Don't Say You Love Me (Boundless Love Book 1) (15 page)

The nausea was easing up a bit, but it hadn’t stopped her from shedding the pounds. Her mouth was dry, her skin felt itchy, she just wanted to hid
e under the covers forever, but she knew that wasn’t the way to live.

‘You’ll be fine. I know what you really look like when you’re feeling good. This is only temporary.’ He walked up behind her and put his arms around her waist. ‘Look at us, we look good together.’

She smiled faintly.

‘You think so?’

‘Of course I do.’ He kissed her cheek.

She sunk into him and allowed him to be her anchor. For once in her life she would let someone else be the driver.

Chapter Nine

After a few weeks things went back to normal, as normal as they could get.
Sahara went back to work as did Eugene. They’d managed to live together without any trouble, once Sahara had accepted his help. It was a hard time to adjust back to living on her own, she’d come to rely on his help.

That evening she was happy, not only was she having her friends over, there was one more session of chemotherapy left, and that was it. It made her feel happy that she wouldn’t have to feel sick and struggle through it.

She poked the jacket potatoes in the oven to see if they were ready yet.

‘A few more minutes.’
She mumbled to herself then checked the chicken Cancun curry. ‘Everything is perfect!’

She pu
lled out the bottle of wine she’d bought for the girls and a few bottles of J2O for herself. Just as she was about to head upstairs, the doorbell rang. Sahara’s heart leapt, she was like a little girl having her friends over for a sleep over. It was her way of just being, and she love every moment of it.

‘Hey!’ Both Emily and Felicity shrilled.

They took her into a big hug.

‘You look great!’ said Emily.

‘Thank you, I feel great. I’m definitely a ten today!’

‘That’s great news! It must
be that new man in your life!’ Felicity winked.

‘You told her?’ asked
Sahara.

‘I had no choice, she forced me to tell her.’

‘Oh I did not, she just couldn’t help herself.’

‘Well then, since none of you want to own up to this, I’ll tell you myself. Yes, it’s the new man in my life. He definitely has done something to me.’

‘Wow! I never thought Eugene had it in him,’ said Emily.

They walked into the living-room where
Sahara had spread a large blanket and large cushions on the floor. Emily was the first one to pull off her shoes and sit with her legs crossed.

‘All this
yoga is making me supper flexible.’ She showed off her pose.

‘When did you start yoga?’ asked
Sahara. ‘You never mentioned that.’

‘That’s because you were too busy shagging that man of yours!’ She started to pull off her jacket.

‘Emily O’Brian, how dare you!’

‘So it’s true then?’ Felicity pulled off her jacket and sat down on one of the cushions, but not in a yoga pose.

‘Don’t try and change the subject, when did you start yoga, I might like to try it myself.’

‘A couple of weeks ago,
its brill.’ She lifted her hands and then went down to the floor. ‘It’s turned me into a better person.’ She turned her head and gazed up at Sahara.

‘It has, has it?’
Sahara said.

‘Oh yes. Anyway, what’s on for
tonight?’

‘Well, I
have wine for you two. I’ve made Jacket potatoes with Chicken Cancun curry and a salad.

‘Sounds fab, I’m starving,’ said Emily.

‘You’re always starving these days, what gives?’ said Felicity.

‘Are you pregnant?’ asked
Sahara.

‘Don’t be silly, not yet.’ She giggled. ‘Maybe.’ She continued to laugh. ‘I don’t know, but I will have to pass on the wine
, just in case.’

‘So it’s a whole bottle for me!’ said Felicity.

‘After dinner, I have blueberry frozen yogurt.’

‘Yummy!’ Emily said.

‘We can catch up during our meal, and later watch a movie.’

‘Anything you have in mind?’ asked Emily.

‘You guys have a scroll on sky movies, I’m okay with anything.’

‘Will do.’ Felicity reached for the remote control.

Sahara left them to it while she went to sort out the food and drinks. Thirty minutes later they were all sat on the floor, chatting and giggling about anything and everything.

‘This feels great!’ said
Sahara. ‘I can eat, I can laugh and I can have sex.’

‘Oh go on, tell us!’ Emily pried. ‘Is he good in bed?’

‘What do you think?’

‘I take that as a yes,’ said Emily.

‘I’m glad you’re having a great time. We’re happy you finally get some bedroom action. Lack of it was making you ever so uptight,’ said Felicity.

‘Really, what bedroom action are you getting?’

‘You know me, I’m the friends with benefits girl.’

‘So you’re still at it with him?’ asked Emily.

‘Weak I know. I really should dump him. I took your advice on board, what you said the last time really hit me. I guess I’ve enjoyed it up until a moment, now I want more.’

‘It’s good to want more,’ said
Sahara. ‘I don’t think any woman in her right mind could keep it up long term.’

‘It’s just the breaking up part.’

‘How can you break up from a relationship that wasn’t even in existence in the first place?’ asked Emily.

Felicity
hit her playfully with a small cushion.

‘Take your time, you’ll figure it out. There will come a time when you just won’t want to do it anymore, and you’ll let him know, but make sure you’re ready, otherwise you’ll just keep on going back to him.’

Felicity nodded, she was certain that she was ready. The relationship gave her nothing in return. It was like buying a lottery ticket and hoping someday she’d win. It was a poor investment with no returns.

‘I’ve got one more session of chemo left!’

‘Oh wow! This is exciting?’ Emily wasn’t sure.

‘I hope so. I’ll know soon enough if they’ve got rid of all the cancer.

‘I’m sure it’s done the job,’ said Emily.

‘I’m hopeful. I mean
Eugene has put a lot of things into perspective.’ She smiled. ‘Speak of the devil.’ Her phone buzzed. ‘You don’t mind if I get that.’

‘No of course not, ignore us as much as you like, we’ll live,’ said Emily.

Sahara stood up and moved back into the kitchen with the plates in one hand and the mobile in the other.

‘Hey.’ She put down the plate
s.

‘Hey you! How are you?’

‘I’m great thanks. How are you?’ She felt warm inside.

‘Missing you.
’

‘I miss you too,’ she said. ‘I’m having a great time though.’

‘I’m glad to hear it. I don’t want to keep you from your girl’s night.’

‘Well I can’t hear them complaining.’

‘And we want to keep it that way. Anyway honey, I just wanted to hear your voice.’

She smiled.

‘I love you,’ he said.

‘I love you too, see you tomorrow.’

‘Yes, see you tomorrow.’

She hung up, and while she was still in the kitchen she decided to get the tubs of frozen yogurt.

‘Have you ladies decided what you’d like to watch?’ she handed them a tub each.

‘We’ll go for ‘How to loose a guy in ten days.’

‘Let me guess, Felicity’s choice.’

‘Why do you think it’s my
choice?’

‘Is it or isn’t it?’

‘Fine, it’s my choice.’

‘I knew it!’

‘Can we just watch the movie now?’ asked Emily.

They settled down and watched the movie.
Sahara loved the feeling of having her friends with her. It was like being back at high school, when things still made sense.

‘You guys are still staying over.’

‘Yep, I’m not driving after that bottle of wine,’ said Felicity.

‘Yes,
Myles is away for the weekend, so it’s me time.’

‘Great!’

It was a night to remember and hopefully a picture of good things to come.

****

‘Did you miss me?’ He took her into his arms.

‘Of course I missed you!’

He shut the door behind them.

‘Show me how much
.’ He touched her lips with his.

Her body told her just how much as it weakened bit by bit. His strong arms wrapped around her body, and he drew her close.

‘This much.’ She breathed into him.

‘I can tell.’ He mumbled against her lips.

He lifted her light body into his arms, she wrapped her legs around his waist, and kissed him passionately. It had never occurred to her that one day she’d be with a man as wonderful as him. It shocked her that he even wanted her, wanted to be by her side even when she wasn’t at her best.

He took them upstairs and int
o the bedroom. He was gentle as he lay her down on the bed. He took a moment to admire her. There was a wide grin on his face.

‘You have the most beautiful eyes.’ She couldn’t stop gazing at them.

‘I could say the same to you. I love your eyes, as dark as the night, so mysterious, they offer so much excitement.’

‘They do?’

‘Yes, they do. I love you Sahara. You’ve made me so happy, you’ve changed the way I view the world.’

She
kept her gaze on him.

‘You’ve taught me how important today is. This moment I’m in right now, is the best I have. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.’

She flung her arms around his neck and brought him closer. Her eyes shut as their lips touched. The warm breath on his lips sent a wave of excitement through his body. He felt complete, like he’d found what he’d been looking for.

‘I’m so glad I came to the wedding.’ He mumbled.

‘Hmmm.’ She kept her lips on his.

Instead of explaining himself, he began to explore her body beneath the clothes. His teeth took in her nipple that was beneath the fabric. He teased it tenderly and
Sahara let go. She was no longer shy or ashamed of her body. What mattered was the man who touched her, who made her feel like the most important person in the world.

He ran his lips down towards her waist, stopped and began to unbutton the jeans. Her brown flesh was now partly exposed, he loved the way she looked, the way h
is skin was in contrast to hers. He ran soft kisses over her stomach, ran them down towards her silky panties. She let out a light moan as he explored her.

He pushed back and began to wiggle the jeans off her. He planted soft kisses up her delicious brown thighs.
Sahara breathed heavily as he continued his exploration of her body. He crawled up softly and undid the buttons to the shirt.

‘You are more beautiful every time I see you.’ He kissed her bare chest. ‘You’re the prettiest woman I know. You’re beautiful both inside and outside.’

She giggled.

‘What?’

‘Nothing, I’m just really enjoying this, keep going.’

‘Oh I will, there aren’t enough words to describe the way I feel about you.’

Goosebumps trailed her body, she shut her eyes and enjoyed the teasing sensations of his touch. He kissed her scar tenderly, there was still feeling around it. He moved to her breast and cupped it in his hand, and flicked his tongue over the stiff nipple. She let out another soft moan as her body caved into the brilliant sensations.

He stopped for a moment, just so that he could rid himself of the clothes that were keeping him from feeling her warm skin. He fell back into her with his amazing naked body. He couldn’t stop smiling, he was happy and he wanted to show her just how much.

‘Hi there,’ he said.

‘Hi.’ She smiled up at him.

‘How do you feel?’

‘Amazing.’ Even though tomorrow would bring a different feeling,
Sahara chose to focus on the man above her. ‘I feel happy, I feel all warm and fuzzy.’

‘Fuzzy.’ He giggled. ‘I feel fuzzy too.’

She giggled and brought him back to her again. They kissed passionately, discovered each other’s mouth. She could kiss him forever and that would be enough. He pulled back only just, lingered a moment and then returned to her soft lips. He did that a couple of times, and each time it heightened her pleasure. He ran his hand down the middle of her stomach, down towards her panties and lingered there. He ran a thumb over her middle, applying the right amount of pressure on her clit.

‘Oh yes!’ she whispered.

He did it a couple of times, and then finally lowered her wet panties. He ran his thumb over her exposed skin. She was wet to the touch. With enough wetness on his thumb he took it into his mouth and savoured it.