In Bed with the Rockstar (With the Rockstar #2) (rockstar romance series) (9 page)

Go away, fly, feel free.

I won’t watch, you won’t care,
will you?

The heavy hand comes down.

Count once.

Count twice.

Count to three for the darkness.

The day becomes night without
the command of routine.

Just go and fly away. It’s what
we’re all meant to do.

.14.

Jessica sat on the bed, her body
still tingling from the feeling of Slader inside her. When she had woken and
saw him recording, playing, being the rockstar he was, she realized that he was
a man so dark and deep with pain it would take a lifetime to figure him out. A
lifetime she was willing to give and a lifetime she was willing to share.

But now he stared at her with an
empty set of eyes.

“I needed you here,” Slader said.
“I needed you to trust me and I needed to know the truth.”

“You read my messages,” Jessica
said. “You wanted to know how I felt... so you found out.”

“You’re hurt,” Slader said. “You’re
mad at me. You feel I’m not good enough.”

“Nobody said such words,” Jessica
said. “You’re making things up.”

“Then what is it, Jessica? What is
it you see?”

Jessica looked at Slader. What did
she see? Someone so powerful, so beautiful. Someone so heartbreaking yet
heartbroken. Someone so hidden.

“What’s it like then?” Jessica
asked. “The life. All the stuff that happens...”

“Are you talking about music?”

“Not just the music,” Jessica said.
“But the life. The rooms with the parties. The drinking. The drugs. The women.”

“That’s your interest?”

“I didn’t say that. I’m asking you.
I want to know everything, Slader.”

“I create to give life to those who
don’t have life,” Slader said. “I touch you Jessica to make sure you’re alive
and so am I. But it doesn’t seem to feel that way right now. You’re questioning
everything which, in turn, is questioning my trust. Our trust.”

“I found the cell phone, Slader,”
Jessica said. “What am I supposed to do?”

Slader put his head back and let
out a growl. “This is why... this is how it happens. They take us apart,
Jessica. They tear at us. They hurt us. They want us to walk away.”

“Who is they?” Jessica asked.

“The fucking world,” Slader said.
“And if that’s what it wants... then leave me... leave me again...”

Slader backed up to the door and
opened it. He stood and stared at Jessica. She moved from the bed to her feet.
Each step she took became a defining moment. In her heart she felt it. Her
feelings for Slader were love, but to take on a billionaire rockstar, to take
on all this...

“You want me to leave?” Jessica
asked.

“The world does,” Slader said. “So,
fine. It can win one. I can suffer again. I’ll create and wait for death.”

Jessica walked to the door. Her
intentions weren’t to leave. She could never leave Slader. She could stay and
push him. She could stay and submit to him over and over.

“Wait,” Slader whispered.

He took Jessica’s left hand and
placed it to his chest.

“You go this time,” Slader said,
“you’re taking this with you...” Slader curled Jessica’s fingers at his chest,
right over his heart. “I don’t need it without you.”

Jessica felt herself starting to
shake as she stared at Slader. She didn’t want his heart ripped from his chest.
She wanted his heart presented to her with the care they both deserved.

“I’ll come with you,” Jessica said.

“Where?”

“Wherever we need to go. If the
world is going to try to tear us apart then we’ll just be together anyway.”

“It’s not always that easy.”

“Yes it is,” Jessica said. “I’ll be
right there. On your tours. At your shows. Before and after.”

“You want to be my groupie?” Slader
asked.

His eyes were deep and serious.
There was no look of emotion. No love. No lust. Nothing.

“Yes,” Jessica said. “I’ll be your
groupie then. I’ll be anything you want me to be for your shows. I’m pretty
sure I’m fired from my job anyway. So I need work. I need a job. I’m desperate,
Slader. For you.”

“You know rockstars don’t just have
one groupie,” Slader said.

Jessica felt her heart ache. She
would never expect to share Slader, but then again she didn’t have him. She had
the rockstar standing before her. Something was better than nothing sometimes.

“I don’t care,” Jessica said. “I’ll
fight the world with you, Slader. I’ll trust you with my body, my heart, and
even my soul. If that’s what you want.”

“It’s what I need,” Slader
whispered.

“Your needs are my needs,” Jessica
said. “My life is now yours.”

Silence came again as his eyes
burned into Jessica. Gone was the intense look of Alex Slader. He was
suffering, more than Jessica could understand. But she would be there, right
there, with him until it all came out. Even if it meant hurting her in the
process. Because just touch alone of Slader was worth all the pain in the
world.

“What comes next?” Jessica asked.

“We leave here,” Slader said. “It’s
time to play shows and see the fans. To see those who are dying to see me. To
give them what they all desire. For those who waited to see me today that
didn’t. For the woman who waited for me... you should have seen her, Jessica.
So desperate and hopeless, almost like you. Maybe she’ll be at another show.
Maybe you’ll meet her.”

Jessica swallowed more pain and
more jealousy. She was now a groupie for Alex Slader. This was where feelings
were kept in the dark and life was lived loud.

Jessica managed to collect herself,
and after a deep breath, she walked by Salder. “Let’s go right now.”

Don’t miss the next book in the
With
the Rockstar
series –
A Groupie with the Rockstar

Jessica is once again unemployed.
Fired from the magazine and not allowed to be ‘with’ Alex Slader, she takes the
next best job... she becomes a groupie for Alex Slader. But being a groupie
means seeing things and doing things she never thought possible. Things only
get worse when her roommate – Carrie – begins to show up and treaten the strong
feelings Jessica has for Alex Slader.

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First electronic edition October 2013

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