Clayton held up his hand. “Reverend, I don't mean you any harm or disrespect, but this is not a conversation I wish to have at the moment.”
Or any other moment,
Clayton added to himself.
Reverent Toussaint nodded. Then he bowed his head. “All right.”
Before Clayton could say anything else, the minister was praying . . . out loud. Clayton sighed.
“Lord, we come to you today with bowed heads and open hearts. We don't know your ways, but we know and believe that you alone are worthy of all of our praise and honor.”
Clayton may not have been religious, but he knew enough to be respectful. His Mama had taught him that much.
The thought of the late Georgette Futrell made him glance around, even as he kept his head bowed while Reverend Toussaint droned on.
“. . . the path may be rocky, but the journey is divine. Order their steps, Lord . . .”
Their parents were buried somewhere out here at Antioch Cemetery. It hadn't crossed his mind to look for their gravesites the day Ana Mae was buried. The only thing on Clayton's mind that afternoon was getting it all over with and returning to California as soon as humanly possible.
The fact that he was still stuck in North Carolina did not sit well with him in the least bit.
“. . . and lift him up, Lord. Brother Futrell and his, uh, his friend. Bless the whole family, Lord, and give them the strength they'll need in these coming days. Hallowed be thy name and thy son Jesus' name. Amen, and amen.”
“Amen,” Clayton said, not meaning it in the least. He glanced around and saw Archer about one hundred feet away, looking at gravestones and not paying any attention at all to Clayton and Reverend Toussaint.
“Thank you for your prayers, Reverend. But I don't need them.”
“Everybody needs prayer, son. Even those who don't believe. I'll leave you now.”
The minister placed a fedora on his head and turned to leave.
“Reverend le Baptiste?”
Toussaint turned.
“Thank you for everything you did for my sister.”
The minister nodded. “She was a good woman. A Godly woman.”
Long after the Reverend Toussaint le Baptiste slipped away, Clayton remained staring down at Ana Mae's grave.
While he hadn't been paying much attention to the preacher's prayer, a line of it remained with him.
The path may be rocky, but the journey is divine
. The words, in their simplicity and truth, gave Clayton pause. His entire life, from birth until this very moment, seemed encapsulated in that single sentence.
A shout from Archer pulled him from his musings.
“Clay, I found something!”
18
The Lady Who Loved Little Kids
F
eeling vaguely let down by her encounter with Eddie Spencer, JoJo drove around town as aimlessly as her thoughts were wandering. She didn't have a lot of options open to her. Las Vegas had long since lost the appeal and cachet it had had for her in her youth, back when she knewâwas certain, without any shred of doubt, misgiving, or lack of convictionâthat her star would rise over the Vegas Strip, that she would be the principal of several shows and managing her own stable of young impressionable and talented wannabe stars.
Life had had a few other opinions, though, and before JoJo could claim her piece of the star-studded rainbow, she was knocked up and struggling, not even sure who the father was of the baby she carried.
“Ana Mae.”
She said her sister's name as if it were a prayer.
Too terrified to tell her mother that not only had she run away from home to be a showgirl in a low-budget Las Vegas review but that she was also now pregnant, JoJo called her big sister.
While a sermon on the virtues of chastity and holiness might come from Ana Mae, that punishment, JoJo decided all those years ago, was infinitely better than the bitter disappointment she knew she would find in her mother's eyes.
As far as JoJo knew, Georgette Futrell died without ever knowing that she had a granddaughter. Ana Mae had kept JoJo's secret. And since apparently Ana Mae knew that Crystal lived in Laughlin, less than one hundred miles from Las Vegas, JoJo could only wonder what other secrets Ana Mae took to the grave with her about JoJo's daughter. Crystal was so close geographically and so far away emotionally.
JoJo gave a little snort, a half laugh of self-derision.
“You kept my secrets, Ana Mae. I wonder if you tucked away any secrets for Clay or for Delcine?”
She didn't expect an answer but was half surprised to find herself in the parking lot at the Holy Ghost Church of the Good Redeemer. Several cars and minivans filled the lot, not so many as to indicate a service might be going on inside, but enough to tell her people were there during the day.
A late-model Lexus with the personalized North Carolina license plate
REV T
made her immediately think of the Reverend Toussaint le Baptiste.
With her mind on the sins of her own past and curious about the place where her sister had spent so much of her time, JoJo parked Ana Mae's car next to the Lexus and made her way to the church.
The front door was locked.
Her own church back home was a little chapel occupying a former storefront that used to house a souvenir shop. The front entrance and a back door were the only two ways to get in, and the fifty or so congregants used the front door. A church like this, a real church even if it had a strange name, would have more than two doors.
JoJo hadn't been paying that much attention at Ana Mae's funeral. Her mind was pretty much on other things than entrances and exits to the church, but she tiptoed on aching feetâher sexy shoes to entice Eddie Spencer were not made for traipsing across parking lotsâback to the parking lot, then looked around. The kitten-heeled open-toe mules she'd put on looked great and felt like sheer hell.
But sure enough, just as she was thinking she'd go on home, she saw an entrance a ways down and near where many of the other vehicles were clustered.
An awning the same color as the red brick of the church covered a walkway.
A few minutes later she found herself in a hallway. The sounds of children singing and a phone or two ringing gave her courage.
What exactly it was she feared she would not have been able to name. But a bit of trepidation washed over her.
Guilt. Not fear.
“I'm sorry, Lord,” JoJo whispered.
She felt guilty about wishing she could put a hit out on Lester. She felt guilty about not staying in better touch with Ana Mae.
The singing drew her. The melody of the children's song was familiar, but the words escaped her.
“May I help you?”
JoJo started. Then she turned to see a petite woman in a blue-jean dress with a smock covering part of it coming out of one of the rooms.
“Hi,” JoJo said. “I'm, I'm looking for Reverend Toussaint la Baptist.”
“Le Baptiste,” the woman said, correcting JoJo's pronunciation. “His office is right down here. I'll show you. But he's probably just about ready to go in with the kids right now.”
“Thank you,” JoJo murmured.
She had not come to see the minister, Ana Mae's and Rosalee's childhood friend. But with no better excuse and the teacher-looking lady staring at her, that's all that came to mind. The way things were in the world right now, the last thing she wanted was the lady thinking she'd come to kidnap a child or something. Crazy people were everywhere, including in small towns in the South.
The woman led her to an office that had the door pulled to, but not completely closed. She knocked. “Reverend T?”
JoJo smiled. So the Lexus out in the parking lot probably belonged to him.
“Yes, Delia?”
The woman pushed the door open. “There's someone here to see you.”
She guided JoJo into the small space and departed.
“Sister Josephine,” Reverend Toussaint said, standing and coming around his cluttered desk to greet her. “What a surprise and pleasure. Come on in.”
Shaking the minister's hand, JoJo smiled.
“I hope I'm not disturbing you,” she said.
“Not at all. Have a seat,” he said, indicating two cushioned folding chairs in front of his desk.
JoJo settled herself on one and put her big purse on the other.
Reverend Toussaint took his seat again, then clasped his hands together and gave her a smile.
“How are you doing?” he said.
JoJo gave a half shrug. “I guess I'm okay, you know.”
“Then tell me, what can I do for you?”
JoJo absently noticed that he was a really nice-looking man with that wavy hair and those smoky eyes. Then, remembering she was in the Lord's house even if it was an office, she opened her mouth to answer him. She closed her mouth. Opened it again and then started crying.
“Oh, dear,” Reverend Toussaint said. “Sister Josephine, what's wrong?”
She sniffled. “I'm sorry. I just . . . I've made such a mess of my life. Nothing turned out the way I thought it would.”
Sitting right there with this kind man, it all just bubbled up and over in her. Ana Mae was gone. She was broke. She wanted out of her marriage to Lester. Her own daughter hated her.
Her life wasn't just a mess, it was a hot mess. And the tears now came in a steady and heavy flow.
“Sister Josephine, everything will be all right. Our God is a wonder-working God.”
He got up and came to sit on the edge of the chair next to herâand accidentally pushed over her handbag. It fell to the floor with a clop, the contents spilling out.
“Oh, dear. I'm so sorry,” he apologized, bending over to get her bag.
One of the things that fell out was a small Bible, one of the little New Testament volumes that also included the Psalms and sometimes the book of Proverbs. She'd gotten it from a street-corner preacher back home. He'd been passing them out one Saturday afternoon, and JoJo liked the idea of having a Bible in her purse. It made her feel a little closer to God.
JoJo leaned over, but Reverend Toussaint had already scooped up the Bible, a lipstick, a pen, and the purse. He handed her the loose items and placed the bag on his desk. With a quiet “Thank you,” JoJo put the lipstick and ink pen back inside and rummaged for a tissue.
She dabbed at her eyes for a bit, hoping she hadn't messed up her makeup, then finally sat back with the Bible.
“Sister Josephine?”
She batted her eyelashes, not flirting, but trying to hold fresh tears at bay. She felt one of her false eyelashes slipping. With a sigh and a few more tears, she closed her left eye and pulled it off.
“I need a better-quality glue,” she said by way of explanation.
Reverend Toussaint, apparently used to women weeping in his office, gave her a few moments to get herself composed.
After a few more dabs at her eyes and a few sniffles, JoJo sighed.
“I'm a poor excuse for a Christian,” she said.
“We are all sinners saved by grace,” Reverend Toussaint said.
“If you say so.”
He smiled. “I say so. So tell me. What prompts these tears? What is on your mind and heart today, Sister Josephine?”
She sat silent for a while. Then, answering a need to get it all off her chest, she told him, as if she were in a confessional with a Catholic priest.
“I miss Ana Mae,” she said. “I wish I had been a better sister to her. I don't love my husband. I want to stay here in North Carolina and live in Ana Mae's house. It's where I grew up, you know. I just don't know what I'm going to do with my life.”
Reverend Toussaint patted her hand. “That's a lot going on,” he said.
“Tell me about it,” JoJo harrumphed, getting some of her usual aplomb back. “Since I've been here in Drapersville, I've found out more about Ana Mae than I knew in all the time she was alive. What kind of sister loses touch like that? I just wish . . .” A few additional tears sprouted, and she quickly and defiantly swiped them away.
“Josephine,” he said, taking her hand, “Ana Mae loved you very much.”
“How do you know?”
“Because she was always bragging about you. About all three of you. She was so proud of what you, Clayton, and Delcine accomplished in your lives.”
JoJo snorted. “Accomplished? I haven't accomplished anything.”
“That's where you are wrong,” he said. “And I can prove it. Come with me.”
He stood up and beckoned for her to follow him.
JoJo grabbed her bag and tucked the small Bible inside. She slung the heavy tote over her shoulder and followed him down the hall and into an open and colorful multipurpose room filled with about twenty or so kids sitting on blue and yellow mats on the floor.
“Hi, Reverend Toussaint!”
“Good afternoon,” he said. “Your practice has been excellent today. I even kept my office door open so I could hear you,” he told the children, using the voice adults sometimes adopt when talking with elementary- and pre-school-age little ones.
“I have a visitor with me, and maybe she would like to hear your song.”
The aide in the room lifted her arms, and the children scrambled up and got into a three-line formation.
“Ready,” the teacher said. “On threeâone, two, three.”
The children, who ranged in age from about four to seven or so broke into a rousing rendition of a song in the round.
“Make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold.”
When they finished, JoJo and Reverend Toussaint both applauded.
“That was wonderful, children,” he said.
“I agree,” JoJo exclaimed. “I remember that song from Girl Scout camp with my sister Ana Mae.”
A hush suddenly fell over the room.
One of the older children, a girl, ran forward. “You knew Miss Ana Mae?”
JoJo glanced at Reverend Toussaint, but answered the girl.
“Yes, she was my older sister. I came home for her . . . ,” she paused. Death did not exactly seem like the right topic to address with kids this little. But JoJo's mouth dropped open with a little boy's next words.
“We miss her a lot,” he said.
“Miss Ana Mae went to be with Jesus,” a girl said.
“Yes, I . . . ,” JoJo looked to the preacher and then the teacher for some guidance.
“Why don't you show Miss Ana Mae's sister the book you all wrote with Miss Ana Mae?” the teacher said.
JoJo turned to Reverend Toussaint. “Ana Mae wrote a book?”
He grinned and nodded as a little person grabbed JoJo's hand and tugged on it. JoJo followed to a table in a corner that had bookcases three shelves deep in an L along the walls. The boy pulled out a large volume on the top shelf, and a little girl guided JoJo to an adult-sized rocking chair.
“She always sat here when she read to us,” the girl said. “My name is Suzy Swindle and that's my brother Joshua.”
“My name is Josephine,” JoJo said.
As if on cue, the class yelled, “Good afternoon, Miss Josephine.”
“You're Miss Josephine?” Suzy asked eyes wide in wonder.
When JoJo nodded, the girl started jumping up and down, saying “Ooh. Ooh!”
JoJo looked to Reverend Toussaint, but Suzy was suddenly talking a mile a minute. “Ooh. I'm gonna be a dancer like you when I grow up.”
The child then did a perfect pirouette for her.
“A dancer? But how did you know?” JoJo's gaze darted between the little girl's and Reverend Toussaint's.
“Granna Mae told us all about you. She said you performed for thousands of people,” Suzy said. “And I told her I wanted to be a dancer too.”
“I told you,” Reverend Toussaint said.
Delighted, JoJo grinned.
The teacher clapped her hands twice. “Get your mats for the story,” she said.
All of the children ran and grabbed their mats to settle down in front of JoJo, who was guided into the rocking chair.
Reverend Toussaint stood behind the rocking chair, and young Joshua, who had designated himself the reader, stood to her left.
“The title of this book is
The Lady Who Loved Little Kids
.”