I said, “How about I take the light apart? You can stow it with your gear. These things are a lot more expensive then you might thinkâ”
The former president was shaking his head even before I finished. “On a trip that's so personally important, is that our most secure option? I don't think Tomlinson's going to be shocked to hear that, in certain circles, you're considered a security expert of sorts. So I'll leave the decision up to you, Doc. Your call.”
In only a couple of sentences, the man had voiced his unquestioned respect for my integrity and deferred to my superior knowledge and judgment.
Damn.
“Marion, your behavior is so predictable.” Tomlinson said. “You're clinging, man. Material objects. Money. The sutras tell us that all suffering is rooted in selfish grasping. To experience reality, we must first divest ourselves of delusion.” He was using his Buddha voiceâthe gentle, all-knowing tone he uses with his students, and, at times, to intentionally piss me off.
I held up a warning hand. “Okay. Enough. No more of your ping-pong Zen speeches. I'd rather throw the damn thing overboard than have to listen.” And I didâflipped the flashlight over my shoulder. Didn't even turn to see it hit the water.
Tomlinson had both feet on the wheel, hands folded behind his head. He leaned and gave me a brotherly rap on the arm. “Sam? Doc's the sort of guy who, if I pointed at a meteorite, he'd study my finger.
Seriously.
Meditation frees us.”
Wilson said, “Really? You're free of greed and delusion, huh? We'll see.” He had returned to the companionway, talking to Tomlinson as he went down the steps.
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WHEN THE PRESIDENT REAPPEARED, HE WAS CARRYING Tomlinson's leather briefcase, timing the sailboat's movement before he took his seat. The man was careful about getting banged around, I'd noticed.
“You stowed this in the bulkhead locker. The briefcase was open, so you're obviously not trying to conceal anything.” Wilson removed a laptop computer, then a palm-sized wafer of white plasticâan iPod.
Tomlinson was suddenly sitting up straight, watching. “Careful there, man. If we take some spray, salt water could ruin the circuitry.”
“I'm aware of that. Question is, why are these things aboard?”
“Because this is my home, man. Don't you have a computer at home?
Everybody
has a computer at home. Where else would I keep it?”
“I told you several times that I had to personally okay all electronics.”
“Yeah. But you meant navigational gear. Radios, radar, my sonarâthat kinda stuff. The bullshit twenty-first-century baggage no real sailor needs. I got rid of that crap. We're simpatico on the subjectâ”
Wilson was shaking his head. “Apparently not. I hate to force the issue, but this equipment has to go.”
Tomlinson was twitching, tugging at his hair. “My
computer
? Sam . . . you can't be serious.”
“I'll give you time to back up your files.”
“You mean . . . throw it overboard?”
Wilson nodded.
“But it's a
MacBook,
Sam! It's not some IBM clone piece of garbage. We're discussing an engineering work of art.”
Wilson remained stoic.
“
And
my iPod?” The president didn't resist when Tomlinson reached, took the device, and held it lovingly. “This is my personal
music system.
I've got, like, my entire vinyl collection stored here. Jimi Hendrix outtakes from the Berkeley rally. Cream's last concert. The actual tape from the
Rolling Stone
interview with Timothy Leary!
“Sam, please”âI'd never heard Tomlinson beg beforeâ“this is history, man. Think of what you're doing. You . . . you need to
shallow up,
Sam.”
The president said, “Sorry,” his voice flat.
Tomlinson leaned forward and touched my sleeve. “Docâtalk to him. Aren't there some basic safety issues involved here? He's asking me to sail to Key West without music
or
smoking a joint? Why, it's . . .
insane.
I've never tried anything so crazy. Say
something, compadre
.”
I was watching Wilson open the laptopâsurprise, surprise. Tomlinson's screen saver was a photo of Marlissa Kay Engle, actress and musician. She was wearing a red bikini bottom, nothing else, smiling at the camera from a familiar setting. The woman I'd been dating was topless on the sun-drenched foredeck of my best friend's boat.
Wilson said, “I admire your taste, but your judgment is questionable.”
“But it's only two months old. A MacBook with a SuperDrive, four gigs of memory, and the built-in video eye. You can't be serious!”
I studied the computer screen long enough to be sure of what I was seeing, then looked at Tomlinson, whose expression had changed. “Doc. I can explain.”
I interrupted. “You're clinging, man. Don't graspâit's the root of all suffering. You're hung up on possessions . . .
man
.” To Wilson I said, “Give me the goddamn computer.
I'll
throw it over.”
Wilson closed the laptop, cutting us both off. “You take the helm, Dr. Ford. Mr. Tomlinson, go below and back up your data. Then deep-six this contraband.”
As the president went down the companionway steps, Tomlinson sounded near tears. “But these are
Apple
products, Sam.”
I nudged him away from the sailboat's wheel, saying, “You need to deepen up, pal.”
12
Two hours before midnight, the president said, “I didn't anticipate our friend Tomlinson disappearing. So I've got to confide in you. We have to be in Central America in three days. By the afternoon of November fifth.”
Tomlinson hadn't disappeared. As I had explained to Wilson, we were in
Key West.
The man was out having fun, not hiding.
Even so, we were walking the streets, searching.
I said, “By âCentral America,' you mean Panama? Or Nicaragua?” He didn't reply for several seconds, so I made another guess. “You're going there to kill the person who murdered your wife.”
He walked half a block before saying, “No.
You're
going to kill him.” His voice low. “If you have moral reservations, tell me now.”
I turned my attention to the tangled limbs of a ficus tree, where bats dragged a fluttering light into shadows. “November's nice in Central America. Rainy season's ending, but tarpon are still in the rivers.”
“Is that an answer?”
I looked at the man long enough for him to know it was.
“Then we don't have time to waste. Why the hell would he do something so crazy?”
“There's nothing crazy about Tomlinson disappearing in Key West,” I said again. “The only reason he doesn't live here is because he knows it would kill him.”
We'd anchored off Christmas Island, Key West Bight, at 5:30 p.m. An hour later, Tomlinson vanished into the sunset carnival of Mallory Square while I chatted with my friend Ray Jason, who juggles chain saws when he's not captaining boats.
It was Ray who reminded me that Fantasy Fest had just ended, a weeklong celebration of weirdness. A dangerous time to lose Tomlinson on the island because the party's wounded and demented were still roaming the streets.
Tomlinson was visible one moment, laughing with a couple of bikers and a woman dressed as a Conehead. Next moment, all four were gone. I didn't see him all evening, and he wasn't aboard
No Más
when I returned at 8:30 to ferry the president ashore.
Wilson thought it would be safe to spend an hour after dark reacquainting himself with Key West. He was peeved that he had to spend the time searching.
“Is he still mad about dumping his computer?”
“Giving him orders on his own boat? Sure, and I don't blame him. But he's too good-natured to be spiteful, and he's too much of a sailor to miss a tide.”
Wilson had told us to be up and ready to leave at 6 a.m. Water turned early in Northwest Channel.
We were walking Caroline Street, blue-water fishing boats to our right, lights reflecting off docks, showing masts of wooden ships. People roaming, tourists, bikers, Buckeyes, hip rockers and old hempsters, their faces cured like hams, browned by sun, salt, nicotine.
“He might be around here. These are his people.”
Wilson stopped. “I hope you're right. We only have”âhe squinted at his wristâ“a little more than seven hours.”
“Unless there's something I don't know,” I told him, “leaving an hour or two later won't make any difference. Channels here are a lot more forgiving than Sanibel.”
“There's
a lot
you don't know,” he answered.
We were back at Key West Bight after making the big loop around the island in cab and on foot. The president was wearing a Hemingway fishing cap, a goatee, and a camera hung around his neck. That was my ideaâin a tourist town, a camera's the perfect mask. He could shield his face anytime he wanted.
Even so, he'd waited outside in the shadows while I hit Tomlinson's favorite bars: the Bottle Cap, the Green Parrot, La Concha, the VFW, Louie's. Tomlinson spent so much time in Key West, locals considered him family, so bartenders may have been protecting him when they said he hadn't been around.
The good news was, the bars had televisions, and networks weren't abuzz with news of a missing president.
At Margaret Street, we stopped in a circle of streetlight. The doors of Caroline Music were open: grand pianos glistening in sea air; guitars, horns, harps suspended from the ceiling as if buoyed by some composer's helium-laced fantasy. We crossed to the Turtle Kraals where dinghies were tied like ponies, ours among them. I said, “I'll run you out to
No Más,
then come back for Tomlinson. But let's talk first.”
“You sound worried. Having a change of heart?”
“Maybe.”
“Because what we're doing is dangerous?”
“Yes.”
“Crazy?”
“
Yes
. âCrazy' is what the press is going to call you if we get caught. Is it worth it? Think of what you're risking. Your legacy. The prestige of the office.”
Wilson's eyes caught mine as we walked onto the dock. They were measuring. I'd hit his most vulnerable spot with accuracyâthe man's reverence for the presidency.
“You're sharp. The office is bigger than all the men who've ever held it combined. But there's more at stake than you know.”
“You told me getting even was for amateurs. You wanted revenge.”
“Yes, but I'll say it one more time: There's more at stake than you know.”
He was talking about the Panama Canal. I felt sure now but didn't ask. With Wilson, every bit of data was a bargaining chip.
“If we sail in the morning, there are people I need to contact before we leave. Discreetly. People I trust.”
“By telephone?”
I said, “Yes,” I said, lying because I was embarrassed. All my contact information had been stored in the cell phone I'd left behind. Worse, I'd even forgotten the numbers of people I call regularly because of one-touch speed dialing.
Operator assistance was no helpâmost people rely on cell phones and the numbers aren't listed. Not entirely a bad thing. I would've been tempted to call Marlissa Engleâif I could've found a pay phone that worked. Which I couldn't.
“I need to get to an Internet café,” I told Wilson. “But first, you have to trust me with details.”
“Impossible. I've already told you too much. The more you know, the more danger you're in. To paraphrase Andrew Jackson, âIf I'm shot at, I don't want another man in the way of the bullet.' ”
I said, “Here's a quote that might change your mind: âI not only use all the brains I have, but all the brains I can borrow.' Woodrow Wilson, twenty-eighth president. I'm offering you a loan.”
He chuckled, then sobered. “There are historians who say if my brilliant relative had confronted Germany in 1914, instead of signing a Declaration of Neutrality, there would've been no war.”
I said, “What do you think?”
“I'll answer that with another Wilson quote: âPoliticians use history to rationalize confrontation, religion to explain restraint, and academia to justify cowardice.'”
Because Woodrow Wilson was an academic, I asked, “Why would he say something like that?”
“He didn't.
I
didâafter Wray was killed. I'm no academic.” He looked at me. “Andrew Jackson did something no other American president had before or since. Any ideas?”
“No.”
“He killed a man, face-to-face. Called the guy out, slapped him, and challenged him to a duel. The guy accepted, and Jackson shot him deadâa man who insulted his wife.”
“Old West justice. Part of our history.”
Wilson replied, “Being part of history is easy. Changing historyâthat's risky. Woodrow Wilson signed the Declaration of Neutrality
after
the assassination of Archduke Ferdinand. Ferdinand's murderâone bulletâstarted the war.”
“Could he have stopped it?”
The president said, “Maybe. With a second bullet.” Even through the tinted glasses, I could feel the intensity of his eyes.
“Ferdinand was an Austrian blueblood. The Serb who killed him was a bumbling kid. Nobodies. But, because of legally binding pacts, world powers were obligated to mobilize their armies. They depended on the legal machinery of the time as protection. Instead, it led them off a cliff, one country linked to another. Like blind horses.”