Authors: Nora Roberts
“He's Biff.” Not quite as outgoing as Carly, Livvy clung to her mother's hand. “He likes his belly rubbed.”
Carly beamed and obliged the now ecstatic Biff. “There're beds downstairs and tables, and a kitchen and a bathroom and everything. Do you want to see?”
“I've seen it before.”
“Let's go see it again. With Biff.”
Livvy looked up at her mother. “I guess so.”
“Those are pretty shoes,” Carly said as they started down. “Maybe I can try them on. You can try mine on, too.
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It was an experience, Phoebe thought, to motor away from the dock, steam and slip through the water with the little girls fused together at the stern, and the not-so-dignified dog sitting on the starboard bench with his funny face lifted to the air.
But it was nothing to the moment when the white sails rose and filled with wind. Like the dog, Phoebe lifted her face.
“Mimosas,” Loo announced, and offered a glass as she sat beside Phoebe.
“Oh God. This must be heaven. Are we going to have to jib or hoist or some other salty term?”
“Only if the spirit moves. Phin doesn't know what the hell he's doing unless Duncan tells him, but he likes to pretend he does.” She smiled over at the men. “But he's game. Me, I tried to talk Dunc into a motorboatâcabin cruiser. But he just had to have sails.” She drew in a long breath, stretched out incredibly long legs. “Hard to argue at times like this.”
“You've known him a long time.”
“Known him, been crazy about him. So if you screw with him, I'll find a way to hurt you. Other than that, we'll be fine.”
“Do people often screw with him?”
“Not many, not often. He's got excellent radar. There was a woman a few years back cruised under that radar. Butter wouldn't melt.” Loo sipped her mimosa. “I couldn't stand her. But Dunc, he was fond, and she was clever with her hard-luck stories. She got a few thousand out of him before she blipped for him.”
“What did he do about her?”
Loo flicked her middle finger against her thumb. “He's an easygoing sort, but he has a low tolerance for lies.”
“Are you warning me, Loo?”
“Irritated. Good. Makes me like you more, which I already do. And I like your little girl. I saw your press conference yesterday.” Loo lifted her eyebrows as Phoebe's face went cool and blank. “Let me start off saying things aren't black and white for me. First, I'm a lawyer, so I live in the gray. Second, that man up there with mine is familyâand I do believe he's white. And last, I thought you handled yourself very well in what's a very difficult, even delicate situation. That's all I wanted to say about that. Those are pretty shoes,” Loo commented with a nod toward Phoebe's sandals. “Maybe I could try them on.”
With a laugh, Phoebe relaxed and enjoyed the ride.
They had lunch on the lake, and splashed and swam in it. Carly was given the thrill of her life with a turn at the tiller.
“Having fun?” Duncan asked when Phoebe joined him at the bow.
“It's going down as the best day of my life in recent memory.”
“We can extend it. Cruise over to my place. We can wear Carly out, tuck her up somewhere, tuck ourselves up somewhere else.”
“What about Biff and company?”
“I'll just toss them all overboard.” He leaned down to kiss her laughing mouth. “Say the word.”
“The word is I like your friends too much to toss them.”
“I was afraid of that.”
“But I will be inviting you in for drinks in the courtyard when you escort us home.”
“I'll be accepting. Listen⦔ He cupped his hand at the back of her neck and let his kiss shimmer out.
“What?” Phoebe managed.
“Not a thing.”
“Why do people close their eyes when they kiss?” Carly demanded, and Phoebe turned to see her daughter studying her with considerable interest.
“I don't know.” Duncan frowned thoughtfully. “Let's try it the other way.” Eyes open and amused, he pulled Phoebe back for another kiss. “It's good that way, too.”
“Mama says she's too old for boyfriends.”
“Carlyâ”
“What do you think?” Duncan asked, interrupting Phoebe's protest.
“I think if you're going to be taking her on dates and kissing her all the time, you should be her boyfriend. And Ava told Grandma it's good Mama's getting some romance becauseâ”
“Carly go get yourself one of those cookies, or something else to put in your mouth.”
“You said I had enough cookies.”
“I changed my mind.”
“That's about enough snickering over there,” Phoebe said, waving a hand toward Phin and Loo. And over here, too,” she added to Duncan.
“Are we having some romance?” he asked her. He grabbed her, dropped her into a romance-novel dip. “Let's have some more.”
Phin's wolf whistle joined the buzzing in her ears before she could struggle her way up again. “I think that's about all the romance I can handle in a public forum. I'm going to go have another cookie.”
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Romance, she thought after she'd given Duncan a final kiss good night. That was more complicated than an affair, no question about it. But it was foolish to pretend a romance wasn't what she was having. And enjoying.
So she wasn't going to pick it apart or second-guess it. She was just going to keep enjoying it for as long as it lasted.
She undressed, thinking how wonderful a shower would feel after a day on the water. When her phone rang, she half-expected it would be Duncan, calling her minutes after he left to tell her something to make her laugh.
The display on the Caller ID had her stomach sinking. “Hello, Roy.”
Less than ten minutes later she was stalking downstairs and grabbing a half gallon of cookie dough ice cream from the freezer.
Essie walked in as Phoebe scooped it straight out of the carton and into her mouth. “Oh! You had a fight with Duncan.”
“I didn't have a fight with Duncan. I didn't have a fight with anyone. I wanted some damn ice cream.”
“Mind that tone,” Essie warned with steel in her voice. “You only eat ice cream that way when you're upset. Duncan's barely out the door, soâ”
“I said I didn't have a fight with Duncan. Duncan's not the center of my universe. I don't make men the center of my universe and I'm not about to⦔ She heard herself, could nearly see the nasty edge to the words slicing out like little shards of broken glass.
“I'm sorry. I am upset.” She dropped down at the table, dug out more ice cream. “I haven't got enough of this in me yet to calm down or get good and sick, and not take it out on someone else.”
Essie walked to the drawer, got out another spoon. She sat, spooned some ice cream out of the carton for herself. “What happened?”
“Roy called. He's getting married again.”
“Oh.” Essie took a second, bigger spoonful. “To anyone we know? So we know where to send our condolences?”
“Thanks, Mama. He's getting married to someone named Mizzy. Can you believe that? She's twenty-four.”
“A bimbo, no doubt about it. Poor thing.”
“The bimbo comes from money, and they're moving to Cannes, or maybe it was Marseilles. My ears started ringing by that point. Her family has
interests
there he's going to help run. And he tells me all this as he doesn't want my panties in a twist if the next couple child support checks are a bit late. Due to changing his location and banking and so on.”
“He's always been timely with that anyway.”
“Yes, because it's an automatic withdrawal from his account, so he doesn't even have to think of it. Of her.” It wasn't rage anymore in her voice, on her face. It was grief. “He never even asked about her, Mama. He never asked how she was, never thought to suggest he might tell his daughter himself, or invite her to the wedding.”
“She wouldn't go. And, baby girl, you wouldn't like it if she did.”
“That's beside the point. It
is.
And I know I'm getting upset over something that isn't any different than it was, really. Except the son of a bitch is marrying someone almost ten years younger than me, named Mizzy, and his daughter isn't even an afterthought.”
“What was it my grandmother used to say? A skunk doesn't change its stink. It's a little crude, but it fits. His life's about as deep as a puddle of spitâand that's crude, too. She won't care, Phoebe. Roy isn't so much as a bump against Carly's heart. You shouldn't let him be one against yours.”
“You're right. I know you're right. She never had enough of him to miss any of it.”
“But you did.”
“I had the illusion.” Phoebe scraped more ice cream from carton to spoon, studied it. Ate it. “Maybe that's worse. He can't help being what he is. Even if what he is is a goddamn skunk. Thanks.”
Roy wasn't worth even her anger, Phoebe told herself as she went upstairs to shower. But the phone call had reminded her why romance was a slippery slope. Better, much better, to keep it all up front, keep it all simple. So no one got hurt.
It might be time to slow things down just a little with Duncan. She'd already made another date with him while the dream of the day had been on her. But that was fine. She'd just explain to him that she wasn't looking for anything more than friendship, companionship and sex.
What man could argue with that?
By her request,
Phoebe received notification when Charles Johnson's body was cleared for release. Noting the information, she contacted the funeral home regarding viewings.
Controversy and public debate aside, she needed to pay her respects. She could do so discreetly, and briefly. It meant canceling her date with Duncan, but that might be for the best.
A little cooling-off time there, she decided. A little stop-and-think-it-through.
She made the call, and though it was cowardly, felt a trickle of relief when she got his voice mail.
“Duncan, it's Phoebe. I have to cancel tonight, sorry. Something came⦔ Not fair, she reminded herself. He'd done nothing to deserve the “something came up” brush-off. “Actually, they're holding a viewing for Charlie Johnson tonight, and I need to go. So I'll need a rain check. We'll talk later, all right? I'm just about on my way to a meeting.”
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Ass-covering was de rigueur, and Phoebe couldn't fault the department for going into circle-the-wagon mode. Or, she supposed, for looking for a reasonable scapegoat. She was fully prepared to defend her own actions and methods, if and when. She sat through the meeting with the crisis team, the chief and the representatives from IAB.
Questions were asked and answered. Her log was displayed, the situation tape replayed. She listened to her voice, to Commander Harrison's, to Charlie's and Opal's, to the relays between her or the second negotiator and command, from command to members of the tactical team.
“Lieutenant Mac Namara clearly related the information that the HT agreed to surrender, was coming out unarmed. That information was received and acknowledged.” The chief lifted his hands. “There was no breakdown in communications. The tactical commander did not give the go, and the shots were not fired by any authorized member of the department.”
He paused. “The shots were fired from a weaponârecoveredânot issued to any member of the crisis team, from a position where no member of said team was posted. Known members of the rival gang live in the building from where the shots issued, other known or suspected members reside inside the perimeter set during the crisis. These are facts. But there's another. The perimeter was breached. And from that fact come more questions. Who and how and when? The breech opens the department up to criticism and speculation, and potentially to civil suits.”
“The who is being investigated,” Harrison began. He was a tough-looking man of considerable presence, with a deep basso designed for giving orders. “Every known gang member of the Lords and the Posse is being interrogated. It's a long process, sir.”
“The how?” The chief looked directly at the tactical commander.
“The building was cleared in a floor-by-floor sweep.” Harrison got to his feet, stepped over to the diagram. “A three-man team entered the building here. Civilians were evacuated and moved outside the barricades. While this location wasn't optimum for coverage of the hostage scene, members were posted on the roof and at this third-floor post. Other members were posted in the building directly south, as this location afforded the best visual of the liquor store from the front. Others were posted here, to cover the back. Here, the sides.
“Each building was cleared, or thought to be cleared, and the perimeters set and posted. There were disturbances here and here during the negotiations. Heckling and threats from some onlookers. And here, a physical altercation between local residents.”
He straightened stiffly as he turned. “It's possible that someone slipped through during the incendiary first stage. More likely, in my opinion, someone already inside the building slipped into the vacated apartment and set up his sniper's nest. The team's objective was to get civilians to safety quickly. It's not possible in these circumstances to spread the team thin enough to check every closet, under every bed. If someone was determined to evade detection, they could and would.”
“Someone armed with an AK-47?”
Harrison's mouth tightened. “Yes, sir, as was the case.”
“Chief.” Phoebe caught Dave's frown when she interrupted. “You said the questions were how, who, when. Respectfully, I think a vital question is why. We can speculate, given the gang violence, the weapon used, the fact that its serial number was filed off, a memberâor sympathizerâof the east side Lords is responsible. But I've been back to the scene, and I stood in the window where those shots were fired. I've looked at the diagrams, read the reports, replayed the coms.”
“As have I,” the chief reminded her.
“Then you're aware, sir, there were dozens of police officers and personnel outside at any given time during those hours. Officers and personnel in the open from the angle of the sniper's nest. Yet none of them was fired on. When Johnson was shot, not a single police officer was hit. Nearly every bullet went into Charles Johnson. I believe any of our tactical team would agree that's some damn fine shooting.”
“Knew what he was doing,” Harrison agreed, meeting Phoebe's questioning glance.
“As a negotiator, as someone who studies and deals with human behavior, I have to say it's also some superior control.
“Why kill Charles Johnson?” she continued. “He was low rung in the Posse.”
“He'd made a stink on their turf,” the chief pointed out. “He was demanding their captain be brought to him. It's disrespect.”
“Agreed. Agreed. So maybe one or more of them would try to take him down, try to make an example of him. But if one of them was already in the building, or otherwise breached itâarmedâit also strikes as solid forethought. Planning, sir, not just a lucky opportunity.”
“A conspiracy theory, Lieutenant?”
She could hear the weariness in the chief's voice. He was more politician than cop, Phoebe knewâand politicians don't care for conspiracies. “Just speculation that there are other possibilities. Johnson may have been set up, goaded into going there. Someone outside either gang may have seen this incident as an opportunity to create chaos and dissent. Orâ”
She broke off when the chief raised a hand. “Lieutenant, we're trying to defuse a powder keg, not add fuel. There are a lot of questions to be answered. For now, the most important apply to our own responsibility. The logs, transcripts, statements and coms show that you upheld yours. Now.” He turned back to the crisis commander. “When the gunfire occurred⦔
After the meeting, Phoebe went down to the firing range to work off some frustration. She set the target, put on her ear protectors and fired a clip.
Then could only sigh at her scores. She set again, fired again.
“You've always been a crappy shot.”
Reviewing her grouping on the target, ear protectors lowered, Phoebe shrugged at Dave. “Extremely crappy. I don't practice enough.”
“A good negotiator's rarely going to have to draw, much less discharge, a weapon. Not when she listens and talks as well as you do. Which is whyâsince you doâI wonder what you were doing up there in that meeting.”
“Asking questions like someone taught me. Trying to make sure the focus isn't so narrow we miss what may be outside the blinders. I don't understand what happened out there, and I can't just swallow the easy solution.”
“Has it occurred to you that you don't understand, and you can't swallow, because you did what you were supposed to do? You talked him down, talked him out. And you still lost him. You've been doing this long enough to know what an impact losing one has.”
As he spoke, he set himself up with a fresh target. Once he'd fired his clip, he and Phoebe studied his results together. “You're a crappy shot, too.”
“Yeah, but you're still crappier. How have you been sleeping?”
“Spotty. I know the signs, Dave. And yes, I have some of the classicsâI feel let down, stressed, restless, irritable. But I
know
it, and I know why. What I don't know is why that boy's dead. That's the reason I spoke up in the meeting.”
“Phoebe, the chief isn't what we'd call a creative thinker. He's more politician than copâ”
“I thought the same thing when we were up there. I guess we share more than crappy shooting.”
He let out a half laugh, rubbed her shoulder. “Well, believe me, he's more concerned now with public relations and the possibility of civil liability than why a sixteen-year-old gangbanger's dead.”
“You have ambitions for me.” She loaded another clip. “I know that, too, Dave. I appreciate it.”
“If I've got a legacy, it's you and Carter.” Someone fired down the line, and the sound was harsh in contrast to his quiet voice. “When I'm ready to turn in my papers, I want to know you're taking my desk.”
He'd wanted children; his wife hadn't. Though he'd never told her, Phoebe knew it because she knew him. So she and Carter were his. “You're worried if I speak up too often and don't say what the brass wants to hear, I'm shooting myself in the foot. Which is something I believe I could manage in the literal sense as it's fairly close range.”
“The chief wants this put to bed. If he has to sacrifice Harrison in the public arena, he will. He'd sacrifice you, but there're no grounds. The simple fact is, Phoebe, logic and circumstances strongly support the idea that this was gang-related. A crime of opportunity and turf. That's the drum that's going to be beat.”
“Maybe someone should listen to what's under the drum.” She lifted her weapon again and fired.
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Stupid, Phoebe thought later. Stupid to push and prod where the only result was going to be annoyance to all parties. Politics and public relations were going to play this out, she reminded herself as she changed into a gray suitâblack seemed too presumptuous somehow.
She had nothing to add to the mix that wasn't already on record. Except for a few minutes before she'd taken over negotiations, and that horrible aftermath, she'd been inside the diner.
Nobody liked a Monday-morning quarterback, she told herself.
She would go to Charles Johnson's viewing, then she would have to put it away. No comment, she promised herself, unless the department directed otherwise. What more did she have to say, in any case?
She pinned her hair back. Nothing would sober the color, she mused, but the style seemed more respectful than loose.
She stepped into the family parlor. Her mother was crocheting in front of the TV, and Carly was sprawled on the floor paging through a picture book. Puppies, Phoebe realized with a little sink in the belly.
“I'm heading out now. I shouldn't be more than an hour.”
“Mama! Wait, Mama, look! Aren't they cute?”
Carly scrambled up to hold out the book. The page was full of irresistible balls of fur and adorability. “They are, sweetie. They couldn't be cuter. But they also need to be fed and watered and walked, and cleaned up after, and trained, andâ”
“But you said someday we could get a puppy.”
“I said
maybe
someday.” And only after she'd been worn down to a nub by pleading glances from those big blue eyes. “And I'm just not sure it's someday yet. I can't talk about it now because I have to go. And this isn't going to be just my decision. I'm at work all day and you're in school, so I need to discuss this with Gran and Ava before we get close to thinking about it. Where is Ava?”
“Book club.” Essie gave Phoebe a puzzled look. “She mentioned it at dinner.”
“Oh, of course she did. Slipped my mind.” No, Phoebe admitted. She hadn't heard a word anyone had said at dinner. Apparently she hadn't just stopped active listening but listening at all. Time to pull it back together. “You be good for Gran.” Phoebe bent to kiss the top of Carly's head. “I'll be back before long.”
As she walked out she heard Carly using her slyest, most sugarcoated tone. “Gran, you like puppies, don't you?”
It should've been funny. She wished she could see it as funny. But all she could think about as she headed downstairs was that Carly was going to manipulate the other two adults in the house until they ended up with some shoe-chewing, puddle-making, middle-of-the-night-whimpering canine.
She
liked
dogs, damn it. But she just wasn't ready to take on another responsibility.
She knew Ava planned to take her son on a trip out West this summer. She deserved it, absolutely. And it meant ten days where there was no one around to run to the store, the bank, the dry cleaner's, to haul Carly, to
do
all the endless errands.
She already had an active seven-year-old and an agoraphobic to tend to. Phoebe didn't think it made her a heartless monster not to want to add a puppy to the mix.
But, of course, she felt like one, so when she opened the front door to go out, her scowl was already full-blown.
Duncan came up the last step to the portico. “That's timing.”
“What are you doing here? You didn't get my message? I'm sorry, butâ”
“No, I got it. I'm going with you.”
“To the funeral home?” Shaking her head, she closed the door firmly behind her. “No, you're not. Why should you? You didn't know him.”
“I know you, and you shouldn't go alone. Why should you?”
“I'm perfectly capable.”
“A reason you could, but not why you should. If it irritates you so much to have me along, you'll just have to pretend I'm not there. You don't go into something like this by yourself. That's stupid, and you're not.”
Phoebe yanked out her sunglasses, shoved them on. “Simple competence and responsibility aren't stupidity, thank you very much.”
“Okay.” Hair trigger, he thought again. Why did he like that about her? “Do you want to stand out here debating the issue, or do you want to go do this thing?”
“I'm not going to drive up to this poor boy's viewing in a Porsche and walk in with some rich guy in Armani.”