Death Wish (8 page)

The door sucked shut behind him. Marilyn the receptionist, who was a matronly twenty-six-year-old brunette with the suggestion of a double chin, did a double-take that contrived to combine in one expression amazement, pleasure and sympathy. “Why Mr. Benjamin!” she chirped. “How nice!” Then she remembered; her face changed with comic abruptness. “Oh we were all so
fright
fully sorry to hear … Poor Mrs. Benjamin … It must have been just
ter
rible for you——”

He nodded and muttered something and hurried through the corridor door before she could take a notion to suffocate him protectively against her big soft bosom.

He went along to Sam Kreutzer's office and got a similar reception from Sam's secretary; when he went into the office Dundee was with Sam. They were both effusive; it was a while before he could get a word in. “I was getting cabin fever. Thought I'd come back to work. I'm probably not much good for anything yet but it might help just to sit there and push papers around.”

“I think you're dead right,” Dundee said. “At least you'll have some friendly faces for company.”

He steadied himself against the banal predictability of their throat-clearing and face-rearranging. Sam said, “Hell, Paul.”

Dundee gripped his arm with one hand and patted his shoulder with the other. “It always takes a while, fella, but we're all a hundred percent with you. Anything you need, anything at all.…”

“It's okay, Bill.” He endeavored to lighten things: “Actually, Sam, if that invitation's still open, the one thing I think I really need more than anything else is a square meal. I've been living on frozen food—TV dinners that taste like reruns.”

He wasn't sure if he imagined it: the briefest discomfiture on Sam's face? But a smile chased it away. “You bet, Paul. I'll call herself and tell her to set a place.”

It bothered him: was Sam really chagrined? Did he feel it would be awkward? Maybe Paul shouldn't have asked.…

“I know exactly what you mean,” Dundee was saying. “That time Anne was in the hospital, the kids all away at school—I was never so happy as when she got home and on her feet again. I suppose it makes me a male chauvinist pig, but I swear to God they bulk that frozen dreck with sawdust and cast-iron filings.”

A smell was bothering Paul; sicksweet and thick. He finally ascertained it was Dundee's barber-shave.

Dundee's smile had gone rigid—as if he had jut realized his anecdote had been misplaced. Anne had come home from the hospital after her operation. Esther would never come home again. It was what Dundee was thinking: he always wore his thoughts on his face: and Paul couldn't think of a way to dispel Dundee's guilt without making things even more tedious and awkward than they were already. The best thing to do was overlook it, pretend he was oblivious to it, press on. He said as quickly as he could, “I began to get the very distinct feeling things around here were starting to fall apart in my absence. So I have returned. Partly to see whose fingers I might catch in the cookie jar”—a laugh, too loud and hearty, from Dundee—“and partly to start undoing all the damage you guys must have been doing to my clients' affairs.”

Sam Kreutzer said, “As a matter of fact we were talking over one of your clients just now when you came in. Nemserman. Son of a bitch really got his tail caught in a crack, didn't he.”

“Has he been bugging you?”

“He calls every day or two, wanting to know how soon you'll be back in harness. He told me to convey his sympathies, by the way.”

Paul wondered if that was true. He doubted it; Nemserman lacked that brand of consideration. Probably Sam had made it up on the spur of the moment because it was something that ought to be said.

Dundee said, “I talked to him yesterday—Sam was out when he called. He must've been calling from some bookie joint—the background noise was unbelievable.”

“What'd he have to say?”

“Number one, when was Paul Benjamin going to quit sitting on his ass and get back to work. I'm quoting more or less verbatim. Number two, he seems to have learned a lesson—temporarily anyway—from getting stung on that unearned income he thought was a capital gain. He instructed his broker to double-check back with him for six-month spans every time he takes a notion to sell a block of stock. Number three, he said this problem has brought to mind another difficulty and he wanted to discuss it.”

“And did he?”

“Well, yes. I don't mean to get sly with your clients, Paul—I've put all of them off, I'm not trying to steal your people away from you. But Nemserman's been hot under the collar for the past week. I finally broke down and gave him the advice he was looking for.”

“Advice about what?”

“Well, he's got a suitcase full of blue-chips he's had for a thousand years. I mean he's been holding some of the damn things since Roosevelt's first administration.”

“Franklin,” Sam Kreutzer said drily, “or Teddy?”

Dundee said, “If he sells the things now, of course, he'll have to pay a whopping capital gains tax on the increment. Some of those things have gone up in the past forty years, counting splits and stock dividends, from ten dollars to six hundred dollars. He was desperate to find a way to avoid paying out all that loot.”

“What'd you tell him?”

“Told him to establish some trusts and sink the stocks into the trusts. Then just hang on to them. If he keeps them until he dies they'll pass on to his heirs, and the heirs can sell it without paying capital gains tax. And if he puts the stocks in trust for his heirs, it'll help get around some of the estate taxes.”

Dundee was talking too much and too fast. Paul tried to set him at ease. “That's exactly what I'd have told him, Bill. Don't worry about it. I don't think he'll take your advice anyway, but at least he won't be able to complain later that we fouled him up.”

Sam Kreutzer said, “Why won't he do it?”

“Far as I know he's only got two heirs—a sister and a nephew—and he hates their guts.”

“Then why doesn't he set up a charitable foundation?”

“I've been trying to talk him into that for years. He keeps saying he'll get around to it. He never will. Hasn't got a charitable bone in his body.”

“So he'll leave it all to two people he hates, and let the Government grab most of it on inheritance taxes. Well, I doubt he gives a damn what happens to it after he's dead. It's all monopoly money to guys like Nemserman. It's the way they keep score in the games they play. Once Nemserman dies and the game ends, who cares what happens to the chips?”

Dundee said, “I wish I could afford to look at it that way.”

Paul settled into a chair. “Maybe he's right. There are times I'm convinced there's nothing more to existence in this world than a black desert where blind people pick up rocks and grope around to kill one another.”

He hadn't meant to get onto that; it had been on the back of his tongue and he had let it slip out. When he saw how they reacted to it he regretted having spoken. Dundee was suddenly busy trying to find a neutral corner on which to settle his attention and Sam Kreutzer fixed his stare against the knot of Paul's necktie and said, “Well sure, Paul, I guess we know how you feel. I imagine things will look a little less bleak to you as time goes by.”

“I doubt it,” Paul said—evenly, without force; he didn't want to get into a heated dispute but he felt there were things inside him that needed airing. “Remember that piece in the Sunday
Times Magazine
? We read those things all the time but we don't really buy them. You don't believe these things actually happen—not until they happen to you personally.”

“You can't blame people, Paul. They're exposed to it night and day—they get jaded with it. It's like crying ‘wolf'—people hear about crime in the streets so often and so regularly that it ceases to have any meaning for them. And maybe that's a good thing. We all need some kind of defense mechanism—otherwise we'd all be stark raving mad.”

Carol
.…

Deliberately he forced himself forward. “Sam, it's got to have some kind of effect when you read how even seeing-eye dogs are having nervous breakdowns from the strain of living in this city. They're knifing policemen right in the precinct squad rooms—doesn't it
mean
something that in the city of New York you can't walk into some police stations without ringing the doorbell and waiting to be buzzed in?”

“Why do you think we're trying to find a place to live outside the city?” Sam's implication was clear.

“Maybe that's the answer, I don't know. Maybe—maybe Esther would still be.…”

“Oh Christ, Paul, try to take it easy, will you?”

“I'm all right. I'm not about to break down all over your carpet, Sam. It's just that I've been doing a lot of reconsidering these last few days. It's not easy to realize that you just may have dedicated a good part of your life to a group of causes that turn out to be dead wrong.”

Sam shook his head. “I can't believe that, Paul—and neither will you when you've had time to settle down and put this vicious thing behind you.”

The conversation wasn't continued until that evening because Paul's reply was cut off by the arrival in Sam's office of Henry Ives, the senior partner. “Marilyn told us you'd come in. Glad to see you, Paul—glad to see you.”

Paul shook the knobby old hand. The rigidity of Ives's coin-slot mouth was a clue to his unease. “I can't tell you how sorry we all are over this terrible thing, Paul—sorry and angry. Angry right down to the soles of my feet, to tell you the truth. The fact that our so-called public servants allow these things to happen and keep allowing them to happen over and over again”—he drew a shuddering long breath to continue—“it's a source of bitter shame to all of us, Paul. Do they know anything about these hoodlums? I understand they haven't caught them yet. A disgrace, an utter disgrace.”

The shift in topics almost caught Paul unawares; once Ives launched into a set-piece speech he almost invariably continued at length until it had run its course: Ives held himself with the religious fervor of the passionate egoist and all his posturings and attitudes were long and well rehearsed.

“No,” Paul said, “they haven't turned them up yet. They're still working on it. I've been keeping in touch with the police. They do have one or two leads.”

“Well by God they'd better act on them. I understand it was a group of young ones—teen-age thugs, is that right?”

“Apparently so.”

“A disgrace,” Ives said again, and held up a finger as if to forestall an interruption, which no one had offered. “These young scum grow up in a welfare state where they see that violence goes unpunished and the old virtues are for stupid pious fools. What can we expect of them that's any better than this random vicious despair? These radicals keep arsenals in their attics and advocate the overthrow of an economic system which has graduated more people out of poverty than any other system in history. They arm themselves to attack honest hard-working citizens like you and me, and to shoot down beleaguered policemen, and what happens? The public is propagandized into outrage over the behavior of the police in defending themselves and the public!”

Behind Ives's back Sam and Dundee were exchanging bemused glances of tolerant patience; their occasional nods and affirmative grunts were not quite patronizing enough to alert the old man.

Things went on in their peculiarly arcane fashion, as if nothing ever changed; and perhaps nothing
had
changed for Henry Ives and the others. For Paul everything was different; the shape and color of the world was changed completely from what it had been.

That night across the dinner table he said to Sam, “We're all born into this society congenitally naive, you know. And those of us who don't outgrow it become the liberals.”

“Oh now wait a minute, Paul, you can't——”

“But I can. I most certainly can. Who has a better right than I do?”

It was a question to which neither Sam nor Adele chose to reply.

“It came to me a little while ago what we really are, we liberals. We demand reforms, we want to improve the situation of the underprivileged—why? To make them better off materially? Nuts. It's only to make ourselves feel less guilty. We rend our garments, we're eager to show how willing we are to accept any outrageous demand so long as it's black, or youthful, or put by someone who thinks he's got a grievance. We want to appease everybody—you know what a liberal is? A liberal is a guy who walks out of the room when the fight starts.”

“I think,” Adele Kreutzer said in a light let's-clear-the-air tone, “we are witnessing the right-wing radicalization of Paul Benjamin.” She had a strong voice; it went with her long narrow jaw. She was thin and dark and wore a faint aura of self-mocking melancholy. “Of course it's true there's no way to go on living in New York. The kind of bastards who do these awful things can only survive in cities like this—put them out in a country village and the exposure would be instantly fatal. There'd be no place for them to hide.”

“You may be right,” Paul said. “But I'm not sure running away is the only answer.”

“I can think of another one,” Sam said, and when he had both their attention he continued complacently: “Drop a ten-megaton nuke with the Empire State Building at ground zero.”

“He's got it,” Adele said gaily, “by George he's got it!”

Their clowning was weak but it made its point. For the rest of the evening Paul eschewed the subject but he found it hard to keep his mind on anything else; there were chunks of time when he let their conversation pass him by.

He left early, planning to be home by ten-thirty so that he could call Jack. The Kreutzers seemed relieved to see him go; it would be a while, he thought, before they invited him again.