Read Had We Never Loved Online
Authors: Patricia Veryan
He sat down, and said in a frigid voice, “I was waiting for you, ma'am.”
From under her lashes she looked at his proud averted face. A tiny smile curved her lips and, after a minute, she said, “I can't afford to snore in bed all day, mate. I et hours ago.”
“I see.” He took up a slice of toast and glared at it.
Amy bustled about, singing softly. When she glanced at him again, he was watching her, his face stern, his breakfast untouched. She demanded, “What's the matter with it?”
“I find I am not hungry, thank you.”
“Hoity-toity,” she jeered, hands on hips. “Now what's got the noble gent all bristly?”
He had decided to be coldly indifferent, but the sight of her standing there like the spirit of the morning, with the two plaits swinging and her glorious eyes full of mischief, made indifference an impossibility. He said angrily, “Why must you always think the worst of me? I was distressed to learn that you had cut your, erâself. Is it a crime that I should worry for you? If I asked about your hurt, 'twas not because I sought toâ That is, I had no thought to look at yourâ” Aware that he was making a hopeless botch of this, and that the mischief in her eyes had become mirth, he said irritably, “By Zeus, madam, you are perfectly safe with me, I promise you! I've never yet sunk toâto abusing a helpless girl!”
She retaliated with a triumphant, “No, and you can't now, can ye, Lord Quality? The ghost made you take a vow last night, and you took it, all shiversome as you was.”
Reminded of his craven terror, he flushed, but seeing the peep of the dimple, said with a reluctant grin, “You little wretch! I knew all the time 'twas you!”
“Fibber! Oho, if you could've but seen yer face! I thought you was going to faint!”
“You make a joke of it, Amy, but the truth is that you did risk your life to help me. I promise I mean to do whatever I may to repayâ”
Her amusement gone in a flash, she said stormily, “Oh, stow yer gab! Can't ye think of nothing else but paying me off?”
“Dammit!” Again he jumped up and, disregarding the immediate lance of pain through his leg, seized her wrist. “I didn't mean that! Always, you twist what I say, andâ”
“Aye, I does,” she cried, her voice shrill as she fought and clawed at him. “Let me go! Leave me be, ye dirty⦔
He released her at once, and stepped back.
She crouched before him like a wild creature at bay, her little knife a glittering upraised menace.
A tense pause. Then he said very gently, “My poor child. How terrible your life has been.”
“I ain't your child,” she panted. “And much ⦠you know o' life.” Despite the scornful words, her eyes searched his face in a strangely desperate fashion. Suddenly, she hurled the knife from her, put both hands over her face, and burst into tears.
“Please do not,” he begged, horrified. “Amyâplease don't cry.” He touched her silky hair cautiously, and her sobs seemed to become even more wracking. “Oh, Lord,” he groaned. “I'd best go, if I make you so very unhappy.”
“Well ⦠ye does,” she gulped, dragging the back of her hand across her eyes.
“Why? What have I done?”
She sniffed. “Youâyou won'tâeat the breakfast I made ye.”
He laughed, limped over to pick up her knife, and presented it with a flourish. “There, madame. Now you may be safe. Amyâplease won't you sit and talk to me?”
She hesitated, then smiled through her tears, and bent to restore the knife to its garter sheath. “Oh, all right, then,” she said, drawing out the other stool and perching on it. “But I ain't got all day.” She dried her eyes on the hem of her petticoat. “You wants to ask yer questions, is that what it is? Go on then, onlyâ
Now
what is you all crimp-faced about?”
This was not the moment, decided the viscount, to explain that a lady should not pull up her skirts in front of a (relatively) strange gentleman. “My apologies,” he said humbly. “I expect 'tis just that I'm very hungry.”
“Well,
eat,
then!”
Obeying, he attacked succulent toast, bacon that was tangy and crisply delicious, and eggs cooked just the way he liked them. “First,” he said, spreading damson jam on a slice of toast, “why did you bother to follow me, and how did you know where I was?”
“I follered 'cause⦔ Amy became intent upon adjusting the position of the butter saucer. “Oh, 'cause ye went off with Uncle Ab's favourite cane. I'd give up, and was on me way home when those silly great bullies started tearing down branches and making noise enough fer ten, trying to build that shelterâwhat would've come down at the first puff o' wind. You must've goed round in circles, lordship, 'cause ye was close by. So I run home quick, and made our ghost.”
Glendenning looked at her over a forkful of bacon. “However did you do it? I never saw such an eerie sight.” And struck by a sudden thought, he asked, “What d'you mean
our
ghost? Have you used it before?”
She nodded, her expressive face saddened. “When the
chals
come after me. It keeps 'em away.” She grinned. “Frightens most folks away, to say truth.”
“So I would suppose. Butâ”
She raised a hand. “One at a time, melor'. It ain't me what makes the ghost so scary. Uncle Ab does. He calls it âphossy,' and when he puts it on a old sheet or somethingâwell, you saw how it shines.” She hugged herself, chuckling gleefully. “Did you hear how me voice echoed-like when I moaned and laughed at first? That's 'cause I talked into a broken old tin. I couldn't use it after I come out, 'cause then I had to use me hands to hold up the sticks and make me arms longer.”
He chuckled, remembering the weird echoing of her laughter, and how those long arms had waved about. “You were truly a magnificent apparition. But where does Absalom get this âphossy?' What is it?”
“I dunno, lordship. He's a clever one, Ab is.” She glanced to the door and leaned closer, whispering, “Promise ye won't tell, butâhe's a wizard. A little bit.”
How big and solemn were her eyes now; how sweet and fresh the fragrance that hung about her. And how, he wondered, could one be “a little bit” of a wizard?
“He makes it,” she confided, “but he won't never let me see, nor tell me how he does it. He says it's a old, old secret, what he learned from some other wizard in exchange fer a picture he made him. And that he swore a awful oath not to tell no one.”
Glendenning had never put too much faith in wizards. Witches, everybody knew about, but one heard very little of wizards. Perchance their club was more exclusive. A wizard, however, even a “little bit” of a wizard, might be a tricky customer, and best handled with care. Preoccupied, he chased the last piece of bacon around the plate. Three times, it fell off his fork.
“Oh, for goodness' sake!” exclaimed Amy. “Pick it up, mate, do!” She leaned forward, retrieved the elusive morsel, and popped it into his mouth. “Like that!” Laughing at him, her fingertips lingered for just an instant on his lips, and leaning across the table thus, the neck of her blouse dipped. Enchanted, he gazed at the rich, snowy swell of her breasts, then, with a hissing intake of breath, wrenched his eyes away. “What,” he croaked, “kind of picture?”
She drew back, watching him steadily. After a pause, she said in her most scornful voice, “Ye got eyes, aintcha?”
All too aware of that fact, he met her gaze for a brief, guilty moment, and mumbled that he did not take her meaning.
With a contemptuous snort she slipped off the stool.
“No!” he exclaimed. “You're cross again, and I am behavingâer, trying to behave properly. Please don't go.”
She moved with her graceful swinging walk into the bedroom, saying over her shoulder, “You be just a man, poor thing. And I'm just a gypsy.”
Her words threw a shadow over this beautiful morning. Glendenning stared glumly at the empty plate, reliving the touch of her soft fingers on his lips. âAnd I'm just a gypsy.' The most beautiful gypsy ever created, but ⦠Sighing, he knew it would not be wise to remain here much longer.
“Wake up, Sir Lordship!”
Amy stood in the doorway, holding the painting that hung in the bedroom. “Didn't ye never rest yer peepers on this here?”
Incredulous, he stammered, “Why, yesâbutâ Jupiter! Do you say
Absalom
painted that?”
“Didn't carve it out with his knife, mate. But he's got one. A big one!”
His face was hot. Ignoring the scornful tone, and the implication of her words, he took up his cane and limped over to inspect the painting.
Almost, the goosegirl seemed alive; almost, one could hear the geese complaining as she hurried them home through trees touched with the fiery blush of sunset. He muttered, “Of course I saw it, but I thoughtâ”
“You thought we'd prigged it, I suppose.” She swung the picture away and marched back into the bedroom.
Following, he said, “Amy, I do wish you would try not to be angry with me all the time.”
“Then don't look at me so daft,” she said ungraciously, struggling to raise the heavy frame. “All soft and sweet one minute, and sneery and top lofty the next.”
He dropped the cane and reached up to take her burden and hang it. Turning, he pounced to seize her by the shoulders. “When did I sneer at you, Miss Consett?”
Her teeth flashed in a snarl of fury, and something sharp dug at his ribs.
Really angry now, he said, “Strike, then! But if you don't kill me, you'll have to nurse me again, so be sure you strike truly.”
She said in a choked voice, “I hate ye, I does! With yerâyer silly red hair, and yer evil eyes.”
“I've never treated you in an evil way. Be honest, and own it.”
“Green as grass, they is,” she evaded, blinking tears away. “And that's bound to be evil. Certain-sure, you
thinks
evil thoughts. Always saying we prigâ”
Relenting, he tilted her chin up. “Steal,” he corrected, smiling down at her. “And if I judge you, child, 'tis only because of what you've told me yourself.”
She wrenched away, and dabbed at her tears with her petticoat. “Always making me blubber. And I never cries!
Never!
”
“I'm sure you don't, for you're the bravest lady I ever met, andâ”
“And there ye goes again! Don't do it! Don't!”
The eyes that turned up to him, pleaded. And he knew exactly what she meant, and that he must indeed leave here. While there was yet time. And yet, knowing that, after a breathless moment, he heard himself pleading in turn. “Can we not cry friends, at least? A truce, Amy? For just a little while?”
She swung her head away from his wistful gaze, and stared at the curtained doorway.
Glendenning tugged one thick plait gently. “You've had my given word, and I rate my honour high. Don't fear me. You are as safe as though Absalom stood beside me. You have been so good, and I want to know more of youâboth. I want to help.”
“Help?” She unwound his fingers from her plait and walked back into the kitchen. “How?”
Retrieving the cane, he hobbled after her. “You asked me to help with your grammar.”
“Oh. I thought you was going to offer yer gold, again.”
“I won't. I promise. Now, tell me, if Absalom paints so magnificently, why do you live here in poverty? He must be a great master. He could beâ”
“Transported,” she interposed, carrying several small boxes to the table.
“Why? You saidâ Thenâhe
did
steal the painting?”
“No, he did not! That picture
is
a original. 'Cept”âthe dimple flickeredâ“it's a copied original.”
“Absalom
copies
great masterpieces?”
She nodded. “He don't like to, 'cause it's chancy and takes him a awful long time, butâsometimes ⦠Like, if he gets took ill, or I do. Or if his teeth gives him pepperâhis teeth can't abide him, he saysâwell, then, there ain't much choice.”
“But the man has enormous talent. Why run the risk of arrest and imprisonment? Why not paint his own pictures?”
She crossed to the shelves and came back carrying the long curving piece of wood she had been working over when he'd first arrived. He moved quickly to pull out the stool for her, and she gave him a faintly wondering look as she sat down.
“Who'd buy em? A picture painted by an unknown gypsy? Cor! You
are
green, yer viscountship! Poor Uncle Ab would be lucky to get sixpence fer it. And paint's dear. When, a' course,” she added sardonically, “we don't prig it.”
“Now be a good girl, Miss Consett, or I won't tell you that you should say âof' course, not âa' course. And you must forget that âcor,' âprig,' or âain't' ever sullied your ladylike ears.”
She pulled back a glossy plait and asked eagerly, “
Is
they ladylike, melor'?”
He ran the tip of one finger lightly around the delicate curve of the ear thus revealed, and murmured, “They are perfection.”
Amy shivered.
Recovering himself, he said briskly, “Er, yes! Now tell me, who does buy Absalom's copies? Is he well paid?”
“He once got a guinea,” she said, turning her attention to the piece of wood. “But I don't know who bought that one. It was of a man wearing a funny-looking helmet. Not a pretty picture, like the one in the bedroom. I wanted that one so much, Uncle Ab giveâgave it to me for Christmas last year.”
“The man with the funny-looking helmet,” he probed. “It wouldn'tâit couldn't have been a
golden
helmet by any chance?”
“Yes, matter o' fact.” She rummaged in one of the boxes.
“Jupiter!” he said under his breath. “One trusts Mr. Rembrandt don't put a curse on him!”