Granta 125: After the War (10 page)

If he doubts, she convinces him. That’s how it is and will be.

And each time he’s reassured, he draws in closer.

‘How are you surviving?’

‘OK. How about you?’

They are solicitous in balanced but not identical situations. She asks how he is during illnesses, if political news has upset him, if they have quarrelled. He asks after lovemaking, if she’s tired, if they have quarrelled. They quarrel mainly at great speed, so they can move on to enquiries and holding and being held and can have nothing wrong any more. They lean on the rise and fall of their ribs when the shouting’s done, old trouble in the press of breath. As a rule, they don’t like being scared without each other, not even if each other is what scared them.

This morning hasn’t been frightening, not quite. They spent it with each other in a lawyer’s office, going through unspilled paperwork so that their lives will be coordinated and tidy from here on in.

She called it
the document
instead of
the will
. This made matters slightly confusing and so she changed to
my document
and
your document
and eventually everyone – all three of them – was
document
ing.

Afterwards, business over, he kissed her in the street – a grey building at his back with a grubby doorway and so she closed her eyes while they hugged and therefore spared herself the ugliness. He kisses very well. On that occasion, he was particularly fine.

Such an uncomfortable day, though. She would prefer if it were done.

But no need for worry.

No sense in making assumptions or being bleak in advance.

There’s no way to be certain of when anybody will leave.

After you.

That’s what people say.

That’s what she wants.

After you.

Then she’d keep the whole rest of him and miss nothing else.

But he has to be the gentleman, can’t help it.

No. After you.

Which wouldn’t be right.

But neither is right.

Someone else having their apple trees, unwatched fires.

And she isn’t sure she’ll manage, not in the end, doesn’t see how she could, and she wishes she wasn’t carrying this silly paper bag with the fig in it that she won’t eat, can’t eat. She wants to fold her arms or put her hands in her pockets, she isn’t clear which.

He settles his hand at the small of her back and then lets her swing and face him and see how he is weary and opened and gently and sadly himself. ‘Are you OK, though? Really?’

She doesn’t ever lie to him unless it’s for the best.

POEM
| JEAN-PAUL DE DADELSEN

from
Opening Invocation

They lived with us in the belly of the whale.

The whale spit them out on the other shore:

                                                                  The shy ones.

                                                         The left-handed.

               The one who was albino and stammered.

         The nearsighted. The distrustful, the cunning.

   And that tall boy who was always hungry,

always sleepy.

Do they sometimes look over our shoulders?

   Since they’ve gone, we’ve seen no one.

         Are we blind? Or

       ‘spiritualism, that negro religion’, writes,

       in some delightful periodical, a Reverend Father.

                                                            And yet

if they were looking, sometimes, over our shoulders?

Or otherwise, leaving the shore of the intermediate sea,

     has it been a while since they’ve gone ahead

         into the interior of lands of the spirit?

The black sorcerer knows how to call, knows, even when they want

    to depart, how to call back shadows, souls.

    Who among us would know how to call,

          know how to bring back

                    the shadow of John,

                    of Bernard,

                             of Maurice?

      In honour of Monseigneur Saint Maurice

      Roman colonel who commanded the Theban legion,

             martyr, his feast on September 22,

the abbot of St-Maurice-en-Valais, bishop of Bethlehem

     wears a ribbon of scarlet moiré.

                                                      But Maurice,

who no longer went to the synagogue, no longer painted flowers,

painted only a patch of wall, an open door, a bit

     of the studio’s light through a half-open door,

     verticals, the floor’s horizon line,

     Maurice, who deprived himself of green, of blue,

who among our dead will serve as guide for Maurice?

     Who among our living will know to light a flame for Maurice?

             What will we burn of ourselves

              to feed the spiritual flame that will be able

              to warm, to deliver Maurice?

       (A tradition, do you remember, claims that suicides,

       imprisoned in mental mirrors, suffer at length

       from seeing everything, never able to act, avert, aid.)

Shadow,

     looking over my shoulder

                             what can I do for you?

There is no shadow here, only

        the effort and the work of living men

time’s length, the resistance of mere matter.

                                             But who will say

                             if the shadows among us

                      are not bent in their turn

                 over the same inexhaustible task?

Shadow, what can I do for you?

          With my short-sighted eyes, my living eyes

                 with my stubborn, living hands

          with this body, the time left to me.

Shadow, do you want me to look

           in your place

                  at these faces, these fields?

     do you want me to touch

               in your place

                       these flowers, this hair, these things?

      do you want me to try

               with you

                to lift this heavy burden even a little?

What have you done with your brother Maurice?

                 I was somewhere else. I heard nothing.

                 I wasn’t listening. I was looking in the mirror.

                 I wasn’t the one who turned on the gas.

                 I did nothing for my brother Maurice.

Shadow, what can I offer you?

                    What bread?

                I did not prepare the ground, did not plough, did not sow,

                I marked out only paths of dust and

                sometimes my wake on the sea that forgets all passings.

                What bread, but that of darkness and separation?

                      What water?

                I did not walk toward refreshing waters,

                I have nothing to offer you to drink.

                                                      And Bernard

                                          who always slept stretched out full length

                                 on his belly, one arm extended like a

                      swimmer doing the crawl in sleep’s deep waters,

what have you done with your brother Bernard?

                       He did not call out to me.

                When I cannot keep myself

                      how can I be my brother’s keeper?

                 To what shall I bear witness

                       if not my own unjust reprieve?

Shadow, do you remember? There was a time

                      when, like women in labour

                we looked at life and death with the same gaze.

                      What does it matter to me if

                      the universe is shaped like an egg or

                      like a boomerang? Our only country is

                      this sparse shore where we’ve been thrown up,

                      our only journey is

                      the journey in the belly of the whale.

Translated from the French by Marilyn Hacker

GRANTA

ZONE OF ABSOLUTE DISCOMFORT

Justin Jin

I
nside the claustrophobic confines of a shipping container, a group of Russians waits out another day of an Arctic storm. Anton bakes blini. Andrei watches the same horror movie again. Alexei tries to craft a toothpaste holder from an empty tin can. Lisa the dog, who finds company among the hundred men in Camp No. 2, curls up in the farthest corner from the draughty door. The engineers gathered on this desolate patch of Russian tundra were hired by a geo-exploration company to look for oil deep below the permafrost. I am waiting out the battering winds with them, documenting the international race to appropriate Arctic resources.

I made six trips over three years to the Russian Arctic region, a 7,000-kilometre area stretching from Finland to Alaska, which Moscow bureaucrats have named ‘Zone of Absolute Discomfort’. The icy hinterland is wretched to live in, but just hospitable enough to allow for the extraction of billions of tons of resources trapped beneath the ground.

Here, three different groups of people, representing three contrasting ways of life and three centuries of Russian history, exploit
resources amid the world’s harshest conditions: indigenous reindeer herders known as Nenets; descendants of former Soviet prisoners; and energy company men seeking a rich cache of oil and natural gas.

For hundreds of years, this part of the Russian Arctic was home only to the Nenets. The Soviet government tried to force these nomads into collective farms, and some were resettled in apartment blocks, abruptly altering their way of life. Other Nenets escaped Soviet rule and remained on the tundra, raising reindeer for meat and benefiting from an uptick in the demand for antlers, which are sold as aphrodisiacs in China. I sought my subjects via snowmobile, straining to see the Nenets
chums
, or tents, and reindeer herds on the bleak horizon. My hosts welcomed me with a bowl of frozen whole reindeer brain, a Nenets delicacy.

In the Far North’s urban areas, mounted jet aircraft stand sentry over cities used and abused by the Soviet government, and descendants of Stalin’s prisoners populate the streets. Though most of the Arctic labour camps were abandoned in the 1950s, many former inmates chose to stay. The Soviet government built settlements for those who worked in the mines and used high salaries to attract newcomers. The area boomed for a while, but the regime had no regard for nature and sustainability and scarred the once-pristine land. Now, pollutants shock the landscape and its inhabitants; in one town, sulphur rain kills all vegetation within five kilometres of the mine. As I photographed this dying landscape, the secret police followed me day and night, trying to discourage my efforts to document this environmental horror.

When the Soviet Union collapsed, the Russian republic neglected the towns and cities of the Arctic Circle. Mines and factories closed, marking an entire generation in the Arctic region with poverty and alcoholism. Many fled to seek a future elsewhere; those who stayed often don’t work, age rapidly and die young.

In the last decade scientists have discovered billions of tons of oil and gas trapped underneath the tundra. New workers’ outposts rise adjacent to the shells of old Soviet drill sites. Engineers and miners
from around the world work short stints in the region. They come with expensive, sophisticated equipment and earn substantial sums for their hardship tour.

The indigenous herders who survived Soviet collectivization now struggle against this new, menacing foe. Pipelines block Nenets migration routes, while asphalt highways and gated drilling towers interfere with the search for fresh pastures.

It is the Nenets who must yield, as the Russian government has invested billions in energy exploration and asserted dominance over the region in 2007 by planting a titanium flag into the Arctic seabed. Ice-breaking ships circle the northernmost oil terminal in the world, near the North Pole, where global warming has opened an Arctic sea route in summer months. Within two decades, further warming may create a year-round ice-free route for container ships travelling between Asia and Europe.

This crucial period in the Far North fascinated me so much that I did much of the groundwork myself, trudging for days in deep snow and pushing my body and my cameras to their limits. The Russian military granted me unprecedented access to photograph the extreme northern oil terminal from the air, but only after I repeatedly appealed to senior government officials and energy company CEO s. Our helicopter flew on the edge of the North Pole region, an area rich with resources prized by countries with an Arctic reach, like the US and Canada, and even nations like China that simply thirst for oil.

But behind the geopolitics are the individuals who eke out a life in this unforgiving desert. Back in the shipping container, Andrei and Alexei grow restless, and talk about their next opportunity to ‘strike gold’ out on the ice. When the wind stills for a moment, they grab towels and bolt for the makeshift sauna a few containers down the road. It is powered by pure Arctic diesel.

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