Authors: Jessica Cotter
by
Jessica Cotter
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Jessica Cotter
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ISBN: 978-1-68299-197-8
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Cover Artist: Kelly Martin
Editor: Fern Valentine
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For Ty - always
For Bella, Moses, and Amelia - may curiosity take
you on many great journeys.
The Tapestry
Eri descended the basement stairs on her way to school. An unfamiliar restlessness settled in her muscles, leaving her uncomfortable and dissatisfied. She didn't want to go to school today, but she had no other option.
The sticky humidity of the basement coated her skin. Hooked to the wall with an impressive set of cords was a large, intimidating machine. A similar machine was anchored to the opposite wall. She ran her fingers lightly along the raised words on its side: Schooling and Interpersonal Management Simulator.
Her machine was mostly made of thick, cold metal, the once sleek newness of it giving way to rust and wear. Her brother Ezra's machine was older and had more plastic parts; where hers was sturdy, his was flimsy. But both machines worked the same.
Eri opened the door and climbed into the bulky machine. She had gone to school through a simulation since she was five and when she was little, she used to pretend she was getting into a fighter jet. Affixing the headgear and footgear and vest with vital readers and gloves was now habitual.
She activated the Sims, typed in her log on and password and then waited. Sometimes a retinal scan would happen, so she held her eyes open wide. With a beep, her avatar, or persona, appeared in front of her. The 3D image turned slowly, allowing Eri to assess if this was, indeed, what she wanted to look like today. Her persona had grown bland over the years, mirroring Eri's true physical features more accurately: dull brown hair, wide, dark eyes.
Eri clicked "Accept" next to her persona and an image of the outside world pixelated slowly. A bright blue sky blossomed, and an earthy, autumn breeze grazed her cheeks. Leaves drifted down from towering oaks while the sun suddenly warmed her back. She used to love Sims sunshine, but today she was too aware that it wasn't real. There was no warm sun on her shoulders; just wires, connections, illusions.
Her legs abruptly felt weak. She stumbled to a bench, sitting her simulated self down. The world spun as she hunched forward.
"Hey, Eri." A tall redhead sat primly next to her. She flashed Eri a large smile, her perfect white teeth too even, too straight.
Eri stared at the unfamiliar face, perplexed at the girl's casual greeting. "Um, hi?"
The girl laughed. "Taya. From math?"
"Oh, uh, you look different. I like your hair." Eri attempted a smile.
"Thanks. I've been bored lately so I'm trying different personas to spice things up. Speaking of, you might want to alter yours a little. The one you are using is horribly paleâ¦almost a green color."
"That might just be me," Eri said. "I'm not feeling so good."
Taya's nose wrinkled within her sympathetic expression. "Weird. I know it's impossible to spread germs through the Sims, but a couple people have told me they haven't felt good lately. Are you going to go to your classes?"
Eri shrugged. Four hours of school suddenly became a mountain. Maybe she would go tonight instead. She couldn't just skip completely. The simulated schools tracked attendance and progress carefully. Should she not attend, she might lose her log on and be isolated in her home, Sims-less, for weeks. She couldn't risk missing that much school this close to the Achievement Exam.
"No," Eri decided. "I think I'll go later."
"Well, I'm headed to class," Taya said, motioning towards the tall, brick building closest to them. She stood and looked down at Eri. "If you really are that pale, you should probably get some rest."
Eri tried to find Taya's concern comforting. "Okay. I might attend the night session for math, so I guess I won't see you until tomorrow." Eri pushed a button to exit the Sims world. The view of the sky faded to blackness.
Eri removed her goggles and sat in the Sims machine, dizzy and clammy with sweat. She disentangled herself from the machine and pulled herself out, feeling better immediately. What the hell? The Sims is making me sick?
She watched TV. She drank water. She wandered back up to her room in darkness. She lay in bed and stared up at the ceiling. Ezra was sleeping. Her parents were at work. School made her nauseous. Her skin crawled with boredom.
Her eyes wandered to the dim outline of a tapestry opposite her, blanketing the wall from floor to ceiling. She was certain it must hold color, but it forever looked black and grey. Eri closed her eyes and tried to imagine red. What did red look like? She'd seen it at school. She knew it existed, but it didn't feel real. She wanted to touch it. Did red things feel different? She opened her eyes, this time standing and walking to the tapestry, lightly touching its rough stitching.
She grew more confident in her appraisal of its texture; it was coarse under her soft fingertips. Upon closer inspection, the cloth had flecks of gold and what might have been red once. It was filthy and full of dust, dander and mites embedded into the very fibers of its structure. She ran her hand along the fabric until she reached its edge, butted up against the corner of the wall. A nervous stone settled into the pit of her stomach, and her hands perspired in response to her laissez-faire attitude toward her mother's warnings. Don't ever move the tapestry. Don't ever touch the cloth.
With a rough movement, she ripped it back from the wall and finagled her body behind it. Heat and adrenaline forced sweat out of her pores. Once sandwiched between the tapestry and the wall, Eri felt along the wall until her fingers were stopped by stickiness. Her fingers explored a piece of old tape, its edges gummy with time. She pulled the tape away from the wall and a dark tarp fell from a large square on the wall.
"A window," she whispered. A thrill of fear sucked out her breath. The nausea and boredom dissipated.
Eri pulled up on its metal frame. It stuck briefly before sliding up with a small squeal. A hot blast of air shook her, swarming with the smell of smog and earth and sun. She inhaled the unfamiliar smells.
Eri stared, immobilized by the newness of the outside world. The blinding sun baked down on a deserted street. For as far as she could see on either side of her were identical buildings with identical windows, black and empty. A potholed snake of asphalt lay nestled between the grey, looming buildings. A crossroad sat silently several hundred yards to her right. To her left, alleys interrupted the road.
Thick, grey smog crept along the roofline of the building across from her, sneaking over the top of it before sinking towards the earth. The silence pressed on her awkwardly; she'd imagined the world outside to have sounds. In this moment of reality, there was nothing.
A sudden awareness of both her vulnerability, and absolute disobedience regarding one of her mother's clearest rules (don't touch the tapestry) mobilized Eri's fixed attention. She slammed the window down, gathering the loud, awkward tarp in the darkness and reattaching it as best she could with the limp, old tape. She skirted out from behind the tapestry, breathing heavily.
She blinked into the darkness of the room, panic building in her veins.
"Ezra," she said as she walked down the hall. "Ezra!"
She suspected it would be difficult to wake him. He lay on his stomach, diagonal across the bed. His mouth was open slightly as he snored. "Ezra!"
He rolled onto his back and opened one eye. "What?"
Eri's words tumbled out. "I opened my window. I don't know why. I went to school, but felt sick, so I came upstairs and then I was in my room and I just felt so weirdâ¦bored, frustrated, I don't know. And then I went behind the tapestry."
Ezra sat up. "Really? Mom is going to kill you."
Eri worked to control her breathing. "Could she know? Like, how would she know? Maybe she won't find out."
Ezra's scrunched his face together as he thought. "Soâ¦what did you see? What does it look like?"
The whirlwind of alarm in her brain stopped abruptly. She sat down on Ezra's bed, blinking at the vivid image of the outside that was burned into her mind. "It was hot. Andâ¦empty."
"But what do things look like? Is it like when we are at school?"
"Notâ¦at all." She looked at him. "Why would the Sims be so different from the real world? I mean, it isn't like we won't ever go out into the real world. Why keep it such a secret?"
Ezra shrugged. "It isn't a secret. Mom and dad go out in it every day. They just keep us inside to protect us. You probably got lung cancer just opening your window."
She punched his arm. "Shut up. It was so quiet out there. Like a dead world."
"Like it is in our house every day? Seriously, sis, I think you are making a big deal out of nothing. I'm sure mom won't know you opened the window. Just forget about it." He lay back down and rolled over.
Eri stood up and stared at her dozing brother. Just forget about it, she thought, repeating his advice to herself. She wasn't sure she could.
Outside
Eri stared into the kitchen, not noticing the tasteless grain and liquid mixture she forced herself to swallow. She glanced at the clock, its faint blue hue negligibly illuminating the room. Eleven in the morning. Her parents had been at work for two hours. She sighed, feeling no motivation to do anything. She knew she needed to go to school. She hadn't gone yesterday at all and it had taken a lot of persistence to get her mom to log in and excuse her absence. She would have to go today.
Eri leaned back in her chair and glanced down at the plastic flooring. Her knees were bony, her pale legs reflecting the blue light in sickly shades. She tried to remember when she had showered last. A couple of days, maybe? They were allowed two minutes of water a day, but Eri preferred to bank her minutes, which allowed her a four minute shower every two days or six minutes every three. She couldn't get the job done in two minutes.
Eri's thoughts were interrupted by what she thought was a shadow, a shadow that passed over her face when her eyes were shut with thought. She opened her eyes wide, staring into the dark living room. A shadow cannot exist without light, she thought to herself, and there is not enough light in this whole house to create a shadow. The blaring silence made her ears ache. Her heart picked up speed.
Eri stood up in irritation, forcing her flimsy chair to squeak against the floor. She dropped her bowl into the metal sink with a clank. She turned, leaned against the counter and stared into the living room. Straight ahead, past the living room, was the front door. To its right was the keypad, glowing green.
The front door separated two very different worlds. Her curiosity about the outside was insatiable, but the risks tempered her temptation. The air on the other side of that door was dirty and hot, and the housing unit had been built to keep that air outside. The ventilation and water purification systems for the building were sensitive to changes in air quality and temperature. She was certain opening the door even for a moment would be noticed, and she would have no real excuse for why she had done it. She'd heard of students being cut off from the Sims machines, not allowed to go to school or socialize at all, and shuddered at the thought of what her days would be like, in her crypt of a home, with nothing to do and no one to talk to.