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Authors: Mike Resnick
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“You should never have volunteered to be a wizard.”
“I didn’t volunteer.” He stares at me. “You have qualities, Jake,” he says. “You ask a few questions, and in five minutes you’ve figured out that the wizard business isn’t quite exactly what it appears to be from the outside. I’m curious to know what you’ll ask next.”
“How about ‘What’s for dessert?’” I say.
He laughs, and suddenly his melancholy vanishes.
We order vanilla ice cream—it’s the only sweet they serve until dinnertime—and then we walk out into the street.
“You didn’t pay,” I note.
“I did them a favor last week,” he replies. “The meal’s a
quid pro quo
.”
I check my watch. “I’ve got to get back to the office,” I say.
“Thanks for eating with me,” he says, shaking my hand. “And for being my friend.”
“One of thousands,” I suggest.
He shakes his head. “The rest are supplicants.”
“Surely you have some friends, too,” I say.
“Real friends?” A wistful expression crosses his face. “I had one about eighteen years ago.” A pause. “Maybe a little less.”
“Just about the time you became the Wiz,” I say. “What happened to him?”
“I’ve no idea,” he answers.
“Didn’t work out, huh?”
“I guess you could say that.”
I think about the Wiz and his one friend all the way back to the office and most of the afternoon.
* * *
We meet for lunch a couple of times a week for the next month. He lets a few supplicants interrupt us, and he also refuses to talk to some others, and I can never tell by looking at them what the determining factors are. He talks to some bums and sends others on their way … but he also talks to some guys who have their chauffeurs drive them up and sends some of
them
packing too.
“How do you decide who to talk to?” I ask him.
“I thought I told you,” says the Wiz.
“There’s got to be some gray areas,” I say. “The good ones can’t all be trying to save their families from ruin, and the bad ones can’t all be junkies.”
“Mostly it’s instinct and intuition. Usually I can see what they’re going to do with the help I give them, but even that can be misleading.”
“So you
can
make mistakes?”
He nods his head. “Yes, from time to time.” He smiles. “After all, I’m only human.”
I stare at him. “
Are
you human?”
“I’m as human as you are, Jake,” he says earnestly.
“I don’t know about that,” I say.
“Oh?” he replies, arching an eyebrow.
“It’s human to take care of yourself. But you dress like a bum, and you eat all your meals in delis and dives, and if you’ve squirreled away any money you sure as hell don’t use it. Where do you live?”
“Nearby.”
“Why don’t I think you live in one of these brownstones?” I say.
“Because you’re a reasonable man, Jake,” he answers. “All I need is a place to sleep.”
“When’s the last time you showered?”
“Seriously?” he says. A guilty smile crosses his face. “The last time it rained after midnight.”
“How can you live like that?” I say in exasperation.
“I used to live in a penthouse,” he replies. “Brooks Brothers wasn’t upscale enough for my wardrobe. I had a maid
and
a butler, as well as a valet.”
“Why did you change?”
“The people who need me the most couldn’t find me there,” he says.
I shrug and turn my palms up. “How can I answer that?”
He smiles. “You’d feel damned foolish trying, wouldn’t you?”
“Yeah.”
“That’s one of the reasons I like you,” he says. “Not everyone is that perceptive.” He pauses thoughtfully. “In fact, hardly anyone is. I just had a feeling you could be my friend.”
“Your feelings have a way of coming true,” I acknowledge. “But you know something interesting?”
“What?”
“You’ve never asked me if you could be
my
friend.”
“That’s not as important,” he says.
I just stare at him. “Why not?” I say at last.
“You have lots of friends already.”
Somehow I get the feeling that that’s as close as he’s come to a bullshit answer since I’ve met him,
* * *
We keep meeting, and we keep talking, and he
seems
open and friendly, but I can’t get over the feeling that he’s got some agenda I know nothing about. I still don’t know why a reasonably pleasant guy like the Wiz hasn’t had a friend in seventeen years, or why he’s chosen me out all the millions who live on this damned island.
We don’t do anything but meet and talk, occasionally in delis and coffee shops, now and then in bars, once in a while when the weather’s nice just out on a bench where anyone who’s looking for him can find him (though everyone who needs him seems to have no trouble finding him wherever we are).
We never go to the Garden for basketball or hockey, we never see a movie or a play, in truth we never get much more than half a block off 34
th
Street. He just wants to visit, to talk about almost anything, and he’s always straightforward—or at least I think he is—when we talk about what he calls the Wiz Biz.
“What do you do if someone won’t pay you after you’ve given them a winner, or told them how to avoid a mad dog gunman, or whatever?” I ask him one day as we’re walking down 34
th
Street.
“I’m the Wiz,” he says. “I know before I help them if they’re deadbeats.”
“That’s a pretty useful thing to know,” I say. “Man’s a deadbeat, you send him away.”
“Not always.”
“Why not?” I ask.
“Maybe his wife or kid is growing a tumor, and he’s not insured and hasn’t got enough to pay for a doctor. It becomes an ethical question: should
they
suffer because he’s a loser?”
“I see,” I say. “It’s not as simple as it seems at first.”
“Nothing ever is,” he says.
“Why don’t you quit?” I say. “Just walk away from it all?”
“Who’d be here to help them?”
“You’ve seen enough suffering,” I continue. “You’ve done your share. It’s
their
problem.”
“Just let them all suffer in pain and poverty when I can prevent it?” he says. “Is that what you’d do?”
I think about it for a long moment. “No,” I admit. “That’s not what I’d do. It’s just what I’d
want
to do.”
“I know,” he says, and I get the feeling he
does
know.
“When we first met,” I say, “I kind of envied you. I really did. I thought you had the greatest gift in the world. But the more we talk about it, the more I hate the choices you have to make day in and day out.”
“You learn to live with it,” he says.
“I don’t know how,” I say. “There’s so much pain, so much misery in the world. Most people just see a tiny part of it, but you—you see it all.” I shake my head. “What must it be like?”
He comes to a stop and grabs my shoulder.
“Say that again!” he says, and there’s a hint of excitement in
his voice as his fingers dig in.
I stare curiously at him. “What’s it like to see the future?”
“And you really want to know?”
“I asked, didn’t I?”
“Thank you, my friend,” he says with such an air of relief you’d swear he’s just run a marathon. “I have been waiting seventeen years for someone to ask me that.”
And suddenly his fingers feel like they’re dissolving on my shoulder. He seems to grow, not thinner exactly, but somehow less substantial, then translucent, and finally transparent, until there’s nothing left of him but a pile of grubby clothes on the ground and the butt of his still-burning cigarette,
All this happens seven years ago. Sometimes it feels like seven centuries.
* * *
I am the Wizard of West 34
th
Street. If you’ve got a problem, or a need, or just a question, come by and tell me about it. There is no situation too dire or too hopeless, nothing so complex that it’s beyond my ability to solve. There will be a fee, of course, but you’ll be happy to pay it, and I will never ask for it before you are pleased with the results.
I’m always around. If you don’t see me on the street, just ask one of the locals, or peek into a restaurant or a bar. There aren’t that many of them, and I’ll be in one. Don’t let my appearance fool you. I’ve got a Master’s degree, I have enough money that I’m not going to con you out of yours, and I guarantee that you won’t catch any diseases from me. How I look just isn’t important to me any more.
I’m here to answer your questions, so ask me anything you like.
Anything at all.
Please.
***
Back in 1996, Kris Rusch, who was editing F&SF, brought back an old custom, that of writing a cover story around a painting. But in this case, the painting was a cartoonish one of a deep-sea diver and a mermaid, and Kris assigned it to three of us
—horror by Nina Kiriki Hoffman, fantasy by
Esther Friesner, and science fiction by me.
The Gifilte Fish Girl
So I walk up to her and say, “Ma, we gotta talk.”
And she never looks up from the TV, and she says, “Not during
Homemakers’ Jamboree
, Marvin.”
And I say, “Ma, I’m Milton. Marvin is your goniff brother who is serving 6 to 10 for passing bogus bills.” (Which he is. He’s a great artist, even the judge admitted that, but he just doesn't do his homework, and printing a bunch of twenties with Andrew Johnson’s picture on them is probably not the brightest move he ever made.)
Anyway, she says “Marvin, Milton, what’s the difference, and did you know that Liz Taylor is getting married again? What is it for her now—the 34th time?”
And I say, “You know, Ma, it’s funny you should bring that up.”
And she says, “Funny? Okay, Mister Big Shot, tell me what’s so funny. Are you the one she’s marrying? Go ahead, make my day.”
And I say, “Lots of people get married, Ma. Some of them even get married to women who aren’t Liz Taylor, hard as that may be for you to believe.”
And she says, “Lots of
mature
people, Melvin.”
And I say, “Melvin is my cousin who ran off with the gay lion tamer from the circus. I’m Milton, and speaking of mature, I’m 34 years old.”
And she says, “You’d think someone who’s 34 years old would know to change his socks without being told.” Suddenly she curses and says, “See? You made me miss today’s health tip. Here I sit, waiting to go to the hospital for a nerve transplant from all the
tsouris
you cause me, and I can’t even watch my television in peace.”
So I say, “You’re in great shape, Ma. Every artery’s as hard as a rock.”
“
Feh!”
she says. “God has reserved a special place in hell for ungrateful sons.”
“I know,” I say. “It’s probably right next to where He puts all the henpecked husbands.”
“Don’t you go making fun of my dear departed Erwin,” she says.
“I wasn’t,” I say. “And besides, all we know is that he departed in one hell of a hurry. We don’t know for sure that he’s dead.”
“If he isn’t, he should be, that
momser
!” she says.
Well, I can see the thought that he may be alive and God forbid enjoying himself is about to drive her wild, so I try to mollify her.
“Okay, okay,” I say, hoping the Lord is otherwise occupied and does not hear what I am about to say. “May God Himself strike me dead if he’s not your late husband.”
“Well, he was late for most things,” she agrees, leaning back in her chair. “Except in the bedroom.
There
he was always early.”
I try to change the subject again.
“We were talking about marriage,” I say.
“Someday, when you’re old enough, ” she says, “you’ll get married and ruin some poor Jewish girl’s happiness, just the way your dear departed father ruined mine, and the only good thing that will come of it will be a grandson who, knock wood, won’t take after his father and his grandfather but will show me a little respect and compassion.”
I begin to see that this is going to be even more difficult than I thought, and I try to come up with a subtle way to break the news to her. So I think, and I think, and I think some more, and finally I say, as subtly as I can, “Ma, I’m engaged.”
And she looks away from the television set and takes her feet off the hassock and plants them on the floor, and stares at me for maybe 30 seconds, and finally she says, “Engaged to do what?”
“To get married,” I say.
She digs into her sewing kit, which is on the floor next to her, and pulls out a scissors.
“Here,” she says, handing it to me. “Why waste all afternoon rushing me to the hospital’s cardiac unit? Just stab me now and be done with it.”
“Jugular or varicose?” I ask.
“
Schmendrick!”
she says. “How can the fruit of my looms talk to me like this?”
“I’m the fruit of your loins, Ma,” I tell her. “Fruit of the Loom is what I’m wearing beneath my pants.”
“All right,” she says. “Just stand there and watch me breathe my last.”
“Your last what?” I ask.
She glares at me and finally says, “Before I die, at least tell me the name of this female person you’re engaged to do whatever with.”
“Melora of the Purple Mist,” I say.
“Melora of the Purple Mist?” she repeats. “How can I fit all that on a wedding invitation?”
“Just use Melora,” I say.
“And what bowling alley or topless club do you meet Miss What’s-her-name of the Purple Mist at?” she asks.
“I met her at work, kind of,” I answer.
“I
knew
it!" she says, poking a pudgy forefinger into the air. “I knew I should never let you take that job with the sewage company!”
“It’s a salvage company,” I say.
“Sewage, salvage, what’s the difference?” she demands. “It’s that Gypsy who walks around half-naked with her deathless beauty sagging down to her
pupik
, right? I
told
you she had her sights set on you!”
“She’s not a Gypsy, and it’s not her. She’s just another diver.”
“So you’re marrying some other girl who lies around on deck with her
tuchus
soaking up the sun,” she says. “I should feel better about that?”
“She doesn’t lie around on deck,” I say uneasily.
“On deck, below deck, big difference,” she snaps.
“Bigger than you think,” I say. “The truth of it is, she spends most of her time about 50 feet below deck.”
“So she’s a diver,” she says.
“Not exactly,” I answer.
“What, then?”
“Try not to get real excited, Ma,” I say.
“I’m not excited, I have convulsions all the time,” she says. “Just tell me.”
“She’s a mermaid,” I say.
“As long as she’s not that Gypsy girl,” she says, fanning herself with the
TV Guide
. “Or that lady bartender from last summer. Or the bug woman.”
“The entomologist,” I correct her.
“Whatever,” she says. “So tell me about this Purple Mist person.”
“Like I said, she’s a mermaid.”
“Like what has a tail and spends her whole life in the water?” she asks.
“That’s right,” I say.
“Does she wear a bra?” she says suddenly.
“Ma!” I say, outraged.
“You heard me—does she wear a bra?”
“No,” I finally answer.
“Figures,” she says.
“What a thing to ask!” I say.
“What do you want me to ask?” she says. “My son comes home and tells me he’s marrying someone who’s covered with scales and spends all her time swimming in salt water, despite what it must do to her complexion. So can she at least get us a price on fresh fish?”
“It’s not something I’m real concerned with,” I say.
“Of course not,” she says. “You’re as impractical as your late father.” She sighs. “All right, so where did this female person go to school?”
“I don’t think she did,” I say.
“Ah!” she says with a knowing nod. “Rich family with a private tutor. What temple do they belong to?”
“Who?”
“Her family,” she says. “Try to pay attention, Martin.”
“Martin is your nephew who went broke manufacturing the folding waterbed,” I say. “I’m Milton, remember?”
“Don’t change the subject,” she says. “What temple do they go to?”
“They don’t,” I say.
“They’re Reformed?” she asks.
I take a deep breath and say, “They’re not Jewish at all,” and then I wait for the explosion.
It takes about three millionths of a second—a new record.
“You’re marrying a
shiksa
?” she bellows.
“I’m marrying a mermaid,” I say.
“Who cares about
that
?” she screams. “Call my doctor! I’m having a coronary!”
“Ma, try to understand—there
aren’t
any Jewish mermaids,” I say.
“It’s
my
fault?” she demands. “It’s bad enough that you want to give me grandsons with fins—and how in the world will the rabbi perform the
bris
?—but now you tell me that their mother’s a
goy
?”
“I knew I was gonna have trouble with you,” I say unhappily.
“Trouble?” she shrieks. “Why should there be trouble? Your Uncle Nate will come by with a knife and a cracker and say, ‘Is this a jar of Baluga caviar?’ and I’ll say ‘No, it’s 40,000 of my grandchildren.’”
“Will you at least meet her?” I ask.
“Some conversation we’ll have,” she replies. “She’ll say ‘Blub!’ I’ll say ‘Gurgle!’ and she’ll say ‘Glub!’ and I’ll say ‘I’m getting the folds’, and she’ll say—”
“That’s the bends, not the folds,” I explain.
“Bends, folds, what’s the difference?” she says. “I plan to be dead of a heart attack in two more minutes.”
“She speaks English,” I say, getting back to the subject.
“She does?”
“With a beautiful lilting accent.”
“I knew it!” she says. “You’re too young to remember, but they drove our people out of Lilting before the last war …”
“Lilting isn’t a place, Ma,” I say.
“It isn’t?” she says suspiciously. “Are you sure of that?”
“I’m sure,” I say. “She really wants to meet you.”
“I’ll just bet she does,” she says. “She probably wants to feed me to her pet lobster.”
“I don’t think lobsters eat people,” I say.
“Aha!” she says. “But you don’t
know
!”
“We’re getting off the subject,” I say.
“Right,” she agrees. “The subject was my imminent death.”
“The subject was Melora.”
“What does this fish person who doesn’t wear a bra want with you anyway?” she demands. “Why doesn’t she go elope with some nice halibut?”
“I met her while I was hunting for treasure,” I say. “It was love at first sight.”
“So what you’re saying is that you went down there looking for gold and what you came up with was a topless person of the Purple Mist?”
“You’re making this very difficult, Ma.”
“You bring home a cod for dinner, and instead of cooking it I have to give it my son, and
I’m
making this difficult?” she says, just a bit hysterically.
I figure it’s time to play my ace in the hole, so I say, “She’s willing to convert, Ma.”
“Into what—a woman with two or more legs?”
“To Judaism,” I say. “I told her how important it was to you.”
“How can she convert?” she says. “Do we know any rabbis who can hold services 50 feet under the water?”
“She can come to the surface,” I say. “How else would we talk?”
“When did you ever
talk
to a girl?” she says. “You’re just like your departed father.”
“We talk all the time,” I say.
She considers this and finally nods her head. “I suppose there’s not a lot else you can do.”
“Don’t get personal, Ma,” I say.
She raises her eyes to the heavens—which are just beyond the light bulb in the middle of the ceiling—and has another of her hourly chats with God. “He wants me to welcome a lady fish into my family and he tells me not to get personal.”
“A lady Jewish fish,” I point out.
“So okay, she won’t be just a fish girl, she’ll be a gefilte fish girl, big deal. What do I feed her? If I give her lox, will she accuse me of cooking her relatives?”
“She eats fish all the time, Ma.”
“And when we leave the table to go watch Oprah, do I carry her or does she slither on her belly?”
“Actually, she doesn’t watch Oprah,” I say.
“She doesn’t watch Oprah?” she says, and I can tell this shocks her more than the fact that Melora is a mermaid. “What’s wrong with her?”
“She’s never seen a television,” I say. “They don’t have them in her kingdom.”
“What are they, some kind of Communists?” she demands.
“They don’t have any electricity,” I explain.
“You mean she doesn’t even have a food processor?”
“That’s right,” I say.
“That poor girl!” she says. “And no disposal unit in her sink?”
“None,” I say, and I can see that suddenly she’s working up a head of sympathy.
“How can anybody live like that?” she says.
“She manages just fine.”
“Nonsense!” she says. “Nobody can live without a trash masher. My son’s wife may be a fish, but she isn’t going to slave 30 hours a day just because
I
had to!”
“That’s very thoughtful, Ma,” I say. “But—”
“Don’t interrupt!” she snaps. “You bring her by this afternoon. I’ll have some knishes ready, and some blintzes, and maybe a little chopped liver, and we’ll watch Oprah and I’ll show her my kitchen and …” Suddenly she stops and re-thinks her schedule. “Bring her earlier and we can watch Dr. Phil, too. And tonight they’re re-running that old series with Lloyd Bridges. It should make her feel right at home.”
“You’ll like her, Ma,” I promise.
“Like,
shmike
,” she says. “If I have to go through life without ever being able to point to my son the doctor, at least I can point to my almost-daughter the gefilte fish girl. Mrs. Noodleman down the block will be so jealous!” She pauses. “We’ll have to put a little meat on her bones.”
“You haven’t even seen her,” I say.
“That’s all right,” she says. “I know your taste in women. Cheap and skinny.”
“Ma, you think any woman under 200 pounds is skinny.”
“And you think any woman who doesn’t ask for ice cubes and a straw with her wine is sophisticated.” She gets up, and I can see she’s getting set for a couple of hours of serious puttering. “Now, you go get her and bring her back, while I prepare something for the poor undernourished thing to eat. And I think I’ll invite Rabbi Bernstein, since we need someone to work with her, and he’s always fishing when he should be at Temple, and …”
As I leave, she is trying to remember which company sells the pens that write under water so she can send out wedding invitations to the bride’s family.
***