Fins Are Forever (21 page)

At that I get a reassuring
meow
.

There are no signs of life in the kitchen, so I head into the living room. It looks more deserted than usual. Not that Tel in brought any belongings with him, but it feels like he’s moved out. My suspicion is confirmed when I read the note he left on the coffee table.

See you at your birthday ball.

Wel , that’s one worry off my shoulders for the moment.

Next I head upstairs to hunt for Doe. She must know that we have to perform the separation tonight, so why would she disappear like this? Clearly she has, though. She’s not anywhere in the house, as evidenced by the fact that Prithi is trailing my every step.

It’s late afternoon already. In a few hours it wil be too late.

I grab the upstairs phone—the one I’m usual y dropping in the bathwater—and dial Brody’s home number.

“This is Lily Sanderson,” I say when his mom answers the phone. “Is Brody home?”

“No, dear,” she says. “I think he went out with your cousin.”

“Did he say where?”

“Not specifical y,” she says, “but he took towels and his swim trunks. Maybe the pool?”

Unlikely. Doe shares my merfolk al ergy to chlorine. My guess is they’ve headed to the beach. Why, I don’t know, because it’s not like Doe can fol ow him under the ocean.

But it’s salt water. And they both see it as home.

“Okay, I’l try there,” I tel Mrs. Bennett. “Thanks.” Great. Now I have to find a way to the beach. I guess that makes this as good a time as ever to talk with Quince—to make up and to get transportation. I grab the separation papers from my room and shove them into my back pocket before heading out. As I crunch across the gravel driveway separating our houses, I mental y compose what I’l say to him.
“I’m sorry. I should have told you. But it’s my decision
and I love you. I could never leave.”
By the time I stomp up his front steps I think I’ve got my speech set. I knock on the big white door and wait. As the door swings open, I paste an apologetic smile on my face and start to say, “I’m s—”

“Hel o, Lily,” Quince’s mom says.

“Mrs. Fletcher?” I guess I’m just surprised to find her answering the door. It seems like she’s always at work or sleeping—she pul s the night shift at the factory, so she sleeps during the day.

“Janet,” she says, offering me a haggard smile. “Please, cal me Janet.”

I nod, but can’t bring myself to cal her by her first name. “Is Quince home?”

Her thin, aged-beyond-her-years face transforms into a frown. “He didn’t tel you?”

A bad feeling thumps into my stomach like a punch in the gut. “Tel me what?”

“He left.” She braces an arm against the doorjamb, as if she needs the support. “Took off up the coast last night.” She shakes her head sadly. “Probably to visit his father.”

“Oh.” That’s al I can manage to say around the tear-clogged lump in my throat.

“I thought he would have told you.”

My eyes are watering faster than I can blink the tears away. “We’re kind of having a fight,” I explain. “I didn’t tel him something and he… he’s pretty angry.”

“You weren’t—” She pauses, like she has to figure out the best way to say something. “Unfaithful?”

“No!” I hurry to explain. “Nothing like that. Never.”

“Then you shouldn’t worry.” Her haggard face softens as she smiles. “My son may have a hot temper from time to time, but if you haven’t violated his code of loyalty, then everything wil be fine once he cools off.”

“I hope so.” I’m not so sure, but I definitely hope so.

“He loves you,” she says plainly. “For him, that’s everything.”

I don’t have any choice but to believe her. That’s how I feel, too, so I have to believe that’s how Quince feels.

Besides, it’s not like I can go after him. I have to find a way to get to Doe and Brody first.

Quince and I can sort things out later. I hope.

If only I could convince myself that my lie of omission
wasn’t
a violation of his code of loyalty, as his mom put it.

Maybe it was more of a betrayal than he can forgive.

“Mrs. Fletcher—” At her frown, I amend, “Janet. Do you think you could give me a ride somewhere?”

“Sure, honey.” She reaches back inside and grabs her purse off the floor. “Where do you need to go?”

“Thanks Mrs. Fle—uh, Janet.” I wave as Quince’s mom pul s out of the Seaview Beach parking lot.

Turning to face the beach, I search out my catch. Brody’s Camaro is parked in the corner of the lot, so I know they’re here. I scan the sand. There is a family with smal children picnicking down the beach to the south and a pair of joggers heading north along the surf line. No sign of Doe or Brody.

On a hunch, I head toward the pier.

As my feet squish through the sand, I think about what Quince’s mom said. That love is everything to him. That he’l forgive my lie of omission.

But what if she’s wrong? What if he thinks I’m untrustworthy and he can never believe in me again? What if, even if we get back together, he always wonders if there’s something I’m not tel ing him? What if he is racked with doubts and suspicions every time I head home for a weekend? He can’t go with me, so he’l never be able to see for himself.

By the time I’ve reached the spot where the ocean meets the pier, I’m practical y in tears again. I just wish Quince was here so we could talk this out. Whenever I think through things in my head, they always go a little out of control.

“Lily?”

I snap out of my mental whirlpool at the sound of Doe’s voice.

“What are you doing here?” she asks.

Sinking shoulder deep in the water, stil ful y clothed, I final y see her and Brody tucked behind a pylon halfway down the pier.

“What am I doing here?” I echo, shaking myself back into the moment. “I’m here to perform the separation. In case you forgot, the bond wil become permanent with tonight’s new moon.”

“I—” Her piercing blue gaze flicks to Brody and then back to me. “I didn’t forget.”

“Then why did you disappear?” I ask, rol ing my eyes.

Sometimes, I swear, it’s like she’s turned off her capacity for rational thought. First the trident incident, then bonding with Brody in the first place, and now this. I wish she would grow up already and stop leaving her problems on my doorstep.

I swim over to their spot and pul the separation papers out of my back pocket. Thankful y they’re on kelpaper or they’d be ruined by the salt water now soaking my capris.

“Let’s get this over with.”

Neither of them says a word.

With my toes just reaching the sand below, I find the page with the words of the ritual written in Daddy’s scrawling script.

My eyes scan over the page until I find the spot where I’m supposed to begin. I only have to blink away my tears twice to read the words on the pages.

“A mistake was made,” I begin. “Now let the bond fade.

These two once united shal soon be div—”

“Don’t.”

Doe’s soft whisper stops me cold. I don’t think a shout would have startled me nearly as much as that quiet plea. It might be the first truly serious thing Doe has ever said to me. And the emotion fil ing her eyes is al the explanation I need. I know al about that emotion.

But she has to say it. Out loud.

“Why?” I ask.

“Because…” She closes her eyes and—I can see beneath the water—clutches Brody’s hand. “I love him.” She means it. I don’t know how I can know for certain, except that everything I see in her eyes is what I feel when I look at Quince.

“You know what this means?” I ask. Both of them.

“Yes,” Doe says quickly. “I’ve explained everything.

Everything.
”

“And you’re okay with this?” I ask Brody.

He gives Doe an equal y emotional look. “I am.”

“We’ve talked it out,” Doe explains. “I’l stay on land until after graduation. Then we can spend the summer in Thalassinia. When Brody starts col ege, we’l go home on breaks and holidays.”

“You’re wil ing to give up your swimming?” This has to be the hardest part about Brody’s decision. “You know chlorine wil start to be toxic to you as soon as you turn.”

“I do.” His golden brown gaze doesn’t waver from mine.

“Doe says I’l be able to tolerate it long enough to swim at State.”

I nod. None of the mer changes are instantaneous. Most are a gradual progression, so it’s not likely that chlorine wil kil him if he races in the next few weeks. “That’s probably true.”

“That’s enough for me,” he says. “Swimming is for now, Doe is forever.”

My tears wel again at the certainty in his voice. They real y have talked this through.

And if Doe is wil ing to spend that much time on land to be with the boy she loves… wel , then, she must be over her hate for humans, too. I guess this is the best possible outcome for everybody. Doe isn’t going to try to wipe out the East Coast again. Brody gets to spend time in an underwater kingdom. And Doe has found her perfect mer mate.

But if things are so froggin’ awesome, then why do I feel like bawling?

“Are you okay, Lil?” Brody asks.

“Is it so bad?” Doe asks, her voice ful of tears. “Seeing me happy with the boy you used to love?”

“No,” I sob.

“Used to love?” he asks, teasing me like the same old Brody as always. “Lil never real y loved me.”

“She thought she did,” Doe says. And, as mortifying as that should be, I don’t think she said it to be mean.

“But you’re happy with Fletcher, right?” Brody asks.

“You’re not stil —”

“I’m not,” I interrupt. “I’m way over you. It’s just that—”
Sniff,
sob
. “I’m so happy for you.”

Since I finished that on a wail, I’m not sure they exactly believe me. In an instant I’m wrapped in a group hug.

“What happened?” Doe asks. “Is this about Tel in’s toast?”

I nod, incapable of speech. She’s more insightful than I gave her credit for.

A long silence passes around me.

“Tel her,” Brody says. “She needs to know.” The hug breaks up, and Doe turns me to face her. There’s more of that newfound seriousness in her eyes.

“Lily, there’s something you should know about Tel in.” She swal ows, as if sucking up her courage. “Over the past few years, he and I became friends.”

Okay. Not completely out of the realm of possibility.

“When you made the decision to give up your crown, I went to him. I thought you were making a huge mistake, and that Thalassinia would pay the price for your selfish choice.” She rol s her eyes as if she can’t believe what she’s about to say. “I thought we needed you as our queen.”

“Real y? You think so?” I ask, shocked by her confidence in me. Since she’s never shown me anything other than contempt and disregard, I’m a little stunned by her confession. When she throws me a look, I quickly get back on track. “What does that have to do with Tel in?”

“He feels the same way,” Doe continues. “That without you as heir to the throne, Thalassinia and al her sister kingdoms wil suffer.”

“I’m thril ed by your faith in me,” I say, annoyed that she seems to be swimming around the point, “but what does that have to do with anything?”

“We formed a plan,” she says. “One that would force you to go home before your birthday. Where you could run into Tel in and he could make his proposal.”

You know that sinking feeling I’ve been getting in my stomach a lot lately? I’m getting it again. Triple time.

“What kind of plan?”

“The tsunami and the bond with Brody.” She closes her eyes, like she’s afraid of my reaction. “They were a plot to put you back in Tel in’s path.”

“A what?” This doesn’t make any sense. “Why? I don’t understand.”

“Lily,” Doe says, sounding exasperated, “I got exiled
on
purpose
.”

“On purpose?” I shake my head. “Why would you do that?”

“Partly because it gave me a taste of revenge on humans.

But also so I could bond with some unsuspecting boy.” She jerks her head at Brody. “So you would have to take him home for the separation.”

“Al of that,” I ask, “just to force a chance run-in with Tel in?”

“I didn’t say it was a bril iant plan,” she says, blinking.

“Besides, it worked, didn’t it?”

Of al the stupid, idiotic, imprudent—see, I
have
learned my SAT vocabulary—il -conceived plans in the history of the mer world, this has got to be in the top ten.

Stil confused, I ask, “Why are you tel ing me this now?”

“Because I fel in love,” she explains, floating up against Brody’s side. “And because you’re in love, too. Now I know what you’d be giving up to bond with Tel in.” She seems to draw in on herself. “I would never wish that on you. I’m sorry.”

I stil don’t think I ful y understand. But this is a whole new Dosinia before me. One with the kind of maturity I’d always hoped to see in her.

If I weren’t so angry about her irresponsible plotting and what it might have cost me—what it might
still
cost me—I would actual y hug her for growing up. The waters might have been a little rough along the way, but what matters most is that she got there in the end. She apologized—can you say shock?—she accepted responsibility, and she’s in love with a human. That’s one part of my current dilemma solved.

Now if only Quince would come home so we could talk things out. Then life would be back to pretty darn near perfect.