Father Mine: Zsadist and Bella's Story

Table of Contents

Title Page

Acknowledgements

Copyright Page

Dedication

ONE

TWO

THREE

FOUR

FIVE

SIX

SEVEN

EIGHT

NINE

TEN

ELEVEN

Epilogue

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

WITH THANKS TO:

Kara Cesare, without whom this whole BDB thing couldn’t possibly
have gone as far as it has. You are the champion and the cheerleader and
the chess master of everything I do—and I’ll stop the gushing there,
otherwise this book will be longer than even Phury’s.

Everyone at New American Library, especially:
Claire Zion, Kara Welsh, and Leslie Gelbman, Craig Burke and Jodi Rosoff,
Lindsay Nouis, the great Anthony, and the wonderful Rachel Granfield,
who deals so graciously with my twenty-pound manuscripts.

Steve Axelrod, who’s the captain of my ship.

Monstrous thanks to The Incomparable Suzanne Brockmann
(I’m getting her a sash with that on it and a sparkly crown), Christine Feehan
(whose obelisk I’m building as we speak) and her amazing family
(Domini, Manda, Denise, and Brian), Sue Grafton, aka Mother Sue,
Linda Francis Lee, Lisa Gardner, and
all
my other writer friends.

Once again a huge thank-you to the best dental teams in the world:
Scott A. Norton, DMD, MSD, and Kelly Eichler, along with Kim and
Rebecca and Crystal; and David B. Fox, DMD, and Vickie Stein.

D.L.B., who’s the best metal-studded, ass-kicking baby boy in the whole world. xxx mummy
N.T.M., whose idea this whole
Insider’s Guide
was and
who did so much work on it—and whose kind nature is
bested only by his patience and his sense of humor.

Dr. Jessica Andersen—my CP and confidante and sparring partner.
LeElla Scott—you have too many nicknames at this point to list.
So I’ll just go with the most important one: Bestie.
And Kaylie’s momma—who’s still my Idol.

As always to Mom, Boat, and the Boo.

PRAISE FOR THE NOVELS OF THE BLACK DAGGER BROTHERHOOD

Lover Unbound
Winner of the
Romantic Times
2007 Reviewers’ Choice Award
for Best Vampire Romance

“The newest in Ward’s ferociously popular Black Dagger Brotherhood series bears all the marks of a polished storyteller at home in her world. . . . This fix will give Brotherhood addicts a powerful rush.”—
Publishers Weekly

“Loss, sacrifice, and darkness continue to be major themes as one of Ward’s most damaged heroes gets his story. Sex and violence make this tale of emotional redemption unusually graphic and powerful. Ward pulls no punches and delivers an extraordinary paranormal drama.”—
Romantic Times
(Top Pick, 4½ stars)

Lover Revealed

“[T]hese erotic paranormals are well worth it, and frighteningly addictive. . . . It all works to great, page-turning effect. . . . In just two years, the . . . series [has] earned Ward an Anne Rice-style following, deservedly so.”—
Publishers Weekly

“It’s tough to keep raising the bar in a series, but the phenomenal Ward manages to do just that! . . . The world of the Black Dagger Brotherhood continues to grow and become more layered, ramping up the tension, risk and passion. . . . Awesome stuff.”—
Romantic Times
(Top Pick, 4½ stars)

Lover Awakened
Winner of the
Romantic Times
2006 Reviewers’ Choice Award
for Best Vampire Romance

“Best new series I’ve read in years! Tautly written, wickedly sexy, and just plain fun.”—Lisa Gardner,
New York Times
bestselling author of
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“
Lover Awakened
is utterly absorbing and deliciously erotic. I found myself turning pages faster and faster—and then I wished I hadn’t, because there was no more to read! The Brotherhood is the hottest collection of studs in romance, and I can’t wait for the next one!” —Angela Knight,
USA Today
bestselling author of
Master of Dragons

“Ward pulls no punches in this dark, dangerous, and at times tragic series. Waiting for successive installments is getting harder and harder.” —
Romantic Times
(Top Pick, 4½ stars)

Lover Eternal

“Ward wields a commanding voice perfect for the genre, and readers new to the world of the Black Dagger Brotherhood should hold on tight for an intriguing, adrenaline-pumping ride featuring a race of warrior vampires who fill enemies with terror and women with desire. Like any good thrill ride, the pace changes with a tender story of survival and hope and leaves readers begging for more. Fans of L. A. Banks, Laurell K. Hamilton, and Sherrilyn Kenyon will add Ward to their must-read list.”—
Booklist

“[An] extremely intense and emotionally powerful tale. . . . Ward’s paranormal world is, among other things, colorful, dangerous, and richly conceived. . . . Intricate plots and believable characters.”—
Romantic Times
(Top Pick, 4½ stars)

Dark Lover

“It’s not easy to find a new twist on the vampire myth, but Ward succeeds beautifully. This dark and compelling world is filled with enticing romance as well as perilous adventure. With myriad possibilities to choose from, the Black Dagger Brotherhood series promises tons of thrills and chills.” —
Romantic Times
(Top Pick, 4½ stars)

“A dynamite new vampire series—delicious, erotic, and thrilling! J. R. Ward has created a wonderful cast of characters, with a sexy, tormented, to-die-for hero. . . . A fabulous treat for romance readers!” —Nicole Jordan,
New York Times
bestselling author of
Touch Me with Fire

“J. R. Ward has a great style of writing, and she shines. . . . You will lose yourself in this world; it is different, creative, dark, violent, and flat-out amazing.” —All About Romance

“An awesome, instantly addictive debut novel. It’s a midnight whirlwind of dangerous characters and mesmerizing erotic romance. The Black Dagger Brotherhood owns me now. Dark fantasy lovers, you just got served.” —Lynn Viehl, author of
Twilight Fall

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Copyright © Jessica Bird, 2008

Excerpts from
Dark Lover
copyright © Jessica Bird 2005; excerpts from
Lover Eternal
copyright © Jessica Bird 2006; excerpts from
Lover Awakened
copyright © Jessica Bird 2006;
excerpts from
Lover Revealed
copyright © Jessica Bird 2007; excerpts from
Lover Unbound
copyright © Jessica Bird 2007; excerpts from
Lover Enshrined
copyright © Jessica Bird 2008.
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