Inferno & The Good Girl:  (Brothers of Devils Comfort MC) (29 page)

Chapter 27

Waking,
I stretched my body to pull the kinks out of it. After a night with
Inferno, my body felt both satisfied and sore, even after this time.
As a lover, he was controlling, demanding and loving in the bedroom.
Outside of the bedroom, he could be just as demanding, stubborn and
loving. I know that the life he chose was not all roses and that he
can be violent, there have been times when I have witnessed this,
once at the barbeque, the other times, when he has come home with his
face or his hands battered. Hands that had only touched me with
kindness and gentleness, no matter how hard he fucked me, he never
hurt me physically. When we argued, he has never raised his hand to
me. In all of the time I have known him, he has never hurt Trax. He
always does his best, to visit his parents at least once a week, if
he cannot make it, he will ring them. I loved this man, my love
having changed from that of a young infatuated teenager to a fully
fledge heartbreaking love. The simple things he would do, like
massage my toes, give me a flower spontaneously or just a simple peck
on the cheek when he is passing or fuck me. Knowing that he always
knows where I am in a room, just as I know with him.

“
Your
deep in thought
”
he whispers, his
body stretched out next to mine as he tucks me into his arm, my head
resting on his shoulder.

“
I
love you
”

“
Move
in
”

My
body tenses, I do not know why I can
not
move in, I spend most of my time at his place, but I
am
not ready.

Tucking
the sheet under my arms, I sit up and throw my legs over the side of
the bed.

“
Not
yet
”
the moment and my morning
ruined.

“
Why
the fuck not
”

“
Because
I don
’
t want to spoil what we
’
ve
got
”

“
How
the hell can moving in, spoil what we have”

“
I
can
’
t just move in Inferno, I
’
ve
Tommy to think off, what my dad would say, if I just moved in with
you leaving Tommy behind, I
’
ve just
got custody of him
”

“
Tommy
can move in, he can have Trax
’
s room
”

Shaking
my head
“
No, I
’
m
not exposing Tommy to our sex life
”

“
Fuck
Baby Blu, you don
’
t think Tommy
doesn
’
t know where you are going on a
night or what you are doing. He
’
s a
fucking teenage boy, and I
’
ve left
plenty of marks on you
”

With
a sneer,
“
You know what they say.
“While you’re ……..”

“
Don
’
t
be vulgar
”
I scream at him both
annoyed and embarrassed at what he
’
s
just said, I
’
ve left plenty of my own
marks on his body, marks that have said I love you and that you are
mine, but never have I ever marked him where it would show.

“
Vulgar,
I haven
’
t even started to be vulgar,
how about this,
”
Inferno is getting
angry, it shows in his legs apart stance, the way his shoulders are
tense; His green eyes darkening, and the slight flare at the
nostril
“
Am I just your fuck toy
hey. Ok to fuck, but not good enough to live with
”

“
Don
’
t
say that, it’s not true!
”

“
Prove
it, move in with me,
”

“
I
don
’
t have to prove to you that I
love you just by moving in with you
”

“
You
know what Baby Blu, you’re too fucking immature. Always
keeping daddy as a safety net. Using Tommy as an excuse not to move
in
”

With
each word he says, my heart slow downs, and the tears build up at the
back of my throat, sniffing to try to prevent the tears from falling,
he
’
s hurting me and I never thought
he could.

“
I
’
m
not using Tommy as an excuse, it
’
s a
valid point. He
’
s at an
impressionable age, what would have happened if he
’
d
walked in on us last night
”

With
a look of disbelieve
“
What kind of
person do you fucking think I am. Tommy wouldn
’
t
have walked into anything like that, because we wouldn
’
t
have been fucking in the living area if he was in the house
”

“
That
’
s
easy for you to say, but there
’
s no
way, that you
’
ll curtail your sex
drive. You are constantly walking round with a hard on, feeling me up
at every opportunity you get. If we
were
not having sex, where would you be getting it? One of the club
whores!” my voice has started to get louder and louder, why
could he not just leave things the way they are?

“
You
don
’
t fucking trust me
”
as my voice has been getting louder, Inferno
’
s
was getting softer

“
It’s
not about trust
”
I try to explain to
him

“
Not
about trust
”
he interrupts me
“
Baby
Blu I
’
m thirty four, I
’
ve
had more pussy than I can remember
”

My
tears have now stopped and I
am
seething,
my blood is pulsation so loud, I think I
am
going to pass out.

“
Well
fucking bully for you and all the fucking pussy you
’
ve
had
”
I taunt him.

“
If
you
’
d shut you
’
re
fucking mouth and let me explain
”

“
Don
’
t
you fucking tell me to shut my fucking mouth?
”
I snarl at him.

“
Shit
Baby Blu, I
’
m sorry, what I
’
m
trying to say, is that I don
’
t want
or need other pussy now that I
’
ve had
yours. I had to wait along time for you baby, never too sure if you
would ever come back
”

“
Dante,
you like sex, you like variety, If you
’
re
not getting it at home, where will you get it from
”
I ask

“
What
makes you think I won’t be getting it from home?
”

“
Tommy,
the sex won’t be as wild as you enjoy it,
”
I tell him with my head down

DCMC

Walking
over to Baby Blu, I attempt to take her in my arms; I cannot believe
how insecure she is. To me she has always appeared to be confidant
and strong.

Taking
a step back from me, she raises her hand as if to keep me at bay.

“
No
don
’
t come near me and don
’
t
touch me
”
these words come softly and
scare me after the way she was shouting a moment ago.

“
Honey,
we
’
ll still be having wild sex, with
Tommy here, you
’
re still learning and
I
’
m more than happy to teach you. We
might not be able to do it in every room as we have been doing or be
as loud, fuck I
‘
ll introduce to the
ball gag if needed. There will also be times when Tommy wont be
here, like stopping over at your dad
‘
s
you know he loves him
”
I
’
m
using every argument I can think of , doing my best at being
reasonable, hoping that Baby Blu understands that she has nothing to
be scared. Trying another tactic

“
Baby
Blu, I have never lived with another woman, I’ve never asked
another woman to live with me, however I’m more than willing to
take the risk with you. I love you and I know this will work.

Baby
Blu shakes her head, sitting on the bed
“
It
won’t work Dante. You
’
re
saying all this now, it’s easy to say this, but in three, six
or even twelve months, you
’
ll start
to hate me and If not me Tommy for putting a curb on your sex life
”

Gathering
her hold all, Baby Blu heads for the bathroom. Not sure if I should
follow her or not, I sit on the bed, looking at the space where Baby
Blu had spent the night. Her personal scent and that of the sex we
had had reaches my nose and I inhale it deeply, scared that this will
be the last time that we are this close. With my head in my hands, I
try to stop the tears that I can feel gathering behind my eyes.
Listening to Baby Blu as she does her toiletries, getting ready to
go to work, leaving me early so she can go to her dad
’
s,
to check on him and Tommy. I know this could work. In so many ways
Baby Blu was still innocent, as much as I had corrupted her while she
was with me, she
is
still innocent. Tommy
would be fine living here, our sex life would not interfere with him,
he would not even be aware of it.

As
Baby Blu comes out of the bathroom, I straighten my back and lift my
head up.

“
Don
’
t
go, not yet, we need to get this sorted
”

Gathering
her clothing from the night before and stuffing them in her hold all.

“
There
’
s
nothing to say Dante, I
’
m not moving
in, I
’
m happy with the way things are
and I don
’
t understand way you can
’
t
be
”

For
the first time, I look around the bedroom, taking inventory of what
’
s
there, there
is
a photo of Trax, a comb
that I use, a few mementos from my youth, personal stuff belonging to
me. If I go to the wardrobe the only clothes that I
’
ll
find would be mine, the same with the drawers, none of Baby Blu
’
s
things would be in there mixed with mine or in a separate drawer that
she had commandeered, no spare toothbrush in the bathroom or female
toiletries. Apart from the shoes that I had bought and Baby Blu was
packing in to the hold all, there was nothing in this room, or in the
house that belonged to her, she has never left anything personal or
tried to change the décor. That should have been my clue that
she
had
not intended to move in with me.

My
heart was not broken it was shattered and I do not know if I will
ever recover from it.

Letting
her go was going to hurt, but I had too, she did not want to be here.

“
Go
Baby Blu
”

“
I
’
ll
see you tonight
”

Shaking
my head,
“
No, Baby Blu, if you
’
re
not willing to move in, then its over
”

Taking
a step back, clutching her hold all close, she looks up at me,
swallowing her own tears
“
No, it
doesn
’
t have to be like this
”

“
Yes
it does, I want you to be here full time, not sneaking off early in
the mornings or sneaking here late at night because you don
’
t
want to offend anyone. Well I find it offensive, just go Baby Blu,
it was nice knowing you and all that
”
tired from fighting something that was not there. Still sitting on
the bed, I listen as Baby Blu made her way down the stairs. Closing
the door quietly as she left,
“
Bye
Baby Blu
”
I whisper.

Standing
I look at the bed and strip it of the bed sheets, the ones that have
the sent of Baby Blu on them. Instead of putting them in the washer,
I roll them up and throw them in bin. Going back into the house, it
is deadly quiet, no trace of Baby Blu ever been here, nothing to show
that she had only left my house in the last half hour. The faint
smell of sex lingered and soon that would be gone.