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Charlotte had almost finished her dessert. Barbara, though, hadn’t eaten anything. Matt had been watching. She just reclined there, using her spoon to rearrange the tart in the bowl. At
first she picked out all the bits of lemon zest, and arranged them in a ring round the edge. Then she flattened out the soft filling and scraped patterns on its smooth surface with her spoon. She
concentrated fully on this, not looking up. As her neck craned forward, Matt could see tiny gold hairs sticking up along the exposed length of her spine.

He watched her for some time.

Barbara’s dessert was now a dirty yellowish mush. She looked at it, disgusted, as if seeing it for the first time. In one agile movement, she sprang to her feet, left the bowl on the
floor, and made for the door. Everyone looked up to watch her leave.

Matt studied Justin’s face. He could see the conflict there as Justin’s eyes followed Barbara out of the room. He obviously wanted to go after her, but to do so would mean abandoning
his guests and acknowledging that the pleasant convention of the dinner party had been irretrievably shattered.

Matt watched Justin reluctantly turn back. Social obligation had won out. He offered them seconds.

Matt made his decision quickly. There wasn’t much time to think about it. He pulled his phone out of his jacket pocket as if feeling it vibrate, and squinted in exaggerated puzzlement at
the screen. When Justin asked if he wanted more tart, he waited several seconds to reply, his attention seemingly focused on the message.

‘No, thanks,’ he said. ‘I’d better just deal with this.’

Matt kept his eye on the screen as he left the room, and pulled the door shut behind him.

At first he thought he was too late. The hall was empty. Then the bedroom door opened and Barbara came out, a big canvas bag slung over her shoulder. She was startled to notice Matt waiting for
her.

He gave a concerned smile. ‘Are you OK?’ he asked.

‘I’m fine.’ Her tone was curt.

‘Good. I just wanted to check that everything was all right.’

‘Yes.’

He looked at her for a moment, noticing how the canvas strap cut across the edge of her left breast, forcing it inwards slightly.

But he could tell the silent interaction was making her increasingly uncomfortable. He gestured at the bag. ‘Going somewhere?’ he asked. ‘Because if you’re popping out to
get us kebabs, don’t let me stop you.’

There was a long silence. She didn’t react in any way. He knew it was a gamble, but he thought he had judged the odds correctly. Matt let his eyes drift up from the bag to meet hers.
Finally, despite a clear effort not to, she gave the ghost of a smile back at him.

‘Sorry. Cheap crack, I know.’ He raised his hands in apology. ‘But I’ve got to say, it was a pretty impressive scene you made in there.’

‘Yeah?’

‘Absolutely.’ Matt couldn’t read her tone, so he pushed on. ‘Unforgettable, I’d say.’

‘I feel kind of stupid.’

‘There’s no need. Really. Crazy, maybe, but not stupid.’

She smiled a little more this time. ‘You don’t think I was being a bit of a brat?’

‘No. It was riveting. It certainly beat listening to Rosie and Marcus talk about office politics.’

‘I did pretty much wreck the evening, though.’

‘I wouldn’t say so. I’ve never seen Charlotte look so happy.’

Barbara looked troubled. Matt moved on.

‘Tell me, though, why did you do it?’

Barbara was looking at the floor. ‘I don’t know.’

‘Really?’

Barbara thought about it. ‘I guess I just felt that I needed to. Sounds dumb, doesn’t it?’

‘No, no, I understand.’

‘You do?’

‘Sure. Sometimes you have to be direct about what you want. A bit of bluntness and, well, other people might get bruised, but at least they know where they stand.’

‘You reckon?’

‘Yes. The alternative is that you hang around getting caught up in what other people want, what they expect of you, and after a while it starts to choke you.’

‘Yes,’ Barbara said quietly.

‘Definitely,’ Matt said with great firmness. ‘As long as you know what you want.’ A pause stretched out between them. ‘But you do, right?’ Matt said.

Barbara adjusted the strap of her bag with both hands. Matt knew it couldn’t be long before Justin cracked and came out. He might as well go for it.

He gestured at the bag again. ‘So where are you going?’

‘I don’t know,’ Barbara said.

Matt nodded and counted to three.

‘Look,’ he said. ‘Don’t take this the wrong way, but it seems like you need to get out of here, clear your head for a bit. So, if you want to, to give yourself a bit of
space, you could come and stay at mine.’

She didn’t react, and that was good. She was thinking about it. Matt counted another slow three seconds before he went on.

‘As a friend, of course,’ he clarified. ‘I hope you don’t think I’m being inappropriate. It just seems like you need a bit of time to think things through.
I’ve got a very good sofa bed, I’m at work all day, and you can have some time on your own.’

Slowly, Barbara picked her gaze off the floor and looked him in the eye. He couldn’t read what was there. Her face seemed completely blank. Confusion, maybe, or just exhaustion.

She shrugged. ‘OK.’

The door to the living room creaked open. Justin looked at them with a faint sense of worry.

‘Everything OK?’ he asked.

‘Yes,’ Matt said.

Justin remained there, in the doorway, his eyes flicking anxiously from one to the other, and settling on Barbara’s bag.

‘Barbara was just showing me where the bedroom lights are,’ Matt said. ‘She said I could go in there to make a phone call.’

‘Oh right.’ Justin began to move. ‘Nothing serious, I hope?’

‘No, I don’t think so.’

‘Right, then. I’m just going to put the kettle on for some tea. Would you like some? Or some coffee?’

‘No, thank you.’ Matt smiled.

Justin nodded and disappeared into the kitchen.

Matt pulled the front door quietly shut behind them.

Twenty-four

Barbara had to pause on the landing to feel in the dark for the light switch. In the quiet stillness she felt violently conscious of the jostling of thoughts in her head and
the strange taste in her mouth. Her fingers found the switch and clicked it on. The sausage had been much stickier than she’d expected; a lingering meaty sweetness still coated her tongue
with warm, slimy fat. It was unsettling. She couldn’t tell if it was nauseating or delicious. She could make no sense either of the weird sluice of emotions passing through her body.

But at least she was feeling something, then doing something because of it. Getting out of the pitiful lethargy she’d sunk into. What a shitty week. She’d been angry with herself for
being so pathetic, but she couldn’t find a way to shake it off.

She started with Matt down the grubby stairwell. It wasn’t planned. None of it was planned. The idea of eating the sausage had just presented itself in front of her, like ideas for making
things used to do. It seemed so solid.

She didn’t know if Charlotte was right about the ethics. That didn’t matter. The act was provocative. That was what was important. That was where art began, right?

So she’d eaten it. Just to see what it felt like. And it had worked. She couldn’t describe it, but it was definitely something. There were bad things in there – guilt,
self-disgust. She still didn’t really want to eat meat. But it was different. That was enough for the moment.

And now here she was, beneath the unforgiving fluorescent light in the hall, squeezed up against the wall by Matt’s bulk as he opened the front door. He stepped back to let her go through
first and she stepped awkwardly round him into the cool night air.

That was a surprise too. But she hadn’t been shocked when he said it. It made sense. She couldn’t stay there, go back into that room and pretend to make conversation. Maybe this
wasn’t the right thing to do. But it was different. Was it sharks that had to keep moving or die? That was how she felt.

Matt walked alongside her. She still wasn’t really looking him in the eye, but under the softer light of the street lamps she felt more at ease. The night was clear, and Barbara could see
a couple of stars piercing the orange glow. She shivered. Matt offered her his jacket and she took it.

‘If we walk towards the main road, we can probably get a taxi,’ he said. ‘I’d call one but it might take a while out here.’

She nodded. As they walked on, she looked at Matt sideways, as if noticing who she was with for the first time. He was a big guy, clearly direct, and most people would say he was pretty hot.
Barbara wasn’t sure. There was something about the line of his jaw that she couldn’t find attractive. But he was responsive, even if he was too obviously trying to say the right
thing.

And he wasn’t Justin. That was probably key here, she thought. Justin always tried to say the right thing too, but in a completely different way.

The turbulent whirl of half-formed emotions got faster. Barbara tried to back away from it. Not now. One thing at a time. She did love Justin, in many ways. He was well meaning, kind, committed,
never demanding.

She had needed that, when she had arrived. He didn’t ask anything of her, always deferred to whatever she wanted. The thing was, he didn’t realize how annoying that could be. He
could be passionate sometimes, sure, but when that happened Barbara always felt she was an extension of his work. The rest of the time, he was always trying to placate her.

It was almost like he was scared of her. Like she was some sort of exotic creature he could never hope to understand, but only try not to provoke. It was like when she’d first asked him
out. He’d been stunned, and embarrassed, hardly able to stammer out a ‘yes’. Some Englishmen liked to affect that sort of Hugh Grant awkwardness as a disguise for lust. Justin
wasn’t like that.

Matt wasn’t like that either. He didn’t disguise it at all. Barbara was clear-eyed enough to know what he was aiming at. All that ‘as a friend’ stuff was just meant to
make it harder for her to say no. But what was her aim? She didn’t know. Yes, she did. To get out of there. She’d done that now. She could deal with the rest of it later.

They crossed the street. Leaving behind the long terrace of Victorian cottages on one side, they passed into the shadow of the cliff-like housing estate that lined the other side of the road,
then turned into the High Road. A low gully of grimy neon stretched away towards Stoke Newington, selling fried chicken to men in tracksuits and the occasional straggling reveller.

Barbara suddenly realized she would miss the surly squalor of London if she left, the way aggression was kept in check by indifference. She still had the option of appeal. Justin’s
solicitor friend had said she could have a good case. But even when she had talked about it with Justin, Barbara knew she had no stomach for fighting to stay in the country. Leaving would be easier
now anyway. She wouldn’t need to explain herself to anyone. She stared down the road as the 76 bus went past, seeing the details as she did when she had first arrived. The small, uneven
paving squares of the sidewalk, edged with those beautiful dimpled kerbstones, weathered and faded to a smooth, pinkish grey, like granite by the seashore. Even the wobbly trajectory of the double
yellow lines, spindly streaks of yellow guarding the dark asphalt.

Matt craned up and down the road looking for a taxi, while Barbara watched the ebb and flow of the street. A man in a white puffa jacket threw a half-eaten kebab into the gutter. It burst out of
its orange plastic box, spraying heavy chunks of sauce-coated lettuce under the wheels of a bus.

It wasn’t too late to go back. Matt had ducked into a minicab office and was negotiating with a fat man behind the stripped-pine counter. She could just turn round, walk back into the
flat, go to bed. Maybe she would feel different tomorrow. They could listen to the radio, go for a walk in Abney Park and perhaps in the evening she could work on her appeal. There was still
time.

Matt came out of the office and a tatty Ford Mondeo estate cruised round from a side street. He opened the door. Barbara hesitated a moment, then stepped into the dark, cocooning warmth. It
smelled strongly of peppermint.

From: Rosie and Stephen

To: Dinner at Mine

Sent: 23.34

Subject: Dinner

Dear Justin (and Barbara),

Thank you so much for dinner. I’m sorry we had to leave so soon. As we explained, we got an urgent call from the babysitter about Jonathan.
Fortunately, when we got home everything was fine.

We both really enjoyed the stew. It made such a nice change to have something without meat in it. I’m glad that you like tamarind so much – I hope you gave us
extra points when we served it to you! The aubergine starter was quite nice. Stephen enjoyed it. I found it a little heavy and bland, I’m afraid. I have to confess that I had rather lost
my appetite by the time you served pudding, although I’m sure it was delicious.

I don’t know if we’re meant to mark you on the sausage. Stephen said it wasn’t of a very high quality, so let’s not.

You were certainly a very welcoming host, although I don’t see how I can avoid taking off marks for a dinner party without a table. Also there were a couple of
moments of tension which made it awkward for us, as I’m sure you noticed. I’m sorry to say that you lose points there as well. So it’s six out of ten. Make it six and a half.
I hope Barbara will be back soon.

Yours,

Rosie and Stephen

From: Charlotte Wells

To: Dinner at Mine

Sent: 23.54


What happened there, then? Buggered if I know. I was almost tempted to stick around and see if she came back. But see, Rosie, I took the hint like a
good girl! (Did you lot believe that line about the babysitter? No, me neither.) Anyway: fucking great. No, seriously, Barbara, wherever you are: genius. Most satisfying sausage I ever had.
Woah, not like that! I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again, but always remember: the sausage was great. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Particularly not Justin.
Sorry, veg-man. Anyway, you should be grateful. Frankly, the meal was going to get a pretty crap score otherwise. But that was just brilliant. The look on Justin’s face! It made it even
more delicious. Screw the rest of it, for me it was all about the sausage. Full marks.

Score: 10

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From: Marcus Thompson

To: Dinner at Mine

Sent: 00.36

Subject: Dinner scores

The aubergine cheesecake idea was a good one, even if the mixture had not been whipped enough to give it the fluffiness the concept demanded. However,
the overall meal plan was unbalanced. It began with a dish that was too heavy, and that brought out the watery, bloating aspect of the stew. The tart was certainly a mistake after
that.

The chickpea stew worked well enough within its limitations, but it would have benefited from an extra, thicker flavour to firm it up a bit. The chard was over-boiled (if
it had been me, I would simply have stirred it in at the end), and I found that very disappointing. A vegetarian should at least be able to cook vegetables properly.

On the plus side, the salad was simple, fresh and effective. The contrast in textures between the chewiness of the grain and the crunchy radish was pleasing. What a pity
about the soggy rice, though.

The problem with the tart was that it was too sweet. A lemon tart should never be too sweet. There was no sourness at all. It just wasn’t – and I’m sorry
but this is the word I want – very tart.

I didn’t try the sausages, but I doubt they would have improved your score.

Score: 6

Marcus

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From: Matthew Phillips

To: Dinner at Mine

Sent: 00.37

Subject: Dinner with Justin and Barbara: Assessment

Comments:

Food:

Starter: Good idea (aubergine cheesecake). Effectively done.

Main Course: Interesting range of ingredients. Chard not to my taste. Somewhat watery.

Salad: Satisfactory.

Sausage: Very welcome.

Dessert: Pleasurable. Good sweetness. Lacking any marks of excellence.

Wine: Substandard, even for Fairtrade. Variety unknown.

Hosting:

– Effort: Strong.

– Conversation: Lively, animated at times.

– Ambience: Tense but pleasing.

– Outcome: Excellent.

Scores:

Starter: 8

Main: 7

Salad: 7

Sausage: 9

Dessert: 8

Wine: 6

Hosting: 10

Overall average: 7

Matthew Phillips

Barrister

New Green Chambers

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