“Is it a bad sign that I’m not getting any air play
yet?” Bily asked.
“No, not realy. Sometimes it takes a few days,
but I can guarantee you that when we’re done with the
press tours, you’l be sick of hearing yourself on the
radio.”
It was four thirty in the morning, and they stil had
a two and a half-hour stretch on I-75 from Chattanooga
to Atlanta. Bily had been driving Ian’s SUV for almost
four hours, and he was starting to get a little fidgety. He
was about to press the scan button to look for another
country station when he heard the DJ say, “Don’t miss
Cadilac Jack in the morning when Capitol Records
Nashvile recording artist Bily Eagan stops by to talk
about his new single and hopefuly give us a live
performance. But in the meantime, here’s Bily Eagan
with ‘The Love of a Man’.”
“Ian, do you hear that? I’m on the radio, I’m on
the frickin’ radio.”
“Yeah, cowboy, you are, and if I may say so
myself, you sound good enough to eat.”
Bily was so excited he puled across three lanes
of traffic and onto the shoulder of the road. He got out
of the car, ran around to Ian’s door, opened it, and
puled him out. He took Ian into his arms, kissed him
deeply in the darkness, and then lifted him into the air
and spun him three times.
“Thank you, Ian, thank you so much.”
“Don’t thank me, cowboy; you’re the one singing
on the radio. Now put me down before we get shot by
some drunken redneck.”
Bily was so excited he was trembling. He had no
idea hearing himself on the radio would have such an
effect on him.
“Bily, get in the car, and I’l drive the rest of the
way until you calm down.”
“Okay, good idea,” Bily said. “I don’t want to
kil us the same day I hear myself on the radio for the
first time. It wouldn’t be good karma.”
Ian got in the driver’s seat and slowly puled back
onto I-75. “What do you know about karma, anyway?”
“For starters, since I met you, I’ve got a record
deal, I’ve got a newly released single, I’m on the way to
do a radio interview and a show promoting my single,
and I’ve got a boyfriend. That sounds like pretty good
karma to me.”
“Wow, that’s a mouthful, Bily. I can’t take al the
credit. If you didn’t have talent, I couldn’t have done
any of this. I think we make a pretty good team, but no
labels as far as we go.”
“Gotcha, but speaking of mouthfuls,” Bily said
with a smile on his face, “I’m about to get me one.”
Bily reached over with his left hand and started
rubbing Ian’s dick through his jeans, and right on cue, it
responded immediately. “Bily, we can’t do this here.
What if someone sees us?”
“Who’s going to see us in the dark?” Bily said
while continuing to stroke Ian’s now semi-erect cock.
“Maybe a trucker or two, but even if some trucker
does see us, my face wil be buried in your crotch so
deep that no one wil be able to see it.”
How can I argue with that logic, and I really
don’t want to anyway.
“Go for it,” he said.
Bily unbuttoned Ian’s jeans, and Ian lifted up so
he could slide them down to his knees, just far enough
to get at what he wanted. Ian’s now fuly erect dick
pushed tightly against his Calvin Kleins. Bily opened the
fly of Ian’s underwear, and his cock popped out and
stood at attention. Bily teased Ian’s dick by kissing it
and circling his tongue around the head several times,
then kissing it again. Ian moaned with pleasure and
caressed Bily’s head and neck with his left hand while
steering with his right. Bily, stil teasing the head of Ian’s
dick, began to suck and nibble while alternating the
teasing circular motion.
In one gulp, the head of Ian’s cock was at the
back of Bily’s throat, as if he was attempting to
swalow him whole. Ian moaned, “Yes, cowboy” with
delight as he began to move up and down, slowly
fucking Bily’s mouth. With his mouth stil paying special
attention to the top half of Ian’s cock and his left hand
around the base, Bily’s right hand was attempting to
stretch open the fly in Ian’s underwear far enough to get
to his bals. When the opening was stretched as far as it
would go without ripping, he pushed Ian’s bals up to
meet his mouth. He released Ian’s dick momentarily,
sucked both bals into his mouth, and tenderly tousled
them around until Ian was gyrating in the driver’s seat.
Bily released Ian’s bals and switched his
attention to Ian’s rock-hard cock again. He released
Ian’s dick long enough to stick his middle finger in his
mouth and wet it thoroughly. He went back to bobbing
up and down while he slipped his hand up the inside
right leg of Ian’s underwear. He found what he was
looking for in seconds and felt the tight pucker against
his finger. He massaged the opening while continuing to
swalow Ian whole and then move up, go down, and
swalow again. Ian said, “Cowboy, I’m about to—”
and Bily pushed his finger in Ian’s ass as far as it would
go. He felt Ian’s ass tighten and release around his
finger as he bucked with each shot of his load hitting the
back of Bily’s throat. When Ian was through emptying
his bals, Bily slid his finger out of Ian’s ass as he heard
him gasp.
Bily bled Ian dry of every drop of come and
saliva, and once convinced he had finished the job, he
slid Ian’s now soft dick back inside his underwear. Ian
lifted again, and Bily puled his jeans back up to his
waist. With one knee on the steering wheel, Ian used
both hands to button his jeans. Bily leaned back in his
seat and, with his left hand resting on Ian’s right leg,
closed his eyes and said, ‘That’s the first time I’ve ever
done that, and it was damn hot.”
“If this means that every time you hear your song
on the radio, I get one of these, cowboy, I’m about to
start working a hel of a lot harder.”
“I think that’s a plan, so get to work.”
They puled off at the next exit for a quick
bathroom break, got a cup of coffee and a bagel at a
drive-through, and got back on the road. They had just
enough time to check into their hotel, take a quick
shower, and get to the radio station by seven o’clock.
By noon they were finished with the interviews
and driving back to the hotel to get some rest before the
show. They had sound checks at seven o’clock and the
show started at ten thirty.
When they got back to the hotel, Bily lay down
on the bed and Ian went into the bathroom. When Ian
came out, Bily was curled into a bal, fast asleep. Ian
tried to remove his boots without waking him, but that
was impossible. Bily roled over onto his back, and Ian
was able to remove his boots and his jeans. He sat up
briefly, and Ian took off his shirt. Bily slipped under the
covers while he watched Ian undress. Ian set the alarm
for six o’clock to be ready for the seven o’clock sound
check, and then they could come back to the hotel,
shower, and get a bite to eat before the show. Satisfied
that al bases were covered, Ian slipped under the
covers with Bily and closed his eyes. Bily lay awake
for a few more minutes, turned and snuggled up behind
Ian, and said, “I love you, Ian.” Ian wasn’t asleep, and
the words Bily murmured repeated in his head over and
over.
THE next six months were more of the same: press
junkets, radio interviews, and one-nighters, but they
were al paying off because Bily’s single was at number
fifteen on the country music charts and climbing.
The album was finaly finished and the release was
scheduled in two weeks, to coincide with the kickoff of
Trace and Bily’s tour. Bily and Ian had the last week
before the tour to rest. They’d planned on going down
to New Orleans for a few days, since Ian had never
been there and Bily didn’t know when he would have
time off again to visit family.
But before their vacation, they had to get through
Nashvile’s Fanfare, an event sponsored by al the
record labels and designed to let fans get up close and
personal with the artists. Bily had endless hours of meet
and greets with his growing fan base, posing for photos
and signing autographs, and he thoroughly enjoyed
every minute of it.
Trace was performing on the last night to officialy
close the event, and Ian arranged to have Bily open for
him to test the line-up for the tour. It was Bily’s first big
concert, and he was ready for it. He was a sensation.
The crowd loved him, the label execs loved him, Trace
loved him, and as Ian stood in the wings watching Bily
finish his encore, he knew in that very moment that he,
too, loved Bily. Not just loved him, but he was in love
with him.
The realization hit him hard, and he stood there
frozen with his eyes closed on the verge of tears; not
tears of happiness, but tears of fear and panic.
This
wasn’t supposed to happen. How could this have
happened? I was so guarded, so sure that I’d had
kept everything in the proper compartments.
He had
convinced himself that he was only along for the ride.
Just get Bily where he needs to be. He could quit
anytime and not look back. What was he going to do
now?
When Bily came offstage, he was exhilarated. It
was like he was high on something, the fans, the lights,
and the energy; it was like he had just performed for the
first time.
Where’s Ian?
he thought.
I need Ian
. People
were crowding him, congratulating him, and Josh was
there with a huge grin on his face, but no Ian. “Josh,
have you seen Ian?”
“He was here with me during the encore, but then
he said he wasn’t feeling too wel and went back to
your trailer.”
When Bily was finished thanking al the wel
wishers, he went straight to his trailer to find Ian. When
he opened the door, the trailer was in darkness; he
flipped on the lights and realized that Ian had been
sitting there in the dark. He ran to his side and saw tears
running down his cheeks. “Ian, what’s wrong, are you
sick? Should I cal a doctor?” No response. “Ian, talk
to me.”
“I’m fine. I just need to go home.”
“Okay, I’l have you home in fifteen minutes.
Let’s go,” Bily said.
“No, I want to go to my house, in Westhaven,”
Ian replied.
“Sure, handsome, whatever you want, but can I
ask why?”
“We need to talk,” Ian said.
“About what?” Bily asked with panic in his voice.
“Not here,” was al Ian said.
THEY drove to Westhaven in silence. Bily tried to get
Ian to talk, but it was useless. It was like he’d just shut
down. He was cold and distant, not himself, not the Ian
he had falen in love with.
When they got home, Ian walked directly to his
bedroom and Bily folowed.
“Okay, we’re home, now talk to me.”
Ian said, “I can’t go on tour with you, Bily.”
“Why the hel not?”
“Because I can’t. I’l cal Josh and have them
assign another manager to your career and you’l be
fine. Your career has a momentum of its own now.
You’l be okay.”
“I don’t want another manager, Ian. I want you.”
“You can’t have me, Bily.”
“What are you saying, Ian? This is it, just like
that?”
“Yes, that’s exactly what I’m saying. It’s better
this way.”
“Better for whom?” Bily shot back.
“Better for both of us,” Ian said. “Go to New
Orleans, go on tour, and enjoy your career. You earned
it.”
“I don’t want any of it without you, Ian. I love
you.”
“Bily, don’t say that. It can’t work.”
“Ian, you can’t push me away. I won’t go without
a fight. You’ve got to tel me what happened to you,
who hurt you so terribly that you’re wiling to give up on
us. This is kiling me and it’s kiling you.”
Through sobs, Ian said, “It doesn’t matter, Bily.
I’m damaged goods, and you deserve so much more
than I can offer you. You’re the best man I know, and I
can’t continue to hurt you. You need to let me go.”
“Don’t begin to think you can tel me what I
need,” Bily said. “I know you give me everything you
can, and I’ve never asked for anything more than that.
You wanted no labels and you got no labels. I kept my