Avon closed his eyes and placed his palms flat on the table. In an unnervingly calm voice, he recounted everything that happened between Rock and Brubaker for what felt like the tenth time in less than an hour. Avon looked up at the ceiling, as if recalling the entire scene from some distant place in his mind. He wanted to finish his recount of the events with his own personal opinion that the traitorous rat bastard deserved to have his head blown off, but he refrained himself from doing so, knowing those types of statements would make him look like he wanted his partner dead.
“Do you wanna take a break? Um . . . I think my client needs a break,” Avon's pimply-faced Georgetown-graduate lawyer stammered, sounding just like one of those clichéd television series attorneys. No one in the room paid him any mind. “Okay . . . may-maybe not.” The attorney shrank back down onto his seat.
The DEA interrogators who surrounded Avon turned quiet; it was a tactic Avon recognized. Silence usually unnerved guilty suspects, making them feel the need to fill up the silence with words, which would inevitably cause a slipup. Avon was silent too. He was trying to read them. Were they appeased? Were they still suspicious? The tension in the room was stifling. Some of the interrogators' faces had looked as if Avon had just announced that he had a terminal illness, while others looked less surprised and more suspicious.
A tall, square-shouldered white man broke from the group and walked over and placed one leg on the edge of the table, where Avon sat. The man leaned in so closeâAvon could smell stale coffee on the man's breath. “And you didn't attempt to save your fellow agent's life?” the man asked again, his bulldog jaw shaking with emphasis as he spat the words in Avon's face.
Avon slammed his hand on the small, wobbly silver table, causing the man to quickly remove his leg and stand erect. Avon jutted his pointer finger toward the beefy man. He was tired of the accusatory tone of this whole circus.
“Are you listening to what I am saying? Brubaker tried to have me killed. He left me undercover with some of the most dangerous drug dealers in New York, and then he went and fucked my wifeâjust for the hell of it! Somebody paid Barton to kill him, and then Barton turned the gun on himself! But it wasn't me! This entire fuckin' movie-like conspiracy is much bigger than me. I shouldn't be the one explaining it all. Somebody should be explaining to me why I was thrown in the thick of a fuckin' government cluster fuck, and why my case agent was a crooked motherfucker who was probably working for you! Not only could I have been killed, but a lot of innocent people died because of this little fucked-up game you're running here!” Avon barked back, the muscles cording in the chocolate skin of his neck. They had finally penetrated his resolve.
The interrogators eased back and softened their tones. Another tactic. Now they'd play nice guy and try to get some type of admission, if not a confession. They'd never seen any guilty person speak with so much conviction.
“Agent Tucker, we know this is hard. We just need the facts. Tell us one more time where you stood. What about the girl?” the lone female of the bunch chimed in, her eyes soft and placating.
Avon's face softened when he pictured Candy's face in his mind's eye. He had been thinking about her nonstop. He wondered where she had gone and if she was in any danger. Avon rested his elbows on the table and placed his bald head in his hands. He had to admit, as young as Candy was, she had done something to his heart. He had tried to tell himself that the night they shared together was purely a result of finding out his wife and partner were playing house during his absence, but Avon admitted to himself that he really had feelings for Candy. After the night they'd shared, he could not stop thinking about her. He felt sick, crazy even. Candy was a young girl, and he was a married man; yet she was a recurring thought.
Everyone in the room seemed to be suspended in time waiting for Tucker to answer the question. Avon opened his mouth to tell them the story again. He would pick and choose what he told them about Candy.
A loud knock, echoing through the door, interrupted his thoughts. Avon's shoulders went from tense to relaxed; the knocking was a welcome distraction from the line of questioning. Everyone else turned toward the thick metal door as well, unsure of what course of action to take. The female interrogator stood up in a law enforcement stanceâher legs were shoulder width apart; her hands up and at the ready, like she needed to be prepared for Armageddon.
One of the DEA interrogators stalked over to the door and snatched it back like he was ready to chew out whoever was interrupting their show. The man standing behind the door walked into the roomâit was like Moses parting the Red Sea to reach the Promised Land. Time seemed to stand still.
“There will be no more questions, unless we are the ones asking them,” Grayson Stokes announced firmly, his voice raspy like his throat was covered with phlegm.
Avon's lawyer shot up from his seat; all of his papers flopped all over the floor, as he forgot they were on his lap. “Wait a minute, my clientâ” he interjected.
“Shut it!” Stokes snapped, pointing a curved finger at the attorney. The attorney snapped his mouth shut; it was as if the man had put him under some sort of spell. All of the agents in the room reacted as if they were a group of teens who had just gotten busted at an underage drinking party.
“If you ever want to earn a paycheck from the United States government again, I suggest you get the fuck out of here,” the old man hissed, pointing a yellow fingernail. Immediately taking the man for an authority figure, the rank-and-file agents all began to scatter.
“Everybody leave,” the man demanded, gazing at the attorney and the few brave investigators lingering in the room. They silently cleared out, though many of the faces looked none too pleased.
“Wait a minute here. He works for the DEA and we have theâ” one of the bolder DEA agents dared to challenge. However, the icy stare and stone-faced grill he received from Stokes had him taking three steps backward toward the door.
Stokes's
Men in Black
âlooking escorts waited for the attorney to gather his papers before ushering him out of the room. Talk about walking clichés.
“Are you going to be all right?” Avon's lawyer turned and asked from the doorway.
“Didn't I say get the fuck out of here!” the old man barked. His chest suddenly erupted and he exploded into a fit of coughing. His escorts each grabbed one of the attorney's arms and shoved him through the door.
Avon started to stand up too, but the man clapped one of his liver-spotted hands on Avon's shoulder.
“Not you, Agent Tucker . . . or should I just call you Avon?” the old man asked, forcing Avon back down onto the chair. The metal door slammed shut with a ring of finality.
“Look, I don't know where you're from, or what you want, but I know I have the right to an attorney,” Avon demanded, starting to stand up again.
The dark shadeâwearing escorts moved in closer.
Avon slumped back on the chair. “I am not under arrest . . . or am I? If I am, I need to hear my Miranda warnings, now,” Avon snapped.
Stokes let out a sarcastic snort. With his hazy, silvery, medicine-dilated pupils trained on Avon's face, the man sized him up.
“You're right. You're not under arrest and you do have certain rights, under certain laws. But at what cost would you exercise your right to leave?” he grumbled, reaching into the left side of his suit.
Instinctively, Avon went to his waist. He found nothing there, of course. The old man chuckled, and then another fit of coughing.
“Did you think I was reaching for a gun, Agent Tucker?” the man asked. “I have something far more valuable to you,” he corrected, flicking two glossy 8x10 photographs on the table in front of Avon.
The photographs floated onto the table and slid perfectly into place in front of Avon; it was like a special magic trick. Avon sucked in his breath. He felt like someone had kicked him in the chest. He stared down, unable to peel his eyes away from them. He was experiencing changes in his body chemistry that he couldn't explainâsweat seemed to pop up on his forehead, like unwanted dandelions on a fresh green lawn, and his breathing felt labored. His ears began ringing and he lifted his hand to his chest. He felt like someone had sucked all of the air out of the room. Avon snapped his head up from the pictures. It was as if someone had pulled it up abruptly with an invisible string. His eyes hooded over and he set his jaw squarely.
“Who the fuck are you? And what the fuck do you want?”
Avon gritted his teeth, eyeing Stokes evilly. The man remained silent as he placed another picture down on the table. It was a picture of Avon and Candy leaving Kings County Hospital together on the night her friend Shana had died. Avon's heart jerked in his chest, and he couldn't stop staring at all of the pictures now. Obviously, this old bastard had been watching him very closely.
“I didn't think you'd be interested in leaving after you saw those. Listen, Special Agent Avon Tucker . . . Tuck, the drug dealer, or Tuckerâor whatever the fuck you want to be called these days,” the man said snidely. Moving close to Avon's ear, he leaned over Avon's shoulder so that Avon could smell his Ralph Lauren Safari cologne, cigar smoke on his clothes and his breath. “This should be easy. I am Grayson Stokes. I used to work with Joseph âRock' Barton. Sound familiar? I thought it would. Barton trained your little friend Candice Hardaway . . . or maybe you call her âCandy.' See, Agent Tucker, we have a few friends in common and I need you to do something for me. It has to be you, or it wouldn't even be worth it,” he said, moving away to see Avon's expression and reaction.
Avon's face was drawn into a scowl and his jaws rocked feverishly as he ground his molars together. He didn't like this old bastard mentioning Candy.
“You don't have to like it. I know you already know some things about Operation Easy In and Joseph Barton, but not nearly enough to think you know the entire story. You do what I say, and you get to see these little angel faces again,” the man proposed.
“What do you want? I don't know shit,” Avon said through gritted teeth, his nostrils flaring.
“The girl . . . Candy . . . I want her, and you're going to be the one to bring her to me,” the old man said sternly, using his head to signal one of his men to surround Avon. “Are you in? Do we have a deal, Agent Tucker?” Grayson Stokes asked, reshuffling the pictures in front of him.
Avon Tucker was a captive audience now; and he knew no matter what his answer was, he would be making a deal with the devil.
Chapter 15
Going Ghost
Three Weeks Later
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Tears drain from the corners of Candy's eyes and she is shivering all over. For some reason she is strangely aware of the cold, wet grass under her knees as she puts pressure on them in front of the tombstone. The feeling reminds her of the cold, empty feeling she had in her heart since the death of Uncle Rock. She can't believe he is dead. She also can't believe that she has returned to Brooklyn after she has been warned not to come back.
Candice doesn't care about the potential danger of her return. She has never had a chance to pay her respects to her family, but she feels an overwhelming need to come see the resting place of her uncle.
Now she kneels at Uncle Rock's grave, painfully aware that she is alone. She is left to fend for herself. Candice pulls off the little white plastic top from the steaming hot cup of green tea and pours it slowly on the green and brown grass in front of Uncle Rock's tombstone. “I know you must miss your daily cup of green tea,” Candice whispers, her voice shaky.
Candice feels a rush of wind on the back of her neck, which causes the tiny hairs there to stand up. She is sure it was Uncle Rock giving her a hug. She isn't really religious, but she starts to say a silent prayer.
Just then she hears the faint sound of leaves crunching behind her. Alert, she places her hand into her bag and grips her Glock 22. Her heart begins to pound against her chest bone as the sound seems to get closer. Candice grips her gun more tightly.
It is them, she is sure.
Slowly she begins to stand up. She lets her bag stay on the ground and she lifts up her weapon out of it. With her chest heaving up and down, Candice is fully aware of the person's presence at her back. She attempts to turn around, but it is too late. More than one person rushes her at the same time.
She can hear a man's muffled voice: “We told you we would find you if you ever returned.”
“Agh!” She lets out a short-lived scream.
Then blackness.
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“Oh shit!” Candice jumped out of her sleep and out of the bed. She whirled around on the balls of her feet, trying to get her bearings. Her body was covered in sweat and her ears were ringing. Clutching her chest, Candice flopped down on the side of the bed. She exhaled and looked at her gun on the hotel's nightstand. The dreams were worse now than ever before. She didn't even realize she had dozed off in the middle of the day. It had been a long, exhausting day spent buying wigs and costumes, and perfecting her disguise. Candice shook off the nightmare and walked into the hotel's bathroom.
“Can't believe I have to sleep in this stuff too,” she whispered to herself. She stared at her image in the large vanity mirror hanging over the hotel bathroom's sink. She hardly recognized herself anymore. The wet and wavy lace front wig she wore was cut into a short, high-low bob; it was also at least five shades lighter than her normal dark brown hair. She adjusted the wig a few times and secured it by applying the lace front glue, like the little Asian lady in the store had told her to do. Candice shook her head left to right to make sure her wig wouldn't go flying off at random. Candice was so accustomed to having long hair; the change seemed drastic. But that was exactly the look she was going for. She leaned in close to the mirror to examine her new eye colorâgray. These new cat eyes were courtesy of a brand-new pair of light-reflecting colored contacts that accented her natural color with just rims of gray. Candice turned to the side to examine the most drastic change in her identity shift. She touched her midsection, lifting her new overhang gut. Candice had to laugh at the sixty extra pounds around her stomach and sides, thanks to the fat suit she'd purchased from a costume store. She looked like an overweight Spanish woman as she pulled up the thigh pads that made her usually long, slender legs look grossly misshapen and riddled with cellulite.
Walking back out into the hotel room, Candice couldn't help but take another look at the collage she had created on the far left wall. With her hands on her hips, she stood in front of what she considered her new target board. She had taped a bunch of photographs, names and maps together in perfect patternâa masterpiece in her mind.
Moving her eyes across each face, she studied each name and each place, making sure she would not forget the real individuals responsible for the massacre of her family.
“Rolando DeSosa . . . sons Arellio and Guillermo,” Candice read aloud, for probably the one hundredth time. “You, Guillermo, are not that bad-looking, still not my type,” she said with a tsk. “I guess it really doesn't matter, though, now . . . does it?” she continued as if the man in the photo could somehow hear her. She rolled her new eyes and smiled. “We will meet soon; and when we do, your ass is mine,” she murmured.
It had been easier than she'd thought to find information on the Internet about DeSosa and his family. Candice had to doubt what her Uncle Rock had told her before his suicide about DeSosa working for the CIA. In her assessment there was just way too much information out there about the supposedly notorious man. Candice had found information on several of DeSosa's past arrests, his current and past real estate listings, his legitimate business holdings, court documents from past indictments containing his whereabouts, his children's names and even some of the names of his many mistresses. The fact that this information was so readily available made her skeptical about Rock's claimsâafter all, the government was quite capable of planting information if it suited their needs.
Candice clicked on her laptop and inserted her Rosetta Stone CD. She needed to get her accent down pat. Uncle Rock had taught her basic Spanish while he had homeschooled her, but she wanted to be great before she set out on her new mission. Once she infiltrated DeSosa's circle, she needed to be able to keep up with every conversation within her earshot.
Picking up her laptop, Candice walked over to the bed and settled her back against the headboard, with the laptop on her thighs. As she focused on the computer screen, the photograph of her family on the nightstand fell silently to the floor. The air in the room seemed to become lead heavy. Keeping her emotions in check was no easy feat. Now that Rock was gone, the only link to her past was this solitary 3x5 family photo.
Candice flopped down on the side of the bed and picked up the portrait. On the one hand, she wanted to turn it on its face so that all of the smiling faces would stop taunting her; but on the other hand, she needed to see them like she had for the past four and a half years. She looked at each face and the anger she had previously felt in the years since their deaths finally eased into real sorrowâpure mourning. The photo had been her talisman for many years, keeping the kindling lit under her seething anger and need for revenge.
Candice didn't even realize she was gnawing on her bottom lip as her eyes carefully gazed upon each face. The picture had an entirely new look now. Everyone looked different in her eyes. Gone was the innocence of a family of victims. Now, with the information shared with Candy by Uncle Rock prior to his death, she saw them with fresh eyes. Each one, with the exception of her baby sister, harbored secrets that were now being uncovered.
“Your father made a deal with the government, and there was no turning back. Rolando
DeSosa,
the man who supplied your father with all of the drugs, worked for the CIA, and so did I.”
Those had been Uncle Rock's final words before he took his own life.
Candice's temples throbbed as she searched the recesses of her mind, digging into her memory for some clue, some inkling, that would help her understand her father's double life. Why had her father treaded such dangerous territory, putting his own family into the fray? Tears fell on the shattered glass that covered the picture. Candice used her trembling thumb to swipe the glass clean. Her sweet baby sister stared back at her with a toothy grin. Candice's chest felt tight. She leaned her head back and closed her eyes, racking her brain for memories that would bring her sister back to life.
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Hardaway Home, 1998
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Candice was six when her baby sister, Brianna, came home from the hospital. She had waited patiently at the front window of their new home for what seemed like an eternity. Her knees burned and she had to pee, but she refused to move until she laid eyes on the newest member of the Hardaway clan.
It had only been two weeks since her father, Eric “Easy” Hardaway, had moved his family into a beautiful, new brownstone in the heart of Bed-Stuy, Brooklyn. Although their home address frequently changed, this was only the second move Candice could remember. The house was bigger and better than their last place. Even though Candice was young, she was fully aware that the new house and new car her father drove was more expensive than the last.
With her fists propped under her cheeks, Candice waited by the window until she spotted her father's sleek, large-bodied black Mercedes-Benz ease up to the curb in front of the house. Candice's mouth curled into a smile like someone had pulled up the corners with a craneâher dad affectionately referred to it as her “Joker” smile.
When her mother stepped out of the car, holding the tightly wrapped pink bundle in her arms, Candice felt her heart jerk in her chest. It was a mixture of excitement and fear. Until now, Candice had been the baby of the family, spoiled rotten by her father and overly protected by her brothers.
“Eric Junior! Errol! The baby is here!” Candice screeched, jumping off her knees, which were tattooed with an imprint of the couch's seams.
Her twin brothers were front and center in a matter of minutes.
The babysitter whom Easy had hired, a raven-haired girl named Lutisha, pulled back the door and Candice bolted outside.
“Let me see! Let me see the baby!” she panted, jumping into her father's arms so she could get a better look at the small body.
“Whoa, whoa, Candy Cane, let's get inside,” Easy chuckled, his tone similar to a cowboy corralling an unruly horse.
Candice's mother, Corine, carried the baby up to the newly decorated nursery. Candice was hot on her heels.
“You're excited, huh?” Corine smiled softly at her daughter.
Candice nodded her head as she shifted her weight from one foot to the other.
Finally baby Brianna, who was wrapped up like a burrito, was unwrapped and introduced to Candice. Candice stood in awe. The baby's smellâa soft mixture of baby powder and Similacâmade Candice want to never let her go. She loved the baby the minute she laid eyes on her. Brianna stared back, mutually infatuated.
The fanfare surrounding Brianna's birth didn't stop with Candice's obsessive attention, begging to hold her sister nearly every minute of the day. A week after coming home from the hospital, Easy and Corine planned the biggest welcome-to-the-world party for their newest addition. There was a huge pink-and-white cake, enough helium balloons to fill a small party hall and beautiful, poster-sized professional portraits of Brianna's first couple of days at home. Candice especially liked the picture with her holding Brianna alone.
Over seventy people attended the house party in honor of her baby sister. This made Candice feel somewhat envious; but even worse than that, there were no kids to play with. All of the attendees were adults and mostly friends of her father, along with their spouses or girlfriends. Candice found herself utterly bored.
Her father found her sitting in a corner with her arms folded. He walked over, his white teeth gleaming against his Hershey's chocolateâcolored skin. “What's the long face for, Candy Cane?”
Candice ignored the questions and continued to pout.
“C'mon,
Candy Cane, tell your favorite guy what's going on.” Her father smiled.
“I don't want these people to touch my baby,” Candice huffed, pushing her lip farther out.
Her father threw back his head, laughing. “Aw, Candy Cane, when everybody leaves, she'll be all yours again. I tell you what, why don't you go count all of the gifts in the front and I will make sure you get double the number of gifts for your birthday.” He smiled and rumpled the top of her head.
Candice's eyes lit up. She knew her father always kept his promises.
“Okay! I'm going to stay there all night and count every gift!” she exclaimed, and ran toward the front foyer.
The gifts stacked on the floor near the front door were both large and small. Some were wrapped in pink paper, and some in pale green and yellow. Candice was careful and diligent in her job of counting the gifts as they arrived. She planned to remind her father of the deal he had made when her birthday came around.
As she stood at the front door, collecting and counting the gifts like a hired hostess/butler would, she noticed a man enter through the door without ringing the bell. He was a tall man with skin that made him look like a figure from the wax museum. The man's eyes resembled two black lumps of coal, and his hair was so dark and shiny that she couldn't help but stare at it.
“Hola, mamasita. Are you the hostess?” the man sang, bending down in front of her face.
He smiled and the shiny gold front left tooth nearly blinded her. Candice stared, mesmerized by the sparkly diamond skull and crossbones that was encrusted on the man's gold tooth. He looked like a dark pirate. Her mouth hung open and was filled with unladylike saliva.