Authors: Charlie Price
Dead Girl Moon
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In memory of Tony Pusateri, who set the mark for graciousness and generosity
CONTENTS
G
RACE LOVED A SONG
called Dreamtrails by Dirty Mittens. The music haunted, the lyrics told her story. Walking a highway of dreams, every guy, every girl with her own, as fragile as porcelain, as powerful as hate.
Grace wanted to be untouchable, independent, in charge of her own life.
Mick wanted a real home, a real town, a real team, and a girl to share it.
JJ wanted the moon. And Mick.
The dead girl wanted glamour and attention, really, if she’d admit it, wanted Hollywood and movie stars. Instead, she got naked and stiff in a river.
Grace didn’t think anyone got what they deserved. Except possibly Gary, but that was pretty harsh deserts. Who knew? Maybe in a few years they’d look back on this and say they learned something. Maybe. Or maybe they’d just be glad they lived through it. But the murder, the kidnapping, the things she’d done … those had left Grace rethinking her options.
Maybe college.
Wouldn’t it be funny if she became a cop?
1
A
T THREE IN THE MORNING
, when everyone else is asleep, you can hear your brother’s lungs expanding. You can smell the rum and cola on his breath. If your eyes are used to the dark, it’s surprising how well you can see. The crinkles in his ear. Sideburns, acne lumps on his cheeks. The edge of his hairline where you’re going to plant the hammer. How hard will you have to swing it to break through and still pull it out again?
Grace lowered it to her side and let it move back and forth to get a sense of its momentum, raised it shoulder high and rotated her wrist in a short arc to gauge its heft. Calculated. A medium-hard swing and the weight of the tool should mash through the bone into the goo. He was passed out on his favorites: booze and Oxy. He wouldn’t wake. Wouldn’t make a sound.
The second brother would be harder to kill. She’d probably have to get him in the bathroom. Before too long he would come home stoned and go in to pee before he went to bed. So Grace would hide behind the door. Smash him in the back of the head, low, base of the skull. Even if he lived, he’d be a zucchini.
And then? No more gang rapes in the Canby house. No more two-on-one late at night when the parents were blitzed and snoring. And, when Mom and Dad were gone for hours taking Caitlin to a soccer match, no more bringing the buds in to play wrestlemania. Caitlin? She’d never have to fight and lose and feel … she’d never have to go through what was making Grace a murderer.
Two-handed, she was thinking. Didn’t want the thing to slip. She raised both arms. Hesitated. A breath to get ready. Found herself looking at the world map on his far wall. Lowered the hammer. What if she just left? Just left for good. Took all the cash in the house. Her brother’s stash in his sock drawer, her mom’s folding money in the purse on the breakfast counter. Emptied her dad’s wallet that was sitting on the top of his dresser. Left and never came back.
It was a good idea.
Starting in sixth grade, her older brothers, eighth and ninth graders, got on her and wouldn’t get off. Nights after her folks went to bed. The boys told her they’d hurt Caitlin if she said anything. Grace stayed quiet, fought them. The more she fought, the better they liked it. Finally she told her mom.
Her mother, several drinks into the evening and tired from another day’s pressure cooker at the advertising agency, went in and gave the boys a lecture. A lecture! And then forgot about it. Thanks, huh? When the boys reached high school, they began bringing their friends into the mix.
If she killed her brothers, she knew what would happen. Her mother would blame her. Grace would go to jail. Exchange one maggot life for another.
* * *
After you ease the screen door shut, it’s easy to walk out of the neighborhood at four in the morning. Dark clothes. Stay near the trees and shadows if anyone drives by. But don’t run into some insomniac doofus walking his poodle. Main streets are harder, more police cruising, so use the alleys when you can. The freeway ramp? Find one a few blocks south near the warehouses where trucks will be rolling. Got to wait near the entrance, near cover, so you don’t get surprised by a patrol car. Thank god for the bushy oleanders. Cover blond hair with a ball cap. Jeans and denim jacket. Tennies. A boy? Right? Flip the brim to the back and you’re ready.
* * *
Grace thumbed a refrigerator rig before dawn.
The guy was eager for company, talked nonstop. Wife problems. Didn’t make Grace for a girl.
Grace could feel her energy draining but the guy took an exit. Roused her, surprised her. Highway 37. Grace relaxed again. He was going north to 5. She didn’t want her voice to give her away. Made it deep. “Sacramento?”
“Citrus to a bunch of independents,” he says, eyes on the road. “Redding in about four hours, Weed—other side of Mount Shasta—in six.”
Weed. That made Grace smile. Majorette, B student, gone to Weed. Off the grid. They’d never find her.
* * *
By the time they pulled into the docking bay at Bounty Food in Weed she wasn’t so sure. The police would check bus stations, put out a bulletin north and south on 5 figuring she might be hitching. The grocery store was on an intersection: Business 5 and Highway 97 north. She caught a ride with a younger guy driving a flat rig up 97 into Oregon.
He tipped to her early on. “Pretty risky. A girl on the road.” He sized her up while they climbed the long grade out of town.
Grace shifted a little so he couldn’t get such a clear profile.
“How old are you?”
Don’t ask her how she knows, but she knows where this is going. Reached for her pack between her feet. Put it in her lap.
“I got time,” he says, “and fifty bucks for a little affection.”
Grace ignored him.
He slowed and took a turnout bordered by fir, brought the truck to a stop. Undid his seat belt.
Grace found the door handle. When he leaned toward her, she jerked the hammer out of her pack. Watched his eyes widen. She was out the door before he could move.
Before dark she was on another refrigerator truck. This one going nonstop to 395 and Spokane, Washington. The driver, a quiet older man with a picture of his middle-aged wife and six or seven kids magnet-stuck to his dash. He doesn’t say two words the whole trip. Pulls off for a nap outside of Pasco. Grace slept like she was in a coma.
2
T
HE
S
POKANE BUS STATION
is downtown, one block off 395. The trucker is going to a warehouse farther north.
He stopped, let Grace off on the corner. Spokane was cold beyond what she’d known in California. The bus station was poorly lit and full of people in shabby coats, carrying cheap suitcases. Here and there a kid with a duffel, probably heading to college or back to the army.
Grace sat on a wooden bench next to a woman wearing layers of clothes, a striped serape over head and shoulders. Mexican? South American? A long way from home.
Time to take stock. She had two complete changes of clothes but no warmer jacket. She’d find a heavier wrap at the Salvation Army. She had almost three hundred dollars in cash. Enough for meals and at least a week in a bare-bones hotel.
An hour’s exploration told her she was wrong. Only enough money for three days if she wanted to travel at the end. And she did, by bus. Wanted to disappear. Away from the I-5 Corridor, so she’d go east. She asked around. Heard: “Missoula’s cool. University stuff happening all the time.” And Billings, “Biggest city. Lots of business. Two colleges.” Both good towns, large enough to have jobs, opportunities. “Take Interstate 90.”
The day she left, she picked a newspaper off the bench while she waited. Read that a girl named Grace Herrick had been killed in a car accident coming back from a party. Good enough. From now on she would be Grace Herick, drop one “r” so nobody could bust her alias. Get new ID wherever she landed.
She bought a ticket to Missoula under that name. There were two buses waiting in the parking bays. Grace avoided people. Didn’t want to be remembered. Waited to board until the driver was distracted putting a heavy suitcase in the luggage bin. Went down the aisle to the back, covered her head, wouldn’t surface until she felt motion. At the outskirts of Sandpoint, the driver announced the town name and the final destination, Calgary, Canada. That can’t be right.
She moved to the front and asked the driver about options. If you take the wrong bus? There weren’t many. No bus station in Sandpoint. Even if there were, the ticket back to Spokane and on to Billings costs more than she has left. The driver told her Highway 200 would get her to Missoula, let her out at the intersection.
She’d hitch. She made it easily around the top of Lake Pend Oreille but her luck ran out past the Montana border. She was stranded outside someplace called Heron for hours and then got a ragtag series of short rides in ranch pickups. Each guy warning her: Don’t do this. Too dangerous.
After dark it got pretty chilly. She found an empty barn near the highway. Next day, a woman in a GMC towing a horse trailer let her out by the hardware store in Portage, Montana. Grace was almost broke. Didn’t want to risk another night out in the mountain cold. Inside the hardware store, a cashier told her Social Services was two blocks up, one block over, black-and-white sign out front.
Grace had been to civic buildings back home in Marin County for parking tickets and registrations. Didn’t like them. Remembered they were sterile, impersonal, but she was broke now. Looking for help. The lobby fit her picture. Antiseptic, worn gray linoleum, metal folding chairs along one wall with magazine-strewn end tables on either side.
A dumpy middle-aged woman wearing a headset looked up from something she was reading. “Help you?”
“I need work and a place to stay,” Grace said, wishing she’d checked herself in a bathroom mirror before she started this, knew she looked like she’d been jumping trains. The woman half stood and leaned over her counter, appraising. “Runaway?” she asked, pursing her lips.