You grace my humble lands with your presence.”
“Indeed. ”
Watching, she caught the hint of cruel smile play around Stefanos's lips.
“Will you require rooms, Lord?”
“Yes. For myself, and for Lady Sara.”
Lady Sara grimaced and stepped forward. She could not bring herself to bow, but managed a polite nod.
“Lady Sara.” Baron Tremayne stepped forward, reached for her hand, and took a sudden step back as his blood-sight told him who he was dealing with. It didn't surprise her; she'd seen it played over and over again at each stop they had made. She wished that Stefanos had made clear what his visit would entailâand he had been quite adamant in his refusal to do so.
“They will learn at my leisure, Lady. And at yours.”
“Will you stop calling me âLady'? I don't want people to associate me with the nobility, not in these lands.”
“Do you not? I am sorry, little one. But nobility you
will
be, and of greater station than any of these can possibly hope to attain. They
will
respect you.”
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“Baron Tremayne,” she said softly. She couldn't help but smile as he struggled to control his reaction. Maybe a little of Stefanos's amusement had touched her as well. It was a light thought, but it drove the smile from her face.
The baron turned to stare at Stefanos, striving for respect amid his confusion.
This, too, she was familiar with.
She was glad that it was almost over. She longed for home.
Home?
She looked down at her feet.
Lady Sara, Sarillorn of Rennath.
Over the many months, these titles had become familiar.
She reached for Stefanos's hand.
He raised an eyebrow, but lent her his strength.
“May I show you to your rooms, Lord?”
“You may. Come, Lady.”
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Their quarters were not as grand as those that they shared in the palace, but they were luxuriously equipped; each piece of finely crafted furniture was dark and gleamed in the dim light. A slave might fetch a lesser price on the blocks. At least the baron had been given enough warning to manage thisâthis, and more.
In the corner of the room, hands behind her back, a young girl lay curled against the floor.
“I see that the rooms are already occupied.” Again the First of the Sundered gave a chilling smile.
Mistaking him, the Baron smiled in return. “Yes, Lord. You will find that she is quite suitable for your needs. I will send a detail to remove her after you are finished, should you require it.”
Lady Sara did not wait to hear Stefanos's reply. She ran across the room and knelt beside the child. Her pale hands touched pale hair very gently.
The girl looked up. Her face was tearstained and very white.
Nothing cut the lady more than this: the sudden widening of eyes and the resurgence of pure terror.
“Child, child,” she said, pulling the girl awkwardly into her lap. She sent out a finger of her power, placing it gently against the fear that she felt so strongly.
The child whimpered and suddenly pushed herself into the lady's arms.
“Shhh. It's all right, it's all right. I'm here now. I'll protect you.” Small shoulders strained against the chains that were now visible. A hint of blood around the wrists showed the strength of the young girl's panic. “I'll protect you. Shhhh.”
Bitterly she noted that aside from the chafing, the girl was uninjured. No one gave used goods to the Lord of the realm. Her anger caused her to tremble, even as the child did. She looked up and met the baron's eyes, her own green and flashing with a power he knew.
“Sara?” Stefanos said softly, ignoring the Baron's sudden stare.
“Please.”
He nodded quietly and walked over to where the two sat huddled.
The child tensed, and Sara stroked her hair with the green of her power. “It's all right. He's a friend. He'll help me take these chains away.”
The child quieted. Sara knew it was only because she hadn't the blood-sight that would strip Stefanos of human guise and identify him clearly. She saw only another man, another noble, albeit a tall one in black jacket, black shirt, and black pants. At least they were not the robes of the priesthood.
Stefanos touched the cool steel manacles and gestured with mild contempt. They snapped crisply and fell away. Sara pulled the child fully into her grasp and turned her away; she did not want her to see that the metal smoldered.
“Lord?”
Very slowly, Stefanos turned his head. “Yes?”
“I don't understand. Have I displeased you?”
“Displeased me?” He shrugged elegantly. “That is not your concern. You have displeased the Lady, however.” He smiled. “And the Lady chooses to grant her mercy here. Do you question this?”
“M-mercy?”
“Ah, but that is not mine to grant. Lady?”
“Not now,” she replied tersely. She pulled the child gently to her feet. “In fact, I think it best if you both continue your discussion elsewhere for a time.” Turning her back on them, she carried the girl to the large, regal bed.
“What is your name, child? ” she asked softly.
The girl was young, but not so young that she would answer that question when asked by a noble.
The baron, however, was unwise enough to answer for her.
“She's a slave,” he said, half-incredulous.
“Oh? ” Her voice was cool. “I wasn't aware that I was asking the question of you.”
His face darkened. He started to step forward and Stefanos caught him by the arm. Sara heard the baron's gasp of pain. She couldn't help it; she smiled almost viciously, an expression that vanished completely as she turned to speak with the child.
“My name is Lady Sara, but most people just call me Sara,
unless they happen to be nobility.” She grimaced with distaste at the word.
“I'm a slave,” the girl said cautiously. Sara smiled, encouraged. These were the first words the girl had spoken. She applied a little more of her power, but not too much; she would still have her tour of the house to make, and there were many, she was sure, that would require at least as much attention.
“I know,” she said. “But that isn't your fault.” The fear vanished under the weight of her power. “Do you want to go home?”
The child nodded.
“Well, then,” Lady Sara said, taking the child's hand. “If you think you can walk, I'll take you. What is your mother called by the other slaves?”
The child stood on her toes and whispered something. Sara nodded. She braced herself for the fear that would follow when she met the girl's parents; fear mingled with hate of the station that Stefanos had granted her.
Little fingers wrapped themselves suddenly around hers. It helped. She smiled down.
Without another word to the two who watched, she left the room.
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Stefanos helped her into the carriage. He watched as she waved her silent good-byes to the windows of the large mansion; watched in surprise and acceptance as those windows, ringed by slaves, acknowledged her passing. Hope he knew, and hope he saw in the faces that watched.