‘Oh, this is most terrible.’ Realising he was being teased, Luigi joined in the joke, pounding his forehead with the butt of his hand in typically Italian fashion. ‘You turn into a Southerner.
Mamma Mia
,
what we tell your papa?’
‘I suggest we keep it our little secret, Luigi.’
‘Very good, very good,’ an exaggerated shrug of resignation, ‘I say nothing to Stan that his daughter is a traitor.’
‘Yep, best we keep Stan the Man out of it I reckon.’
Kate blew him a kiss, and Luigi saluted her once more with his oil rag. He watched as she turned, flicking her auburn hair back like a horse might its mane. Then she walked out of the mill with that easy, confident stride of hers. There was still the tomboy in her, he could see that, still the physical assurance that she could outride, outswim and outrun many a male her age. Growing up in a man’s world she’d always been competitive, never one content to sit among the women on the sidelines of life. But he’d recognised the change in her the moment he’d seen her enter the mill, well before he’d made his presence known. No more the lanky teenager, Kate Durham had become a woman.
He plonked himself down on the wooden crate and resumed his work. The fact was hardly remarkable, he told himself. Kate would be eighteen in mid-January, barely one month away. But the change was confronting nonetheless. It wasn’t just the way her body had matured, which was to be expected – there was a sexual awareness about her, he could sense it. She’s probably lost her virginity in Sydney, he thought disapprovingly. Luigi’s own daughter, Paola, was just three years younger than Kate and he dreaded the prospect of her falling for some lusty young buck after nothing but sex. Paola would marry when she’d met the right man, and she would be wed a virgin; he’d kill any bastard who attempted to deflower her.
Luigi wondered how Stan would react if he discovered his daughter was no longer a virgin. Indeed he’d wondered from the outset why Stanley Durham had allowed his daughter to travel so far afield for her education. Surely Kate could have gone to university in Queensland. She would still have been away from home of course, that was unavoidable, but at least she wouldn’t have been influenced by the decadence that abounded in the south. Sydney was a den of vice; everyone knew that.
Luigi had never voiced such misgivings, however – it was hardly his place to do so. He and Stan were friends certainly, but Luigi Fiorelli, an intelligent man, was well aware there were limitations attached to such a friendship. Ah well, he now told himself, it is none of my business, and he shrugged and got on with his work.
Stanley Durham made a point of initiating close ties with his workers, particularly his key employees, who called him by his first name. Those of long standing like Luigi were indeed considered friends, and often asked up to The Big House, although such offers were never extended when visiting dignitaries were ensconced there.
Stan chose not to play ‘the Boss’ among the general hierarchy of Elianne, but rather the skipper of the team. His workers called him Mr Stan to his face, but he was indirectly referred to by all as Stan the Man, a term which rather pleased him, for he saw himself as a man’s man and a leader of men. But if the truth were known ‘Stan the Man’ was just another term for ‘the Boss’, because that’s exactly what Stan Durham was. He was very like his grandfather, who had built Elianne out of nothing; in fact Stan the Man was Big Jim Durham all over again.
Kate set off at a leisurely pace on the mile-long walk to The Big House. The day promised to become a scorcher, but at the moment a mild breeze alleviated the discomfort; even at its most intense, the weather was never as oppressively humid as it was further to the north, where the swelter of the tropics could be overwhelming. In any event, Kate loved the heat of midsummer. Many from the South considered it insufferable, but personally she couldn’t understand how others could withstand the cold as they did. Sydney’s climate was supposedly temperate and yet she’d found the winter quite uncomfortable. She dreaded to think what a Melbourne winter would be like, or worse still a Tasmanian one.
She crossed the rail tracks to where she’d left the dogs sitting patiently beside the mill dam. The moment they saw her approach, they jumped up, tails wagging, but they didn’t leave the spot, waiting for her to come to them instead. Cobber and Ben were well trained and knew that the dam was as close to the mill as they were allowed to go.
‘Good boys,’ she said. As she reached them then continued down the dirt road, the dogs raced on ahead, Cobber having trouble keeping up with Ben, although it didn’t ultimately matter as Ben kept circling back to round him up.
Cobber was an eight-year-old Golden Labrador just beginning to show his age and Ben was a hyperactive Blue Heeler who happily rounded up everything he saw except stock. The family had inherited Ben, now four, as a pup from a local farmer who bred working dogs. ‘He’s no use to me,’ the farmer had told them, ‘he got kicked by a steer and won’t go near cattle.’
It’s so good to be home, Kate thought as she watched the dogs at play, Ben circling back to nip at Cobber’s heels as if to speed him up, Cobber accepting the bullying good-naturedly; the two were great mates. Ostensibly the dogs belonged to the family, but everyone considered them Kate’s as she’d trained them and they simply adored her. Kate had always had a way with animals.
She walked on enjoying the burn of the mid-morning sun on her bare shoulders. She was wearing a light cotton shift with shoestring straps, and the heat’s caress through the dress’s thin fabric was more than pleasurable. It was sensual, somehow arousing – a little erotic even. She smiled and quickened her pace, chastising herself. Good God, girl, is there anything these days that
isn’t
arousing, that you
don’t
find erotic? Pull yourself together and stop thinking about sex.
Luigi Fiorelli was wrong in his reasoning. Kate had not lost her virginity in Sydney. But she had come very close to it, and she certainly intended to do so upon her return in the New Year.
Now as she strode down the road and past the stables, she thought of Jeremy, recalling with fierce clarity that night he’d first kissed her. It had been nearly three months earlier, and the first real kiss she’d ever known. She’d considered herself quite an experienced kisser, but she’d obviously been wrong, for this was something entirely different. This was not the experimental brush of teenage lips at school dances in Brisbane, nor was it the clumsy fumbles of local boys, easily fought off, in the back row of Bundaberg’s Paramount picture theatre on a Saturday afternoon. This was the tenderest exploration of mouths. She could still recall her wonderment at the fact that she hadn’t found his tongue repulsive. She could relive, and had done many times, every moment of her surrender to an intrusion that was at first shocking, then fascinating, then amazing as in her boldness she’d parted her lips that little bit more, allowing him easy access, even flickering her own tongue over the delicate tips of his teeth.
She could have given herself wholly to him in the back room of that poky East Sydney flat while the party raged next door. And indeed in a way she had given herself to him. The promise had been there – they’d both recognised it. But Jeremy had not rushed her. Twenty-year-old Jeremy, a second-year Arts student, mature and experienced, but also infatuated, was, Kate knew, not after a one-night stand. Jeremy wanted a full-on affair and aware she was a virgin he had no wish to frighten her. He’d been content to bide his time. Over the ensuing weeks, he’d progressed a little further – his lips travelling down her neck; his hand straying lightly over her breast, sending shivers through her body – never too invasive, but steadily more intimate. To Kate, however, it was the indelible memory of that first kiss that remained the true turning point. She’d made her decision. Jeremy would be the man to whom she would surrender her virginity.
The week before her return to Queensland for the Christmas holidays she’d visited a doctor and put herself on the contraceptive pill for that express purpose.
‘I’ll see you in the New Year,’ she’d whispered as he’d kissed her goodbye at the train station, and they’d both known exactly what she meant.
Having passed by the cookhouse and mess hall, and then the bakery, Kate reached the village green, with Elianne Hall to her right. The estate’s village green and hall had been social centres throughout the whole of her childhood, as they had throughout the childhoods of many of her contemporaries, and also those of generations past.
She came to a halt, once again chastising herself, but this time in a more serious vein. I really must put Jeremy and sex out of my mind, she thought crossly. She’d been away from Elianne for close on a year and yet her head was full of the impending loss of her virginity. If she went on like this she’d ruin her entire holiday.
She sat on the hall’s front step, Cobber flopping contentedly at her feet, Ben as ever wandering off to explore. Looking out across the village green she recalled the many fetes and picnics, where teams of small children had competed in every imaginable event contrived to excite and enthral the young. Workers’ children of all colour and creed: Australians, Italians, a few Kanakas and Chinese, English, Scots, here and there the odd Scandinavian and German, here and there several Torres Strait Islanders. She could see them all now, herself included, running themselves ragged in three-legged races, staggering clumsily about in hessian sacks and hauling on twenty yards of rope as if their lives depended upon winning the tug o’ war.
The same fetes and picnics and parties continued to this very day. The numbers had dwindled somewhat of late, but Stan the Man insisted tradition be upheld. She’d been home for just one week, and on the Saturday following her arrival there’d been a pre-Christmas picnic attended by at least twenty families. She and her younger brother Alan, who was home from boarding school, had handed out the presents and the toffee-apples, while Neil, soon to turn twenty, the oldest of the three and heir apparent, had awarded the prizes, a job that had always been the domain of their father. These days, however, Stanley Durham, while remaining as dominant a figure as ever, preferred to sit on the sidelines like a benign monarch, surveying his realm, his subjects and his family with pride.
The Durham siblings, although no longer among those youngsters so fiercely competing, had shared in the recognition, and taken pleasure in the knowledge that some things hadn’t changed, and some things probably never would. Kate smiled now as she recalled their exchange. Not one word had been spoken, but the glances they’d shared had said everything. They’d been children again: ten or eight or six, no matter, the two-year age difference between each of them had never formed a barrier. Throughout the whole of their childhood, they’d been the three musketeers, and she, in the middle, had been the lynch pin. Kate loved her brothers dearly.
And as for the hall, she thought, turning to look over her shoulder, well the hall hasn’t changed one bit. The building indeed seemed to belong in a time warp – it had been the same for as long as she could remember.
Elianne Hall, as it was grandly known, was really just a vast timber-framed building with a tin roof, but for the mill’s workers and extended family it had been a vital hub for generations. Here every form of festivity had taken place, concerts and parties for all occasions, along with birthdays, weddings and wakes. The hall also served as a Sunday school, and not only for the workers’ children. Attendance by the Durham siblings had been mandatory.
Again Kate wondered why everything seemed so poignant. Is it just because I’ve been away so long? she asked herself. Or is it because I’ve changed? Everything else appears to have remained much the same. It must surely be me.
She stood. Time to go home. She was hungry now – she’d skipped breakfast for an early-morning walk down by the river.
Cobber, who’d been dozing in the sun, stretched and joined her as she set off. Ben was nowhere in sight, but she didn’t need to call him. Within minutes he’d appeared and was racing on ahead.
Across the village green, she could see several girls around fifteen years of age wending their way homewards along the rough bush track. They were animatedly chattering as they returned from their morning stints at Elianne’s cattle yards and dairy a half a mile away. Kate gave them a wave and they waved back. She knew each one of the dairymaids: two were the daughters of the dairy farmer himself, and the third was the butcher’s daughter, who was earning extra money during her school holidays. Their fathers were not seasonal itinerate workers, but lived on the estate running their businesses year-round as many did.
During the crushing season, several hundred mill and field workers were employed at Elianne, the cookhouse working round the clock to provide dawn breakfasts, packed lunches, smokos, evening meals and shift dinners for the hundred or so accommodated in the single men’s barracks. Throughout the slack season, however, Elianne remained a self-sustaining village catering to the families who lived on the estate. It boasted a general store, a bakery, and a butcher’s shop that was regularly supplied with fresh meat from the nearby piggery and cattle slaughter yards.
With only two thousand acres of the property under cane, the majority of the mill’s produce came from local farmers, some of whose children worked on the estate alongside others who travelled by foot or bicycle from the settlement of South Kolan, only two miles away. Given the affordability of vehicles and the easy access of modern roads, there were also those who now commuted from Bundaberg, but despite the changes wrought by progress, Elianne remained a community, and a vibrant one at that. Elianne was a family to which people were proud to belong.
Kate walked on down the road, passing the attractive cottages of South Mill Row with their front verandahs and pretty little gardens. One of these was home to Luigi Fiorelli and his family. There were several such rows of cottages on the estate, but the others offered far more basic accommodation than those of South Mill Row, which were reserved for the permanently employed and most valuable of workers. Indeed, the hierarchy of Elianne could be immediately detected in the architecture of the housing allotted to its employees. To the north of the mill were the single men’s barracks, to the east and the west the rows of rudimentary cottages reserved for married workers, and then there was South Mill Row. After that there followed a further distinctly upwards curve, for the homes allotted to Elianne’s senior staff were a different matter altogether. There were at least a half a dozen of them dotted about the estate, gracious affairs of striking design: stilted wooden, Queensland-style houses with broad verandahs, perfectly suited to the climate.